[Entertainment circle] The starlight in the pen is not as good as you

In retrospect, Wang Fuwei didn't know whether the final decision he made was because he couldn't endure hardship, or because he couldn't believe it.

The part of her fearlessly telling Cao Jiaxuan that she would not go abroad even if the family did not give her a penny, after thinking about it later, it was really full of the aura of a newborn calf not afraid of tigers.

But she is not a calf, no matter when, she has never been.

After she and Cao Jiaxuan got together, the family cut off financial assistance, not necessarily because it fell in love with the same sex - at that time, everyone in the family thought that they would not last long, and they were just children's play, so this punishment More likely it was a lesson to her that she should start defiantly.

Wang Fuwei wanted to prove to everyone that she could live well on her own, including Cao Jiaxuan, so she didn't even seek Cao Jiaxuan's help at first.

She rented a cheap house to live outside, like many people in this city, this was a novel experience for Wang Fuwei at first, but after only a week, it gradually became unbearable.

She would be woken up by the noise next door every night, and when it was dawn, there would be loud human voices everywhere, the voltage limit was terribly low, the hair dryer and curling iron would not work at all, and sometimes she would receive a warning even if she boiled some hot water .

What was even more frightening was that she was gradually unable to maintain such a poor life.

A week later, she had to move to Cao Jiaxuan's.

On the day of moving, only Du Ying came to see her off by car.

Cao Jiaxuan is really too busy, Gu Zhanqiao is a little girl, and after many efforts, she finally has the stance to become popular, so naturally she can't slack off, but what the little girl can know is that Cao Jiaxuan is working hard.

Wang Fuwei felt inexplicably embarrassed and scratched the leather car seat on the seat.

Du Ying, who studies psychology, naturally couldn't fail to discover this, so she smiled and said, "Don't be embarrassed, you are Jiaxuan's friend, and of course mine."

Wang Fuwei was taken aback for a moment, then repeated in a low voice: "Friend?"

Du Ying misunderstood Wang Fuwei's meaning: "I've already graduated, and it's too unreasonable to call me a senior. You can call me Aying along with Jiaxuan."

Wang Fuwei subconsciously said, "Yes, Ah Ying."

But her heart kept sinking, until she reached the endless abyss where she could not fall, and the biting cold wind from the abyss turned into a sharp and malicious roar-see, you are dating, but you don't even know her best friend.

Perhaps she should be angry and press Cao Jiaxuan to ask what's going on, but at this moment, a humble self suddenly appeared and spontaneously made excuses for Cao Jiaxuan.

It's hard to talk about the same thing, maybe Cao Jiaxuan just didn't think it's necessary to mention it.

Or maybe I misunderstood Cao Jiaxuan's meaning at that time. When she said they were together, she didn't say that she liked or had a relationship.

Thinking like this, he felt more and more that he had learned the truth of the matter. The more Wang Fuwei thought about it, the more he felt that perhaps he was thinking too much, that he was so delusional that he could understand all Cao Jiaxuan's words as the meaning of communication.

The crush seems to be cautious, but when he thinks of what he can get from the other party, he almost overflows.

On the third day after that, Cao Jiaxuan finally returned to the residence. She gave Wang Fuwei a hug, and then fell asleep on the bed exhausted.

Wang Fuwei sat on the edge of the bed and painted the eyebrows and eyes of the other party, knowing that he would not say anything or ask anything.

Perhaps on my side, nothing has changed.

There are also changes.

Now, after losing the blessing of his family, even if he wanted to help Cao Jiaxuan, he had no choice.

There are also some trivial things that she never said, but she kept them in her heart.

She saw Du Ying's and Cao Jiaxuan's screen savers that were exactly the same, the earrings of the same brand, the coats they exchanged, and their intimate whispers.

Once Du Ying said with emotion that the day she and her boyfriend started living together turned out to be the eve of Wang Fuwei's graduation party.

Wang Fuwei couldn't help thinking about everything. She never thought that she would be such a person who would think about one thing so many times. She asked Du Ying nonchalantly: "Hey, do you like your boyfriend? ?”

Du Ying thought it was funny: "Of course, otherwise why would I be with him."

"Some people really date people they don't like, right?"

"Is there such a person? What's the point of that?"

"Maybe she was just rejected, maybe she was emotionally hurt."

"That's right. I seem to have read it somewhere. The best way to forget the previous relationship is to start the next one. But such a person is too bad."

"Is it bad?"

"Of course, isn't it unfair to the person who will experience the next relationship with him?"

This is another winter after Wang Fuwei graduated.

It was Christmas Eve, but Christmas was not fashionable that year, and the merchants would use it as a gimmick. While they were sitting on the edge of the flower bed drinking hot coffee, the store played intermittent Christmas songs.

When Du Ying spoke, the white mist was in front of her mouth, and her lips were dry, with red lipstick on.

This made Wang Fuwei couldn't help but think of the scene she saw that year, which became clearer with time.

She almost thought she was going to cry when she put her woolen gloved hand to her nose.

But rationality told her that this is all your own guess, and even, you may not even be qualified to guess.

But she couldn't help but said to Du Ying: "Maybe it's a kind of luck for the next person."

Du Ying is a good-tempered and sensitive person, when Wang Fuwei said this, she noticed something.

She might not have guessed that this was alluding to her best friend, so she said cautiously: "That's right."

"As long as we get along, it will always be a long time, right?"

At this time, it is naturally better to agree.

But Du Ying was still very young at that time, and she didn't want to understand this matter. She just thought that if Wang Fuwei was really addicted to such a person, it would be better to get out as soon as possible.

So she finally persuaded: "You can't get love by making compromises. Love is equal and trustworthy."

In the end, I still couldn't bear it, and added: "Love is not such a great thing, after six months, it will always disappear."

Wang Fuwei smiled and nodded again.

She finally compromised with her family.

Before compromising, she called and asked Cao Jiaxuan who had been away for a long time: "If I leave, we can't be together, right?"

Cao Jiaxuan was silent for two seconds when there was a faint electric sound on the other side of the phone, and then she said, "Yeah, how can we be together after we leave."

Wang Fuwei's cry overflowed from his throat: "You know what I'm talking about."

Perhaps because of the crying, Cao Jiaxuan's voice hesitated: "...I thought we were talking about the same thing."

"I'm going abroad."

"... Sure enough."

Tears streamed down, and Wang Fuwei knew for the first time that the pearls that looked like broken strings were not exaggerated rhetorical tricks. She finally couldn't help asking: "Aren't you going to stop me?"

"Actually, that's pretty good."

Wang Fuwei was struck by lightning.

Her mind was blank, and after a long while, these seven big characters were clearly printed in black and white - in fact, it was quite good.

She hung up the phone, hugging her knees and crying.

It turns out that everything is just a dream, a delusional plot from the crush.

……

"Oh, so you thought so."

There were pink balloons hanging on the railing of the yacht. After listening to Wang Fuwei's words, Cao Jiaxuan sneered and burst a balloon.

Wang Fuwei took two steps back in fright, and looked at Cao Jiaxuan who seemed nothing had happened with horror on his face.

But then she leaned forward again and said, "What are you doing, are you not injured?"

The slender fingers have well-defined joints, are white and refreshing without any accessories, and the transparent nail covers are clean and tidy. If they are beautiful, they can be used as hand models directly.

These hands approached Wang Fuwei and squeezed her cheeks hard.

Wang Fuwei stomped his feet and struggled, saying, "Let go quickly, do you know how much collagen is lost now, and the pure natural ones can't last anymore."

Cao Jiaxuan let go, looked at Wang Fuwei and smiled: "I can't lose my composure at my sister's wedding, and I'll talk to you later."

The word "feeling" was accentuated, which made Wang Fuwei shiver for no reason.

Facing the sea breeze, Cao Jiaxuan's expression was calm, and he only raised his eyebrows and asked: "So, in those years of yours, I was a scumbag."

"No no no no, how can you be a scum." Wang Fuwei retorted shaking his head and waving his hands.

"what is that?"

"……goddess?"

"So that's it." Cao Jiaxuan nodded, "It turns out that goddesses are synonymous with scum, so I've been taught."

Wang Fuwei: "..."

Seeing that Wang Fuwei was speechless, Cao Jiaxuan stopped teasing, but reached out and touched the other party's hair that was disheveled in the sea breeze: "I can't say anything about you, after all, you are not the only one who misunderstood."

"Huh?" Wang Fuwei raised his head in surprise.

"I thought you couldn't survive the life of being cut off from your family's source of income, so you gave up."

Wang Fuwei's eyes widened, and he shut up and didn't say much after he felt that there seemed to be some reasons for this.

To be honest, this time she straightened up and continued to pursue Cao Jiaxuan because everything she did after taking charge of the company had proved herself to her family, so the family did not interfere much.

Cao Jiaxuan rarely showed a sad expression: "At that time, I thought, as long as you stay by my side, we will be together. I don't want to put pressure on you. I thought that as long as I don't make promises or persecute you, you will also be together." Be able to face the pressure from home more calmly——I don’t support you blindly resisting, this is not a good way.”

"It turned out that I was wrong. I thought I would take care of everything, but in fact it made you lose the basis for mutual trust."

Hearing what Cao Jiaxuan said, Wang Fuwei felt embarrassed. She rubbed her hands against the splint with her hands and feet behind her back. She just wanted to admit that her girlhood was indeed too long, so that at that time she also felt a little self-pity and self-pity and indulged in self-harm emotions, so she then I felt my shoulders sinking, and after losing my center of gravity, I stumbled forward and fell into a warm embrace.

The waiter pushed the dining cart by, said sorry to them, and left with a smile.

The waiter had already left, but Wang Fuwei was thrown into Cao Jiaxuan's arms.

She even wrapped her arms around Cao Jiaxuan's waist, and then put her head on the other's chest.

Compared with the soft chest and faintly beating heart, she was more disturbed.

She didn't know if she should regret the past that was missed for no reason, she just felt that the self that was created by those pasts was more qualified to stand with Cao Jiaxuan now.

She closed her eyes, and while listening to the sound of the other person's breathing, she said words like a whisper in a dream: "Actually, maybe my anxiety in the past was because I felt that I was not worthy of you. You are working hard, but I Confused, how can I stand with you like this."

Cao Jiaxuan combed Wang Fuwei's tangled hair: "I thought promises were worthless, but they were just self-disguises of those with a guilty conscience, but now I know that I was too arrogant. The reason why promises are valuable is because lovers will love each other. believe."

The sun was setting, and rose-colored clouds were burning in the distant sky.

The sea and the sky become one color, the sea waves sway layer by layer, and the colorful lights flicker indefinitely.

Cao Jiaxuan put his mouth close to Wang Fuwei's ear, and said the late words, and the promise passed down through the ages.

"I love you and I will always be with you."

Wang Fuwei buried her head in Cao Jiaxuan's arms, almost crying with laughter.

She thought that the self-cultivation of secret love is probably to become a better self.

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