Cross the sea

The deck of the sailboat was wet, and Li Chengyun was sitting by the rudder facing the wind, his jacket was filled with sea breeze.

The crewman at the helm bent down and said a few words to him, Li Chengyun nodded, then turned around, stopped for a few seconds and mouthed to Hezhen.

"It is going to rain."

Probably because there is no fate, He Zhen silently calculated the time he spent alone with Li Chengyun in his heart, except for falling asleep in the dormitory every night, he could hardly drink Li Chengyun to stay alone for more than four or five hours.

People are always getting more and more greedy. At first they thought it would be good to just take a look, but later they wanted hugs and kisses. After they got it, they wanted more. They also wanted to hear hypocritical words like "I will always love you" countless times.

Riding on a sailboat was not as romantic as imagined. The strong sea breeze hurt my ribs, I couldn't open my eyes, and my hair was messed up on my face.

The last bit of orange sunlight also flooded into the horizon, Li Chengyun walked in front of him, pressed his left hand on his shoulder and bowed his head to kiss him, He Zhen was briefly dazzled by the swaying mast, he stretched out his hand and grabbed Li Chengyun's clothes , Before he had time to deepen the kiss, Li Chengyun pushed him away.

He Zhen watched as Li Chengyun went to the stern to answer the phone. The call lasted only a few tens of seconds. When Li Chengyun hung up the phone and came back, he raised his arm and said to the crew: "There is something wrong, let's go back."

The living room was well lit, and Zhou An stood at the door frowning and looked at Li Chengyun who came down the stairs with his luggage: "No, brother, I made an appointment for three days, and you're leaving in less than twelve hours."

Li Chengyun was wearing a black baseball cap, his brows and eyes hidden in the shadows were very calm, he smiled helplessly at Zhou An: "I can't help it, something is wrong at home."

"Can't we go tomorrow? I have an appointment for snorkeling with four people tomorrow morning, and there is no car at night."

Zhou An's arm supported the door frame.

"I called a car."

Li Chengyun raised his hand and brushed Zhou An's arm away and walked out of the gate. He paused for a few seconds, turned around, glanced lightly around the room, and said in a low voice, "See you at school."

Li Chengyun walked quickly, He Zhen leaned on the railing of the open-air balcony and looked out, the little white spot quickly disappeared on the beach, He Zhen stared at it for a while, and finally sat cross-legged on the ground.

When Li Chengyun was there, He Zhen could only fit one person in his eyes. Now that Li Chengyun was gone, He Zhen began to notice the decoration of the single-family villa.

There was a sound of turning around, An Qianqiu came out from the back room and stood beside him, holding a long and thin cigarette in his hand.

He Zhen watched the camellias on the tiles carefully before raising his head, and looked at An Qianqiu without hesitation. An Qianqiu squinted at the wound on his lower lip for a while, shaking his head and sighing.

"What's your expression?"

He Zhen rolled his eyes and smiled.

An Qianqiu suddenly didn't know what to say, looking at the creases on the cigarette, she suddenly remembered the scene when He Zhen first mentioned his sexual orientation.

At that time, she was still complaining about the injustice of fate, and she started to cry as she spoke. At the beginning, He Zhen told a few bad jokes, but when he found out that it was useless, he suddenly said, "I like boys."

She couldn't remember how she reacted at that time, but her expression must not be considered friendly, but He Zhen didn't care too much, after making sure she wasn't crying anymore, she picked up her schoolbag and walked forward on her own.

People who open up their own wounds to heal others should find a more gentle partner.

"Do I want to congratulate you on dying without regrets?"

An Qianqiu straightened the cigarette, stared at the beach and began to say blessings against her will.

He Zhen stood up from the ground, took the cigarette from her hand and bit it in her mouth, resting her clean fingertips on the railing.

An Qianqiu paused, took out the lighter from his pocket, and lit the cigarette for Hezhen.

The bluish-white smoke slowly dispersed in the air, He Zhen took the smoke down and watched the sparks flickering in the wind.

"Did you say he likes me?"

He Zhen asked in a low voice.

An Qianqiu said he didn't know, and added after a pause: "But when he left, he probably didn't say the phrase "see you at school" to me."

He Zhen laughed, tilted his wrist, and half of the burnt cigarette ash fell down.

Hezhen didn't take a few puffs after a cigarette burned down to the end, An Qianqiu complained that he was wasting it, and took another cigarette out of his pocket in the next second.

She took out the lighter to start a fire, and pressed it several times without firing it. Finally, a spark came out, but was blown out by a gust of wind.

"Damn, next time I really have to spend a lot of money to buy a windproof lighter."

An Qianqiu put the lighter back into his pocket, turned his head to look at He Zhen who had started to be dazed again at some point, and waved his hand in front of his eyes, "It's almost done, Li Chengyun hasn't been gone for half an hour, don't mess with it." Is the Cowherd and Weaver Girl good?"

"Do you know why Cowherd and Weaver Girl have been able to love each other for so long?"

He Zhen leaned down on the railing, "Because they only see each other once a year, so they can only be busy making love, and don't have time to think about whether the other party has changed their minds and cheated."

"Are you afraid that Li Chengyun will cheat on you?"

"No."

He Zhen stood up straighter, the light hit him, he pursed his lips, thought for a long time before choking out a few words: "I'm afraid he will hate me."

The ridicule was about to be said, but An Qianqiu suddenly felt that He Zhen's expression was too serious. She turned sideways, looked at He Zhen shining under the light, stroked the hair behind her, and tried to use a relaxed tone Breaking the weird atmosphere: "Didn't you say that likes and dislikes have to be at the same time? How come you regret it as soon as you taste the sweetness."

Clenching and loosening the fingers on the railing, An Qianqiu looked at He Zhen and let out a light breath, staring at a thick gray rain cloud in the sky.

"My mother is with his father."

He Zhen turned his head, looked at An Qianqiu who was stunned, smiled, and said softly, "Li Chengyun's father."

An Qianqiu originally wanted to ask "How do you know" but the next second, she changed the wording.

"When did you know?"

"It's very early."

Seeing the expression gradually disappearing on An Qianqiu's face, He Zhen suddenly thanked An Qianqiu for his thoughtfulness, and didn't ask him how early it was.

The light above his head flickered, and An Qianqiu took out the lighter to light a cigarette. After pressing it, he realized that the lighter was out of gas.

"You—" An Qianqiu paused, "You shouldn't be like this."

"I know."

He Zhen's voice was very soft. He looked at An Qianqiu with a forced smile on his face, "Will he hate me?"

An Qianqiu didn't answer, she stood outside with He Zhen for a while, until the sea water started to rise and flooded onto the beach before saying: "Go to bed early."

That night, Hezhen had a dream. In the dream, he was sitting on the beach smoking a cigarette, the white foamy waves lapped at his ankles, and plastic bags of various colors were floating on the sea in the distance.

Someone called him from a distance, he turned his head and saw Li Chengyun standing in the light purple flowerbed, his hair and collar were stained with grass clippings, and the sun fell on him warmly.

Such a scene should not be regarded as a nightmare, but when Hezhen opened his eyes, he found that his body was already soaked. He sat up from the bed, and the hands of the clock hanging on the wall had crossed ten, and the agreed snorkeling time had already passed. After an hour, there was no movement downstairs, An Qianqiu and Zhou An should have left.

The wind blew in through the half-open window, and the white gauze curtain bulged out a strange arc. When He Zhen walked over to close the window barefoot, his eyes fell on the person standing by the fence in the small garden with his back turned to him.

He changed into a soft-looking silk shirt, and the cuff buttons were unbuttoned, revealing his thin forearm.

After walking around the small garden for two or three times, He Zhen watched the man bow his head and take out his mobile phone. After a pause for a few seconds, the mobile phone on the bedside table rang.

He Zhen pressed the switch, neither of them spoke, the room was so quiet that only the faint sound of electric current could be heard.

"Come down."

The person on the other end of the phone spoke first.

"Okay."

Even though the person opposite couldn't see, He Zhen still nodded with a smile.

Even if it was a nightmare, he wanted to last longer.