seven steps

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Yinhu has been guarding the spirit of Prince Yu, and Kangxi ordered all elder brothers to take turns to guard the spirit.Even so, Yinhu never left.Everyone knows that Yinhu has a deep relationship with Prince Yu, but more people think that he is putting on a show.The one he knows best is Yinzhen. He knows that among these elders, Prince Yu is the one who really treats Yinhu well, the one who treats him well from the bottom of his heart. Yinhu has respect and admiration for Prince Yu.

It happened that Yinzhen came here this day.See Yinhu guarding in front of the spirit, regardless of the people around him.Go straight to Yinhu. "Eighth brother, take a step to speak."

Yinhu had no way to brush Yinzhen's face in front of everyone.So he got up and went out with him.The two walked to a place where no one was there.

Yin Zhen softly called "Xiao Ba."

But Yinhu didn't make any waves.Respectfully said, "What's your order, fourth brother?"

Yinzhen felt a sense of bitterness, and paused for a while before saying, "If you pay more attention to your body, the emperor must not want you to be like this. Moreover, you have to take into account Huang Ama's feelings, after all, the power of heaven is unpredictable."

Yinhu raised his eyes and looked at Yinzhen, "Thank you for reminding me, brother. My brother should pay attention. If there is nothing wrong, my brother will go back first."

Just when Yinhu was about to pass by, Yinzhen grabbed Yinhu's arm.

"Xiaoba, why did we become like this?" He didn't speak like Yinzhen, like a helpless old man who had suffered from hardships.The voice is tired, vicissitudes, and pain.

Yinhu paused, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "Fourth brother, still can't let go? You can't keep the day of yesterday, and everything yesterday is like death yesterday. Fourth brother, people who recite Buddhism, why bother to be obsessed."

Without waiting for Yinzhen to speak, Yinhu said again, "The "Diamond Sutra" says that all things with action are like dreams and bubbles, like dew or electricity, and should be viewed in this way. Come to think of it, fourth brother also knows."

Yinzhen tightly grasped Yinhu's hand. "I can't see it through. I don't want to see it through. I don't understand. I just love someone hard. What's wrong with me?"

"Yes, fourth brother loves the wrong person. This is a mistake." Yinhu replied without hesitation, like a sharp knife, piercing into Yinzhen's heart without hesitation.

"Is it really wrong?" He didn't know whether he was asking himself or Yinhu, he only knew that at this moment, it was difficult to even breathe.Throat seems to be choked with something, sore.

Yinhu turned to look at Yinzhen, looking into his eyes, but Yinzhen didn't dare to look up at him, afraid of seeing the determination in his eyes, but even more afraid of seeing the pair of eyes that once contained the same love as her. In the eyes, there is nothing left, only endless indifference and blankness. "Fourth brother, let go." As he said, he brushed off Yinzhen's hand that was holding onto his arm. He didn't expect that with this light flick, Yinzhen's hand would be brushed away.He turned and left, even he himself didn't know if he was afraid, because he was afraid that if he was a little longer, he would not be able to be ruthless.

From the beginning of this day, Yinhu went back to the mansion, but was carried back by someone. As soon as Yinhu walked to the mourning hall, he slammed on the ground and passed out.Everyone hurriedly sent Yinhu back to the mansion, and when Kangxi knew about it, he ordered him to rest at home.

Yinhu was lying on the couch in the study, and there was a person sitting beside him, who was Chen Banjian.

He shook his head and looked at Yinhu, "I never thought that Master Ba would be so cruel."

Yinhu half-raised his eyes, "Banjian, let's speak directly."

Chen Banjian sighed, "Perhaps fourth master can't understand it, but I'm an experienced person and an outsider, so I can see it most clearly. However, eighth master is wrong, very wrong. You use love in the name, but what you give is only love." harm."

Yinhu was taken aback, "Really."

Chen Banjian said, "Eighth Master, I'll understand after looking at it. It's just a walking corpse forced by him. Eighth Master, you and Jin Lan are really similar. You are both selfish, conceited, and self-righteous." Saying that, Chen Banjian Unconsciously shed tears.After so many years, what I can't forget is this love word after all.

Yinhu did not speak, and after a long time, he said, "No matter what happens in the future, Yinhu will not regret it."

Chen Banjian sighed and walked out the door.

He looked up at the sky and said softly, "Jinlan, I hate you so much."

The hurt in the name of love is the most painful.Don't ask what the other party wants, just deliver what you think is the best, but don't know, it hurts deeply.You only want to be good for me and be happy for me, but you don't know that without you, everything becomes nothingness.In this world, happiness is only given by the person you love.

After Yinzhen returned to the mansion, he continued to stay in the study, dismissed all the servants, and entered the secret passage alone. The opposite exit was sealed, and Yinzhen did not order anyone to open it again, but kept the entrance here alone , He always likes to walk in here, sit quietly inside for a while, do nothing, just sit quietly inside, because, in this way, he is closest to that person.

He doesn't know what made Yinhu change, but he knows that he has never regretted it, and he remembers every bit of the past, whether it's quarrels or joy, now it has become a memory that he can't forget and can't forget.It became the only trace to prove that they once loved.

Perhaps, only in that way can Yinhu no longer be afraid.

Yinzhen smiled, but it was very bitter.

After going out, Yinzhen called Gao Wuyong, "Go and invite Mr. Wu here."

Gao Wuyong was taken aback for a moment, and then he responded and went out. Thinking about it, the sky in the Forbidden City is changing more and more.He couldn't help wiping the sweat from his forehead with his sleeve.

The next day when Yinxiang came to the mansion, he met Mr. Wu.He has known about Wu Sidao for a long time, but Yinzhen has never used it, so it is rare to bring him into the mansion this time...

After going to Yinzhen's study, he said, "Fourth brother, my younger brother came here just now and saw Mr. Wu. What is this?"

"En." Yinzhen just responded lightly.

"Why did you come to the fourth brother's house today?"

"Can't come if you have nothing to do? Is it possible that the fourth brother doesn't even want the younger brother Xiao Shisan?"

Yinzhen glanced at him, "Say something nonsense."

Yinxiang sighed, "fourth brother, don't you think that my younger brother doesn't understand you. Mynah must have his reasons for being like this now. Fourth brother, don't be discouraged. We brothers grew up together, even if we are big-hearted, but My brother understands clearly. Starling has his own reasons. We brothers seem to be enjoying the glory and wealth, but who doesn’t know, living is a burden. If I can, I would rather not be this brother, but be a knight-errant. Go and have fun."

"Just tell me what you said, don't talk nonsense when you go, if Huang Ama hears it, I will definitely beat you up."

Yinxiang smiled, "Don't worry, fourth brother, younger brother is not stupid."

Yinzhen remained silent, regardless of his difficulties or helplessness, what saddened him the most was not his leaving now, but that he didn't say anything to him.It turns out that the one who has been obsessed with it is only me, and is it also me who is ridiculous?It's rare, after all these years, he still doesn't understand what he wants?

At the beginning, he also thought that he had done something wrong.But later, he believed even more that something happened to Yinhu, something made him leave him, and he felt that it was always wrong.It's not that he doesn't understand that this kind of feeling is not tolerated by the world, but he just met the right person at the right time, fell in love, and has no regrets, that's all.What's wrong with that.