Five years simulation three years first

When the taxi arrived outside Yu Shaochun's residential area, Feng Zhou flipped through the chat records between himself and "I am your life" page by page.

Quantum Mechanics Quark Particles, Relativity Big Bang, Disproportionation Reaction Organic Generation, Foreign Literature Nobel Prize Winner...

That's right, why did I happen to see Yu Shaochun in "There is a cat" that day?And why every time he got the same answer from "I am your life" as Yu Shaochun's?And who can fully match his interests and hobbies and can immediately follow his problem-solving ideas?

When coincidences happen frequently, he should realize that something is wrong.

The driver looked back at him: "Can you get out of the car? You can't drive in here."

Feng Zhou withdrew from the shock mixed with a bit of confusion and anger, scanned the QR code and paid for it, helped Yu Shaochun out of the car, leaned against the wall and continued to look for a call on his mobile phone.

In fact, whether the person Yu Shaochun likes is "I am your life" or whether this "I am your life" is himself is not very important, but Feng Zhou doesn't know why he is so blocked.

He finally found Shen Yingying's phone number in the contact list, and told her that Yu Shaochun was so drunk that he called a taxi to take him downstairs, and asked her to go downstairs and take him home.

After the phone call, Feng Zhou unconsciously turned Yu Shaochun's cell phone in his hand, and his thoughts slowly drifted back to junior high school.

In fact, it wasn't the first time he tried to make friends, but the previous experience was too painful, so he didn't want to mention it again.

It should have been in the second year of junior high school, because Feng Tiancai wanted to retaliate against him, and it took him a year to successfully isolate Feng Zhou from the whole class.Feng Zhou didn't think "friends" were so important at first, and he didn't take this level of school violence to heart.

One night after school, a girl came over timidly and asked him questions.This was the first time in this class that a student was willing to take the initiative to talk to him, which surprised Feng Zhou.

After he finished speaking, the girl asked him if he wanted to go together in the future. After all, we all live in the same school district and live very close together, so it is not too inconvenient to go together.

The reason she used was that there were still many questions to ask, and Feng Zhou agreed.

That period can be regarded as the warmest memory in his junior high school life.

He even felt that he had the first friend in this school, the first person who didn't call him a freak and was willing to walk with him after school.

But Feng Zhou was wrong.

The girl asked Feng Zhou to wait for her in the classroom after school on the grounds that she wanted to ask the teacher a question.Feng Zhou regarded her as a friend, so he naturally believed the girl's words, and waited for others while doing homework in the classroom.

But he not only waited for the girl, but also Feng Tiancai and his little brothers.

They laughed at Feng Zhou for failing to see that the girl didn't really want to have a good relationship with him at all, and said that the "freak" actually wanted to have friends, and the gods couldn't bear all the flaws in his body, and they didn't see what kind of thing he was, whether he deserved friends or not.

The homework book was torn into pieces and thrown on the ground, but Feng Zhou was not angry or sad, and only cast his indifferent eyes on the girl behind the group of boys.

The girl's lips moved, as if she was saying sorry to him. These people forced her to do it. If she didn't do this, she would be the next one to be isolated.

That's right, Feng Zhou thought, he was the one who was isolated early on, so even if he was teased and isolated again, it wouldn't be too much, right?

Although he always said that he doesn't care about these things, it doesn't matter, but Chen Si has only one friend for so many years, which shows a lot of problems.

Maybe this is what is often called "PTSD" in psychology.

Because of some past injuries, I choose not to believe that kindness and love will fall on me.

so what about you

I thought... at least you would be different.

Feng Zhou turned his gaze to Yu Shaochun who had fallen asleep on his shoulder again, and asked silently.

So you use this account to chat with me, do you want to see my jokes, or do you simply want to play tricks on me?

"Shen Yingying ran out of the community stepping on high heels: "Hey Xiao Feng, I'm really sorry for you. "

"Hello, Auntie," Feng Zhou came back to his senses, "It's okay, it's only right for students to help each other."

Shen Yingying supported Yu Shaochun's arm: "Just like his father, you can't drink it to be arrogant, so you should throw it in the restaurant and ignore him, and see if you dare to drink it next time."

She looked at Feng Zhou and smiled: "Xiao Feng, don't you want to sit up for a while? It's so late, why don't you stay at Auntie's house for the night."

Feng Zhou waved his hand quickly: "No need, I'll just take a taxi and go back."

Seeing his resolute attitude, Shen Yingying gave up and pulled Yu Shaochun's arm to go back, but found that it couldn't be pulled no matter what. When she looked up, she found that Yu Shaochun's other hand was holding Feng Zhou's arm tightly.

Shen Yingying felt a little ashamed: "Let go, you, don't pretend to be crazy."

Feng Zhou opened his fingers one by one, and watched Yu Shaochun being dragged away by Shen Yingying until he merged with the night, and the dim light could no longer catch up with their backs.

He turned on the phone, selected "I am your life", and clicked "Delete friend".

After thinking about it, he dragged out Yu Shaochun's dialog box on WeChat again, but the hand that wanted to delete friends couldn't click it no matter what.

Feng Zhou remembered that when they watched the fireworks together, others were applauding how grand and beautiful the fireworks were, but he was always worried that these fleeting beauty would never be repeated again.

It's like the fragile and vulnerable relationship between people.

The place where the corner of the lip was rubbed was still hot, as if it had been burnt by something.

It's time to end, he thought, no matter what the purpose of this relationship, no matter...

No matter what Yu Shaochun thinks.

His second friendship will eventually end without a problem.

***

Yu Shaochun leaned on the back of the chair holding the phone in a daze, turning his face slightly from time to time, and glanced at the people behind him out of the corner of his eye.

This Monday, two days have passed since he last gulped it down, since Feng Zhou suddenly ignored him...

Two days have passed.

Did he do something strange when he was drunk?Or did you say something strange?Wasn't it fine before? Why is there a cold war all of a sudden?

and many more.

Yu Shaochun suffocated for breath.

Damn, I don't mean to use Jiu Jin to confess my love in a muddle, right?

Thinking of this, Yu Shaochun suddenly turned his head to look at Feng Zhou: "Feng Xueba, I..."

Feng Zhou looked up at him without any emotion, then lowered his head and wrote the formula stroke by stroke on the draft paper.

"Why are you ignoring me?" Yu Shaochun decided to set the routine first, "I've been ignoring me for two days, I'm so lonely."

Feng Zhou still didn't speak, he just crossed out two wrong options with a pen.

Yu Shaochun didn't give up: "Did I do something excessive to make you angry? Can you give me a direction to apologize?"

After Feng Zhou finished writing the last choice, he closed the cap of the fountain pen in his hand, tidied up the books on the table and put them in his schoolbag, got up and carried the bag on his back, walked to the corner at the other end of the classroom, opened the chair in front of the empty desk and sat down .

Yu Shaochun stared at his back with wide eyes, confused, and didn't understand what he did to offend Feng Zhou.

He felt a little aggrieved and a little angry, and he also randomly packed the things on the desk into his bag, walked to the seat in front of Feng Zhouxin with one hand and knocked on the table: "You, go and sit with me."

The classmate looked at the second grader inexplicably, and saw that his left eye was filled with irritability, and his right eye was written with "Fuck off", his heart trembled, and he could only "roll off" with the textbook he needed for the next class. Yu Shaochun's position.

Yu Shaochun threw the schoolbag on the table with a "bang", stepped over the chair with long legs, and sat down directly facing Feng Zhou: "What do you mean?"

Feng Zhou's eyes were hidden under the glasses, and he couldn't see clearly: "I haven't asked you what you mean, but you asked me first."

"?"

Yu Shaochun didn't understand. He just wanted Feng Zhou not to play charades with him, but he heard the man who had been dumb all morning asked him a few questions: "Is it fun to pretend to be a girl? Is it fun to play me? See It’s fun for me to answer every question of my little sister on the Internet while sneering at you, isn’t it? I’m your life?”

His voice trembled slightly, and he sounded really angry.

Come on, what's the situation?

Yu Shaochun was a little confused.

If I understand correctly, the boy Yu Sixuan fell in love with in the cram school and entrusted him with QQ to have an awkward chat was Feng Zhou?

So that "girl who loves music" is really a music teacher, and that "unexplainably alienated" friend... is Yu Shaochun?

He also enthusiastically offered advice to others, feeling that he was a very good emotional consultant and could answer any questions.

What kind of bloody plot development is this?

In Yu Shaochun's heart, it was as if a hundred mammoths were dancing the four little swan dances, and he was so shocked that he lost the ability to organize language for a while, and he opened his mouth for a long time before saying: "No, that, that person is you? You Called 'Sooner or later it will be mine'?"

"You continue to play," Feng Zhou said, "My name is Kepler in Timi, and QQ is also called Kepler. You tell me that you don't know that person is me? How many people in the world are called Kepler?"

"Where do I know?" Yu Shaochun felt aggrieved, "My sister changed the note for you, so I couldn't see your original QQ nickname at all. I really didn't know that person was you."

"Pretend you," Feng Zhou seemed determined not to believe his words, "keep making it up, it looks real, so I'll just say..."

Why did you suddenly show affection to me and suddenly want to be friends with me?

But he suddenly felt that this was a bit hurtful, and finally swallowed it back.

"If I fucking knew it was you, I would have..."

"What early?"

I made it clear to you a long time ago.

Feng Zhou took out two earplugs from his pencil case and stuffed them into his ears, obviously thinking that their useless conversation should stop here.

Yu Shaochun's heart broke, and he took the earplugs out of his ears: "Feng Xueba, listen to me, it's all my sister's fault, I really didn't know you were the one I was chatting with, trust me."

"Yu Shaochun," Feng Zhou called his name formally for the first time, as if he would beat someone up if he said anything, "the monthly exam is coming soon, if there is nothing else, you can Can't you not disturb my study?"

He didn't say anything serious, and even his tone of voice was as calm as ever, but Yu Shaochun could clearly see from his face that he was vigilant in self-defense after being hurt.

Might as well scold him, he thought.