Looking back

"At least I made an appointment, and I did it."

Hua Zheng put the Nine Yin Scriptures in his hand, but Yang Kang grabbed her hand and put it on his chest.He was wearing a thick leather robe, and his tiny hands seemed like dragonflies landed on the tree trunk without any movement.Yang Kang unbuttoned it, and put her hand inside the robe, through the thick cotton skirt, close to the beating position of the heart in the chest cavity.

"Plop-plop-"

The strong pulsation resonated regularly in the tent, driving the jumping of the flame, the tumbling of the tea, and the rising of the steam.After an unknown amount of time, Huazheng laughed, "What are you doing? Let me see if you have a heart problem?"

"My heart has been out of order for a long time." Yang Kang pressed her hand through the robe, Huazheng didn't have the slightest intention to withdraw his hand, he still didn't dare to relax, but pressed harder, "here Warm your hands."

Hua Zheng smiled slightly, "I'm not afraid of the cold."

"I'm afraid."

Her hand was always cold, even if it was placed on the warm chest, it was a piece of ice that would not melt.I don't know if it's the cold air on her hands, or the cool wind blowing in because of the open collar, but the warmth in her chest slowly dissipated.

Huazheng pulled his hand back, but failed, and said, "It's time for someone to come."

"Come on, come on, I'm listening." Yang Kang looked at the door, and if someone came from outside the thick leather curtain, he could hear it a dozen steps away.Huazheng smiled helplessly, "Hey, I don't care if I'm seen. Anyway, I'm not playing hooligans, it's you who want me to hit my chest."

Yang Kang also couldn't help laughing, "The breasts have been attacked, so be responsible to me." After finishing speaking, he put his arms around her back, and with her hands in his clothes, he covered her entire upper body. They all pressed against their chests, "I can't take it anymore, let me hug you for a while."

Huazheng struggled twice, and said, "I have a fiancé, bringing you here already makes people confused, and if someone sees it again, it will be even more difficult to tell."

"I can't tell if it's better, let's run away directly. Wherever you want to go, I will take you there." Yang Kang asked softly, holding her back with one hand and stroking her hair with the other.Huazheng stopped struggling, but leaned his head lightly on his shoulder, his heart warmed up, and he continued to ask, "Are you okay?"

There was no answer, only a soft sigh passed by his ears.

The tent was as quiet as death, but it was extremely noisy.It turns out that the crackling of flames, the gurgling of tea, the flow of breeze, the shaking of grass blades, and the drifting of snow can all be so noisy.Among the rumbling noises, only the desired answer could not be heard.

Huazheng slowly pushed him away, straightened up and looked straight at him and asked, "If I wasn't dying, would you say the same?"

Yang Kang looked into her eyes, "Probably not. No one can live without him."

Huazheng smiled relievedly, and seemed to want to say something, Yang Kang continued, "But if I really leave, I may spend forever in pain and regret."

Huazheng lowered his head and bit his lips, "Then, if I wasn't a time traveler like you, would you still treat me like this?"

"No. But it's not because of identity, but because of the resonance generated by the common experience in the past, not only the memory of our society, but also the things we experienced together in this life."

"Then if I'm not the only one passing through, you'll choose me too?"

Yang Kang sighed, "This question is a dead end. I can only say that I don't know. But I think this kind of assumption is meaningless. If you haven't met me, if you have met someone else, then it will definitely end badly." It will be the same. Life is full of uncertainties, the people you meet, the things you experience, the environment you live in, any slight change will lead to completely different results.”

"Some people may like the fate of three lives and you, and think that this is true love. But I think, among thousands of possibilities, coincidences and hard work, you can get The result that comes, the result that is based on accident but needs to be maintained hard, and people are willing to pay hard work and true feelings, is the most precious."

Huazheng was stunned for a while, then suddenly laughed, "You are so nasty."

Yang Kang smiled and said, "Is there anything else you can't think about? Let's solve it together, otherwise I will be forced to be a confidant elder sister every now and then, and I will die from exhaustion."

Huazheng gave him a blank look, and was about to say something, when she suddenly panted, Yang Kang knew that it was her internal injury, so he hurriedly helped her sit on the rug on the ground, while he sat behind, with his hands on her vest, to help Luck adjust. interest.

Along the way, he referred to the outline of the nine yin and nine yang, and as he became more familiar with Huazheng's internal strength system and the onset of injuries, he became more and more experienced in this set of healing methods.When the internal injury occurs, the internal breath is washed away, which seriously damages the meridians. Although the suppression and adjustment by external force is a temporary solution, but not the root cause, if the force is strong enough and the control is skillful, the damage can be reduced by half.For this reason, he practiced harder and harder, and after a few months, he felt that his internal energy became stronger and purer, and his control over it became more and more precise.

After luck adjusted her breathing, Huazheng sighed heavily, "When will it be?" Yang Kang also felt exhausted. After resting for a while, he helped her stand up and move her feet. After arriving, Yang Kang said, "I think the situation is getting better and better, maybe it will be all over in a few years."

Huazheng pursed his lips, "It's a beautiful idea." Yang Kang smiled, "You are so smart, you must be able to find a way, right? When you try it someday, eat the antidote, and I will help you detoxify? "

Huazheng shook his head, "Forcing the poison still depends on one's own strength, and it's more difficult to use external force to help force the poison, let's talk about it at that time." Yang Kang was distressed but couldn't help it, the poison and internal injury dragged on day after day, The body is getting weaker and weaker, and I am afraid that I will not be able to practice martial arts in the future.

Although Hua Zheng didn't seem to care much, but she has always been very persistent in practicing martial arts well, and he can deduce a thing or two about what kind of mood is in her heart at this moment.Sometimes he feels that many old sayings, such as "planting flowers intentionally but not blooming, unintentionally planting willows and willows to make shade" do have some truth, the more persistent, the easier it is for fate to make fun of it.

Naturally, he wouldn't say this idea, he could only chat about other things, so he asked, "Where are we going then?"

Huazheng pretended not to understand, and asked, "Where does what go?"

"Where are you going to elope." Huazheng turned her head, "Who are you elope with? I never promised."

Yang Kang smiled and said, "Okay, then I won't elope. Hey, when will Guo Jing come back?" So Huazheng turned his head and teased, "Do you miss him?"

He said sternly, "Of course I do. If he doesn't come back, why did you dump him?"

Huazheng shrugged, "I'm not going to dump him, I'm going to wait for him to dump me, so I don't want to be the wrong party."

Yang Kang knew this very well, she wanted Guo Jing to owe her something, and in order to get the translation of the general outline of that passage, "Why bother, you might as well just break up the engagement and let them go, in exchange for That passage."

Huazheng laughed and said, "No, no, I have to wait until he repents of his marriage and runs away, so that he can play tricks and announce that I am destined to be alone. Otherwise, what if I arrange another marriage?"

"Then run away from the marriage, why don't I take you away?" Huazheng raised her eyebrows at him with a half-smile, as if to say, "It's up to you?" Finally, she sighed, "I can't bear it."

She lowered her head, "I know I'm selfish, I don't want to fulfill my obligations to this family, and I want the warmth that this family gives me, but I really can't bear it. I've been walking for so many years, spending the night in the wild mountains I even slept in the tombs of ruined temples. Even if I went to an inn or a house, it was just a roof to keep out the rain. I want to have a place where someone can make me hot milk tea when I go back, and I can hug I told me to act like a baby, made my bed and didn't ask anything, just let me have a good rest."

Yang Kang said, "Like your second sister?"

Huazheng nodded, looked at the curtain, and looked at the fire under the pot, with a hint of sneer on his face, "I never thought I would need this so much, I used to hate this place, I don't think I can do anything with these ignorant and barbaric people Communication, I want to leave here, I want the world to be big, to be free, not to be restrained by others."

"So all along, I thought that what I want most is power, the power that can make me free, the power that allows me to do whatever I want without being manipulated by others, but after this incident, I realized that I still want a home .I've never been so afraid of death, I've never been so afraid that no one will accompany me, I've never been so afraid that I don't have a place to go back to."

Yang Kang pulled her to sit on the bed, "Stop talking, you should be able to breathe when you're excited." He stretched out a finger to press her cold lips, telling her not to say any more, "Needless to say, I will Know."

Something churned in his chest, prompting him to blurt out, "I'll give you a home, your own home, are you willing?"

Huazheng looked up at him, motionless, the skylight from the dome fell on her dark eyes, Yang Kang took his fingers away, but her lips were still tightly closed.

Time seemed to freeze, and the steam in the pot was flying in the sunlight in the room. After an unknown amount of time, Huazheng finally said seriously, "You are afraid."

"What are you afraid of?" Even though he said so, his hands began to tremble uncontrollably.

Huazheng said word by word, "You are afraid, you are afraid that I promised you just to keep you to help me heal my wounds, you are afraid that I am just afraid of death, just to take advantage of you."

Yang Kang sighed, "I still have this confidence." He suddenly hugged Huazheng in his arms, "Even if it is, I don't care." He lowered his head, put his chin on Huazheng's shoulder, and whispered in her ear. Said, "Obviously you are afraid."

"Me?" Huazheng pushed him away a little, raised his head slightly, and looked at him unconvinced, "Tell me, what am I afraid of?"

After she finished speaking, she smiled brightly, "I'm not afraid of anything." After speaking, she raised her head and pressed a kiss on his lips lightly.

The cold and soft touch was fleeting, Huazheng turned his head away, pushed him away and got under the roe skin quilt, "I'm sleepy, you go out."

"Hey! Don't bring something like this..." Yang Kang patted her on the shoulder, but saw that her side face and ears were all red, so he asked with a smile, "Are you asleep?"

Huazheng put her head under the quilt and said in a muffled voice, "Fall asleep."

Yang Kang said with a smile, "Be careful not to suffocate yourself to death. All right, I'll go out, you can rest for a while." After speaking, he opened the curtain and went out, and flew a few steps to find the horse when he came, turned on the horse and galloped, ran After walking a distance, he began to shout loudly.

After he calmed down, he rode his horse back, regretting it so much, why did he forget to restrain his internal energy just now, the shout was so full of energy that it might be heard hundreds of miles away, even more so.

The author has something to say: Well, I received a negative score. Generally speaking, the first negative score is worth remembering~

Thanks to Mr. Sima for his encouragement, and for this sentence he sent me: A person should be humble and retreat in daily life, but in literary creation, he must dictate and act arbitrarily. (by Mo Yan's award-winning speech)

The star of the emotional drama must die said that this chapter was squeezed out like toothpaste, please forgive my update speed, after all, I will open the question and answer tomorrow~ I hope there is no writing collapse~ Please give more opinions, dear, look at the stars~~