Inferior by Nature

On the island, I lost my memory at that time, and I didn't know my love for Ran Qingzhuang. I did many things that were disguised as redemption, but in fact I was deeply in love, and I exposed my heart without any suspense.

Ran Qingzhuang kept rejecting me at first, and warned me repeatedly not to have delusions about him until I got involved in his mission.

At that time, whether he was more moved by me, or the suspension bridge effect, or both, no one can tell now, I think even he himself may not be able to tell the difference.

However, this sudden passion is destined not to last long.Thinking about it this way, maybe his indifference these days is not because I blame me for being nosy, but because the misplaced emotion has returned to its place, and what looks like love has disappeared.He is slowly regaining his senses and distanced himself from me again.

But just like many psychological diseases, it takes time to heal, and it also needs a little chance. It cannot be stimulated, and it is easy to repeat once stimulated.

Originally, he had already walked over half of the bridge, and if there were no accidents, he estimated that he would be able to completely walk out of this crumbling bridge in ten days and a half months.As a result, at this time, a Zhao Yaojin came out, stopped him at the head of the bridge, and kicked him back into the bridge.

The dangerous bridge is in trouble again.Why on earth did I abandon him and choose Mega?Is Zhaofeng more important than him in my heart?These problems originated from the heart disease eight years ago, and also from the only remaining, illusory illusion.

Is there any comparison between Zhaofeng and Ran Qingzhuang?

I have nothing against Zhaofeng, and I respect him a lot, but he really has nothing to compare with Ran Qingzhuang.

But can I just admit it?

cannot.Of course not.

So I held the doorknob, turned my back to Ran Qingzhuang and said, "You and him are both my friends, no one is more important than the other, in my heart, you are the same."

There was another silence behind him.

"I'm the same as him..." Ran Qingzhuang muttered, and sneered, as if he thought it was ridiculous, but also seemed unable to accept that I put Zhaofeng alongside him.

I resisted the urge to turn around, gritted my teeth and said, "Yes, it's all the same, I will do for him what I do for you." After speaking, I opened the door and quickly walked into the room, and ran upstairs in one breath, afraid that Ran Qingzhuang I also need to get to the bottom of it and ask questions that I have trouble answering.

Since then, the relationship between me and Ran Qingzhuang has become even colder, except for meals.Sometimes, in order not to sit at the same table with me, he would deliberately go out to smoke before the meal, and return to the house after I finished the meal.

Torn off the connection with him was far more painful than I imagined.

The thread from the heart that was originally connected to Ran Qingzhuang was now connected to the flesh, and was pulled out dripping with blood.There was a piece missing there, and the pain continued, getting worse every day.

All the time, I suppress myself, not to see him, not to touch him, not to care about him.For a few moments, when lying in bed and having trouble falling asleep, I even looked forward to the last moment.

Wouldn't it be so hard to die?

Hurry up, I'm too tired and too hurt.

After a shower in summer, the scorching ground finally cooled down, and the body felt much more comfortable.

Yan Shuang came to Darong Village in the evening, stepped on the half-dried water, and rang the doorbell of the small building.

She sat at the dining table with Ran Qingzhuang and talked, and I boiled water and made tea for them behind the scenes.

This time, Yan Shuang brought the latest news about the Union Group case.

After a series of persuasion, Mrs. Jin has agreed to testify in court as a tainted witness in exchange for a peaceful life with her son.

Ou Kelan hooked up with the notorious foreign mafia family, and announced that whoever can avenge her mother will get a reward of 100 million US dollars.

Jin Chenyu is still in the hunt, there are always clues, but he is very cunning, he will not stay in one place for more than three days, and often finds a foothold and rushes to round up him, he has already been emptied.And just like playing with people, this kind of thing happened again and again, which made the police hate their teeth.

"The chief will award you with honors. The ceremony will not be public or public. When you finish your testimony in court and the case is over, we will give you a new identity and a new name..."

Give Yan Shuang a cup of brewed tea, and Ran Qingzhuang a cup. Hearing this, he couldn't help interjecting: "Can't he... go back and continue to be a policeman?"

Yan Shuang thanked me, and patiently explained: "That's too dangerous, and the goal is too big. Although we announced to the public that the youngest is dead, once the court opens, the news will leak out. It's a crime to betray the society and betray the brothers." Even if you are not a member of the Union Group, you can get it and punish him."

After listening in a daze, I went to look at Ran Qingzhuang's face.He lowered his eyes, staring at the tea leaves suspended in the teacup, his face was calm, without any reaction, obviously he knew not only now, but even in the long future, he would continue to live like this forever.Live in isolation and be protected.

This is the price that must be paid for eradicating the huge tree of the Jin family. Presumably, he had already thought about these things clearly before becoming an undercover agent...

"Not only Ran Qingzhuang, we have also arranged a new identity for you, and at the same time we will send people to protect your family in the dark." Maybe want to comfort me, Yan Shuang said, "You are relatively better. People won't take the initiative to provoke you."

Tattoos have become a life-saving talisman.Then if I stay with Ran Qingzhuang all the time, can I also protect him from some disasters?

But I'm going to die soon, and this skin will be worthless after I die.

I left the dining room with a heavy heart, glimpsed the knife block in the kitchen, and some bloody and terrible thoughts came to my mind darkly.

Could it be that I die...but the tattoo stays?

Stop, stop, no, this is too perverted.I shook my head, pushing the unformed thought out of my mind.

Even if I am willing, Ran Qingzhuang can't be willing, what am I thinking.

Yan Shuang left before dinner, and Ran Qingzhuang and I sent her to the door.

"By the way, the chief prosecutor will come over in a few days. I'll give you his contact information later. Remember to answer his call." She told Ran Qingzhuang.

"What's it called?" Ran Qingzhuang asked.

She opened the car door and got in the car, thought for a while and said, "Fu Ci. You can find him online."

Hearing this name, I couldn't help but "ah", Ran Qingzhuang looked at me: "You know me?"

I quickly waved my hand: "No, it's not counted as acquaintance, just met twice in the hospital."

This is too coincidental.

At night, I secretly searched the Internet, and I did find relevant information about Fu Ci.

Evil buster, tragic prosecutor, disabled and strong, reborn from the ashes... are all labels for him on the Internet.

Fu Ci suffered from heart disease since childhood and was physically weak, but with amazing perseverance, he still completed his studies and became an excellent prosecutor.He was never soft on criminals and always helped those in need.In the first 27 years of his life, although there were twists and turns, his career went smoothly, his love was happy, and he lived an enviable life.

But at the age of 27, everything went wild for the worst.Because he refused the prisoner's bribe, he was tampered with in the car.His fiancée had an accident while driving his car, and was rescued, but she never woke up again.

Ten years later, his fiancée died of multiple organ failure. Based on the organ donation agreement she signed when she was conscious, the doctor gave her heart to Fu Ci.

After ten years of ashes, he was reborn once.Fu Ci spent the whole last year recuperating in the hospital. When he was almost recovered, his superiors handed over Jin Feisheng's case to him as soon as he returned, which showed the expectations for him.

No matter Ran Qingzhuang or Fu Ci, each of them is really tough.It seems... no matter how much they lose, they will not shake their determination to fight for righteousness.

After reading Fu Ci's related reports, I was so upset that I couldn't sleep, so I wanted to go downstairs and pour some water.

When he got downstairs, he didn't expect that Ran Qingzhuang wasn't asleep either, and was doing push-ups in the middle of the living room with his upper body topless.I don't know how long it has been done, the fine sweat on his back is densely covered on his wheat-colored skin, and then condenses into bigger drops of sweat along the ups and downs of his muscles and falls to the ground.

Throat feels drier.

I licked my lips and turned to the kitchen.He took out the pre-chilled cold water from the refrigerator, gulped it down, and drank a whole glass, only then did he seem to suppress a little bit of the evil fire that was raging in his heart.

There was a sound from the door, I held the cup and looked over, Ran Qingzhuang came in after finishing his push-ups.

He walked towards me, steaming hot, with sweat all over his temples, and stretched out his hand towards me.I froze there, not daring to move, until the hand passed me and reached for the carafe on the counter.

"Still drinking?" he asked me.

When I get closer, I can even see the long and thin veins on his neck that are constantly disappearing and reappearing with the ups and downs of breathing. If I get closer, I should be able to smell the faint smell of sweat on his body.

"Don't drink anymore."

As soon as I finished speaking, the cup was snatched away by him.Without hesitation, he drank two large glasses of ice water in succession with my glass, and drank all the water in the jug.

"I'm going to the hospital tomorrow." After drinking, he wiped the water on his chin with the back of his hand.

I glanced at the tattoo residue with a little black trace left on his neck, and said, "Go to get the tattoo removed?"

The digital tattoo is the symbol of the Union Group, he is no longer an undercover agent, it is useless to keep it, and it is a shame to see it. Besides, this tattoo is not good for him to hide his whereabouts, so it should be removed sooner.

"0417, do these four numbers have any special meaning?" I was a little curious.

Ran Qingzhuang walked to the sink, turned on the tap, flushed the cup and said, "It's the date I joined them. Every day I look in the mirror, this number reminds me that I don't belong to them, and I have my own things to do."

From that day on, he became a lackey of the Jin family and put on a collar belonging to the Jin family.And this date is the electricity he put on his collar.Watch every day, be alert every day, make sure you are always awake, never forget who he was before that day, and why he came to Lion King Island.

"I'll go find Lin Sheng." Ran Qingzhuang turned off the water and gently put the cup aside, "I'll treat him to dinner, chat with him, and...renew our relationship with him."

The light in the kitchen was not turned on, and it was only illuminated by a little light in the living room, making it look dim.

"what do you think?"

My eyes blurred, I took a step back and leaned against the cooking table.The onset was not at the right time, and I couldn't see anything all of a sudden.

"That's good..." I was trapped in the darkness, my ears were buzzing, and the sound seemed far away.

It seemed that he finally understood who was the mosquito blood and who was the cinnabar mole.I am the only one left on this bridge.

This is good, very good.I'm happy for him that he's "recovering".

"Do you really think so?"

With my fingers firmly digging at the countertop behind me, I raised the corners of my lips and nodded vigorously: "Yeah."

There were no more voices from the other party in the darkness. After a while, the heavy and fast footsteps gradually faded away, leaving the kitchen. Soon, there was a loud sound of closing the door in the direction of the bathroom.

I stood quietly for a while, but still couldn't see, so I groped my way out of the kitchen.I was not used to the darkness, and it was very difficult for me to walk. When I reached the door, I accidentally tripped over a slightly higher threshold stone.

It hurts.

I sat on the ground, clutching my knocked palm, wondering if it was a broken bone, and almost shed tears from the pain.

Fortunately, it didn't take long before my eyes appeared a little bit of light perception, and soon my vision was restored.

Looking at the palm again, it was only scratched, not even a drop of blood flowed.

How did I become squeamish...

Sniffing, I got up from the ground, glanced at the bathroom with the sound of water, and went upstairs silently.