Inferior by Nature

I have always believed that there is a cycle of karma, and I also believe that retribution is not good.The death of Lao Ji and my illness are the best proof.

Because of betraying his family and being unfaithful to his marriage, Lao Ji suffered retribution and died an ugly death.I...was punished by God because I did something wrong.So I didn't feel that I was wronged, and I didn't blame others. On the contrary, I felt a sense of relief that "it's finally here".

Since I was a child, my mother has been very strict with me. Later, when my father died and the whole family was supported by her, she was stricter with me and had higher expectations.

I started to learn the cello when I was four years old. At that time, my father was still there, and the family conditions were fair. It was nothing to learn to cultivate artistic talents.But later, my mother was the only pillar left in my family, and the family income dropped sharply. I shouldn't have to learn this kind of expensive musical instrument, but my mother didn't allow it.

What is the family like when there are men, and what is the family like when there are no men.Although she never said it, I could understand her stubbornness.She just wants others to see that she, Bai Xiuying, even if the man is dead, can cultivate us into talents by herself.

My mother is very hard, my mother is not easy.In order to let her worry, I never need her to worry about reading and practicing the piano; I don't feel embarrassed about taking care of my sister and taking care of housework, because these are what I, the only man in this family, should do.As long as it can reduce my mother's burden and do something for this family, I am willing to try anything.

That's why I'm so happy when I know that the school has a university recommendation quota, and this quota can also get an outstanding graduate scholarship.

I want to fight for this spot, I dream of it.

But sometimes, things don't go as they should.Although my grades are very good, the school's selection of candidates is not only based on grades.

At that time, apart from me, the other most promising candidate for the quota was Lin Sheng. Regardless of his appearance, family background, or grades, he had a faint advantage over me.And unlike me, who just concentrates on studying and doesn't understand the world, he is very popular at school, and the teachers like him too.

Some people struggle to get what they want, and what they work hard to maintain, others can easily have.There was never a moment when I understood a truth like that—it turns out that the gap between people can be so small and so big.

If I don't do something else, I'm going to lose.But how can I lose?

He obviously has everything, why did he come to rob me?

The emotion of resentment is so vivid, burning my heart and lungs, so that I am a little surprised when I recall it now, that I care so much.

Then came the retribution.

I forgot why I didn't go home after school that day, maybe I was practicing piano at school.When I walked through the long corridor and stopped in front of a classroom door, through the glass window on the door, I saw Lin Sheng and Ran Qingzhuang in the classroom.

The two kissed selflessly, completely unaware of my arrival.

In an environment where both men and women are not allowed to fall in love early, one can imagine how earth-shattering and world-shattering the love affair between two men is.

I could have chosen to just pretend nothing happened and walk away, but I didn't.

I reported them.

This incident caused quite a stir, one was a promising three-good student, and the other was a bad boy who had no father and no mother, causing trouble all day long, and almost all the blame was pointed at Ran Qingzhuang.

He was the one who led Lin Sheng down, and he was the one who seduced him.He is a cancer, he should be removed.

In the end, Ran Qingzhuang was forced to drop out of school and disappeared, while Lin Sheng was sent out of the country by his parents and never came back.I became the only beneficiary of this incident, and I successfully got the recommended place and entered the music department of a top-ranking university.And because of that generous scholarship, my mother has finally been able to breathe a sigh of relief over the years, temporarily away from the pressure of life, and no longer worry about money so much.

Although if you give me another chance, I might still do that, but now that I think about it, it may be a test given to me by God, and it may not necessarily be.It set two paths before me, and I took the wrong one, and became a disgraced informer, and deserved a sickness and a terrible death.

This is my retribution.

I used disgraceful means to win, changed the original bright future of the two people, and ruined a beautiful marriage.I enjoyed everything that didn't belong to me, for eight full years.Now, it's time to go back.

In the last days, being able to meet Ran Qingzhuang today must be another revelation from God!If I can get his forgiveness before I die, it will absolve me of my sins.

Walking quickly on the corridor, it was raining outside at some point, and the dazzling lightning in the mixed clouds indicated the arrival of a thunderstorm in the near future.

The raindrops hit the huge banana leaves in the courtyard, and the sound is straight. It is the original music, which is in stark contrast to the melodious and gorgeous dance music in the distance. The two sounds merge together and penetrate into the ear canal, giving people a sense of magic in a trance. sense of fragmentation.It's like being in different dimensions at the same time.

"Brother Yao, it seems that the guests will not be able to leave the island today, and there will be big storms soon."

"Just happened a while ago, don't take it lightly."

"understood."

I walked blindly alone, and no one stopped me, and I walked into a square corridor without knowing it.Looking down from the second floor, it happens to be a garden full of vegetation.

Through the dim light, one could see several men in black suits standing under the eaves slantingly below, chatting with each other, smoky and smoking.

I was on the second floor, covered by vegetation and rain, they didn't find me.

Half-closed my eyes, I wanted to see more clearly, but I couldn't see if there was Ran Qingzhuang inside.

"Brother Yao, why don't you stay in there? What a great opportunity, no one else can ask for it."

The person called "Brother Yao" replied indifferently: "It's too noisy."

"Brother Yao is indifferent to fame and wealth, unlike that rotten snake who wants to show himself in front of the eldest son all day long, guarding against us is the same as guarding against thieves. Brothers pay attention to loyalty, but he is good, just like Gong Dou, suspicious This one doubts that one. If he overturns his car one day, I will definitely light a cannon to celebrate!"

"Add me, I've already seen that dead bald guy not pleasing to the eye."

"His mother gave birth to him, it would be better to give birth to a marinated egg!"

"Fuck, I love marinated eggs, you can't say that about it!"

The more they scolded, the more they scolded the eighteen generations of the ancestors of that "salted egg".Maybe it was too ugly, so brother threw the cigarette butt from his lips to his feet, and finally said: "Okay, don't say it."

As the smoke dissipated, the man's eyebrows and eyes gradually became clearer, deeper and stiffer than when he was young, and he was tall, at least 1.9 meters...

It was Ran Qingzhuang.

"Let's go, go outside." After the man finished speaking, he turned around and was about to leave.

No, you can't let him go again!

I even forgot that I could call out to stop the other party first, so I rushed down the stairs behind me in a panic.

It's only one floor, and I never thought that the stairs of more than ten meters were so long.

Fortunately, when I rushed downstairs, few of them did not go far.

At both ends of the corridor, I was panting violently, and instead of chasing him, I just called out his name to his back.

"Ran Qingzhuang!"

The man walking in the middle stopped suddenly, turned his head with his hands in his pockets, squinted and looked in my direction.

When he got closer, he discovered that there was a string of black tattoos on his neck, with four numbers - 0417.

Nanxian said that the members of the Union Group, from the top to the bottom, each have a string of exclusive digital tattoos on their bodies, which is the symbol of their club members.

So... Ran Qingzhuang has really become a running dog of the Jin family.

Why?He clearly said that he would not follow his father's old path again...

I don't know if it's because I was nervous or I just chased too fast, but my knees are shaking right now.

He looked at me for a long time, his eyes slowly tracing my face and body, which made me very uncomfortable.In the end, probably because he finally recognized me, he said something to the people around him, and walked towards me alone, while the others left quickly.

"It's so unlucky," he put a cigarette into his mouth, bowed his head and "snapped" it on fire, stopped about two meters away from me, and sprayed a puff of white smoke from his mouth and nose while speaking, "Meet you guy .”

The choking smell of smoke floated towards me, hitting my glasses head-on, like a layer of fog.

It's ugly enough to speak.

Pursing my lips, as if I didn't notice his unkindness, I put a fake smile on my face and said, "What a coincidence, I didn't expect to meet you here. You...do you work here?"

He smoked without saying a word, looking down at the purple corsage on my chest.It was a small cluster of grape hyacinths, and when we went to the island, everyone in the band was given a bouquet, and the distinguished guests in the banquet hall wore corsages of golden wheat ears.

"I am, I came with my friends..." I touched the corsage and said, "It's in the banquet hall, doing party performances..."

"What exactly do you want to say?" Ran Qingzhuang interrupted me impatiently, tilting his head.

Staring at him blankly, I was somewhat stopped by his question.

The rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, and the wall lamps in the corridor imitated the dance of candles, casting flickering light and shadows on Ran Qingzhuang's face.

"I...I just wanted to say...sorry to you." I wasn't sure if my apology was conveyed well, the rain was too loud, and my voice was too low.

He looked at me for a long time, holding a cigarette in his hand and holding it to his lips.

The rain hit the corridor, slightly dampening half of the body, and tiny drops of water were also stained on the glasses.

"Sick." Throwing down two words with a little disgust, Ran Qingzhuang took two steps back, then turned around, and strode forward.

He doesn't care about me at all...

His vision was distorted by the rain, and Ran Qingzhuang's figure gradually blurred.I don't know where the courage came from. After being stunned for two seconds, I ran after him and grabbed his wrist from behind.

Ran Qingzhuang lowered his head, glanced at his hands, and said coldly, "Let go."

I flinched uncontrollably, but still held him tightly and didn't let go.

"Can you forgive me?"

Can you forgive me, pardon my sins, and let me die with no regrets?

Ran Qingzhuang's jaw tightened, he raised his eyes and looked directly at me, he didn't speak, but his terrifying expression already foreshadowed everything - if he didn't let go, he was going to beat me up.

"Well, you give me your mobile phone number. We will contact you when you feel better..." I still held him with one hand, and reached into my trouser pocket with the other hand, trying to get out my mobile phone.Don't want to take it out, the body was violently swung away by a force.

I slammed into the white wall on one side hard, the phone slipped out and fell to the ground not far away.

There was a sharp pain in my shoulder, I clutched my wound and raised my head to look at Ran Qingzhuang helplessly.

As if flicking something dirty, he straightened his sleeves, and then walked towards the other end of the corridor without looking at me.

When I can no longer see him, I am like an old oiled movement, struggling to start running again from a standstill.

I picked up the phone from the ground and checked it. As expected, the screen was cracked from the upper left corner to the lower right corner. There were two small forks in the middle like antlers. Fortunately, it was not serious, and it was still usable.

"I'm just sick..."

Sighing, I wiped off the water stains on the screen with the palm of my hand, I stood in the dark corridor and muttered softly.