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Whether it's when you close your eyes but can't fall asleep, or when you lose your mind for a short time, for a long time, Chen Jin will hear disgusting panting sounds in his ears, just like intermittent tinnitus, always in your brain When it stops working, it surges and cannot be ignored.

Fortunately, the company has been very busy recently, so he simply locked himself in the office, except for necessary meetings and interviews, he almost never stepped out of that room.

He seldom smoked, but one day he discovered that the secretary put a whole carton of cigarettes on the table in the morning, and there were only two packs left before he got off work.

He hardly slept much, in fact, he was not so busy that he didn't even have time to sleep, but he didn't dare to sleep, and he didn't dare to relax.

It was so decadent, but the body gradually got better.

After all, he has good physical fitness. If that kind of injury happened to someone else, he probably wouldn't even dare to sit, let alone be in the mood to work, but he managed to hold on. Even during that time, it was really difficult.

It's like being bitten by a dog.

But he still hates.

Not hating myself for being bitten by a dog, but hating myself for not even being able to avenge Shaw.

The scars on the body are easy to heal, but the scars on the mind are getting bigger and bigger when he doesn't know it. One day, when he finds himself breaking out in a cold sweat just because someone suddenly walked by behind him, Chen Jin realizes that something is wrong. .

Only then did I realize that even if I ignored it, that period of shame was hiding deep in my memory like a poisonous snake, ready to rush out and bite him at any time.

He didn't know what else to do but reduce his contact with other people.

For a long time, he didn't even dare to see Shaw.

It's not that I don't want to see it, but I dare not.He misses Shaw a lot, and just listening to him talk, or just making eye contact with him, he can be healed.

They didn't see each other for more than two months until Shaw came back from Hong Kong.

That day, Davis, who had returned from a business trip for many days, made an appointment to go out for a drink, and the other party was taken aback when he saw him.

"what happened to you?"

Chen Jin also knows that he has been very haggard recently, and what is haggard is not his body, but his state.Although others can't tell, but Davis has been friends for many years, so they can tell something is wrong at a glance.

Chen Jin just smiled: "I've been a little insomnia lately."

"Insomnia?" Davis nudged him nervously, "Could it be because of Shaw again?"

Chen Jin smiled noncommittally, abruptly stopped the movement of wanting to dodge, and instead raised his hand to wrap Davis' shoulder, the passive and active touch reassured him a little.

The two walked into the bar. Chen Jin hadn't been here for a long time. The bartender he knew well specially presented a bottle of good wine and several fruit plates to welcome them.

Sitting down in the old seat, the two of them chatted casually, and occasionally talked about the things they used to study, most of which revolved around Shaw.

After all, when they were studying, although the two were both members of the student union and their friendship was not bad, they were not close friends. It was not until later because of Shaw that the two became close friends who talked about everything.

Years of unrequited love, the one who feels the most pity is not Chen Jin, but Davis.

Davis is a person with a clear distinction between love and hate. He couldn't let go of what Yan Minglang did to Shaw back then, so he dismissed the opportunity of being poached by Yan's headhunters.

So emotionally, he sympathizes with Chen Jin.

"I heard that he was walking with Yan Minglang again recently?" Davis knew a lot about what happened here even though he traveled all over the world most of the time.

Chen Jin nodded.

Davis sighed: "He also suffered from a broken brain. Wasn't that loss hard enough?"

Chen Jin didn't say anything.

He has nothing to say about it.In fact, he has always known that Shaw will never develop a relationship with him as a lover. If that person can be forgiven and give Shaw happiness, he actually doesn't feel sad.

Just still not reconciled.

For more than five years after Shaw was sent away, both he and Davis knew that Yan Minglang was not having a good time.In the beginning, the Yan family hid it well, but over time, there were gradually some rumors, perhaps because Yan Minglang had recovered, and the Yan family didn't spend any more effort to hide anything, so they also knew something inside.

What's more, when they saw Lan Qing and Yan Minglang walking together later, they more or less guessed what was going on.

Later, Yan Minglang seemed to suddenly regain his memory and began to look for Shaw. Of course, both he and Davis were in the scope of the key questioning. Maybe he really regretted it. He didn't want to embarrass a very important friend to Shaw. Yan Minglang didn't take advantage of it. Yan's forces put pressure on them.

They insisted that they didn't know anything, and Yan Minglang had no choice.

Later, he gradually stopped looking for it, but when we encountered it occasionally, it could be seen that he had changed a lot.

In the past, Yan Minglang was cold, arrogant and unkind, and he is still like this now, it's just that kind of unkind, with a kind of decadence that he doesn't care about anything.

Regardless of his selfishness or Davis' grievances, he felt that Shaw didn't need to know this, and he didn't deliberately conceal it, but there was no need to say it at all.

But unexpectedly, Shaw came back.

Maybe this is fate.

Chen Jin didn't drink much that day, but Davsi was depressed and drank too much.

As he was carrying Davis out of the bar, he had a small collision with someone.

Because he lowered his head and didn't pay attention, when he raised his head, he saw Yan Minghe.

Yan Minghe didn't notice him at first, but turned his head inadvertently when he felt that he was hit on the shoulder by the drunk man next to him.

It has been more than two months since the last incident, and there were many occasions where the two might meet, but they each avoided intentionally or unintentionally.

Both looked a little haggard.

Chen Jin's pupils contracted, and he took a big step to the side almost subconsciously, but there was still a tall and drunk western man on his body, so he couldn't stand firmly on that foot, and was pressed by a strong force and fell to the side past.

Yan Minghe also took a step forward subconsciously. When he realized it, he had already been hit and slipped by the inertia of two adult men falling, and his back hit the wall heavily.

Yan Minghe snorted.

The scorching breath sprayed on the back of his neck, and the deliberately forgotten memories suddenly became clear. Chen Jin's scalp was numb and his whole body was trembling. He wanted to get up, but Davis was still pressing heavily on him.

The heat of the broad chest burned his reason through the thin fabric, and he didn't know where the strength came from. He pushed Davis away, turned around without warning, and punched him.

Yan Minghe was hit on the side of the head. After a pause of less than a second, he quickly shot, caught Chen Jin's chin, and threw him against the wall.

The neon lights of the bar shone on the young man's face, mottled his face, and he couldn't see his face clearly, but he could feel the young man trembling slightly.

A strange feeling surged up, and at the same time Yan Minghe let go, the opponent's fist was in front of him again.

"Damn." Dodging with a low curse, Yan Minghe stood up in embarrassment, looked at the young man sitting there against the wall gasping for breath, and swallowed the cursed words when he reached his mouth.

Chen Jin closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, he didn't look at Yan Minghe again, and slowly stood up while leaning on the wall.

Although he wished to skin the man, but after glancing at Davis lying next to him, he finally chose to be patient.

Yan Minghe watched him staggeringly help the drunk man to leave, followed a few steps forward involuntarily, but stopped soon.

Until Chen Jin got into the car, he still stood there, watching the car leave.

I don't know what's wrong in my heart, I feel a little astringent, which is very strange.

In fact, he sometimes felt that what he did that time seemed a bit too much, but for a person who is used to pride, his self-esteem does not allow himself to bow his head because of such a "small matter".

Probably a large part of the reason is that a man like Chen Jin slept with someone else, although it was a bit tragic, except that he felt like he had a fly choked in his throat, there would be no other feelings.

But the matter between him and Chen Jin was finally discovered by Shaw.

When he was approached, Yan Minghe's reaction was - it's over.

He knew how important Chen Jin was to Shaw's heart, but he didn't expect that Shaw's reaction would be so intense.

He used the excuse of being drunk to hide his inner sadism, but Shaw saw through it at a glance. He didn't know that this person could be so sharp.

Then he knew his sharp reason.

He really didn't think about it.

Chen Jin is different from Shaw. Shaw makes people feel distressed involuntarily. Just being hurt by someone's finger can make him feel uncomfortable for a long time. As for Lan Qing's harm to him, although he didn't show it in front of Shaw , but God knows that he almost tortured Lan Qing to death that day.

Even Xue Qing said after seeing the miserable situation, your method is not much worse than mine back then.

Then, now he suddenly discovered that he had also hurt someone.

Even though they both like the same person, it's never a rivalry. Shaw's heart is on Yan Minglang, and he and Chen Jin even feel a little bit connected by fate.

What happened that time was considered a misunderstanding, but the sadism he wanted to vent and make another person suffer was real, and he couldn't deceive himself anymore.

That was probably the first time Shaw cried in front of him, even after that rescue, he never cried.

Shaw was disappointed in him.

And he himself...was disappointed.

Chen Jin, Chen Jin... Jin... Xiao Jin.

Xiao Jin...

He seems to have called him that before, right?

Did he ever hold him when he was full moon?Such a small guy, at that time, he should have been trembling for fear of bumping into him.When Chen Jin was born, he was already 12 years old.He was a whole year older than him, but he never thought of forbearance and care.