Unbearable

Seeing Feng Qi's dull expression, Ji Zhonghan felt amused.

That night, Ji Zhonghan stayed in Feng Qi's room and slept. The two of them covered two quilts, and Ji Zhonghan showed one hand, holding Feng Qi's palm.There is no purer way of sleeping than this, unlike the hospital.

At that time, there was a big bed next to a small bed, but now they all share the same bed, and there is nothing else to do except hold hands.

Feng Qi was very listless, not in a high mood, and looked at Ji Zhonghan from top to bottom with his eyes from time to time, and then sighed wistfully.

Ji Zhonghan couldn't bear it anymore: "Why don't I go to sleep on my side."

"No." Feng Qi refused: "Come and hug me, just like when I was a child."

Ji Zhonghan understood what Feng Qi said, but before they developed their current relationship, they occupied almost half of each other's lives.

Most of the time, they live in each other's home, sleeping in the same bed.

Feng Qi grew up with him for a few months, and was occasionally called brother by him, but he never felt safe when sleeping.

If two people need to hug each other on the bed, Feng Qi is definitely the one to be hugged.

He likes to bury his face on Ji Zhonghan's chest and have his hair gently stroked, which always makes him fall asleep quickly.

When he was a child, Feng Qi was beaten all over by Feng Xinglu, no matter how painful it was, as long as Ji Zhonghan comforted him like this, he could fall asleep.

Ji Zhonghan lifted the quilt and held Feng Qi in his arms.From his angle, he could see Feng Qi's tightly closed eyelashes and straight nose.

This look of nostalgia for him is really soft-hearted.

Ji Zhonghan is not sure whether he can provide all the responsibilities of his lover, including sex.But he doesn't mind trying and overcoming for Feng Qi.

If you haven't made all the psychological preparations, how can you talk about being together for real?

To love someone is to be willing to do anything for him.

Even if he knew that he had done something wrong and had many flaws in his personality, if he got angry at the time, he would be helpless to tolerate him afterwards.

Just like Feng Qi is obsessed with him, even though he has been away for so many years, and has always misunderstood that he is already in love with others, he still does not give up.

The two of them really have to care about it, there are really many problems, and they are not perfect.

These years have gone through bumps and bumps, and I don't know what the future will hold.

But at the moment, Ji Zhonghan just wants to sleep with Feng Qi in his arms, and every night in the future, he hopes that Feng Qi will be in his arms.

On the second day, Ji Zhonghan and Lin Yu met in the clinic. From the moment he entered the door to when he was seated, Lin Yuyou kept looking at him. Ji Zhonghan didn't hide anything, and he briefly talked about his affairs these days.

Including falling in love and being able to fall asleep in bed.

But he can't touch people's faults, and it hasn't gotten better yet, but he is confident that it will get better and better in the future.

Lin Yu didn't persuade him that Feng Qi was not a good man, nor did he worry about suspecting that he was Stockholm.

Just because everything is getting better for the patient, it means that his path is not wrong.And their psychological counselors are just playing an auxiliary role.

The one who can really make the patient come out is himself.

Now, Lin Yu has seen signs of getting better in Ji Zhonghan, and these are all brought by Feng Qi.

He didn't need to, and he didn't need to persuade Ji Zhonghan anymore.

When he came out of Lin Yu's clinic, Ji Zhonghan answered the phone. He had arranged some things before, and asked Xu Wei to help arrange them.

Xu Wei called him and said that the scene had been arranged.

She even contacted Jing He for him, warning him not to reveal his secrets.

Now there is only one last step left, Ji Zhonghan went to Feng Qi's house and drove the people to the scene.

When he came to pick up Feng Qi, Feng Qi Zhenghe invited the rehabilitation therapist at home for training.He practiced sweating profusely, and wished that his physique would return to the past overnight.

When Ji Zhonghan opened the door and entered the room, he heard the rehabilitation teacher urging him to take his time.

Seeing Ji Zhonghan came back, Feng Qi put down the training equipment and wanted to go directly to Ji Zhonghan.

As a result, he was held down by the rehabilitation therapist and let him go after doing a lot of relaxation after exercise.

Feng Qi was sweating, and came to Ji Zhonghan, completely ignoring his sweat, trying to hug him.

Unexpectedly, Ji Zhonghan put his hand against him: "Go take a shower first, and I will take you out for dinner."

Feng Qi didn't make it, and was a little unhappy, but he obediently and cooperatively went to take a bath.

After coming out, Feng Qi picked out clothes for a long time in the cloakroom.Ji Zhonghan has never seen such a side of Feng Qi. Feng Qi only puts on perfume after choosing everything from matching to accessories.

It made Ji Zhonghan beside him feel that he was too simple and not worthy of this Feng Qi who became more flamboyant after being dressed up.

Feng Qi, smelling of perfume all over his body, came to him: "Let's go, don't you want to go out on a date?"

Ji Zhonghan pretended to be surprised: "It's just a meal, not a date."

Feng Qi was a little helpless when he retorted: "This is the first time we go out to eat."

Thinking about it this way, it's true that they really haven't gone out to eat.

After getting into the car, Ji Zhonghan gave Feng Qi a hat: "Prevent the paparazzi."

Even though Feng Qi has been out of work for a long time now, he is still the favorite of the paparazzi. On the day he returned home from the hospital, a group of people stood outside the private hospital to take photos of Feng Qi being discharged from the hospital.

Feng Qi didn't intend to wear it at all: "What are you afraid of, if you are photographed, you will be photographed, at worst, it will be made public on social media."

"Or you don't want to disclose it to me?" Feng Qi looked at Ji Zhonghan.

Ji Zhonghan supported the steering wheel, and said calmly: "It's okay, as long as you are happy."

If Ji Zhonghan objected, then Feng Qi would naturally be unhappy.But if Ji Zhonghan agrees happily, Feng Qi will have to worry about it.

Sure enough, not long after, Feng Qi leaned on the chair obediently: "Forget it, it's better not to make it public. It's not good if it affects your work, or the people around you know."

"Everyone around me knows that I'm with you." Ji Zhonghan said, "As for work, I don't think my sexuality will affect my work."

Hearing Ji Zhonghan's words, Feng Qi was very happy, but he still wanted to get a bargain and acted like a good boy: "Well, let's wait for a while and let me see how to make it public. You also know that I am a public figure, and it depends on the company to make a statement. arrange."

In the chat room, the destination is approaching.

It was an independent building, which Ji Zhonghan asked the director to borrow when he went to shoot on the plateau this time.

The price for lent the venue was Ji Zhonghan to help with the filming for a week.

Ji Zhonghan thought it was a good deal, for no other reason than because the back garden of this building was big enough to build a huge tent, and a series of mood lights and balloons were hung on the tent.

There are long tables, flowers, candles, cakes and wine in the tent.

Looking at this scene, Feng Qi stopped in his tracks.Seeing that he didn't leave, Ji Zhonghan took his hand and walked towards the tent step by step.

While walking, he asked Feng Qi softly: "Do you remember that on my 15th birthday, you and I were at the secret base and celebrated my birthday?"

The secret base is the tent they built together.

They used to dream about the future and talk about the world there.Until the tent was destroyed by the typhoon, Ji Zhonghan was keen to stay there with Feng Qi.

When he came to the dining table, Ji Zhonghan pressed Feng Qi's shoulder and told him to sit down.

He doesn't plan to have other people participate in this place, it's just a secret space for him and Feng Qi.

He pushed in the dining cart that had been prepared long ago, and laid out the delicacies one by one.

It's not high-end food, but the ones he and Feng Qi liked to eat near the school.

Feng Qi's eyes moved slightly, looking at those things, nostalgia and sadness formed a tangled expression on his face.

Ji Zhonghan didn't want to make Feng Qi sad, but he thought for a long time before he came up with this way of confession. There was a promise that Feng Qi had given him, and he wanted to return it to Feng Qi.

The sky is dark, showing a beautiful purple red, with a golden wheel on the edge, which is when the sun is about to set.

Ji Zhonghan bent down and picked up the glass bottle hidden under the dining table, and opened the cap.

The fireflies were free at last, swaying unsteadily, flying in mid-air with a faint starlight.

This is the "star" that Feng Qi once gave him.

Ji Zhonghan stood up, holding a bouquet of bright red roses, and said embarrassingly: "Giving flowers is very vulgar, but I still want to give them."

The last time I was in the hospital, it was not delivered, but this time it was finally okay.

When Ji Zhonghan came to Feng Qi, he saw that Feng Qi's eyelids were red again, and he was glad that he didn't agree to Xu Wei's suggestion and asked someone to come over and take all the pictures.

The appearance of Feng Qi crying is enough for him alone to see.

Ji Zhonghan sent the flowers to Feng Qi, and there were two velvet boxes inside.

Feng Qi stared at the two boxes, tremblingly said: "Marriage proposal?"

Ji Zhonghan smiled and said: "It's not impossible, but we should follow the steps, such as establishing a relationship first."

Feng Qi took a deep breath, took out the two ring boxes from the flower, and opened them.

One of them was a ring that Feng Qi had sent out before and then took back privately, and now it was stolen by Jing He and fell back into Ji Zhonghan's hand.

There is another one, which is somewhat similar to this ring, and both use initials as patterns for decoration.

This is the ring that Ji Zhonghan thought about for a long time, and after repeated discussions with the foreign student who majored in jewelry design, he worked out the ring.

This is what Ji Zhonghan was thinking about in the hospital.

The workmanship is also abroad, and the material is the same, just to fit the one bought by Feng Qi.

Ji Zhonghan took out the ring on his own initiative, took Feng Qi's hand, and pushed the ring to his ring finger.

"Feng Qi, when you were 15 years old, you promised me one thing, do you remember?"

Feng Qi's eyes were slightly moist, and he looked at Ji Zhonghan quietly: "I said that every birthday in the future, I will accompany you."

Of course he remembered, he remembered every promise he made to Ji Zhonghan.

Ji Zhonghan also reached out his hand, and Feng Qi put the ring on him: "I also want to have me with you on my birthday every year in the future."

At this time, the last ray of the sun completely set, and the sky officially entered the night.

A rain that was not within the expected range suddenly fell down.

When the rainwater hit the tent, Ji Zhonghan was still a little stunned, he didn't expect such bad luck.

Seeing his appearance, Feng Qi couldn't help laughing and said, "You didn't know it would rain?"

"The weather forecast didn't say anything." Ji Zhonghan said angrily.

He immediately thought of Feng Qi's leg injury: "Did you feel it a long time ago?"

Feng Qi supported his knee: "Fortunately, it doesn't hurt at all now."

Ji Zhonghan walked up to Feng Qi, squatted down, and gently pressed his palm against his knee: "Actually, every rainy day used to hurt me."

Before Feng Qi could ask him, Ji Zhonghan raised his face and said, "It doesn't seem to be possible now."

I don't know when it won't happen, maybe it was during that rainy night that Feng Qi was found to have been in a car accident and was seriously injured.

Or maybe it was the moment when the big tree was struck by lightning and fell on them, and was protected by Feng Qi.

Those wounds that were once hidden deep in my heart and thought they would never heal in this life, slowly healed.

Feng Qi held his face in his hands, the coolness on his ring finger pressed against his slightly hot cheek.

Ji Zhonghan smiled with his eyes bent: "Feng Qi, when did you fall in love with me?"

Feng Qi didn't speak, he leaned forward and kissed the person he thought he would never get, and he would never get again.

When did he like it, he didn't know.

When fell in love, maybe know.

Probably when he understood the meaning of love, the only option and answer that came to his mind was Ji Zhonghan, and Feng Qi understood it.

There will be no one else but this person in front of you.

He wanted to be with him all the time, to accompany him through his whole life, and in this long life, there was this person's shadow.

That was the happiest thing he had ever thought of.

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