Wading in muddy water

I didn't know anything about the first class in the morning, so I fell asleep in a daze.

I didn't sleep well last night. The single bed in the hospital was not as comfortable as the bed in my room. It wasn't at 01:30. I slept so badly that my back hurt after I woke up this morning.My brother should have no other problems except for the fracture of his right hand. He will be discharged this afternoon. I didn't say that I will go to him at night, but he must know that I will.

After class, I woke up for a while, and went to the supermarket with Dacheng Sanzi to buy food. I squeezed my neck while walking.

"Li Zhou is really courageous, dare to touch Zhou Boxin, how bold he is." Dacheng cursed along the way, "I also asked about it last night, Li Zhou and your brother had some conflicts before, Maicheng car circle It's not that he's the only one, your brother has a lot of internet celebrities and young actors, and they all have vanity. Li Zhou used to have a relationship with your brother, but your brother didn't pick him up."

I frowned unconsciously, why didn't I know there was still this stubble?They had conflicts before, but he knew that the person in the club was Li Zhou, so he took me away. Did he know that Li Zhou would trouble him that day?No wonder he insisted that this is between me and him, and it has nothing to do with Dacheng, so that's what he meant.

When I think about it, I can't help thinking about the day he kicked me out of the car.Damn, did I say that I learned from him when I went out to have sex?He was so annoyed, smoking cigarettes one by one, and holding back, I was so angry that I was half dead.He didn't say anything about what he did for me, maybe there are other things, I don't know anything about you.I sighed in my heart, wishing I could travel back and strangle myself to death.

"You don't have to take care of it, and it's not something you can do." I said, this kind of thing is really beyond the hands of the three of us.Zhou Boxin said that he will solve it and he will definitely solve it. I am not very worried.

"Brother Li, Li Zhou is a local after all, your brother..." The third son hesitated a little and didn't continue.

Li Zhou is a local.Maicheng is so big, divided into east, west, north, and middle, for example, the north is the Liu family, and no one dares to provoke the Liu family if you go north.Li Zhou's family is from the east. In the past two years, someone who knows cars has come from outside, and he has the capital to fight against Li Zhou. He is struggling, but it still can't change that the Li family is still the emperor of the east.

Although Zhou Boxin is very successful, he is not from Maicheng, and it is difficult for a strong dragon to overwhelm a snake.

I understood what Sanzi meant, and waved my hand, "Even if Jiying is not a local, he made him like this, Li Zhou still wants to please him."

I have blind confidence in my brother's aspect. In recent years, the Internet has developed rapidly, and various large and small Internet celebrity incubation bases and media companies have emerged one after another. No one can overwhelm Jiying's limelight.Haven't the locals in Maicheng thought about this?Want to suppress Zhou Boxin, although Jiying Media said that it belongs to the Liu family, but everyone knows that Jiying has nothing to do with the Liu family now, and there are many people who dare to touch Zhou Boxin, the result?

"Your brother is really good." Dacheng was discouraged, probably because he admitted that he really couldn't help. "Li Zhou's structure is too small, he can't compare with your brother."

I am happy to listen to others bragging about Zhou Boxin, and I feel that my sore neck is much more comfortable.

"Have you two made any progress? When I was in the hospital yesterday, I felt that something was wrong. It was obvious that I had a leg. Let me tell you, your brother's eyes can directly tear me into pieces." Dacheng took it from the warming cabinet. Three bottles of hot coffee came out, and each person shared a bottle, whispering.

I pick and choose and take an eel rice ball. The onigiri is so cold in December, it’s like taking an ice cube. Although I don’t like hot rice balls, I throw them in the microwave to heat them up.After throwing it in, I sat on the chair next to the microwave oven, watched them staring at me, and could only raise my hands in surrender, "I don't know if it counts, anyway, he doesn't want to fall in love with me."

When I said this, I didn't lower my volume. The two girls who were checking out next to me glanced at me, but I didn't care.

The two of them didn't speak after hearing it, and they didn't know what to say after hearing it.He must have scolded me insane again in his heart. If it’s not good to like someone, you have to like Zhou Boxin. In theory, anyone in this world can fall in love with me, except Zhou Boxin.I know it too, so I braced my head and waited for my rice ball to come out with a "ding".

The third son sighed, "Why don't we stop liking it? Dacheng is right, don't like it if you're not happy, it's not liking whoever you like."

"It's different." I flipped the coffee bottle in front of me. The brown bottle wobbled for a while, and then stood up straight again, "Zhou Boxin is different, I can only like him."

Dacheng snorted, "You're crazy, you've been bewitched by something, I've never seen you like anyone like this before."

He sounds like he doesn't agree with me. He loves and talks as he likes, and he may not even know his name after breaking up, so he probably can't understand what it means to "I can only like him".I don't think there is anything wrong with him. I used to be like this. I fell in love with many girls, fell in love a lot, and then broke up. I never felt sad.

But after finding out that I like Zhou Boxin, I really can't like others anymore.

The microwave "ding" sounded, and my rice balls were freshly baked.It was still a little hot, I flinched from the heat, but I still grabbed it and held it in my hand.

Last night I dug out all the memories related to Zhou Boxin.

Lying in the hospital, I couldn't sleep well. The bed was too hard, and the place was too small. Turning over, I felt like I could fall directly.I looked at the ceiling with my eyes open, and my mind was empty for a while, and many things were crowded in for a while.The camera shot backwards one frame at a time, as if it never stopped. The protagonists were me and Zhou Boxin, as if in the past and the present, we had rotated several times, and there were only the two of us in the camera.

The first time I saw him, Chen Zhiyuan introduced him to Liufang and me. Now I can understand the interesting part of that picture. Except for me, all four people have different thoughts. Liufang knows that he is Zhou Qingluo However, she still showed her "motherhood" brilliance like a hostess; Chen Zhiyuan was complacent, and felt that he was great because of Liu Fang's generosity.

I forgot Zhou Boxin's expression, and I couldn't guess what kind of mood he was in at that time. I knew very little about him.

But only I am innocent, Chen Zhiyuan asked me to call him brother, I went over obediently, and called him "brother" bluntly.

I actually started to please Zhou Boxin before I knew what "brother" means. They are happy.Only Zhou Boxin is different, he doesn't like my toys, he doesn't envy my family, he doesn't fit in my life.

That kind of temperament attracts me, I think he is different from others, everyone.

I flattered him by calling him brother, which was a very straightforward, strong but simple affection.He didn't pay much attention to me at first, but gradually got used to my existence, and gradually he would frown and pull me up when I fell to see if there was any wound on my leg.

When I grow up a bit, I know who Zhou Boxin really is, I know that Liu Fang is the mistress, and I know that I was born in this world and killed Zhou Boxin's mother.From that moment on, I knew for sure that I would lose my brother forever, but I couldn't accept it, and it was almost pathological to try to please him even more.

When I was 16 years old, I knew that Chen Zhiyuan was not my biological father, and what frightened me the most was not what Chen Zhiyuan would do to me, or what the Liu family would do to me, but that Zhou Boxin and I had no blood relationship at all.I have always felt firmly that he cannot leave me, he is my brother, everything collapsed in an instant.What was his look like at that time?

I seemed to be pulled back suddenly, re-entered the body of 16-year-old Chen Li, and saw Zhou Boxin again.He holds a cup of coffee in his hand, and his condescending posture can easily make me misunderstand that he is a high-ranking ruler. With this posture, he rubbed his thumb against the red marks on my neck that Chen Zhiyuan pinched, and his voice was firmly suppressed. The volume was so low that he was afraid of waking up a sleeping beast, and he asked me "does it hurt?"

Now I look into his eyes again, and know the name of the beast hidden in his heart.

It's called "love" and it's called "desire".

Now looking back from a God-like perspective, I can roughly understand why Zhou Boxin suddenly became cold towards me at that time, why he didn't want to call me brother anymore, and why he didn't want to call me Xiaoli.It's not because he hates me, he probably never hated me, and Zhou Qingluo's death has nothing to do with me in his heart.

I was the one who seduced him first, and it was my morbid overtures that dragged him into the water. His desire has been unable to vent since very early on.

Zhou Boxin's love was discovered by me, my ignorance, my enthusiasm, and my paranoia.

I call him brother, with an affectionate tone, as if my eyes will always follow him in this life and the next. I recognize him and need him more than anyone else in the world.I leaned against him without any scruples, held his hand, smiled at him, and said that I liked him. Even when I thought about it, I couldn't tell what kind of love it was.

And he must suppress and restrain to protect my "ignorance".

How many times have I pitifully called his brother, saying that he cannot be separated from me.No wonder he ridiculed me several times as a "moral model". The word "moral model" is a metaphor in Zhou Boxin's mouth. He wants to be immoral, he wants to indulge, but I don't know anything about it.

I knew early on that I had an emotional disorder. I couldn't figure out what friendship, love, and family affection were. No matter what relationship I had, I would make a mess of it.

According to the popular metaphor, two people falling in love is like a lock and a key, and each keyhole has its unique and unique key. For years, he twisted himself into a shape that could no longer fit into other keyholes.

But it fits perfectly with me.

So I must be responsible to him, definitely.

The author says:

Cohabitation tomorrow, the cohabitation space will not be too much, you should be mentally prepared (actually, it didn’t start to be sweet, but also be mentally prepared (seeing all of your joy, I thought it would start to be sweet, I’m really guilty (run away)

By the way, I won’t update it tomorrow, and it suddenly starts to update five times a week, and I am not used to it (.