Wading in muddy water

After leaving the box, the moment the door closed, the hand on the neck was removed quickly.

My ears are definitely red right now, I can feel it myself, the whole piece of skin from my neck to my ears is about to burn.Just now in the box, I felt as if I had stepped into a cloud, feeling dizzy, except for the piece of skin that was in contact with my brother, it seemed that all other senses were closed, and now I could smell the perfume on my brother.I don't study perfumes. I just spray them from my ex-girlfriends. I just use them if they smell good, and I don't know what the fragrance is.

The fragrance on his body is very weak, it should be diluted by the cold air in November, bringing some biting freshness.The scent fades away as his palm leaves my neck.While it's an exaggeration to say it, I did feel like my only point of connection with the world was suddenly disconnected.It is similar to the moment when someone lifts the warm quilt on a winter morning. It was so hot that it was about to melt just now, and it can freeze again in an instant.

Relying on his long legs, my brother walked mercilessly.

Like a ruthless killer in a movie, he walks forward on his own, passing the bustling crowd, no one knows what he thinks in his heart, and he doesn't care what the crowd thinks, he just thinks about who he is going to kill tonight, with a knife in his hand Come on, do it neatly.

And my legs were still a little weak, without the support of the back of my neck, I almost went limp, and staggered forward to chase him.If my brother is a killer, I'm like his little burden, his drag, clumsy, difficult to walk, let alone kill, I'm so stupid that he can't be so cool forever.

My killer brother, can you walk slowly, your target tonight should be me, if you throw me away, you won't be able to complete the mission.I called him wronged in my heart, but I didn't dare to speak, I couldn't even believe that he really pushed me out just now, really called me his younger brother in front of Li Zhou, really called me "Xiao Li" again.Surely he doesn't know how fantastic this is for me.While I was excited that the fantasy had become reality, I also understood that it was just a drama he performed in front of outsiders.

Outsider, when I think of these two words, I can't help but feel hot in my heart, and the temperature on my neck reaches my heart.I'm not an outsider, I'm an insider who can play a scene with him, and I'm an accomplice who covers up our "ugly" relationship with him.

I'm inseparable from him, even if he doesn't admit it.

When I chased him outside the door of the clubhouse, the cold November wind began to blow violently on my face, making me shiver violently.

But it was my brother who was colder than the November wind. He didn’t care about me at all. He got into the car, slammed the driver’s door with a “bang”, and the engine started immediately, while I was still outside the car.

Well, I know he didn't want to drive me home at all.I looked at his side face through the car window helplessly, but I couldn't see anything clearly.In fact, except when my brother first entered the box, I put my arms around Mi Qiao and looked at him. After that, I never saw his face again. He kept pinching my neck, and I could only walk in front of him.Later, he left me far behind, and I could only chase after his back.

I really want to explain to him that I didn't do anything with Mi Qiao, at most I just hugged her shoulders, and I'm a gentleman, I didn't touch the place where her clothes didn't cover at all!I also really want to explain that I really didn't send him messages to get his attention, nor was it a means for me to disrupt his life. I really had nowhere to go.

I also want to say, Mi Qiao said that I am a bastard without a father, and Li Zhou satirized the Liu family for not recognizing me as a grandson, can you tell me that I still have an older brother.

But I didn't say anything, just stood quietly beside my brother's car, waiting for him to step on the gas pedal, leaving me in the flying dust.

The window of the car came down slowly, and my elder brother looked at me with a cold impatience between his brows.

I immediately leaned over and saw his face through the car window, "Brother."

"Get in the car." His two words were obviously full of touching and deep affection, but he said it as ruthlessly as "Get out", I almost thought I heard it wrong.Thinking about it with my knees, I know how angry he is now. This time he should really beat me up, but it doesn't matter, I am not afraid of pain.I asked him as fast as I could, "Should I sit in the co-pilot or in the back?"

He stared at me for about five full seconds, and I suspected that I had said the wrong thing again.Then he stretched out his hand and pressed the button, and slowly raised the window, the voice came out when there was only the last gap at the top of the glass, "It's up to you."

I can guarantee that this is the most tolerant moment he has treated me since I was 16 years old. It is not an order, nor a mockery, nor a ignorance, but "as you are", God knows how much power the word "as you are", to me.

I didn't dare to be too excited at all, I calmly opened the door of the back seat and stuffed myself in, and sat upright.But my brother didn't step on the accelerator, his right arm rested on the steering wheel casually, and his index finger knocked on the leather protective cover on the steering wheel, making a "da da" sound.I always feel that the agitation on his body has intensified a lot since I sat in, and I dare not make a sound, God, didn't you let me get in the car.

Then he actually turned off the ignition, turned the key half a turn, and stretched out his hand to touch his body, not knowing what he was looking for.Probably because he didn't find what he wanted, that hand stretched back and stretched out in front of me, with an open palm, "Give me a cigarette."

My brother's hand is very good-looking, and it can be poked to the point where the hand-controlled topic on Weibo is licked every minute.But this hand means so much to me now that I don't even care to look at it from the perspective of admiration. I feel my neck start to heat up again, and my face is also a little red.

I hurriedly took out the cigarette case from my pocket, opened it and placed it in his palm.I rubbed my fingertips against his palm, I did it on purpose, and I don't know why I did it, I just wanted to touch him.If I'm more courageous, I even want to take it.

After taking the cigarette case, the car window was lowered by him again. He just stopped at the door of the clubhouse and started to smoke. I began to regret that I was sitting in the back and could not see his face.

He must be suppressing something, maybe it's anger, maybe it's his dislike for me, or maybe it's a "violent tendency" that he doesn't know exists.The light was not bright, it was just two small lights on the roof, and I saw my cigarette case being thrown on the passenger side by him.I suddenly longed to be beaten up by him, with hands, belts, and sticks.

As soon as I thought of the word belt, I saw that day again, his belt dangling from his waist.

I decided to explain about Mi Qiao first. This is the most important thing. If I don’t explain it, I’m afraid that tomorrow I’ll see the entertainment news about Mi Qiao’s comeback, and in a week’s time I’ll see the gossip about Mi Qiao’s suspected relationship with the head of Jiying Media.I straightened my body, being active and obedient as if I had surrendered myself, and opened my mouth at the moment when he put the cigarette in his mouth and sucked it.

"elder brother……"

"Brother, I really didn't know that I would meet Ji Ying's artiste tonight. I didn't do it on purpose. I didn't touch her, and I didn't take advantage of her. Li Zhou wanted her, but she just used me as a shield." Saying that It's not a lie, she wants to use me to gain a relationship with my brother, which is not too different from her wanting to use me as a shield.

"Also, I shouldn't have sent you a message. Dacheng...my friend and Li Zhou knew each other, and it would be bad for me to leave the stage halfway. I am not afraid of offending Li Zhou, but I am worried that Li Zhou will anger my friend. The first thing I thought was that only You are qualified to take me away from Li Zhou, brother, I was wrong, and I won't bother you so late in the future."

It's the same as when I confessed the facts of the crime. After the confession, my heart skipped a beat and I waited for his trial.

Suddenly I feel like my brother's lover now, he is so annoyed by me, I begged him not to abandon me, and kept a very humble posture, waiting for him to judge whether I can continue to sit in the lover's position or get out his car.

I really always put myself in the position of his lover recently, but it really can't blame me.I'm too much like his suitor, not like his younger brother anyway, he doesn't have the slightest preference for me, I guarantee that he treats his lover much better than me, I'm his least favored "lover".A few days ago, I asked him if he was in a relationship, and now I thought about it and asked him how many lovers he has.

My mind was spinning fast because of nervousness, and I wanted to ask my brother if I could be his lover.

If I become his lover, will he treat me better, say good night to me, and reply to my messages when I look for him, even occasionally.

I think I'm downright smart!

My brother finished smoking a cigarette and remained silent.The cigarette butt in his hand was left with a filter tip with sparks, I saw his wrist flip out, and I didn't know where to press it.But judging from this posture, he must have pushed the door out of the car, and he actually used the door to put out the smoke.

I am very concerned about that cigarette butt, I don't know where he threw it after he extinguished it, and I want him not to litter.

He held the cigarette butt in his hand and threw it on the co-pilot's seat.

It was the first time for me to ride in my brother's car, and it was also the first time I saw a person who used the car door to extinguish the cigarette and threw the still warm cigarette butt directly at the co-pilot.

"Come on a date?"

But I didn't have time to be surprised, my brother's question made me suddenly tense.

With just three words, I can see what my brother looks like when he talks about business. He is a natural ruler. No matter who he faces, he has an inexplicable sense of contempt. It will make people suspect that he did it on purpose, and subconsciously follow his pace.

I didn't sit so well in elementary school, and I didn't want to lie to him. I just came here for sex, but I didn't dare to tell the truth.Why dare not say it?It's not that he doesn't want to have sex, for a person like my brother, dating is as natural as eating, I comforted myself crazily.

"Speak." My brother waited impatiently.

"...Yes." I could only answer, my voice was like a mosquito, and I was so cowardly.

I waited for his next sentence, not knowing what he would say, or why he asked me that.Now my brother is really like my brother, I presumably summed up his emotions as concern and worry, I know this is very self-indulgent, I seldom act so self-indulgent, I will make an exception tonight.

And my brother gripped the steering wheel with his right hand so hard that his blood vessels burst. He cursed in a low voice. I've never heard him swear.I was so frightened that I settled down on my seat, and heard his voice, with a very familiar tone, exactly the same tone as when he said that I was a "moral model", cold and mocking.

"You are very powerful, if one day you get yourself in, don't ask me to fish you out."

His tone was as if I was born with this kind of person, like Li Zhou.

But I am not, my grievance was ignited by his words, and exploded suddenly.If he and Ju Lulu hadn't gotten together, if he hadn't insisted on doing it in front of me, if he hadn't teased me knowingly enough to let me click on Dachengfa's website, how could I be here today?Why he can, I can't, he should be unrestrained, I must be a moral model?

"I thought I learned it from you." I couldn't control my mouth and said.

"My psychiatrist said that I adore you. I have adored you since I was a child. I will imitate your movements. Brother, I learned from you."

The author says:

Small classroom of moral model: don't litter. :