Goldberg Variations

At the end of summer and early autumn, the heavy rain continued for many days without a break.

The heat gradually dissipates and the temperature turns cooler.

The raindrops are crackling on the glass windows, and the autumn air comes in through the windows with wisps of coolness.

After hearing what the person on the phone said, Gu Kai turned on the speakerphone, put the phone on the coffee table, took a long-sleeved shirt from the coat rack and put it on.

"Which hospital is he in?"

"Didn't you say no?" Yu Shuangshuang asked.

"When will I say I can't go?" Gu Kai asked back.

"Didn't you say that you guys don't know each other...?" Yu Shuangshuang was stunned for a moment, and then said, "Of course, it's best if you go. I won't be able to find anyone else for a while, because you are in Haicheng. Phone, if I knew you were not familiar with each other, I wouldn't bother you."

When Yu Shuangshuang said this, she sniffled and her voice was choked up.

"He's being rescued by the city's second doctor."

"Okay, I see." After putting on his jacket, Gu Kai took the keys and umbrella, and was about to go out, put the phone to his ear and asked, "Is there anything else to explain, if not, I'll hang up and go out. "

"No, it's nothing," Yu Shuangshuang said, "I'm sorry to trouble you, I'll get over here as soon as possible, and take care of him before that."

"Okay." Gu Kai hung up the phone and walked to the door, put on a pair of waterproof shoes, and immediately closed the door and went downstairs.

After picking up the car from the underground garage, Gu Kai went straight to the second city doctor without delay.

Yu Shuangshuang was his high school classmate, who hadn't had much contact with him after graduation, but in the past two years due to work reasons, they got to know each other again.

It has been raining every day recently, and he has nothing to do at home petting the cat. This morning, when he was petting the cat as usual, he received a call from Yu Shuangshuang.

Yu Shuangshuang told him, "Pei Wen is drowning and is being rescued in the hospital", hoping that he can go to help take care of it.

After many years, hearing this name again, Gu Kai was a little strange.

"Pei Wen?" That's how he answered at the time, "Who is that?"

Yu Shuangshuang was speechless for a while, and said, "Your first love."

Gu Kai suddenly realized.

...It's Pei Wen.

Pei Wen was also his high school classmate.

They were assigned to the same class only after they scored two points in arts and sciences in high school.

But before that, Gu Kai often heard this name.

First, because of Pei Wen's outstanding appearance, he became the focus of all the girls in the grade.

The second is that because of his excellent grades, he was ranked first in the liberal arts for a long time before he was assigned to a class. He scored full marks in his composition many times, and was printed and distributed to all grade students for appreciation and study.

It's hard not to know him.

Pei Wen's grades in science are also good, but they are much lower than those in liberal arts.But to everyone's surprise, he chose science.

Male students like Pei Wen are good-looking, have good grades, and have a gentle personality. Not only are they sought after by girls, but they also capture Gu Kai's heart.

It's just that the school atmosphere at that time was far less open than it is now, and people were afraid to avoid homosexuality.Gu Kai was not sure about his ignorant love, and he didn't know Pei Wen's orientation, so that green feeling was buried for three years, and he never said it out loud.

So it's not accurate to say it's first love, it's just his unrequited love.

On the way to the hospital, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the torrential rain washed the front windshield. Even with the hard work of the wipers, it still affected Gu Kai's sight.

The sky was gloomy, it was morning, but it was as dark as dusk, which made people feel anxious.

There are not many cars on the road, but no one dares to drive too fast.

After being divided into classes, Gu Kai could see Pei Wen every day.But it's a pity that their circles of friends don't overlap. They obviously don't see each other when they look up, but they still don't have much intersection.

Most of the time, it was Gu Kai who looked at Pei Wen unilaterally.

Pei Wen's daily life is either doing questions or reading books. He has few friends and doesn't talk much.

During the break of evening self-study, he would quietly stare at the moon and starry sky outside the window.If there is no moon or stars, he will also look at the dark night sky for 10 minutes.When the class bell rang, I started studying again.

Whenever Pei Wen stared at the night sky, he didn't know that there was someone staring at him from afar.

Look at his side face illuminated by classroom lights when he looks up, and see his short black hair being blown by the evening wind.

When a friend talks to him, he will look into the other person's eyes and listen carefully, and then smile slowly, with a hint of shyness in his smile.

Thoughts drifted away uncontrollably, and the memory was awakened by Yu Shuangshuang's phone call, which gradually reminded Gu Kai of more.

When we arrived at the hospital, the rain had eased, but the wind had picked up.

Holding a large pure black umbrella, Gu Kai trotted all the way into the hospital in the slanting wind and drizzle, put the umbrella away at the door, shook the water, and then patted the raindrops stuck to his clothes.

He sent a voice message to Yu Shuangshuang, saying that he had gone to the second doctor, so he went straight into the hospital to find the ICU.

With the help of Yu Shuangshuang and the medical staff, Gu Kai found the intensive care unit where Pei Wen was.

The door was empty, and there was no one there.

The cold door locked him out, while Pei Wen was locked in.Inside is the stern life and death and soft youth, outside is the indifferent rain and his present.

How many years have we not seen each other?

About eight years.Four years of undergraduate study, and another four years after graduation.

Before he had time to feel the ruthless passage of youth, he was pushed in front of the shadow of death, his mind was in a mess.

The three green letters of "ICU" pierced Gu Kai's eyes, and his nostrils were filled with the smell of disinfectant.

This was the first time he was waiting for someone at the door of the ICU.

Gu Kai's heart was pounding uncontrollably.

Yu Shuangshuang said that Pei Wen was drowning.In this heavy rainy day, it is impossible to go to the river to enjoy the rain. Could it be that he drowned in the swimming pool?Otherwise, could he still be drowning in his own bathtub?

Can it be rescued, if not...

My mind is in a mess, and I can't make sense of it.

Since graduating from high school, the two went their separate ways and have not seen each other again.He didn't even have the WeChat account of the other party, and at first he was able to greet him through private chats in the class, but later he didn't even have a greeting.

There have been class reunions held in the class over the years, but unfortunately Pei Wen never attended.

I thought it would be farewell since then, but I didn't expect to receive news from the other party suddenly today.

Speaking of feelings, not much.The young and ignorant heartbeat has long been wasted in time, but when this person is mentioned now, it is inevitable to recall the throbbing of the year.

Like a cinnabar mole on your heart.

"Are you a family member?"

At this time, a voice came from behind.

Gu Kai turned his head and saw a man with his upper body naked walking towards him.In his twenties, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, his jacket was wrung out and held in his hand, and his left arm was wrapped in gauze.Hair and pants are wet.

He looks like he just got out of the water.

"You are?" Gu Kai asked.

Not wearing a doctor's or nurse's uniform, it doesn't look like a medical worker.

"My name is Shi Yangming, Shi of History, Yangming of Wang Yangming," the young man smiled and shook hands with Gu Kai, "I sent him to the hospital."

"Thank you." Gu Kai said, "Gu Kai."

Shi Yangming: "It's a little effort, thank me is not necessary, you are his brother, right? In the future, I will pay more attention to your brother. I didn't say that, your brother has done too much dereliction of duty!"

He kept talking more and more.

"You rich people, what's the use of giving more money, people need love to live. If people don't cherish them when they are alive, if they don't accompany and care more, what's the use of regretting after they are gone?"

Gu Kai was confused by what he said: "...what?"

When Shi Yangming heard this, he was obviously a little angry: "You still don't know? Look at you as an older brother...your younger brother committed suicide!"

"Suicide?" Gu Kai was stunned for a moment, unable to believe it, "You said he committed suicide?!"

Shi Yangming: "Can this be fake? I saw him jumping down with my own eyes. If you don't believe me, there are other people around who saw it too!"

Shi Yangming pointed to his left arm: "This is when I was fishing for him, he was accidentally scratched by something in the water, and the needle was stitched just now!"

Although Shi Yangming had no reason to lie to him, it was still difficult for Gu Kai to associate the person in his memory with suicide.

Such a gentle person, what has he experienced, and why did he go to the point of committing suicide?

Is there anything I can't get through?

Seeing Gu Kai pondering, Shi Yangming thought he had listened, and patted Gu Kai on the shoulder in relief: "Okay, since your family members are here, I don't have anything to do here, so I'll go first."

"Wait, the fee..." Gu Kai stopped him.

Shi Yangming: "Didn't you pay the fee yourself? I can't afford it."

"Then leave one of the contact information?" Gu Kai said, Yu Shuangshuang may have paid the fee first, "When he is better, I will come to thank you in person."

Shi Yangming was stunned for a moment, and Mai Se's cheeks turned a little embarrassed: "This...doesn't leave a name for doing good deeds, so it's okay to thank you?"

Gu Kai insisted: "Yes, at least let us pay you back the medical expenses and treat you to a meal."

Shi Yangming thought about the balance in his card, and did not refuse. After leaving a phone call, he left with his soaked T-shirt.

But Gu Kai called Yu Shuangshuang, and immediately asked, "I heard that Pei Wen committed suicide?"

The person on the other end of the phone was silent for a while, and said in a friendly voice, "Where did you hear that?"

Gu Kai said: "I saw an enthusiastic citizen Shi Yangming in the hospital."

Yu Shuangshuang remained silent.

Gu Kai asked: "Really?"

Yu Shuangshuang said: "He told you everything, how can I say no?"

After getting the expected answer, Gu Kai was even more puzzled.

"why?"

"what why?"

Gu Kai: "Why did he...end his life in this way? Didn't he love life back then, how did he come to this point?"

Gu Kai had a bunch of question marks, he had too many questions.

Yu Shuangshuang did not answer directly, but after pondering for a long time, said: "The reason... This is his privacy. When he wakes up, if he is willing to tell you, he will naturally say it. I am not convenient to disclose it."

"I can only say that you haven't contacted him for eight years. People will change." Yu Shuangshuang didn't know what to think, and her voice was a little emotional, and sighed, "Everyone's life is not easy, there will always be There are various difficulties, and Pei Wen is especially so."

Gu Kai fell silent.

"Family? Is the family there?"

At this moment, the door of the ICU opened suddenly, and a female doctor came out from inside.

Gu Kai hurried forward: "I'm here, what's wrong?"

The female doctor glanced at him: "Who are you?"

Gu Kai said: "My friend... his family has something to do, so he won't be able to come for a while, so just tell me if you have anything to say."

The doctor said: "Due to the long drowning time, severe hypoxia, severe pulmonary edema, weak heartbeat and pulse, the patient is still in a coma."

Gu Kai's heart skipped a beat: "Then he..."

The doctor said: "Not sure. It would be good if he could wake up within 48 hours, if not..."

"What if you can't?"

"There is a risk of becoming a vegetable."

Gu Kai's heart sank.

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