Inferior by Nature

It's like being caught sexually harassing.

I struggled with embarrassment, and defended myself in a low voice: "I didn't fumble, I just took a look..."

He seemed dissatisfied with my answer, he grabbed me even tighter and pulled the belt in front of him.I didn't know what he was going to do, I reflexively pushed in the opposite direction, and my feet resisted and stopped moving forward.

Seeing that he couldn't move me, he looked at me, didn't continue to push hard, and slowly let go of his hand after a while.

"I'll do the rest by myself, you go out."

Her lips were pursed, and she wanted to stay and help, but when she touched Ran Qingzhuang's exceptionally deep eyes, her throat was so tight that she couldn't utter a word.

I handed him the towel and walked out awkwardly.

The weather is getting hotter and hotter. I did a lot of work today and sweated a few times. When I washed Ran Qingzhuang's hair, my pants got a little wet. I simply went back to the second floor and took a shower myself.

After changing into fresh clothes, I walked out of the bathroom wiping my hair, and glanced at the phone that was still charging on the bedside table.I stopped in my tracks and stared at it from a distance. I stayed there for several minutes, maintaining the same posture and lost in thought.

Since it cannot be cut off, why procrastinate?What am I waiting for?

What shouldn't be mine is not mine.

I was a villain once before and felt guilty for eight years, but this time I can't take the guilt to the ground.

Although Lin Sheng wasn't very good, who would Ran Qingzhuang like?

If Ran Qingzhuang goes to him with the ring, I don't believe he can refuse.Impossible, non-existent, he didn't even think about it.

It doesn't matter if I feel aggrieved, as long as Ran Qingzhuang is happy.

Thinking in a mess in my mind, I began to rummage through boxes and cabinets to find pens and paper.I couldn't find it in the bedroom, so I went to the study to find it.After searching around, I finally found a ballpoint pen and a palm-sized notebook in the drawer of the computer desk.

Tear off a page, click on the phone address book, and write down Lin Sheng's phone number.After finishing writing, I stared at the small piece of paper with pink patterns for a long time, folded it in half, and held it in my hand.

People in the world often say "the dead are the greatest", this is from the perspective of the living.I don't know what other people are like, but as far as I am a dying person, I think "the living is the greatest".

To live is to have a future, to live to have hope.To die is to die, a handful of loess, a lonely grave, nothing will change.

Therefore, I should think more about the living people.

My mother lost me and my younger sister. I left enough money for them to work for my younger sister. There were no major twists and turns. The money should be more than enough.They rely on each other, no problem.

Although Nan Xian's marriage is not going well, fortunately, both parents are present, and she is young and promising.I plan to leave my piano to him, whether he uses it for himself or gives it to someone who is destined, it can be regarded as a precious inheritance.He may be sad when I die, but he will always cheer up.

I don't have many close relatives and few friends, so most of them are taken care of.Only Ran Qingzhuang, only him, made me very worried.

Maybe he doesn't need my "worries" at all, but if he can take care of his lifelong affairs before he dies... If he can get happiness, but for me, he can put an end to his worries. of.

When I went down to the first floor, I saw that the door was open, and Ran Qingzhuang was no longer in the room. I went out and saw that he was sitting on a stone bench outside, smoking a cigarette.

"Why do you smoke before your injury recovers?" I snatched the cigarettes and lighter from his desk and stuffed them into my trouser pocket, trying to find a place to hide them.

He glanced at me lightly, and said indifferently: "You can confiscate it, I will let Tao Nian bring it back to me tomorrow."

You can send it again, can't I take it again?

Secretly cursing in his heart, he handed the note in his hand to him.

He glanced at the long string of numbers above, he didn't know why, so he didn't answer, but slowly exhaled a puff of smoke, motioning for me to explain with his eyes.

"Lin Sheng's phone number." I said.

He was stunned and stopped smoking, only the thin smoke in his mouth was driven by the air current, still lively and flexible.

"I knew he had returned to China a long time ago. He is a doctor at Xinhe Hospital." As I spoke, I handed the note to him again.

Although his left hand was injured, his fingers could still move. He stretched out to grab the piece of paper, looked at it twice, put it on the table, and asked, "You already knew that he had returned to China?"

I lowered my face guiltily, not daring to look at him, nodded and said, "Yes."

"You didn't tell me before, why are you telling me now?"

I still kept my head down and said nothing, as if I knew I had done something wrong and accepted the punishment.

After a while, he asked again in a deep voice, "You want me to contact him?"

I stared at an unknown dead leaf on the ground, and said in a low voice: "On the island, we were just playing around for the mission. It was the suspension bridge effect. I knew it all, and I didn't take it to heart. It was my fault that broke you up. , now that you have finally met again, this is God's matchmaker wanting you to continue your relationship...you should contact him."

Silent for a long time, before Ran Qingzhuang could make a sound, I smelled a faint burnt smell in my nose. When I raised my head, I saw him pressing the cigarette butt on the piece of paper, letting the high temperature swallow the phone on it bit by bit. Number.

"you……"

"Thank you so much for thinking about me." He smiled and said thank you, but his eyes were calm and unwavering, making me feel cold for no reason.

However, just looking at each other, he lowered his eyelids, stood up with a walker, and stopped letting me peep into his emotions.

"But he and I are in the past. I don't want to suddenly appear to disturb his life, and he probably doesn't want to see me. This is the best. It's not a novel, so don't just reconnect with it." After speaking, he passed me and walked straight into the house.

For the next few days, he didn't pay much attention to me, as if he blamed me for being nosy and angry with me.

When I got up early in the morning, I couldn't find anyone in the kitchen, bedroom, or yard. I opened the back door and looked into the garage. The car was gone.I called Wei Daji who was on duty today, and he was a little surprised when he heard that I was inquiring about Ran Qingzhuang's whereabouts.

"He didn't say anything? The boss sent him to the hospital early in the morning to have the stitches removed."

"Oh, okay..." I hung up the phone in a hurry, sat on the sofa and started to lose myself.

Who am I worrying about?ungrateful……

I kind of understand the feeling of grievance and disappointment that some parents feel when they are busy helping their children find a partner, but they are treated coldly by their children.

Hard work, isn't it for your own good?Am I going to get married?If you don't find a partner, what will you do if I die?Who will take care of you?

Although Ran Qingzhuang is not my cub, but now I seem to have a loving father mentality.

The phone rang suddenly, interrupting my thoughts.

When I saw the call, it was an unexpected name - Zhaofeng.

"Hello?" I pressed the answer button.

"Ms. Ji, didn't I bother you? Are you free these two days? Come out and get together." Zhaofeng went straight to the point as soon as he opened his mouth.

I've been free these two days, and I really want to catch up with him, but Darong Village is located in a remote place, and it's not easy for me to walk around casually, so how to get together is a problem.

"Barong Village?" Unexpectedly, this is not a problem at all in Zhaofeng's view. "Coincidentally, I happened to be inspecting a new project nearby today. I will come to you later? Send me the location."

Although I really wanted to talk to him before leaving, it would be too unexpected for him to come, and...Ran Qingzhuang is another problem.

"I don't live alone now..." I put forward euphemistically.

"With the subject?"

"It is not……"

"What does that matter?" He said carelessly that he didn't mind, "It's settled, I'll be there around 12 o'clock."

He hung up the phone quickly and didn't listen to me in the end.

Looking at the screen of the phone dumbfounded, thinking about whether to send him a text message, hesitated for a moment, and gave up.

Forget it, after mentioning Ran Qingzhuang, I have to mention something else, and I can't tell for a while.Take him directly to the small restaurant later, just don't bump into Ran Qingzhuang.

Seeing that it was about the same time, I greeted Wei Daji and went out.The small restaurant is on one of the busiest lanes in the village. There are health centers, hardware stores and a car repair shop next to it. In front of it is the iconic big banyan tree in the village.

The small restaurant itself is not big, and it also functions as a canteen. Behind the counter is full of tobacco, alcohol and snacks.

When I entered the restaurant, Wei Daji was squatting outside under the banyan tree, watching the old men play chess.I randomly chose a table by the window and sat down. After more than half an hour, Zhao Feng also arrived.The hair has grown a lot longer than when I saw it before, and the color has almost faded. The lower half looks a little withered and yellow, and the upper half is newly grown black hair.

As soon as he sat down, he called the waiter, ordered a lot of food, ordered wine, and said that he would not get drunk with me.

"Why do you live here? Reclusive?" He looked around and asked.

The guy quickly brought up two bottles of cold beer, and I served it for Zhao Fengman, jokingly said, "Caifeng."

"Collecting the wind? You also have to collect the wind when you play the cello?" He smiled, clearly not believing it.

The dishes came up one after another, and we chatted while eating, about what happened during the make-up class, and about his later admission to a junior college.

He has worked hard in Chonghai for many years and has saved some money. He wants to buy a suite next year and settle down here.

Zhou Chen also inherited his parents' restaurant, got married last year, and this year his wife and children are pregnant.Living my own life in Bo City, I keep saying I want to lose weight, but I still get fatter every year.

"Do you remember the one from your school back then..." After chatting happily, Zhaofeng drank one cup after another, feeling a little drunk, "The fight was so fierce, it almost got into a fight with me...what's it called... Ran what..."

Although I also drank a little, I have been very restrained, but my cheeks are slightly hot, and my brain is still clear, so I can guess who he is talking about right away.

"Ran Qingzhuang." I said with a smile.

"Yes, yes, Ran Qingzhuang! It's him..."

While talking, the glass door behind Zhaofeng was slowly pushed open from the outside. Ran Qingzhuang walked in with a walker. He was walking straight towards the counter. After hearing his name, he subconsciously paused and walked this way. It seems.

And I also spotted him at the first time, across Zhaofeng, I happened to meet his eyes.

"He is really nothing, he treats you badly!" Zhaofeng said righteously.