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"Sir, here we are."

The driver’s reminder brought me back to my senses, and I realized that I was immersed in the memories of the past at some point. Those unbearable pasts have been gone for a long time, but once I opened the dusty memory box, I ran out all at once. , The piles and piles are all vivid.

I breathed a sigh of relief and said thanks.

This is the community where Chen Jin's parents live, and it was Chen Jin's father who opened the door for me.

"Uncle, hello, I'm Shaw, here to pick Vito home."

Seeing me startled, he smiled and stepped aside: "Come in. Vito is still eating cake."

"It's really troublesome for you." I bowed politely and followed Mr. Chen into the door.

Vito was sitting in the dining room eating dessert, Mrs. Chen was sitting beside her, her eyes fixed on him, her eyes were gentle and her expression was doting.

"Vito, look, who's here?"

Vito turned to see me and said happily, "Dad, come quickly, we have left a cake for you."

Mrs. Chen looked up at me with a twinkle in her eyes.She probably already knew that I was the chief culprit for his son coming out, and she was a bit embarrassed.

"Auntie, first time meeting, I'm Shaw."

She nodded slightly, she was not warm, but she was definitely not indifferent, I know, that is the basic self-restraint of a noble lady.

I was dragged by Vito to the dining table, where there was still an unopened cheesecake.

"Dad, eat quickly."

The cake was a bit icy, and I couldn't bear to disappoint Vito, so I held it in my mouth and didn't swallow it until it was warm.

Mr. Chen said: "Chen Jin has something to go out, you sit here for a while, he will come back later to take you back."

I looked up at him and said "yes".

After eating the cake with Vito and clearing the dining table, we sat on the sofa in the living room. Mrs. Chen turned on the TV and played an English cartoon. Vito is already familiar with them, sitting on Mrs. Chen's lap, chatting with her about what is playing from time to time.

Mr. Chen asked me: "I would like to say that you just arrived today, why did you come back suddenly?"

I turned slightly to face him: "I need it for work."

"Really? I don't know what your job is yet?"

"Wrote something, published a few novels."

Mr. Chen seemed to be interested, and adjusted his sitting posture: "Novelist? What type of novel do you write?"

"Only three detective suspense novels have been published so far."

"I don't know if country Z has your published book."

"Probably not. If uncle is interested, I will ask a friend to send me two copies."

He nodded and said with a smile: "Then I will trouble you. Are you coming back this time to collect material for a novel?"

I briefly explained the matter, and Mr. Chen showed a slightly surprised expression. He said: "Xue Qing is not an ordinary person. Since he admires you so much, it seems that I really have to read your masterpiece."

I quickly said a few words of humility.

While chatting, Chen Jin came back.

He didn't know why he was in a daze. He stood for a while before coming over and asked, "It's getting late, should Vito go to bed? Shall I take you back?"

I hugged Vito and said goodbye to the two old people. Mrs. Chen patted Vito's head and said to me, "Come often when I have time."

I know she is not being polite to me, even though she doesn't like me, but I can see that she really likes Vito.

I smiled and nodded.

After returning home, he bathed Vito and sent him to bed. When he came out, Chen Jin was still sitting in the living room.

I saw him in a daze, hesitated for a moment, he had heard my footsteps, and turned his head.I had no choice but to walk over and ask, "Why haven't you returned yet?"

He sat there, looking at me quietly, without speaking for a long time.

I hesitated and sat down.

He stood up suddenly, squatted in front of me, put his hands on the sofa on both sides of my legs, and looked up at me.

"Shaw," he said, "during this time in country Z, can I be allowed to pursue you? Before we were separated by half the world, I couldn't do anything, I could bear it, but now you are right in front of my eyes, I can't do nothing but look at you."

I froze.For six years, even though he never hid his love for me, he never brought it up.I was waiting for time to dilute his feelings for me, but I didn't expect that six years later, he would suddenly say such a thing.

I was at a loss for what to do, the words of refusal came to my lips, but I couldn't utter them, but it was impossible for me to agree to him. I knew my heart, and I couldn't fool myself, let alone him.

After a moment of silence, I opened my mouth.

He suddenly raised his body, and his soft lips covered mine. He didn't penetrate deeply, just a kiss like a superficial kiss made him tremble uncontrollably.

He held my shoulders and looked at me with bright eyes.

"Shaw, don't reject me, I am not forcing you to accept me, just, please give me a chance."

I looked at him, and after a long time, I still shook my head.

"I'm sorry, sir."

He took a breath and stared into my eyes tightly. The disappointed and painful appearance made me feel so uncomfortable that I was about to suffocate.However, I can't give him any hope, because I know that whether it is a year or ten years, I only have friendship with him as a friend.

Otherwise, I couldn't have hidden him and let Davis help me when I was most vulnerable.

Instead of rejecting him when he is getting deeper, it is better not to give him a chance from the beginning, even though I know that the feelings that have been settled for so many years are already very deep.I can't go on any longer. I have experienced the kind of despair that cannot be loved. I can fully understand how painful Chen Jin is now. However, I have experienced it. Only by completely cutting off is salvation.

From that day on, I began to avoid Chen Jin, but I didn't do it too deliberately. Whenever he asked me if I was free or if I was at home, whether he said he was looking for me or Vito, seven times out of ten I would tell him He and I are busy.

A few days later, Davis returned, and there was one more person between us, and the tension was relaxed a little.

I don't know if he has figured it out, but since the day I rejected him, we have resumed the lukewarm way of communicating in the past six years. When we met, he liked playing with Vito more than me.

Within a month of coming to Country Z, I only met Xue Qing twice.He is a very busy person, and after all, he is old and not in good spirits. The time I estimated for one year may not be enough.

But there is nothing to worry about here, Xue Qing's people help take care of food, clothing, housing and transportation, and Vito and I live a very nourishing life.Now I spend a lot of time with Vito, he has more and more smiles on his face, and he also shows some innocence that a child should have, and occasionally he puts his arms around my neck and acts like a spoiled child.

Seeing Vito like this, I began to feel that it was a wise choice to take this job. For at least this month, Vito became more and more dependent on me, which greatly satisfied my self-esteem as a father.

That day, I made an appointment with Paul to go fishing.

Paul is an experienced fisherman. He has all kinds of fishing rods, hooks and fish food, and he brought a big fishing gear bag.We went to an indoor fishing ground in the city. I didn’t expect that what I thought was a leisure activity that middle-aged and elderly people are keen on would be so lively. There are places every two meters by the fish pond, and there are people everywhere.

While matching the bait, Paul told us what kind of fish like what kind of fish food, and said a lot, I almost went in one ear and out the other, and couldn't remember it at all.

Vito listened with gusto, imitating Paul in putting bait on the hook, but he was too small and not strong enough, so he begged me to throw the hook out for him.

Two people, one old and one young, sat there and concentrated on fishing, and I accompanied them absent-mindedly.

An old man next to him smiled and said, "Three generations of grandparents come fishing together?"

I smiled.

He looked at Vito and said enviously, "The little guy is of mixed race, right? He's so beautiful."

I stroked Vito's hair and said "thank you".

Vito looked up at me: "Dad, can you understand Chinese?"

"A little bit."

"Can Dad teach me Chinese?"

I showed a troubled expression.

Paul smiled and said, "Chinese is very difficult. Your father only knows the surface, and he is not qualified to teach you."

"Really..." Vito was a little disappointed.

Paul asked: "Why does Vito want to learn Chinese?"

Vito peeked at me cautiously and said nothing.But I understood what he was thinking.

Paul seemed to have guessed it too. He shook his head slightly and asked me in Chinese in a low voice: "Shaw, have you not been in touch with Vito's mother all these years?"

"No, I can't find her." I lowered my eyes, not daring to look at him.

He sighed.

Before I left country Z, no one knew about the existence of Vito.Until I returned to Melbourne, I told Eric that Vito was born in a one-night stand with a woman. The mother of the child threw him to me after giving birth. Gradually, this became the "standard answer" for Vito's birth. .This kind of rhetoric is actually very bizarre when you think about it, but after all, it is a "sad thing" for me, and no one will pursue it.

Vito never forgot to explore about his "mother", he just stopped mentioning it in front of me.But in this case, he was doomed to be disappointed.

I don't know if this will affect his future character, but what is certain is that this will be a regret in his life.

I could only watch, helplessly.

The birth of Vito not only made me thank God for giving me the body to have my own family, but at the same time I secretly hated God, why didn't he make me a real woman.

I stared at the opposite side of the fish pond for a while, and when I woke up, I suddenly felt that the outline of a person in the distance was very familiar.It's just a little far away, so I can't see clearly.

Vito's float suddenly floated up and down, and he shouted excitedly: "Papa, Papa!"

The childish and crisp voice attracted a lot of attention, I smiled helplessly, took the fishing rod from his hand, and pulled it hard.

Paul's "wait a minute" hadn't finished when the fishing line broke.

Vito and I looked at each other with blank faces.

"Holding, sorry..." I apologized at a loss.

Vito's disappointed expression disappeared, and he comforted me instead: "It's okay, Dad, let's go fishing again."

Paul babbled and told me how to reel in the pole. This time I became the most serious student and listened to his explanation carefully.

Paul handed me the re-hooked rod. I stood up and was about to throw the rod when my arm was caught suddenly, and a huge force pulled me around half a circle.I opened my eyes wide and didn't know what happened. My eyes were slack and focused. When I saw the person in front of me clearly, it seemed that a thunderbolt hit me out of thin air. Only then did I realize that this face had been deeply engraved in my heart. In memory, there is never a trace of forgetting.