Unbearable

Xu Wei asked Ji Zhonghan to rest for two days. After finishing the job, he should nourish his stomach and recuperate his body.And asked Xiao Zhao to come to the door regularly to watch over Ji Zhonghan and not let him eat junk food.

Xiao Zhao was ordered to come here and robbed Ji Zhonghan of all the fast food in the refrigerator, not even a bottle of Coke was left for him, let alone beer.

Ji Zhonghan really recuperated for a while, and didn't go out. Apart from using the computer to handle work at home every day, he would go jogging in the park downstairs or go to the judo gym for training.

He hadn't been to the judo gym for a while, and the boss was very happy to see him here, so he introduced him to the new juniors and sisters, and told them that Ji Zhonghan's judo was very good.

You can ask him for advice if you need it.

When Ji Zhonghan practiced judo, his hair would be coiled on the top of his skull to prevent it from being pulled down during the tugging process.

But it also makes his image look too neutral, and he can't play at all.

After Ji Zhonghan threw out the third boy who was taller and stronger than him, his body felt a little tired.He smiled and turned to the next boy who was queuing up to practice with him, only to see that the other boy flinched back and refused with horror on his face.

Ji Zhonghan felt a little pity and sighed.

At this time, a girl raised her hand to sign up and said generously, "Brother Ji, can you practice with me?"

Ji Zhonghan shook his head and said: "Girls can't do it, I'm afraid I won't be able to handle it well, so go find Senior Sister Zhang."

The girl said again: "Then senior brother, can you send me a WeChat message?"

Before Ji Zhonghan could answer, a girl with short black hair and good looks came over and tapped the girl on the head lightly: "No, your elder brother is timid and shy, don't scare him so much that he doesn't dare to come again. We still have to use His face is going to recruit students!"

This girl with short black hair is exactly the Senior Sister Zhang that Ji Zhonghan was talking about.

Senior Sister Zhang loosened her muscles, waved to Ji Zhonghan, and said sassyly: "Come on, let me see how much you have regressed after not practicing for so long."

As far as other girls are concerned, Ji Zhonghan is afraid that he will be inappropriate, but when it comes to Zhang Yao, Ji Zhonghan is afraid that he will lose the contest if he doesn't pay attention.

Zhang Yao is really amazing, she is at the player level, she often participates in competitions, and has won many awards.

In Ji Zhonghan's eyes, she used to be the shining type, which made Ji Zhonghan feel ashamed.

He had a crush on Zhang Yao, and Zhang Yao should be aware of this.However, she never revealed this ambiguity, and she never stopped talking when getting along.

Ji Zhonghan didn't dare to pursue girls. How could a person like him who had a terrible past be with women again? He couldn't even sleep on the bed.

This kind of him is not good enough for Zhang Yao.

He looked at Zhang Yao, trying to find the feeling of his heart, even he himself didn't know why he did it.

Ji Zhonghan felt like he was walking in a thick fog now, and after meeting Feng Qi, he was even more stuck in a swamp, unable to get out even half a step.

He looked deeply at Zhang Yao, wondering if there was some meaning in his gaze, but Zhang Yao actually smiled: "Do you want to have a supper together tonight?"

Ji Zhonghan's heart skipped a beat, because Zhang Yao never invited him alone, is this a signal?

He didn't know, he only knew that when he set out at night to the barbecue stand that Zhang Yao mentioned, he was very nervous and his palms were sweating a lot.

Zhang Yao had arrived early and was chatting with the boss, with a hearty smile, which was Ji Zhonghan's favorite smile, it could infect others, and even looking at the sunshine could improve the mood.

Ji Zhonghan walked over, and said briskly, "Why don't you wait for me, and eat it yourself."

A mountain of lobster shells had piled up in front of Zhang Yao, and a pair of gloves had been eaten to pieces.

She waved her hand: "Don't mention it, my husband is in charge of me recently, and it's hard for me to sneak out for a late-night snack. It shouldn't be too miserable."

Ji Zhonghan was stunned for a while, unable to tell what mood he was in for a while.

Is it lost?It doesn't seem too much, is it sad?Not so much.

He sat down and chatted, "When did you get married, why didn't you invite me?"

Zhang Yao waved her hands casually and said, "I don't want to wear a wedding dress, and I don't want to have a banquet, so I took him directly to get the certificate. He was crying when he got the certificate. If there is a wedding banquet, wouldn't he cry so much?"

Zhang Yao is from City C, and she speaks with an accent.

Ji Zhonghan likes City C very much, and even thought about settling there.

He smiled wistfully: "Really, congratulations."

Zhang Yao looked at him with her chin in her hand for a while, then suddenly said with a sullen smile, "You still like me, don't you?"

Ji Zhonghan moved uncomfortably: "What are you talking about, you are married."

Zhang Yao sighed: "Just kidding, Zhong Han, I just want to care about you tonight, as a friend."

These words were a bit heart-wrenching, Ji Zhonghan poured himself half a glass of wine, and drank it awkwardly: "I'm fine, I've been working recently, and my friends... met a few."

Of course not, his friends are still the same, neither increased nor decreased.

Zhang Yao asked again: "Are you still having nightmares recently? What about the doctor, do you see him regularly?"

If it is said that he can always meet good people in his life, then Zhang Yao is the most sensitive one among the good people he has met.

She was able to find out that Ji Zhonghan's mood was wrong in time, and even accompanied Ji Zhonghan to the hospital several times.

Because Zhang Yao said that although it is not impossible to go to the hospital alone, it feels better to be accompanied by one more person.

Zhang Yao knew that he was seeing a psychiatrist and would also care about his recent situation.

However, Zhang Yao is not as close to his life as Xu Wei, and only contacts occasionally. Compared with friends, Zhang Yao exists more like a sister.

Ji Zhonghan avoided answering and said, "It's nothing, see a doctor."

But Zhang Yao shook her head and said, "You must have encountered an accident, otherwise you wouldn't be so impatient today, you came here and fell a lot of people."

Ji Zhonghan didn't speak, just stared at the crayfish on the table, a little absent-minded.

Zhang Yao asked again: "Is there anyone you like?"

Ji Zhonghan smiled wryly: "No."

Zhang Yao suddenly reached out to touch his shoulder, Ji Zhonghan subconsciously dodged and avoided her.

Ji Zhonghan apologized instinctively: "I'm sorry."

Zhang Yao withdrew her hand: "You didn't go to the hospital anymore, did you?"

Ji Zhonghan didn't speak, Zhang Yao said again: "Zhonghan, you can't rely on judo to touch others all your life. Besides, judo is more about grabbing other people's clothes than physical contact."

"It's not impossible for you to continue like this. People have the freedom to choose how to live their lives. But Zhong Han, can you really be satisfied with the current situation?" Zhang Yao said.

Ji Zhonghan stopped talking again, and Zhang Yao was not angry when he saw him avoiding him, she just handed Ji Zhonghan a business card: "Although my guy loves to cry, he is reliable in business, and he has taken care of many patients. You can go and see it if you want."

The business card that Zhang Yao pushed over had the word Lin Yu written on it, which was a very cute name, and the following title was Psychologist.

It was a psychiatrist again, Ji Zhonghan didn't really want to see it, but he still accepted this business card because he didn't want to reject Zhang Yao's kindness.

After saying goodbye to Zhang Yao, Ji Zhonghan stood in place and watched Zhang Yao get into the car.

It turned out that before he knew it, he had unknowingly missed many things.

What Zhang Yao said is right, it is not impossible to continue to escape like this, this is his own life, and he has the freedom to choose how to live it.

But he didn't want to go on like this, he wanted to be a normal person.

It's a pity that after so many years, no one can save him.