Goldberg Variations

Smelling the scent of flowers, Gu Kai immediately had an idea on how to decorate his new home.

"Come on, let's move the piano and do some shopping in Jiangzhou by the way."

In the afternoon, the two returned to Jiangzhou and asked someone to help move the piano to Lianhua Town. In addition, Gu Kai also went to choose a carpet, a new sofa and coffee table, as well as a new dining table and tablecloth.

Moving all these things to the new home, Gu Kai put them away with the help of Pei Wen, and threw the old ones into the warehouse for piling up.

The new sofa that Gu Kai bought is earth tone, like the color of tree bark.The pillows are either dark green or light green, light pink solid color or check pattern, and there are two dark green single sofas beside them.

The tea table is rectangular wood with natural patterns on it, Gu Kai plans to buy a tea set and place it here.

On the right side of the sofa, there is a taller square coffee table with an incense burner on it.

As for the carpet underneath, it is a white and green diamond pattern of different shades.

The walls of the living room are clean and pure white. Gu Kai took down the portraits of great men and the world map that were originally hung and put them in the warehouse.

Gu Kai planned to hang some freehand ink paintings on the wall, mainly landscape paintings, but such things as paintings...he had to search for them.

In addition to the gardenias on the dining table, Gu Kai also put a round pottery vase on the coffee table with a handful of wild flowers in it.

Those flowers were picked by Gu Kai casually on the side of the road, and he couldn't name them.

There are pink, white, and yellow ones. They were originally messy, but after Gu Kai took care of them, they became beautiful and orderly.

Out of selfish considerations, Gu Kai had someone move the piano into the master bedroom.

So after taking a shower that night, Gu Kai said he wanted to play the piano for Pei Wen.He asked Pei Wen to sit by the bed, while he sat in front of the piano.

The main light was not turned on in the room, only the bedside lamp was turned on, the dim light illuminated the bedroom, the light was soft and not glaring, making it very warm.

The curtains are half open, gently blown by the evening wind, the night outside the window is as cool as water, the moon is shining like a moon, and the stars are blinking in the dark blue sky.

Summer is coming, and there will be mosquitoes at night, but fortunately, the original owner added screens to the windows, so there is no need to worry about mosquitoes.

"Play what?" Gu Kai casually played a few notes on the piano.

I have bought this piano for many years, and the price is not cheap, but its quality is also worthy of the price, the sound is round and bright, and the feel is also very good.

This piano was bought by Gu Kai's parents for him, and it is also Gu Kai's favorite piano.

To play for Pei Wen, he naturally had to use his favorite piano.

"Whatever you want." Pei Wen took off his slippers and sat on the bed with his arms hugging his knees.

Gu Kai looked at the moonlight outside the window and said with a smile:

"In this situation, there is nothing more suitable than a song "Moonlight"."

"Beethoven's "Moonlight"?" Pei Wen asked.

Anyone who has been to school knows the famous song "Moonlight" by Beethoven.

"No." Gu Kai said, "Debussy's "Moonlight"."

"Debussy?"

"Ah."

"Impressionists..." Pei Wen murmured to himself.

The little erhu I learned in my childhood has long been returned to the teacher, and I only have a general impression of these names.

He still remembers that the first piece he played was Mozart's "Little Star Variations".

Just when his thoughts diverged, Gu Kai had already started playing.

The first syllable of Debussy's "Moonlight" is full of softness. The moonlight is like a girl's soft fingertips caressing your face. Quality like light.

The moonlight flowed silently with the slowly flowing lake water.

It was very slow at the beginning, then gradually became agitated, and after the agitation, it was calm again.

The music, which is sometimes light, sometimes heavy, sometimes fast and sometimes slow, is just like the ups and downs of a person's heart, like a girl with tears in her eyes, gazing at you intently with the turbulent waves hidden in the calm.

It was a heartbreakingly beautiful feeling, almost unbearable.

Pei Wen couldn't help clenching the soft and breathable cotton and linen fabric of the pajama pants.

He looked at Gu Kai's face and saw that his eyes were closed, immersed in the music, as if he couldn't feel anything outside, and his body swayed naturally with the music.

Pei Wen couldn't help but think of a certain famous pianist now, who puts all his heart into playing the piano, his movements are exaggerated, and he is often laughed at.

Gu Kai's movements are much smaller than his.

I don't know how long it took, but when the song ended, Gu Kai stopped playing, turned around and smiled at Pei Wen:

"do you like it?"

Pei Wen was still immersed in the atmosphere just now, almost unable to recover.

"Yes, I like it."

"The answer is so reluctant," Gu Kai teased.

Since Pei Wen was facing the light, Gu Kai couldn't see his face clearly.But he vaguely saw something shining on Pei Wen's face.

Gu Kai took a closer look.

It was like tears.

Gu Kai paused: "Why are you crying?"

Pei Wen froze for a moment, then wiped his face, and felt the cold wetness in his hands.He stared at his palms in a daze, and saw the scars on his wrists.

Pei Wen thought of that night when he was alone in the hotel room and desperately called Gu Kai, but Gu Kai's phone was turned off.

He thought he was abandoned by everyone.

He thought he was redundant, unwanted, and unloved.

He was stuck in a quagmire, unable to extricate himself.But now he knew he wasn't.

Pei Wen wiped his face again, but tears fell down again.

Gu Kai sighed silently, got up and took out a tissue to wipe his tears, and asked softly, "Anything else you want to hear?"

From Dr. Liang, Gu Kai learned that what patients with depression need is not comfort and relief, but companionship.

In the past, whenever Pei Wen cried or was sad, Gu Kai would rack his brains to make him happy, but it was actually unnecessary.

This not only failed to persuade Pei Wen, but also made Gu Kai physically and mentally exhausted.

If coaxing can make you happy, then depression is not a disease.

Pei Wen thought for a while and said, "Little Star."

Gu Kai smiled and stroked his hair: "Okay."

"Little Star Variations" is one of Mozart's most widely circulated works, thanks to the widespread spread of the nursery rhyme "Little Star", almost no one in China can't hum.

The brisk and lively tunes are reminiscent of the summer lawn, the starry sky is twinkling, fireflies are flying all over the sky, and children are chasing fireflies with lanterns on the lawn.

Mozart's works always have childlike romantic innocence and natural and pure poetry.

The little star played by Gu Kai was not as lively, but it was sweeter than the version Pei Wen had heard before. The people on the lawn were no longer a group of children, but a pair of lovers.

They leaned against each other, looking at the sky full of stars, looking at the twinkling fireflies.

Soon, Pei Wen felt that the sitting position was too tiring, so he pulled back the quilt and lay down, leaning against the head of the bed to look at Gu Kai.

As Gu Kai played and played, Pei Wen's "Little Star Variations" inexplicably changed into "Goldberg Variations".

When Gu Kai came back to his senses, realized something was wrong, and glanced back at Pei Wen, but he didn't seem to notice, so Gu Kai didn't change it back and continued playing the piece.

"Pei Wen."

Playing and playing, Gu Kai suddenly spoke.

His hands didn't stop, and his soft voice blended into the music without being obtrusive.

"Huh?" Pei Wen responded.

Gu Kai considered it for a while, and said seriously:

"If you feel pressured by the fact that I accompany you to recuperate from illness, then you can treat it as if we are on vacation."

Although Pei Wen didn't say anything, Gu Kai felt that Pei Wen was a little anxious these days.

Pei Wen was silent.

Gu Kai continued on his own: "More than anything else, I hope you can live a healthy and healthy life."

"Other than that, I don't have any other requirements."

"I'm enjoying my current life very much. Everything is just right." Gu Kai looked out the window, "In a few days we'll loosen the ground behind and plant some vegetables, what do you think?"

"Yes." Pei Wen agreed.

Gu Kai said: "You don't need to be anxious, you don't need to blame yourself, you don't need to think about things far in the future, just feel the present life carefully."

"Now..." Pei Wen said to himself.

His present is often full of pain, like a drowning man.His future is boundless darkness, with no end in sight.

This made Pei Wen always unable to muster the courage to continue walking, and wanted to end it.

"Yes, right now."

Gu Kai didn't look back, and the sound of the piano stopped. He put his hands on the black and white keys, turned his back to Pei Wen and said:

"If you don't want to go out, don't want to see anyone, don't want to do anything, then we don't go out, see people, and do nothing."

"We plant flowers and vegetables every day. You make me all kinds of delicious food. I will draw pictures for you and play the piano for you. Whatever you like, we will do."

"If you don't like anything and just want to be alone, that's okay. I'll always be there for you."

Gu Kai raised his head, looked at the white ceiling, and said the last sentence:

"If the future feels too far away, even next week, we start with every minute of the present. You know, I'm with you."

"This second, I'll play the piano for you."

When the voice fell, the sound of the piano sounded.

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