Don't spread rumors, who is your wife?

Taking advantage of the red light, Zhang Feng looked through the mirror at Shen Yu, who was leaning on the back seat with her eyes closed.He doesn't really understand it very well, but whenever he can't figure it out, when he can't understand it, he asks himself, why is he?At this time, he didn't worry about it anymore.It's just a pity, it's a pity that the person who makes Shen Yu think about it is not herself.

Now, he was driving the drunk Shen Yu home, oh no, he was planning to send Shen Yu home who was drunk because of Kan Ze.It has been a long time, and Shen Yu's life after Kan Ze disappeared is to go to work and then drink, and his sober time is probably only a few hours of work.

In many nights, Zhang Feng wondered whether people have their own destiny, maybe fatalism can be believed, otherwise why Shen Yu's mentality has not changed for so many years, Shen Yu has not been able to see herself?

He had heard of the name "Kan Ze" a long time ago, but he never thought about this name at that time. The person represented by this name would leave important traces in his life in the future, and would be important to his life. Such a big impact.

Many years ago, Zhang Feng accidentally saw a photo in Shen Yu's book.The teenager in the photo is about fourteen or fifteen years old, sitting on a chair under a tree, expressionless and a little numb.The gray short-sleeves she was wearing were washed white, and the trousers were also dusty, so there was really no beauty in them.

The photo may have been taken too long, and the corners have been slightly wrinkled.Sandwiched in the book, it blends with the fragrance of pen and ink between the papers.This was the first time Zhang Feng saw Kan Ze. At that time, he didn't know that the person in the photo was called Kan Ze.

It's just that there are many opportunities to know later.

There is really nothing beautiful in the photos, but he also has selfish intentions, maliciously ignoring the beauty in the boy's eyebrows.

Although the teenage boy has no expression, he can still see the handsomeness of the boy between his eyebrows and eyes. It is not difficult to see how many people will be fascinated by him when he grows up.

Later Kan Ze did not disappoint when he grew up.

Not long after seeing the photo, Zhang Feng knew the boy's name, and also knew about Shen Yu and him.

Shen Yu's grandfather was an old teacher. After his wife passed away, he didn't want to live with his daughter and son-in-law, and still lived alone in the old house.Shen Yu's mother felt sorry for the old man living alone, but she couldn't say anything, so she often sent Shen Yu to be with the old man during the holidays.

At that time, Kan Ze's family lived upstairs, and Shen Yu had met Kan Ze many times, but he had no chance to meet him or talk to him.

Maybe I didn't know much at a very young age, but when I didn't have any friends, I met Kan Ze, who was not much different in age, and fell in love with him.

What happened later seemed to be a matter of course, but it was regrettable.

For several years in a row, Shen Yu would see Kan Ze during the holidays, and the latter was the name of Kan Ze that his grandfather told him.Grandpa said that was a poor child.

Maybe it's been a long time, so I missed it.

Finally, Shen Yu talked to Kan Ze again. When Shen Yu met Kan Ze, he took the initiative to talk to him and made an appointment to bring him food tomorrow.Shen Yu was very enthusiastic, and Kan Ze was forced to accept.

It's just that the so-called "tomorrow" comes, and what arrives is the news of grandpa's fall and the news of them moving back home.

After that, Shen Yu never saw Kan Ze again.

Later, he heard that Kan Ze's mother had passed away.When he was studying abroad and asked his grandfather to look after his eyes, his grandfather told him that Kan Ze had left with a woman.

The news later was that Kan Ze returned to the old building after taking the university entrance examination, and met his grandfather who moved back home again.

Shen Yu asked his grandfather Kan Ze the name of the university he was admitted to, and when he returned to China again, it was because his grandfather died of illness.

Birth, old age, sickness and death are always inevitable, but no one will say that they are calm.

Before going abroad, Shen Yu went to Kan Ze's school, and after a long time in the school, he saw Kan Ze again.Kan Ze at that time was not quite the same as he remembered.There was a boy next to him. The two of them walked together to go to the playground. For some reason, Kan Ze smiled happily.

It was nothing like the person in my memory.

Shen Yu was both happy and sad.

He is happy that Kan Ze seems to be doing well now, but he feels sad.

He couldn't find the boy who didn't look very good.In the past, he thought that he could make that boy happy, and he always felt that one day Kan Ze's smile should belong to him.

I don't know if it's human nature.

In fact, he has never done anything for Kan Ze, so why should he expect that Kan Ze will smile at him.

.............

The car stopped, Kan Ze got out of the car and looked at the building in front of him, then walked in.He didn't dislike psychiatrists, but after all, he still didn't like the atmosphere of talking with psychiatrists.

Most of the psychiatrists have to see through your psychology and see your problems, good or bad, which makes Kan Ze feel that he has no privacy in front of the psychiatrist.

This feeling is very insecure.

However, there is no such thing as a sense of security in his current life.He didn't even have a home, and he didn't even have any friends or emotions.

Seeing a psychiatrist doesn't seem to be an irresistible thing anymore.

Although it was a feeling when he thought about it, he still felt a strong discomfort when he sat on the sofa facing the so-called "psychiatrist".

Beside the psychiatrist just sat down, Kan Ze got up within two seconds, and after hastily saying "I'm sorry", Kan Ze walked out of the building quickly.Reaching out to hail a taxi, Kan Ze said, "Go to the train station."

When Kan Ze was standing at the train station, he saw an advertisement, and he thought, why not just go here.

When Ke Muxun began to feel pain from this decision, Kan Ze was leaning on a rocking chair in the homestay and basking in the sun.

Kan Ze came to Dali after many twists and turns, and he found a village near the ancient city.Living in a famous hotel, I go out for a walk occasionally, and most of the time I just lie on the rocking chair and look at the Erhai Lake next to it, blowing the wind.

This kind of life is very different from his previous life experience. At the beginning, he was uncomfortable and used to it, but after a few days, he began to enjoy this kind of life.

Without a destination, he booked a room for two weeks.I stayed in the room at the beginning, and I rarely talked to other people when I went out occasionally.Later, Mingsu's boss started asking him to have dinner with them.It may be that seeing him alone is too lonely.

The boss was very enthusiastic, and Kan Ze reluctantly joined their dinner after refusing to be fruitless.

The boss is a local, and the family speaks mandarin with a strong accent, and Kan Ze can barely understand a few words.They asked him why he came to play alone, how long he would stay here, and why he didn't go out to play.

They asked a lot, Kan Ze answered some, but not others.

In the end, just remember that the dishes here will put a lot of chili, which is very spicy, but delicious, and the boiled fish is the best.

In the days that followed, they would call him when it was time to eat, which solved his problem of eating.But Kan Ze was too embarrassed to keep on eating, and was rejected when he gave them money.Kan Ze had no choice but to buy a lot of vegetables when he was out shopping, but the dishes were accepted, and Kan Ze was relieved.

In the following days, Kan Ze often went out to buy vegetables and came back, using the right to pay for his meals.

And for this kind of slow life, it didn't take long for Kan Ze to go from being unaccustomed to it at the beginning to gradually getting used to it later.

He still thinks about those unhappy things, but it's much better than when he had to be advised to see a psychiatrist.The wind here seems to have a magical power that will blow away sorrow.

Kan Ze would lean on the rocking chair in the evening and look at the crescent moon above his head, which was curved and bright, and the sky next to him was very blue, without any other pollution.The wind was also very comfortable, and the sea water slapped the shore one after another.

At this time, Kan Ze would think of those past events, those memories that should have been dusted.

But this kind of time didn't last long. After getting acquainted with the boss's family, they would call him in the evening and tell him that it was too cold outside, don't blow the wind outside, or he would catch a cold.

They will take him to a room with a brazier in the middle, give him a small bench, and let him sit and warm himself by the fire.They would take out something like a cake, they would ask him if he would eat bait, and before he could answer, they would hand him the baked bait and tell him what to add.They will also tell him, don't be restrained, treat it as your own home.

Kan Ze didn't quite understand what they said.He later found out that they were local aborigines, people of the Bai nationality, who spoke the Bai dialect, and when they spoke Mandarin, they also had a strong Bai accent.

It's just that after a long time, Kan Ze can guess what they mean by listening to it.

This kind of life is very leisurely, and sometimes Kan Ze also helps them look after the store. Day by day, Kan Ze falls in love with this kind of life. When he is here, he feels very comfortable.

He still thinks about the past, but he doesn't think of the previous experience, either suppressing in the apartment or going to the bar to get drunk.At this time, he felt relaxed and happy.

He has no home anymore, but if he had to choose a place to live alone in the future, he thought, maybe this would be his best choice.

Kan Ze is planning to stay here, not for two weeks, but here.

Stay here, live, retire.

As for those broken memories, he doesn't have to let himself forget them, it's part of him.It may be painful, but the pain can make him remember the beauty that comes with the pain.

He no longer needs a psychiatrist, he has to save himself.He couldn't let himself be trapped.

He believed, without him.Aunt Qiao, Uncle Ke, and Ke Muxun will all be fine.He doesn't have to worry. Although he made a mistake, life will get better little by little. It is enough for him to bear these mistakes.