Inferior by Nature

What are you thinking?Just now may be the time when my mind is the most empty today. Following Ran Qingzhuang's instructions and actions, I don't have to think about anything at all.What does Ran Qingzhuang mean by asking this?Am I doing something wrong?Or is it that what he asked was not what I was thinking at this moment, but the feeling that he still couldn't understand after seeing the tattoo on my back, so he expressed emotion?

"I..." I turned my face halfway, and from the corner of my eye I saw that Ran Qingzhuang was maintaining the half-raised medicine bottle posture, so I didn't dare to put down my clothes casually, "...I'm sorry."

Either way, admit your mistake first.In the past, whenever my mother was angry, no matter whether it was my fault or not, I would keep admitting my mistakes and begging for mercy, so that she would not beat me too hard when her heart softened.

However, Ran Qingzhuang didn't seem to agree with my behavior of admitting mistakes at every turn.

He was quiet for a moment, then said: "Have you noticed that you are always saying 'I'm sorry'? These three words seem to have become your motto. You actually know what behavior you are annoying, don't you? It's like touching me casually You know it, but you just don't want to change it, and you'd rather say 'sorry' after the fact, because 'sorry' is easier to do than to spend time fixing your bad habits. "

I lowered my head, stared at the tufts of patterns on the carpet and listened silently, without speaking back.

"I'm sorry" is indeed a mantra that saves time and effort, but I will hang on to it, and it's not exactly what he said.

I just don't want to confront him, to upset him.If he gets angry, I apologize.I identify with him unconditionally, including the parts where he doesn't agree with me.

He will think that I always say sorry because he is always angry with me, no matter what I do or say, he hates it.

Like now, I don't even know if I offended him with a word or a look that made him speak so sharply.

The body became cold little by little, and the room fell silent like this, and no one spoke anymore.

After a while, Ran Qingzhuang pulled off my clothes and threw the bottle of medicine into my arms from above.

"It's finished spraying, and you put away the medicine yourself."

I caught it in a hurry, looked up at him, saw him striding towards the door, got up and followed.

"Are you leaving so soon?"

Ran Qingzhuang opened the door and walked out without saying a word.

The guest room we stayed in was at the end of the corridor, and there was a long and straight corridor outside, with bright glass windows on one side and other rooms of unknown purpose on the other.

Ran Qingzhuang wasn't walking fast, but he wasn't slow either.The setting sun sprinkled on his tall body through the window glass, dyeing half of his body a warm orange red, while the other half fell into a drowsiness that the sun could not reach.

He walks between light and shade, with firm steps and a straight body, like an inflexible pine and cypress.

I held the door and watched his back for a long time.He walked halfway, seemed to feel something, and suddenly stopped and looked back at me.

I didn't have time to close the door and was caught by him. I was a little embarrassed, but I just straightened my back a little and didn't look away.

He looked at me with a complicated expression for a long time, and seeing that he couldn't force me to retreat, he let me go.

He kept walking, and I watched him until he turned the corner, and I couldn't see him anymore, and then I closed the door and went back to the house.

Looking down from the large window of the guest room, you can just see the door.I don't know if it's because of Ou Kelan's matter or it's just like usual, this afternoon was very lively, I drank two cups of tea by the window, stood for half an hour, and already saw three groups of people coming in and out.

After drinking too much tea and turning around to go to the toilet, I suddenly heard a loud noise, as if something was broken.Pulling up his pants, he hurried to the window and saw a golden lion the size of a pug lying on the grass downstairs not far from the right, surrounded by broken glass.

The patrolling people heard the sound, looked up and looked upstairs, didn't know what they saw or heard, looked at each other for a while, and finally just called someone to clean it up.

Curiously, I walked to the far right and opened the window slightly, and the sound of fierce quarrels poured in immediately.I couldn't hear what the noise was, but as Ran Qingzhuang said, it seemed that there was something going on.

Ran Qingzhuang didn't come back until late at night. When I came back, I was already asleep and only had a lamp on by the bedside.

After all, it was a relatively unfamiliar environment. As soon as he entered the room, I woke up a little when I heard the movement.Seeing him in a daze behind, he closed his eyes and fell asleep again.

During the period, he didn't sleep very soundly, he was in a half-dream and half-awake, and he didn't feel completely at ease until he lay down on the bed after taking a shower and turned off the lamp, and fell asleep again.

When I woke up the next day, I got into Ran Qingzhuang's arms again and wrapped him tightly.

Ran Qingzhuang frowned tightly, even in his sleep he couldn't show his face, he looked like he had slept very hard.

With the previous experience, I didn't act rashly anymore, I felt Ran Qingzhuang's eyelids move, as if there were signs of waking up, so I quickly closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.

From the change of Ran Qingzhuang's breathing, it can be felt that he should be awake, and he is a little worried about our current state.

Break my hands and put my feet down.I thought he would roughly push me aside and tell me to stay away from him, but he just lifted the quilt gently and got up and got out of bed.

I secretly opened my eyes and buried half of my face in the soft quilt.Ran Qingzhuang stood by the bed, probably thinking that I was still asleep so he had no scruples, crossed his hands, and neatly took off the T-shirt that was used as pajamas, revealing a broad and strong back.

There are many old injuries on his back, and scars of different shades lie horizontally on the smooth muscle lines. They don't feel ugly, but have a "violent" beauty.

If the tattoo on my back is a work of art, then the scar on Ran Qingzhuang's back is also a work of art.The former is full of fantasy, the latter is full of stories.

After Ran Qingzhuang changed his clothes, he went into the bathroom. When he came out, I also put on a show.

We had breakfast together, and asked about Saki, but he didn't say anything, just told me not to worry about it.

When he was about to finish eating, he received a phone call. After seeing the caller, he quickly put down the tableware and walked to the window to answer.

"Sister Hua...I know, I will try my best..."

"You don't have to do this... Mr. Jin doesn't necessarily listen to me..."

The call lasted about 10 minutes, and when he returned to the dining table, Ran Qingzhuang was in no mood to eat, so he drank the remaining juice in the glass and got up to leave.

I peeled off the last shell of the egg in my hand, wrapped it in a tissue, chased him to the door and stopped him, and stuffed the egg into his hand just like yesterday.

It's just that one day he seemed to get used to it, collected the eggs, turned around and left.

Saki didn't come that day, and the weather was not good, and it was still windy in the afternoon.The clouds thickened little by little, brewing and brewing, and suddenly a series of churning thunder and lightning fell, and then it began to rain.

The rain was so heavy that it didn't make sense, as if someone pierced the sky at once, the water flowed fast and the fog was vigorous.

I was thinking that this rain practiced the piano well, and it was quite artistic. Outside, Housekeeper Feng knocked on the door and brought Jin Yuanbao.

I haven't seen him for two days, but he even knew he missed me, and brought a basket of snacks and said he came to visit me.

I sat awkwardly across from him, covering my legs with the table, especially afraid that he would ask me why I didn't wear pants next second.

Fortunately, he didn't ask until the end, as if there was nothing wrong with me being dressed like this, and it wasn't a fancy dress in his eyes.

"Teacher, this is for you. You need to get well soon." The young master stuffed a fortune cookie into my hand, and said earnestly, "When you recover, I will definitely not be lazy in the future."

I took the biscuit, patted his head, and said, "I'll go back to teach you after a few more days. You should practice hard these few days, don't slack off."

I don't know how Jin Chenyu told him the reason for my absence from work these days. He always thought that I had some kind of emergency and no one was taking care of me at home, so he had to go to their home to recuperate.

Jin Yuanbao sat for the whole afternoon, and didn't get up to leave until he had eaten all the snacks he had brought.

I sent him to the door and was saying farewell when I heard a woman's screaming from a distance.

"Let me go! You...you dare to touch me? I am Jin Feisheng's daughter, and I am your master!"

Not long after, Kong Tan and others appeared at the end of the corridor.Ou Kelan's arms were crossed, and he was almost dragging all the way. His hair was disheveled and his makeup was messed up.

Kong Tan impatiently rolled up a ball of cloth in his hand, raised his hand to signal to stop first, Ou Kelan struggled as soon as he stopped, seeing the few of us at the other end of the corridor, his throat cracked.

"Yuanbao! It's me, it's my sister! Find my father for me, hurry up and find my father!!"

Steward Feng blocked Ou Kelan's sight, protected Jin Yuanbao in front of him, and covered the young master's ears with his own hands, preventing him from listening or seeing.

Kong Tan looked over, did not expect Jin Yuanbao to be here, cursed in a low voice, pinched Ou Kelan's mouth, and was about to stuff the cloth in his hand.

Ou Kelan dodged stubbornly, and kept yelling: "Help me find my mother, Jin Chenyu can't treat me like this, I'm his sister, he can't treat me like this! My mother won't let him go Yes, I won't let him go..."

Before he could finish speaking, Kong Tan gagged his mouth and quickened his pace to leave.

Feng Steward didn't move his hand away from Jin Yuanbao's ear until he could no longer hear the sound.

"Uncle Feng, why did she say she was my elder sister? Don't I only have an elder brother?" The young master raised his head and asked innocently.

Steward Feng didn't know what to say to him, he hesitated, and finally said: "She's talking nonsense."

The young master was obviously not very satisfied with his answer, and asked again: "Where are they going?"

Steward Feng looked in the direction and said, "It should be a dungeon. She has done something wrong, no matter whose daughter it is, she will be punished."

The young master is only eight years old, so there are endless whys to ask, and it is especially easy for one question to extend to another.

"Am I going to be punished for doing something wrong?" he asked.

Steward Feng was asked again, so he simply changed the subject and asked him to say goodbye to me.

The child's attention turned quickly, and he didn't feel that he was distracted by Steward Feng, so he waved to me obediently and said, "Goodbye, teacher."

It seemed that Ou Kelan's angry and mournful sobs were still wafting in my ears, I smiled back at him stiffly, closed the door with my backhand when he left, and pressed my chest against the door panel to calm down my violent heartbeat.

Are they going to kill Ou Kelan?No matter how angry Sakamoto is, no matter how important the business is, she is a member of the Jin family after all, how can Jin Feisheng really be so cruel?

But on second thought, if he wasn't ruthless, how could he achieve his current position?Over the years, countless innocent souls have died under his subordinates, even if he thinks about it, he might not be short of an illegitimate daughter who is so proud of him.

Ou Kelan believes that she is favored because of "love", ignoring guilt and pity, always wanting to prove to the world that she has more.But the fact is that even though Jin Feisheng loves her, he loves himself and interests more.

She is the unique "king" in the chess game with Jin Chenyu, but in Jin Feisheng's eyes, she is just a dispensable "soldier" who can be sacrificed wantonly.

The torrential rain fell for a while and gradually became smaller, but the raindrops were still full and loud.

Ou Hua knelt in such rain, just at the gate, and I could see it from the window.

She knelt from dawn to dusk, and no one dared to step forward.I thought she was going to kneel all night, but Ran Qingzhuang came out from the door and opened an umbrella for her.

All the black umbrellas were given to Ou Hua, and Ran Qingzhuang stood in the rain.

I glanced at the still thick clouds in the sky, feeling a little anxious.The rain won't stop for a while, and he's going to get sick like this.

I watched by the window for as long as Ran Qingzhuang held up the umbrella for Ou Hua.About half an hour later, a person came out of the door and passed on something. Ou Hua stood up excitedly. Because he knelt for too long, he lost his balance and almost fell, but was fortunately supported by Ran Qingzhuang.

Only then did I notice that there were still some people standing not far away. Seeing Ou Hua get up, I quickly stepped forward to help and surrounded them.

Ou Hua was dressed in white, which was very conspicuous in the dim light.Pushing away the crowd, she stumbled towards the west, and a group of big men in black followed behind her, anxiously holding umbrellas for her.

Ran Qingzhuang didn't move, he still stood there until Ou Hua entered the west door before walking back with an umbrella.

I had a premonition that Ran Qingzhuang was coming back soon, so I hurried to the bathroom to put hot bath water, and asked the servant to prepare some ginger soup.

After about 10 minutes, Ran Qingzhuang really came back.The clothes on his body were completely soaked, and the tips of his hair were still dripping water. You could feel the chill on his body when you got close.

I went up to meet him with a bath towel in my hand, rubbed my head and neck, and was pushed away by him after a few strokes, saying that I can come by myself.

I took advantage of the situation and went to the table to get the ginger soup that the servant had just brought, and told him that the bathtub was already filled with water, so I asked him to take a dip after drinking the ginger soup.

He rubbed the wet hair on the back of his head with one hand, and took the ginger soup with the other, like a vigilant big cat, he leaned over to smell it, and instantly frowned, with a look of disgust on his face.

"Drink it, you won't catch a cold after drinking it." I held the bottom of the cup and brought it to his mouth.

Reluctantly, he closed his eyes for the last time, finished his drink in two gulps, and returned the glass to me.

I put the cup away, saw the fortune cake that Jin Yuanbao gave me on the table, and took it to coax Ran Qingzhuang, telling him to go to the spicy ginger in his mouth.

Ran Qingzhuang took the cake with a strange expression on his face, he squeezed the cake and took out the label inside to have a look - after the storm, the rainbow will always smile at you.

He immediately sneered, and returned the broken cake and the label to my hand.

I was in a hurry, and before I could say a word, he had already walked into the bathroom.

I ate the biscuits one by one, and after I finished eating, I didn't understand why he had that expression just now. Could it be that he didn't like the fortune in the fortune cookie?

Go to the window and prepare to draw the curtains.Seeing a white car parked downstairs at some point, towards the west of the dungeon, Ou Hua came out in a hurry, behind him was a man carrying a motionless person on his back, who looked like Ou Kelan in his clothes.

A group of people stepped on the rain and mud to send Ou Hua and Ou Kelan to the car, then trotted into a few black cars on the side of the road, and left after a while.

Ou Kelan should not have died, but he was definitely injured.She slapped Hua Shaxi's face, intending to make an example of others, but she failed to find the place, and instead made her mother kneel in the rain to intercede for her. It can be said that she lost all face.Such a severe punishment, let alone earning anything with Jinchenyu in the future, even walking on the island normally, I am afraid that I will not dare to be so arrogant.

That night, I dreamed again, the infirmary in high school.

Spring is the most prone to allergies. Even if I wear a mask all day long, I can't stand the overwhelming pollen attack. My nose is so blocked that I want to go to the infirmary to get some allergy medicine.

When I opened the door and entered, it was quiet inside, there was no sound at all, and there was no health teacher.

The curtain was drawn on the only hospital bed. I thought the teacher was resting, so I cautiously called out to it, "Teacher, is anyone there?"

"Yes." The curtain was pulled open the next moment, and Ran Qingzhuang was lying on the bed with one hand on his head, his face full of sleepiness.

I tore off the mask, was amazed, and opened the curtain further: "Why are you here?"

"Hypoglycemia."

Deceiving.

Maybe my expression was too obvious, Ran Qingzhuang raised his eyebrows and said, "Really, I didn't have breakfast."

"Why don't you eat?"

"It's too late, stay in bed." He admitted generously, without hiding anything.

I thought it was not good for him to do this, so I persuaded him: "The plan of the day is in the morning, and the most important thing is to have a meal in the morning. You are not good for your health."

Ran Qingzhuang picked out his ears and looked at me with a funny face: "Why are you like my grandma? What are you doing here?"

I put the mask back on, sniffed at my almost stagnant nose, and said, "I'm allergic to pollen, my nose is blocked, I'm here to ask for allergy medicine."

"Oh, the health care teacher just went out, and I don't know when he will be back." He stepped aside, patted the bed next to him, and said with a smile, "Why don't you come up and wait? I will share half of the bed with you."

I stared at the bed he had vacated for a while, then finally shook my head and said, "No, I'll come back next class."

After speaking, no matter how he called my name behind him, he still left without looking back.As a result, my nose was stuffy and I was stuffy wearing a mask. After walking a few steps, I started to pant. I leaned against the wall and took off the mask to rest for a long time before my heartbeat returned to normal.

When I went to the infirmary during the lunch break, Ran Qingzhuang was no longer there.The health care teacher gave me an anti-allergy medicine. Although my nose was not completely healed in the afternoon, it was no longer so blocked.

Opening his eyes suddenly, his ears were filled with the sound of rain hitting the window, the ground, and the eaves. The room was pitch black, but he could still vaguely see the figure of another person on the bed.

With his back facing me, Ran Qingzhuang just put a corner of the quilt on his waist and slept deeply.

The last moment I was still in high school and in the infirmary, I was a little confused, and it took me a while to come back to my senses.

So many years have passed.Who would have thought that we would end up sleeping in the same bed after all the goings and turns...

Arms stretched out, fingertips hesitated and stopped when they were about to touch Ran Qingzhuang, turned around, and landed on the quilt.

I slowly rubbed over, and covered Ran Qingzhuang with more quilts, resting my head on his pillow, and closed my eyes safely again.

It rained all night and didn't stop until early in the morning. Ran Qingzhuang went out early and didn't have dinner with me that day.

Sashi came to see me after lunch, her face was covered with conspicuous gauze, but her expression was very relaxed, she didn't look like she was wronged at all.

"The doctor said that there will be no scars. If there are faint marks, you can usually cover them with powder." She touched the gauze, pouted, and said angrily, "I just want to take a photo of the casino. That The woman came over aggressively when she saw it, not only snatched my phone and deleted all the photos, but also called me a stupid pig who couldn't read. I was so angry that I quarreled with her, and she scratched me with a broken wine bottle face, and someone threw me out of the casino."

"Fortunately, Mr. Jin and his son are very sensible. They tied up the woman yesterday and said that she was at my disposal. I scratched her arms and legs many times with broken glass, cut her hair, and slapped her. She slapped her dozens of times. She stared at me like she was going to eat me. Later, when I said she was looking at me like that, I poked her eyes blind. Then she got scared and kept begging for mercy, saying she Don’t dare anymore, and said that she is Mr. Jin’s daughter, and asked me to let her go.”

"You can torture such a young lady, why should I let her go?"

Speaking of this, a strange look appeared on her face, as if her blood was about to boil with excitement, and she seemed to be satisfied with supreme pleasure.

Sure enough, those who can stay with people like Sakamoto will not be normal people in the strict sense.

From Saki's point of view, retaliation with violence is the simplest and clearest thing.In her world, power is the rule, and money can buy everything.

No, not only her, but everyone on this island.There are no laws here, just horrible classes.Jin Feisheng covers the sky with one hand, and human life is just an insignificant bargaining chip in his hand.There is a mountain of chips of various colors piled up behind him, divided according to face value, some are more valuable, some are cheaper, he keeps pushing them out, throwing them away when he loses, throwing them behind him when he wins, and continuing to the next gamble.

Chips with a large face value may be favored by him for a while, but it is only for a while. When it comes time to give up, he is more decisive than anyone else.

"You're scared." Sahi tilted her head, seemed distressed, and asked with a puzzled expression, "Why?"

Because you looked too much like a perverted killer just now...

Of course I couldn't say that, so I casually found an excuse: "I'm a little afraid of blood..."

"Are you afraid just by listening?"

"Ah."

"You are so timid."

After looking at my back and confirming that it is in good shape and will fully recover in a few days, Saki got up and said goodbye.

"Mr. Sakamoto is busy, we will go back tomorrow. When your wound heals, he will send someone to take a photo of you, just take a back shot, and you will become the newest member of his album after the photo is taken."

I nodded casually and sent her out the door.

Originally, there is a wrong and a debtor in this matter, Ou Kelan hates Jin Feisheng, hates Jin Chenyu, hates Sakamoto, hates Saki, it shouldn't be me.But there are some things that don't make sense. Ou Kelan's brain circuits are different from ordinary people. I'm afraid that even Zhuge Liang can't keep up with her rhythm when he is alive.

I never thought that across the corridor, I was on this side, she was on the other side, just seeing her in a mess would be the reason for her to take revenge on me in the future.