Cross the sea

Hezhen woke up earlier than Li Chengyun. To be exact, he didn't close his eyes very much all night. He got into Li Chengyun's bed without authorization and shared the hard palm mattress bed together. He moved his arms down little by little. Resting comfortably on his arm.

Li Chengyun's hair is not very soft like others, and the temples are even a little prickly. He really didn't dare to move, but just stared at Li Chengyun with lowered eyelids for a long time.

The two of them have almost no time to stay quietly. Four years ago, Li Chengyun never looked at him directly. Even if he lay on the same bed, Li Chengyun always covered his face with a pillow, and moved the pillow up when he reached the peak. Show your lips, and then accept a not-so-gentle kiss.

The sky is getting brighter and brighter, which may disturb Li Chengyun's hard-earned sleep, but Hezhen wants to take advantage of the light to see Li Chengyun's face, and finally chooses to cover the light on Li Chengyun's eyelids with his free right hand, and then leaks A little bit on the bridge of the nose.

He is not greedy, Li Chengyun said he likes him, and they will have a long life in the future.

No matter how long the day is, the sun can't be held back. When he realized that Li Chengyun was about to wake up, He Zhen pulled away his unconscious arm, and tiptoed back to the gray sofa bed again.

So when Li Chengyun opened his eyes, he could only see his fairly regular sleeping posture and his broken hair that was blown left and right by the cold air from the air conditioner.

There was the sound of fabric rubbing behind him, and He Zhen sat up from the bed, yawned sleepily, rubbed his eyes and looked to the side, and asked under his throat, "What time is it?"

"It's still early."

Li Chengyun came out of the bathroom, brushed his wet hair back, glanced at him, and then said: "If you are sleepy, you can sleep a little longer."

He Zhen watched as Li Chengyun changed into black clothes and black trousers, and put on a baseball cap again. He didn't speak anymore, and got out of bed to wash himself. It was only when he was changing that he realized that he had forgotten to bring clothes suitable for going to the cemetery.

Li Chengyun put the car keys in his pocket, and when he was about to go out, he looked back at He Zhen who was staring at the backpack in a daze.

"You can wear whatever you want."

Li Chengyun smiled at him, "She's not someone who cares about these things."

At first Hezhen thought that Li Chengyun might be stepping down for him, but when he really arrived at Lingshan Cemetery and found the square tombstone, Hezhen knew what Li Chengyun said was true.

Zhen Wei's tombstone is very ordinary. It is so ordinary that there are only photos and names on it. There is no date of birth, time of death, and no epitaph.

The selected photo should be Zhen Wei's most beautiful age, with long curly hair and a sweet smile.

Li Chengyun stood very straight in front of the tombstone, with his hands in his pockets, and paused for a while before reaching out to wipe the dust off the photo.

There is no shade in the cemetery, and the scorching light shines on the back, as if it will melt at any time.

Li Chengyun answered the phone halfway, it was the guard of the cemetery, and the ordered flowers had been delivered.

There was still some distance between walking to the gate and turning back, Li Chengyun didn't ask He Zhen to follow.

He Zhen was the only living person left in the huge cemetery. He stared at the photo of Zhen Wei on the tombstone, and said to himself with a smile: "Everyone says that Li Chengyun looks like Dad, but I wanted to say it a few years ago. Li Chengyun is still more like you."

The ground was hot, but He Zhen didn't care much. He sat down cross-legged, propped his elbows on his knees and started talking to himself.

"Auntie, have you ever seen Li Chengyun play? When he plays, it seems that half of the girls in the school are watching, and I am watching too, but I still think he is cooler when he fights. According to our instructors, he is steady and ruthless." , without putting on airs, the purpose comes first."

"My hometown is not from Haishi, a countryman."

"I should have determined my sexual orientation when I was in junior high school, or maybe earlier, I can't remember exactly."

Cleaning up the house, He Zhen was quiet for a while, the craving for cigarettes that hadn't flared up for a long time suddenly couldn't be suppressed at this moment, He Zhen touched the cigarette from his pocket, and took it back just as he took it out.

"Li Chengyun picked me up and went downhill in this life, but don't worry, no matter where the slope goes, I will follow it."

No one would answer, He Zhen stood up, brushed the dust off his trousers, stepped back and bowed three times towards the tombstone.

"sorry."

When he bent down for the last time, Hezhen stared at the crack on the floor and apologized softly. There was already green in the crack, and a little sprout squeezed the gap between the bricks. , let him sleep well."

No one would answer the same, but soon Hezhen smelled the fragrance of flowers wrapped in fresh water vapor, and then pinched the hand on the back of his neck, and the person who appeared behind him at some point whispered, "What are you doing?"

As if falling from a cliff and hitting the bottom of the water, the water poured into his ears, and He Zhen suddenly started to ring in his ears.

He Zhen had never been to Lingshan. He didn't know that the air two or three hundred kilometers away from Haishi could be so dry. The skins that touched each other had static electricity, and sparks sparked in the air with a clacking sound.

He Zhen turned around, and Li Chengyun stood straight in front of him, holding a water-blue crabapple in his arms, and the brim of his hat cast a large shadow under his eyes.

Li Chengyun bent down to put the flowers down, lowered his eyes to look at Zhen Wei's tombstone, stood for a while, and put his arms around He Zhen's shoulder: "Although I know you should have seen the photos in private, I still want you to meet the real person."

The strength of holding the shoulders gradually tightened, He Zhen stood still, and the hand hanging by his side was unconsciously pressed against the seam of his trousers. This moment was more sacred than ever, so sacred that He Zhen only felt that he was despicable.

You were hesitating whether to confess, but Li Chengyun didn't give him this chance. Before he tried to speak, Li Chengyun let go of his shoulder and walked to the top of the mountain in silence.

The top of the island is not very high, and the northerners would laugh at it when they see it, but the wind at the height is cooler than that at the bottom, and the sun is more abundant. Occasionally, a few trees can be seen from the dense green beside the stone steps. Bougainvillea.

After stepping on the last step, He Zhen saw the bungalow hidden in the shade of the trees. There were two reclining chairs outside the house, and the vines facing death were on top of their heads.

Li Chengyun walked in first, and not long after, He Zhen heard the old man's hoarse and cheerful voice: "Today is a bit late."

Li Chengyun found a seat by the window and sat down, said with a smile: "Last night I slept so hard that I couldn't get up in the morning."

Still the same as before, He Zhen opened the chair and sat across from him. Both Li Chengyun and him were good at lying.

The old man came out of the kitchen with a plate, walked slowly step by step, and walked over the floor tiles erected in the main hall with difficulty. The old lady put the plate on the table.

She seemed to have noticed that there was one more person across the table at this moment. She raised her droopy eyelids vigorously, stared at it for a while, and then smiled and said, "It's the first time I see you bringing friends here."

"No matter how many friends you have, you need to divide your occasions."

Li Chengyun helped her take out the dishes from the dinner plate.

"Too."

The old lady put down the fried vegetarian meatballs, turned around and walked into the kitchen, "This place is unlucky, so don't come here."

There was only one set of tableware on the table. Li Chengyun handed the chopsticks to Hezhen. Hezhen took a ball and put it in his mouth. It was very hot and had a strong smell of lard. The taste was weird but not unpalatable.

There was the sound of dishes colliding again in the kitchen, and Li Chengyun followed the voice: "The top of the cemetery is not very auspicious, so the old lady opened a store here, hoping to keep one of them."

"That tile was broken by his son."

Sensing He Zhen's gaze, Li Chengyun took a sip of water and said, "Her son jumped from here at the age of 16, and she made her home here."

But He Zhen only caught the strange point. He looked at Li Chengyun, wondering if Li Chengyun also thought about finishing up here, and whether he was finally kept by this old man.

The sound in the kitchen stopped, followed by the slow and heavy steps of the old man. The old lady in a floral turban came over with a plastic bag, put the things on the table with a smile, and whispered: "It's free for you, you eat it secretly." , don’t be seen by other guests.”

"Then we're welcome."

Li Chengyun was very supportive.

Open the plastic bag, and there are two puddings lying flat inside. The orange outer packaging has cartoon rabbits drawn on it. It is a brand of Ultrasound that is often discounted and promoted.

After tearing open the package, the milky yellow pudding exudes a strong smell of saccharin. He Zhen lowered his head and took a bite. It was mango.

Li Chengyun, who was sitting opposite, took the pudding inside, tore open the outer packaging bit by bit, squeezed the soft shell, and the milky yellow jelly came out tremblingly, and the overflowing juice stained his fingertips.

Li Chengyun didn't seem to notice, he lowered his head and his lips gradually moved closer.

The movement is faster than the brain, and when He Zhen reacted, he had already stood up, his arms crossed the table and tightly grasped Li Chengyun's wrist, Li Chengyun's skin was very hot.

"The pudding is mango."

Li Chengyun still maintained the posture just now, he looked at He Zhen and smiled lightly.

"I thought you were really going to watch me die."