Inferior by Nature

"Why should I help you?"

In a secluded corner of the playground, Lin Sheng leaned on the horizontal bar, looking at the basketball court in the distance.Although I guessed that he might not help me easily, I was a little surprised to be asked so bluntly.

A burst of embarrassment welled up in my heart, and my face was burning hot.He was right, he really had no reason to help me.It's just that an ownerless stray dog ​​died, and the murderer was still a group of punks who were under [-] years old.There is no telling how many times this kind of thing will happen in a year. For news reports, the content is too poor and there is no explosive point.

I figured it out, and I didn't intend to continue begging him: "Sorry, I made it difficult for others, just pretend I didn't mention it..."

"It's not impossible to help you." Lin Sheng changed his words suddenly.

I stopped and looked at him in surprise.

He retracted his gaze from a distance, looked at me, and said, "But I have a request."

In this world, if you ask others to do things for you, it is impossible to do them for nothing.Zhaofeng is like this, Lin Sheng is also like this, I am not too surprised, or this is just human nature.

"As long as I can do it, you can say it."

Lin Sheng smiled, came over and hooked my shoulder, and said, "I can help you, but we have an appointment, and you cannot appear in this matter."

I felt a little awkward about his pretense of intimacy, and was about to calmly break free from his shackles when I heard what he said.

I couldn't help but startled: "Can't... show me?"

"Yes, you can't show up." Lin Sheng squeezed my shoulder, and said in a kind tone, "You must give all the credit to me. Otherwise, wouldn't it be too much of a loss for me to work so hard to make your wedding dress?"

That's what it meant.

What kind of credit can this kind of thing have? Does he still rely on this to appraise the three good students?

I didn't pursue this matter to gain anything from it, but I wanted to give Xiao Hei justice, comfort Ran Qingzhuang, and settle this matter with non-violent means.I don't care if I have a name in it or not.

"Okay, it's a deal." I agreed with almost no hesitation.

Seeing that I agreed, Lin Sheng further expanded his conditions: "You can't tell anyone about this, including Ran Qingzhuang."

Hearing Ran Qingzhuang's name, the end of my eyes twitched like a conditioned reflex.

"I asked someone from Nanzhi to help me investigate this matter, and he also knew about it."

Lin Sheng raised his eyebrows, as if he felt troublesome: "Then don't let others know except him. If you can do it, I will help you. If you can't, please ask someone else."

I can only find him, where is there a second choice?As long as there is a second choice, even if it is slightly inferior, I will not come to him.

"I understand. I won't let others know, including Ran Qingzhuang."

Lin Sheng patted me on the shoulder with satisfaction, said "Leave it to me" and ran to the basketball court.

From a distance, he seemed to be high-fiveing ​​someone head-on, and replaced another person on the field.The basketball court was full of people from their class, so it was not clear if there was Ran Qingzhuang, but there was a figure who was unusually tall and jumped very high, it looked like it.

I stood there watching for a long time, until the class bell rang, and then walked slowly to the classroom.

That night, I wrote a [-]-word long email, stating all the ins and outs in the future, and attached the complete unedited video showing my face that Zhaofeng finally found, and sent it to Lin Sheng's mailbox.

Lin Sheng didn't reply to me, but a few days later, "Bocheng Metropolis Daily" published a detailed report on the dog abuse by several people in Nanzhi.It also added the testimony of many anonymous students abcd, proving that the few people led by Gao Wei are bullying men and women on weekdays.The teachers are too lazy to care about them, and the parents just let them go. They hang around all day long, extorting, bullying, and fighting, just like a small gang of gangsters.

[The same is true of many perverted killers. At first, they only abused animals, but when they found that no one was in charge, they gradually became arrogant.The more arrogant they are, the more nobody cares about them. After such a vicious cycle, their behavior will escalate time and time again, gradually developing towards crime. 】

Most of the articles used my manuscripts, but more words such as "cruel", "bloody", "perverted", "criminal" and so on were added to stimulate people's attention.

The final theme, from dog abuse to modern education, questioned what happened to society and why it cultivated such potential criminals one after another.

Although "Bocheng Metropolis Daily" is only a local newspaper, it has been published for more than 40 years. It has an extraordinary status in the hearts of Bocheng people and has far-reaching social influence.

As soon as the report came out, although it didn't reach the level of making it onto the evening news and arousing heated discussions among the people, it caused a lot of discussion in our local area.

"Have you heard? The dog abuser has been found, and he is a student of Southern Vocational College."

During the lunch break, I opened the exercise book, the tip of the pen fell on the paper, and when I heard the conversation behind me, I stopped unconsciously.

"It must be from the Southern Vocational College. They all wear their school uniforms. It's disgusting to be neighbors with this kind of school. When I see them, I get upset and bring down the grade of our school."

"Who said it wasn't? My friend knew I belonged to Honggao, and asked me if there were really people taking drugs and prostitution in Nanzhi next door? Damn, how do I know? I don't know them well! Who would have anything to do with that mob? come and go..."

"Hush, keep your voice down, we still have mob friends in our class." Although the other party said this, his voice was not necessarily lowered.

"What are you afraid of? Dare I say that he dares to admit it? Through this incident, I know what it means to be 'in Cao Ying's heart in Han'. When the two armies confronted each other in the past, this kind of person would be dragged out and messed up." He was shot to death by an arrow. Compared with Lin Sheng, the gap between people is too big, right? I don’t know what to think, I eat things from inside and outside.” At the end, I was gradually filled with righteous indignation, and almost pointed at my back Spit and scold "dog thief".

"Why is there no one to be friends with him? He can't do this or that all day long. He's weaker than a girl, as if he hasn't learned an instrument before."

"Maybe it's because no one in our school wants to be friends with him, so he went next door to develop. He is silent all day long, like a ghost behind the scenes..."

The two snickered, not hiding the malice in their words.

Clenching my fists, I stood up suddenly, the laughter behind me disappeared, but I didn't have the courage to turn around, I just left the classroom quickly.

Coincidentally, as soon as they went out, they ran into Ran Qingzhuang and Lin Sheng coming from the other side of the corridor, with sweat on their faces, as if they had just finished playing and were going back to the classroom.

"Lin Sheng still has the ability..."

"It's really exciting this time."

"Handsome, with good grades, kind-hearted, courageous and resourceful, and always shooting three-pointers when playing basketball, how can there be someone like you in the world!" The more the man thought about it, the more angry he was, and he grabbed Lin Sheng's neck, desperately scratching his head, Lin Sheng screamed.

With a slight smile on Ran Qingzhuang's face, he said to stop making trouble, and grabbed the man's back collar with his hand, and with a light pull, Lin Sheng was rescued.

While a few people were fighting, Ran Qingzhuang glanced around unintentionally, and finally found me standing in front of me in a daze.

The corners of his lips pressed down, and he looked back as if nothing had happened, the smile had disappeared from his face.

He is just like them.

He looked at me the same way they did.

I closed my eyes, lowered my head, and shrank aside, letting them pass first.

The two sides met, I took a step, and continued to walk forward, walking faster and faster, and finally almost ran into the toilet and locked myself in the cubicle.

Squatting down slowly facing the door, I buried my face in my arms, just wanting to stay inside for the rest of my life and never go out again.

If there is a lot of mouth, it will make money.I know how painful it is to poke a knife into someone's body when words are turned into sharp knives.

However, even if I ran out and shouted: "You all misunderstood me! I am not a traitor, Zhao Feng and I are just cooperating with each other!" How many people would believe it?How many people will think I'm crazy?

The saddest thing about this matter is not that everyone misunderstood me, but that even if I want to explain, no one can say it, let alone listen.

"Ji Ning is fine, Gao Wei and those bastards really kicked the iron board this time." Zhao Feng gave me a thumbs up, "This incident has too bad influence, the school can no longer turn a blind eye to it By the way, they've already been expelled. When they packed up their things and left, you didn't see them all looking ashamed, wishing they could put their schoolbags on their heads and walk away."

"Sure!" Zhou Chen said while nibbling sunflower seeds, "I don't have the face to say that I'm in the same school with such perverted people."

Zhou Chenyi and Zhaofeng are classmates, and their family runs a small restaurant on the street behind Honggao and Nanzhi.After the school couldn't make up classes, Zhaofeng said he would find a way, and then approached Zhou Chenyi and asked if he could borrow his hotel to make up classes.

Zhou Chen also has a very strong relationship with Zhaofeng, so he mentioned it to his parents when he got back.Every pair of parents has a hope that their children will become a success. When they heard that Honggao's students were giving make-up lessons, Zhou's parents and Zhou's mother agreed immediately, but there was one condition. They hoped that the make-up lessons would bring their son along with them.

One and two are complements, there is no difference to me, so I agreed.

Compared with Zhaofeng, Zhou Chen is not too self-motivated, and his foundation is much weaker.When I was talking to Zhaofeng, he usually cracked melon seeds or ate the candies his mother sent me.

"I heard from my mother that many people have sent wreaths, splashed red paint, and thrown rotten eggs at their door these days. It seems that several families are planning to move out." The small restaurant is made by the local people around Business, what happened to the neighbors in the street, they talked to each other, and it all spread within a few days.

"Moved away? It's good to move away, this place will be clean after moving away." Zhaofeng used correction fluid to correct his mistakes on the paper, without raising his head.

"It's good to move away. The others are not afraid, but I feel that Gao Wei has some brain problems. He hasn't come to school to pick up things after he was expelled. The other four people don't know what happened to him. I panicked when I saw it, I better move away, otherwise I am afraid that he will know that you are plotting against him behind his back and put you in a sack." Zhou Chen also said.

Zhaofeng snorted disdainfully: "How can this be called a calculation? This is the iron fist of justice, do you understand?" He raised his head, showed his fist and said, "Besides, I will be afraid of him? Let him come, see I won’t beat him until he cries for his father and mother!”

I heard them talking more and more unreasonable, so I tapped the end of my pen on the table lightly, interrupting the conversation between the two of them: "Okay, don't talk about irrelevant things, let's do the questions."

Zhou Chen also quickly turned his eyes away, supported his head, and continued to eat his melon seeds.

Zhaofeng was reminded by me, and his attention returned to the test paper in front of him again. After a while, he leaned over and pointed to the last question on the test paper and asked me what to do.

In January, it gets dark after six o'clock.

Since I started to make up lessons for Zhaofeng and the others, I would use the breaks to finish my homework. If I couldn't finish it, I would take it to the small restaurant to do it.

After school at six o'clock, I always practice the piano until seven o'clock, deliver the breakfast bag to Ran Qingzhuang, and then go to Zhaofeng and the others.Make up two hours of make-up classes, and it ends at about nine o'clock, and it will be about a quarter past nine when I get home.After washing up, it was already 10:30 when I lay in bed, and the schedule of the day was quite tight.

Today I finished my piano practice as usual, and before I left, I went to deliver breakfast to Ran Qingzhuang.Put the bag into the cabinet and was about to close it when a human voice suddenly sounded diagonally behind.

"What are you doing?"

I was so frightened that I almost squeezed my hands, and hurriedly took a step back, looking at the person who came by in horror.

Lin Sheng stood not far behind me, glanced at the half-open cabinet, and said, "I came back to get things. What are you doing at the door of our classroom?"

"I..." My palms were sweaty, my mind was in a mess, and I couldn't find a reasonable explanation for it.

Lin Sheng went directly to open Ran Qingzhuang's cabinet, I thought it was too late to stop him.

"Are you delivering breakfast to him?" He took out the cheap-looking and rudimentary red plastic bag and handed it to me, "Don't give it away, how nutritious are the red bean buns all day long? I'll bring them to him in the future Something else for breakfast." After speaking, without waiting for my reaction, he let go of his hand.

I caught it in embarrassment, and held the bag in my arms, feeling my face was hot, and I was so ashamed that I couldn't bear it.

Pursing my lips tightly, I stared at the toe of the shoe, unable to refute, and I didn't know how to refute.

"Don't tell him..."

Squeezing out a weak voice from my throat, I begged Lin Sheng not to tell Ran Qingzhuang about this, and not to make him hate me more.

Lin Sheng was silent for a while, then smiled suddenly: "Don't worry, I won't say anything, and no one will say anything."

I breathed a sigh of relief when I got his promise, and was about to leave when he raised his hand to stop me.

"He's waiting for me outside the door. Do you want to go out later? He won't be happy to see you. "

I hugged the bag in my arms even tighter, stared blankly at him, and found my voice after a long time: "Ah, okay... I'll leave later."

I found a step and sat down, and started to be in a daze. When I came back to my senses, I found that my mouth was full of red bean bread, and I was still holding the half-drinked breakfast milk in my hand.

One didn't control his strength well, and the half-full breakfast milk flew out of the straw, covering his hands.

I got up in a hurry, went to the toilet to wash my hands, and when I came out, I threw the breakfast bag into the trash can by the way.

It's been long enough, they should be gone, right?

I walked downstairs, and when I got to the bottom floor, Zhaofeng suddenly called.

I thought he was asking where I was, but as soon as I picked it up, he told me to go find Ran Qingzhuang in a panic.

"Gao Wei is back, looking for Ran Qingzhuang to kill him everywhere. Do you have a phone number for Ran Qingzhuang? Let him pay attention and don't go out at night. Hello? Ji Ning? Did you hear that? Ji Ning!"

I carried the piano on my back and ran towards the school gate. The cold wind was blowing on my cheeks, which hurt like a knife.

The cello and piano case are about seven kilograms, which is not too heavy to carry on a normal day, but it is quite terrible to run at the moment.Panting anxiously, I ran out of the school gate without stopping, looking for Lin Sheng and Ran Qingzhuang.

Fortunately, the road in front of the school is very quiet at night, there are not many people, and you can see the end at a glance.

I saw that there was no one on the left, so I immediately looked to the right, and happened to see the figures of Ran Qingzhuang and Lin Sheng disappear around the corner.

"Ran...Ran Qingzhuang!" I ran too fast, lacked strength, and was too far away, so my voice could not be transmitted.

Seeing that they didn't stop, I gritted my teeth and had no choice but to continue to chase.

The road is very narrow and very dark, with green plants on both sides, so if you don't pay attention at night, you won't be able to find someone hiding in it.

When I arrived at the corner, I happened to see Gao Wei in a black sweater jumping out and hurting people.

Ran Qingzhuang seemed to sense something, just as he was about to turn around, it was already too late.Aiming at the vital point, he hit hard, without mercy, Gao Wei really wanted Ran Qingzhuang's life.

Seeing him raising the metal water pipe in his hand again, Lin Sheng just stood aside with a pale face.I picked up a stone in the green belt and ran over like crazy.

"Go away!" I roared, and threw the stone in my hand towards Gao Wei, hitting him on the head accurately.

Gao Wei staggered, covering the place where the stone hit, and stared at me coldly.

"I've already called the police, don't run away!" I don't know where the strength came from, and I swung the piano case behind my back to hit him.

Maybe he was shocked by my aura, or maybe he panicked when he heard the alarm. He didn't want to fight, turned around and ran with the water pipe in his hand, and disappeared without a trace after a while.

Seeing that he was scared away, I quickly dropped the piano case and rushed to Ran Qingzhuang's side to check his situation.

Blood was streaming from his head, and he had lost consciousness.I tremblingly stretched out my hand to check his breath, and when I found that he was still breathing, I relaxed, and my almost stopped heart was able to continue beating.

"He's not dead, is he?" Lin Sheng finally came back to his senses, knelt down and anxiously asked about Ran Qingzhuang's situation.

I glared at him, took off my coat with trembling hands, carefully moved Ran Qingzhuang's head, and put the clothes on his wound.

Lin Sheng called the police, and then an ambulance arrived, and the two of us took Ran Qingzhuang to the hospital together.

I don't have a lot of cash with me, the money is all paid by Lin Sheng and signed by him.

Ran Qingzhuang was pushed into the emergency room, Lin Sheng went outside to explain the situation to the police who arrived, and I sat alone in the corridor of the hospital, watching the bright red hands, reliving the nightmare I had when I was eight years old.The only difference is that it's really cold this time.

I don't know whether to say that Ran Qingzhuang's life was hard or lucky. After the examination, the doctor said that he was fine, but his scalp was lacerated, and he might have a concussion, but it was not life-threatening.However, he will need to stay in the emergency room for observation all night until he wakes up.

"Do you want to notify his grandma?" Lin Sheng asked standing beside the bed.

I glanced at Ran Qingzhuang lying unconscious on the bed, and worried: "Don't talk about it, his grandma has a bad heart and can't stand stimulation."

The old man fell ill last time because he was frightened. Anyone who saw Ran Qingzhuang's current state would be shocked. If grandma fell ill again, it might be even more dangerous than Ran Qingzhuang's current situation.It's better to wait until tomorrow when she wakes up completely and then notify her, so that she can sleep peacefully tonight.

"Then I'll find a way to hide it." Lin Sheng nodded, thinking it made sense, took out his phone, and came back in about ten minutes to tell me that it was done.

"I told his grandma that I got drunk when I had dinner with him, and he will stay at my house tonight." He took out a few hundred banknotes and stuffed them into my hand, saying, "Here are these for you, I have something to do. My mother urged me to go back, you can find him a nurse, I will come back tomorrow."

Before I could say anything, he looked at the time on his phone and left the emergency room in a hurry.

There are seven or eight beds in the emergency room, and each bed holds a patient.

Accompanied by the soft beeping of the instrument, the patient on bed number three suddenly moaned and wanted to go to the toilet, but the nurse was processing the vomit from bed number six, and the nurse came to help the patient out of bed until the moaning almost turned into a howl.And just as they walked out the door, bed No. [-] vomited on the floor with a "wow", causing complaints from all around.

I looked down at the money in my hand, folded them neatly, and stuffed them into my trouser pocket.

Send a text message to Zhaofeng, briefly explaining the general situation, so that he doesn't have to worry.Then I left the emergency room and went down the hallway to call my mom and tell her that I might be in the hospital tonight with a classmate.

"What's going on?" She tensed up.

"A classmate fell and hurt his head." Except for the simplification of the cause, I told the truth, including the situation at Ran Qingzhuang's family and the situation in the emergency room here.

"Ningning has really grown up." My mother's voice softened, and she said with some relief, "It's a good thing, you did a good job. Tomorrow is Saturday anyway, and you don't have to go to class. You can take care of him, mother in the morning Come pick you up."

"No need, I'll just go back by car." The rare rest, I also want my mother to sleep well until she wakes up naturally.

She stopped insisting, told me to pay attention to safety, and ended the call.

Ran Qingzhuang fell asleep on the bed, and I sat by the bed and memorized English words.In the middle of the night, he suddenly yelled in his sleep and shouted that he was hot. When I touched his hand, it was hot.

I hurried to see a doctor, who said it was a normal phenomenon, and gave me an injection to reduce fever.

I saw that his lips were chapped and asked the doctor if he could give him water.

The doctor said: "Give him some water on his mouth, the main reason is that he is unconscious now and easily chokes."

So I took a cotton swab and carefully moistened his lips every few minutes.However, this moistness couldn't satisfy him, he licked his lips, his brows tightened, and soon he shouted thirsty and wanted to drink water.

He was hung up on the water earlier, so his body would never be dehydrated, but the high fever made him feel so uncomfortable.

I stroked his pale cheeks, wiped off his sweat, and coaxed softly: "You can drink water when you wake up, be good, bear with it."

He seemed to hear my voice, and gradually calmed down after a while.

They say the eyes are the windows to the soul.Ran Qingzhuang's eyes are always very lively, and when they are opened, various emotions will be revealed from them.Indifferent, gentle, sad, angry... I have seen almost all his emotions, especially when he loses his temper, his eyes are cold and there is no warmth, which makes people shiver and knees To soften.

"Get well soon." Said softly, I covered him in a mysterious way, and kissed his lips.

In the middle of the night, the emergency room also became quiet, with partition curtains drawn on both sides of the hospital bed. Apart from the sound of the equipment, there could be the whispers of nurses at the workbench a few meters away from time to time.

As if in a daze, I held his face and kissed him eagerly.

The strong emotions in my heart broke through the shackles without warning, howling and controlling my brain, making it impossible for me to stop this almost perverted behavior.

I like him very much.

I really want him.

I pushed his teeth open and stuck my tongue into his hot mouth, completely forgetting that this is a hospital, and that nurses would come to check on the bed anytime, anywhere.

Dazed and confused, I don't know how long the kiss lasted, when a piercing cry suddenly sounded in my ear.I opened my eyes abruptly, just in time to meet Ran Qingzhuang's slightly half-open eyes, which still looked very confused.

He raised one hand and grabbed my arm loosely, as if trying to push me away.

It was like a basin of ice water poured down the head, from the top of the head to the bottom of the feet, it was icy cold.I backed away in embarrassment, and brought down the chair behind me. The nurse rushed over quickly, checked Ran Qingzhuang's condition, and put him back on the ECG monitor.

"It's okay, the clip fell off, just re-clamp it." The nurse thought I was frightened by the sound of the instrument, and comforted me, "Do you want to go outside for a rest? We are inside, and I will go if there is any problem." I called you from outside."

Taking a sneak peek at Ran Qingzhuang, he closed his eyes, lying there quietly, showing no signs of waking up, as if everything just now was just my hallucination.

"No, I...I want to stay with him inside." I lifted the chair and thanked the nurse for her kindness.

After the nurse left, I slapped myself.In the second half of the night, he was honest and honest, and never attacked the unconscious Ran Qingzhuang again.

Lin Sheng came early the next morning. When he saw me, he was very surprised and asked me why I didn't find a nurse.

At that time, Ran Qingzhuang's fever had subsided, and he was barely awake.I returned the money to Lin Sheng, hesitated for a while, and asked him not to mention me to Ran Qingzhuang before leaving. If Ran Qingzhuang asked, he would say that he had never seen me at all.

"Why?" Lin Sheng tilted his head, not quite understanding.

Because I was afraid that he would know that I was molesting him.

I pursed my lips and thought of a plausible reason: "He won't appreciate it if I say it." After speaking, I turned and left with my piano on my back.

When I arrived at the school on Monday, everyone was discussing Gao Wei's arrest, saying that he might be sentenced to prison.

As soon as Zhaofeng saw me, he asked me about the specific situation on Friday, and when he heard me say that Gao Wei succeeded in one blow and wanted to hit it again, he couldn't help shouting.

"This is too thrilling." Zhou Chen also said while nibbling on melon seeds.

Ran Qingzhuang came back to class after a few days of recuperation, the back of his head was covered with gauze, his face was not sure whether he was in a bad mood or he was not feeling well, but it didn't look good anyway.

I sent my homework to the teacher's office, and overheard their homeroom teacher chatting about him, saying that he was beaten a bit by that stick, and when he woke up, he not only forgot what happened on Friday, but also couldn't remember what happened in the previous two days up.

At this point, my heart was relieved, and the big rock that had weighed me down for the past few days finally fell to the ground.

The prisoner was found, Gao Wei was punished, and the enmity with Nanzhi should come to an end.I naively thought that as long as I spoke first, even if I couldn't reconcile as before, I would always be able to return to a state of peaceful coexistence with Ran Qingzhuang.

That day when he came from afar, I raised my hand and wanted to say hello to him.Ask him how his health is, ask how Xiaolihua is, ask how his grandma is...

Opening his mouth, with his hands still in the air, Ran Qingzhuang brushed past me and walked towards the other end of the corridor without stopping.

My dark cloud is insignificant, and I can't even make him stop for me.

Putting down my hand in a daze, I clenched my fist tightly by my side, I looked back at Ran Qingzhuang's back, and for the first time felt something like "resentment" toward him.

It was also during that time that I had a special relationship with the hospital.Not long after, my mother slipped at home and hurt her waist. She could only lie on the bed and rest, unable to do any work.I took three days off to take care of her at home. On the fourth day, she refused to delay my studies any more and scolded me out of the house through gritted teeth.

My mother has limited mobility and cannot cook. During the day, she only eats steamed buns and rarely drinks water.In the evening, thanks to Zhou Chenyi, I was able to take advantage of it and bring home three dishes a day.

Although Zhaofeng is considerate of the old and the young waiting for me at home, and shortens the remedial class time to one hour, but I always feel that others are considerate because they are kind-hearted, but I am not easy to climb up the pole. a little.

It was agreed to be two hours, that is, two hours, not a minute or a second.

But in this way, it will take more than nine o'clock to get home.

"Brother, the dishes you bring back every day are delicious." The little girl had rice grains on her lips, and her cheeks bulged from eating.

Although she would eat some biscuits, bread and other snacks to fill her stomach before I went home, she was still very hungry.

"Eat slowly, no one will grab you." I picked the grain of rice for her, thinking to myself: This little sister, it is really unlucky to throw it in our house.At any rate, I enjoyed eight years of living with both parents and no worries about food and clothing.But as for her, she lost her father when she was born, and her mother was busy supporting the family, and when she rarely had warm company, now she couldn't even eat a full meal.

I'm so useless as a brother.

As long as I'm useful, I won't let her eat the leftovers.

As long as I get the school's recommended places, I can have a lot of scholarships.Sometimes money is not everything, but for me at that time, it was like sending charcoal in the snow, and it was very important.

The number of places was not coming down, so I anxiously asked the class teacher, and finally got the news that the only one of the places would be between me and Lin Sheng.

That money might not even be enough for his monthly allowance, but he still wants to fight me.

Lin Sheng was like a thorn in my eye.

At that moment, his presence made me feel more and more uncomfortable.

That morning, when I crushed the biscuit with the promise, the note inside said - you may be waiting for salvation, but how do you know that you are not someone else's salvation?

I don't know if anyone will save me, but I'm definitely not Ran Qingzhuang's salvation.

I just walked through the corridor before leaving habitually, took a look at the cabinet, and then... I saw Ran Qingzhuang and Lin Sheng in the classroom.

Through the small window in the door, I couldn't believe what I saw.

The two kissed unscrupulously, completely unaware of my arrival.

It turned out that he was not a disgusting man, but just disgusting me.

Snatched away, he was snatched away...

Why did you come to grab me?Family background, appearance, Lin Sheng obviously has everything, why did he come to rob me?

He is mine, he should be mine.

Countless thoughts came to mind, but little pain.

I kept staring at them until Ran Qingzhuang looked up at me.

He spotted me and wasn't about to stop.As if provocative, he inserted his fingers deeper into Lin Sheng's hair, and the other hand clenched between his wrists pulled Lin Sheng towards him even harder.

Lin Sheng seemed to be unable to breathe, and his fingertips were slightly convulsed.The white neck trembled and leaned back, with a powerless posture, like a fragile white swan whose neck was bitten by a fierce beast.

The Adam's apple rolled, as if to suppress all the roars and questions that were about to be blurted out.I took a step back, and took a step back, away from that terrible door, until I could no longer see the two people inside the door, then I turned and fled the school in a hurry.

After that, I was like a walking dead.Follow the procedure to make up lessons, go home with meals, wash up and lie down on the bed, and open your eyes until dawn.

As soon as the alarm rang, I got up and went to school. I didn't realize that something was wrong when I got to the gate. After thinking about it, I realized that I forgot to bring my cello.

For more than ten years, I have carried it everywhere, and it has become my half body.I forgot it.

I covered my face with a splitting headache.For a while, there was a picture of the little girl eating food wolfily; for a while, it was the picture of my mother lying on the bed, throwing a pillow at me stubbornly, telling me to roll off to class; for a while, it was the picture of Lin Sheng and Ran Qingzhuang kissing in the classroom.

When I came back to my senses, I was already standing in front of the office of the dean in a daze.

I reported them.

I told the dean everything I saw about Lin Sheng and Ran Qingzhuang.

I calmly set off the stormy waves and dragged them into the abyss one by one.

The pain is less and I can even sleep at night.Without guilt, without self-blame, I became insensitive, without a conscience.

Now it seems that it is more like a self-protection mechanism. The brain thinks that I may not be able to bear those complicated emotions, and my body will collapse, so it temporarily isolates them for me.

After Lin Sheng transferred to study abroad, I naturally got the recommended admission spot that I was thinking of.The moment I received the recommendation notice at home on the weekend, all the emotions rushed in, and they all came back unexpectedly.

I tremblingly held the piece of paper, and was knocked down by those complicated and tangled emotions, kneeling on the ground and crying.

The little girl ran over in horror and asked me what happened, but when she saw the recommendation letter in my hand, she burst into cheers.

"Mom, brother got the quota!" She ran into the bedroom to share the joy with her mother.

Yes, I got the quota, using dishonorable means, despicable, selfish, by reporting on my competitors... I got the final quota.

I got up staggeringly, and rushed out the door without explaining to my family.

Before Ran Qingzhuang was detained, he told me the approximate location of his house.I know which neighborhood his house is in, and which building it is, but I don't know which one it is on the first floor.

I looked from one side to the other, poked my head outside the windows of the two families, and was discovered by Ran Qingzhuang not long after.

He opened the door and came out to meet me, stood on the steps, and asked what I wanted to do.

"Sorry……"

As soon as I approached him, he took a step back, frowning in disgust.

I stopped at a loss, suffering from his worse attitude towards me than before.

"Is that all you have to say?" He stood on a high place and looked at me indifferently.

I don't know what else I can say besides apologizing. Anything I say now is like sophistry, and even the apology itself is hypocritical.

"I'm sorry...I, I need money very much."

I said my shamelessness so confidently, even Ran Qingzhuang was somewhat unexpected.

"You need money."

He finished repeating my words flatly, turned around and walked into the house without saying anything.

I caught up with him and grabbed his hand, but he suddenly turned around and waved me away, as if he couldn't stand even the slightest touch from me.

His fists were raised, and his arm muscles tensed.I raised my face, closed my eyes, and did not hide or dodge, waiting for his fist to fall, hoping that his fist would fall.

But the expected pain did not come.

"I don't want to see you again, Ji Ning."

My chest was pushed lightly and hard, and I took several steps back before I could manage to stabilize my figure.

Looking up again, Ran Qingzhuang had already closed the entrance door on the first floor.

"Ahem... Who is Qingzhuang?" An old and weak voice came from the room.

"No one, just a salesman." Ran Qingzhuang walked to the window and drew the curtains to block my prying eyes.

After a few months, I went to Ran Qingzhuang again, and when I looked in through the window, all the furniture inside had been emptied.

I anxiously asked people what was going on. My neighbor said that Ran Qingzhuang’s grandma passed away last month.

he's gone.

Completely, go.

He said he didn't want to see me again, so he really never saw me again.

It was a beautiful spring day, and the streets were full of crowded cherry blossoms. I walked for more than an hour and walked home alone.When I got home, I developed a high fever, and it took me a long time to get well.I don't know if it was too exciting, after recovering from illness, I can't remember much about Ran Qingzhuang.

I thought it was cancer, a tumor that made me lose my memory, but