Wading in muddy water

I swear, this is definitely the first time I act like a baby, no matter who it is.

Ever since I was a child, I can easily get what I want without acting like a baby. I have almost never had the idea of ​​"wanting", and I already have everything. want to.

My first "want" was my brother.

At 16, my life was turned upside down.

At that time, when I entered high school for the first time to organize a physical examination, my mother called the head teacher as usual and suggested that my physical examination would be done by myself in a private hospital that was more trusted and advanced in our family. I have been sick and had physical examinations in that hospital since elementary school. , No one from the previous teachers has ever refused my request for a separate medical examination.

But my mother was rejected that time. The teacher said that the results of the high school physical examination were directly related to the college entrance examination and had to be arranged by the school.

Chen Zhiyuan and I didn't care about this matter. Unexpectedly, my mother's reaction was very violent, and she even proposed to transfer schools.

Chen Zhiyuan is not stupid. With my mother's repeated insistence for no reason, Chen Zhiyuan took me for a paternity test.

My brother came home that night, and when he came in my mother was down by the couch, her hair covered in tears.I was strangled by Chen Zhiyuan. A few seconds ago, my mother tried to snatch me out of Chen Zhiyuan's hands, but he kicked me away.

I have forgotten whether I was afraid of Chen Zhiyuan or death, or the phantom of a good life being broken.

But I can remember that I felt like a fully committed actor at the time. I was acting in a play that was destined to end in tragedy.I almost died at the hands of Chen Zhiyuan, or I have already died at the hands of Chen Zhiyuan.

The next second my brother pushed the door open and came in, standing quietly at the entrance looking at me.

He is like a flower in the wilderness.

I don't know if it's appropriate to describe him like this, but if my brother knows that I describe him as a flower, he will definitely be angry.But I really saw a wasteland, barren of grass, bare yellow soil and sand, with dead branches everywhere.But I planted a flower, and I said to myself: that is the only and most beautiful one in this wasteland, you go and pick it off.

I just woke up with a start, raised my hand a little bit to break Chen Zhiyuan's hand, and called him in a voice that could no longer make a sound, "Brother."

Chen Zhiyuan's business is attached to the Liu family, he can't really strangle me, and he can't divorce my mother.

My brother was a little sorry and ground himself a cup of coffee.It is a pity that the crime has not been punished as it should be, and everyone's life is still fresh.

When I went upstairs to look for him, Chen Zhiyuan and my mother were already exhausted. Chen Zhiyuan went back to the room. My mother didn't dare to go back to the room to see Chen Zhiyuan, and she didn't dare to go upstairs to see my brother, so she curled up on the sofa and fell asleep.

And I didn't know how many times my tears flowed, and I started crying again when they dried on my face. I was tired from crying and dried on my face again, and my skin was tight.I feel that everything is fake, my life is fake, my parents are fake, even myself is fake, and only my brother is real in the world.I envy his surname Zhou instead of Chen, envy him growing up in hell instead of falling from heaven since he was a child, envy him being a spectator of this farce with a cold eye.

I couldn't help shaking when his hands pinched my neck. Chen Zhiyuan's figure overlapped with my brother's. I couldn't tell them apart for a moment. I just felt that I was shrinking crazily, but the world was infinitely expanding.But the thumb just brushed against the red mark, and there was something suppressed in his voice that I couldn't make out, so low that only I could hear it.

"Does it hurt?"

I was speechless, and couldn't help but want to lean into my brother's arms, but he gently pushed me away.I burst into tears immediately, dry tears came alive again on my cheeks, my right hand tightly grasped the corner of his clothes, unwilling to let go no matter what, I shook my head desperately and shouted silently.

Brother, you can't let me go.

Please, only you can't do without me, I must have an older brother, Zhou Boxin, I must have an older brother.

Maybe it is really like what Song Yiwei said, there is some kind of misunderstanding between me and my brother.

What could be the misunderstanding?I remember from the age of 16 when my brother's attitude towards me changed.

He looked at me from above at that time, and I looked like a clown when I used him as a life-saving straw. He hated me. If I hadn't appeared in my mother's belly, I would have used me as a bargaining chip to force Chen Zhiyuan to divorce his mother and make his mother into the abyss of death.

Even if I am not Chen Zhiyuan's child.

What was the look in his eyes when he pinched my neck?Compassion, joy, regret, depression.

What misunderstanding will exist between us?His sympathy comes from me having the same tragic life as him. His joy comes from the disintegration of the family in Lishuiyuan Villa. His regret comes from me, Chen Zhiyuan and Liu Fang. Everyone is still alive. His depression comes from not being able to pinch him kill me.

Is not it?

I had no clue at all, but somehow felt my heart beating faster.If his emotions weren't because he hated me, what was?

On the opposite side, my brother had already finished the whole plate of pasta, and the tip of the fork was lightly placed on the edge of the plate. There was a very soft knocking sound, but it still made my teeth hurt.

I didn't eat a few bites of them when I brought them back, I only finished two fried dumplings, and my brother ate almost a whole plate of cold pasta.

I have just been immersed in my own thoughts, and I have no time to observe my brother's expression.As soon as he put down the fork, I immediately became nervous. I was more alert than the elementary school bell when I heard the class bell. I sat upright and almost put my hands on my knees.

I secretly looked at my brother's expression, it's okay not to look at it, this look almost scared me, if my cognition of human expressions is correct, I always feel that my brother is in a good mood now.

Better than before I acted like a baby to him.

What's the meaning?I don't think this restaurant can hold me anymore, and I'm going to launch myself into outer space in the next second!My brother is laughing!

Well, this is really not a smile on an ordinary person, even the corners of his mouth don’t even have the slightest curvature, but according to what I know about him, the sharp and oppressive aura on his body has faded. Little, although his face is expressionless, it always gives me the illusion of smiling.

Chen Li, Chen Li, calm down, don't forget how stupid you were when he was in a good mood last time, you just took your popularity away.

I scolded myself frantically in my heart, tried to calm myself down, and thought carefully about whether every word was used correctly before saying a word.

Damn, I finally know why the man who just sat across from my brother spoke so cautiously. Of course, there must be a factor of fear of my brother, but my brother is really like the kind of npc who can gain favor and slowly attack, although he is more moody than npc Well, most people really don't know what he thinks or wants.

But seeing him change from a state of indifference and impatience all the year round to joy and even anger will make people feel, so fucking fulfilling!

"I'll buy her a bag?" My brother spoke in a flat tone without any emotion. If it wasn't for the slight questioning, I would have thought he was showing off.

I quickly unlocked the phone, pushed it in front of him, and sat obediently.

My brother glanced at it and said nothing.

......

Gone?don't say something?

My brother is definitely the most difficult npc to attack in the world, not one of them.

Just when I was racking my brains and didn't know what to say to increase my favorability, my brother spoke again.

"Still dating her?"

ah?me?Who am I with?who is she?Ju Lulu?I shook my head quickly, thinking that you two have reached the point of showing love, why are you still asking me this kind of question.I subconsciously felt that he was too possessive and didn't like my lover and ex-boyfriend still in touch.

I felt bored, and honestly shook my head, "No, we broke up a long time ago."

"Oh." He responded lightly, "You paid attention to her."

I was stunned for a few seconds before I realized what he said was that I followed Ju Lulu's Weibo.I suddenly became angry from the heart!But he didn't dare to show it, so he could only hold back.The possessiveness is too strong, I follow her Weibo and you will be jealous!

I was so sore, angrily, I returned to the homepage in front of him, clicked on my follow list, and clicked cancel on Ju Lulu's followers.

My brother's eyes are still on the screen of my mobile phone.

I followed his gaze and suddenly realized I still had Mi Jo on my watchlist.

micho.

I really can't hold back my emotions anymore, just one Ju Lulu, now there is another Mi Qiao.It's really hard to attack my brother, I never know what he's thinking, the sourness in my heart is almost rushing out of the eye sockets, my brain is sticking to him, and he is pulling his tie and throwing his coat in front of them.

Grass, no, he is mine.

"Brother, can I do it?" I looked into his eyes.

He didn't understand what I said, because sitting on the chair, the gap between our eyesight is not too big, it can almost be regarded as eye level, which made me a lot bolder.

I reached out to unfollow Mi Qiao, turned off the screen of the phone, and put the phone back in my pocket.

Frankly speaking, my brother and I have no blood relationship at all.If two people are not related by blood, how can we judge that we like it?Family affection is liking, and love is also liking.

"If you don't want me to be your brother, can I be your lover? Can you accept a man?"

"I can do everything, even in bed. I won't get angry if I beat or scold me, and I won't tell others. I can do whatever Ju Lulu and Mi Qiao can do."

"Don't reject me, brother. I'm going to be jealous of them. You've never been so nice to me. I'm the one who likes you the most."

I stared into his eyes, the difficulty is hell-level npc, I really don't know how to attack him.But I always feel that what Song Yiwei said really opened the door to a new world for me, and I have a hunch that what she said must be right.

My brother probably doesn't hate me that much.

It was me who nailed myself as a sinner through the ages in order to keep him from leaving me, and it would be better if I couldn't atone for my sins towards him in a lifetime.

Now I suddenly don't want to be a sinner, I want to be my brother's lover.

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