woman wearing irish linen shirt

My heartbeat is like a mountain ringing.

Did I tease her?

I didn't realize it until the video was cut off. Didn't I just ask her a question?How did it become a tease?At that time, it was a bit... But the atmosphere belongs to the atmosphere. I was just a delayed dynamic pixel on the end of her computer. After I reported my family, I asked about the other party's situation in a normal way. How could I be classified as flirting?

Fortunately, it was the network that cut off the video, not me.

I took a deep breath: It's okay, Li Yao, hold on.

Opposite is a straight girl, hold on, it's okay.

Connected to the network again, in my sight, her facial features are full again.

Miss Pan De smiled half a smile: "Can you hear me?"

"Yes." I held the earphone with one hand, as if analyzing information, without any superfluous expression on my face, "I'm sorry. We were just talking about..."

Because I didn't look at her at all.As soon as I opened my mouth, my eyes were fixed on the clock in the lower right corner.

"I was the one talking." I don't know what kind of expression she had, but her voice was extremely gentle, "I asked, are you flirting with me?"

Naive, I was so naive.

I just knew that the internet was disconnected, but I never thought that she could ask a second time.

I raised my eyes and looked at her.There was no sign of panic on Miss Pender's face, her hair was completely dry at the tips and fell in a set pattern on her chest, as measured and as methodical as she herself.I felt like making fun of her, and I no longer wanted to be sloppy with her.

"In what culture would it be considered flirting to ask reciprocally about a person's personal life?" I said.

"You're saying you're not…"

"No," I said for her, "I'm just flirting with you."

At that moment, Miss Pender's margin bottomed out.

I laughed: "Are you single?"

She hid her emotions very quickly, like a naturally cunning hare on a hillside, and said, "Yes."

"That's good." I deliberately remained silent for a moment before saying, "I'm not the only one who has lost his work-life balance."

Miss Pande bit her lower lip lightly, and the sharpness in her eyes flashed past.But her sharpness was as if she had never shown it, and she responded to me with a smile: "If you put in some effort, it is not difficult to find a balance. We can't always wait for good luck in these areas."

"You're right." I didn't show the truth, "People should save luck until the most critical time."

Humph, play with me.It's deflated!

My heart was dark for a while.

I knew that she might have guessed my sexual orientation. Chemistry is such a wonderful thing. The more I try to hide it, the harder it is to hide it.I just didn't expect that she would tease me, such a wicked person.

It's normal for a young girl who has just come out of the closet to be teased by a straight girl. Some people are foolishly moved, but they don't know that in their eyes, there is not much difference between a young girl and an innocent young brother.The first time I heard the term "Baby Dyke" I thought it was very apt. Babies can only learn but not teach, vulnerable rather than defending themselves.

People will grow up.

Why would BCG want the data at that time?The Philippine market three years ago is not the same as it is now. They must have macro industry data internally, and they will not be unclear about this.Is a piece of data that does not play much guiding role now, is it just a nomination certificate?The cooperative relationship between us is extremely fragile, and trust has yet to be established. Even if Miss Pan De wants to do a test, she should choose something that is less sensitive and really helpful to them.

wrong.She should be on target, I must have overlooked something.

Woke up in the morning with a cracking headache, a dry throat and a slightly swollen tonsil.I knew that I drank too little water, so I took four bottles of mineral water from the refrigerator and put them neatly on the coffee table, and stipulated that I must finish them before I got off work.

There is no meeting in the morning, and my task is not bad.The big boss was sucking on the noodles in the video, and he didn't forget to say: "You can eat it too, and talk while eating."

"I've eaten it, thank you Mr. Lin." I said dryly, his side looked really good, with toppings, it's different for people with families.

"Let's talk? Why can't we talk about it during the report on Monday? Jocelyn has repeatedly emphasized that you have very important matters, so I can't even eat lunch." The big boss said half-jokingly.

"This matter really can't be delayed until the report. Didn't you schedule the meeting with BCG for next Monday morning? I think..."

The big boss interrupted me: "Stop. Tell me the truth, what do you think of the BCG framework?"

My words were all choked back.

Before he had time to organize his words, the big boss added: "Just say it frankly, assuming it can be implemented as they said, do you think we will become better or worse?"

My heart sank, the big boss really liked that plan.I said: "Their framework looks beautiful in theory, but there will be many problems in implementation, such as power supervision, running-in within the project team, small aspects, such as the KPI of each employee will be difficult to quantify. You see, compared to the technical details, I think we should not consider accepting this plan fundamentally."

"why?"

I felt like I had punched cotton, hesitated for a moment, and said as mildly and conservatively as possible: "We need to think about strategy. Now we still have some problems with our basic market. A little delay with BCG in this regard will be more conducive to future work." .”

"Hey... I understand, you just think that we have to fight the enemy at all costs."

The big boss obviously didn't agree with my opinion.I didn't insist anymore, and persuaded him in another direction: "Mr. Lin, this is what I think about this matter. Once the optimization plan proposed by BCG is implemented, our new integrated department will easily become a department that may be drawn out at any time." module, because everything has a supporting package - it will be a de facto independent state at that time, and this state, in the long run, is not a good thing for the company. What we value is that it can solve the current contradiction that is difficult to reconcile , right? But it’s not a once-and-for-all solution, the conflict is just transferred from the bosses of the two departments to a new place.”

At that time, it will be the conflict between the department boss and the CEO.

The big boss listened, nodded, and asked, "Why didn't you mention this at the meeting yesterday?"

I was still humble: "There are a lot of people at the meeting."

He smiled: "You. But you performed very well at the meeting yesterday. I understand why Sonia loves to compete with you so much. The way you two talk is completely carved out of the same mold."

I still refused to give up: "You are a superior, I dare not lie to you; if I hide something from you, I will fail in the end. But Sonia is different, Mr. Lin, she is from BCG—"

The big boss laughed out loud: "Okay! You just want me to reject their plan."

I didn't dare answer.

"Li Yao, I understand your concerns. If this framework is changed a little, you will be split off as a subsidiary company. I can understand." The big boss put the noodle bowl aside, "But it is still a constructive The plan, I think it can be tried completely. As for the implementation problem you mentioned, BCG will help us, and you can also actively participate in it and give them guiding feedback, right?"

"You're right." That's all I could say.

"Procrastinating won't solve the problem. Blocking is worse than slackening. Go with the flow, you know?" He took a sip of water, saw me respond, and laughed again, "Go ahead and think about it. What else is there?"

I was a little discouraged, but I still cheered up and said: "No more, I won't disturb your work."

"That's right." The big boss suddenly remembered something, "You don't want to participate in the meeting between our executives and BCG on Monday. You also avoid it. There is no need to conflict with BCG on such an inevitable thing. You After all, there is a mission."

My heart tightened, and I forced a smile and said, "Okay. Then I'll get to work now."

At the small meeting in the afternoon, I told the boss and Lao Huang about the situation.After listening to Lao Huang, he was in the same state as me, and the two of them almost sighed together; the boss originally had a poker face, so I couldn’t see anything, but I vaguely felt that he thought differently from us, and maybe he recognized the attitude of the big boss. .

When the show was about to end, Lao Huang said, "Yao, you look too pale, take this weekend to rest."

I rolled my eyes: "Because I didn't wear makeup today."

He really can't tell the difference. I asked my sister-in-law before.

In the end, the boss also said: "This month is indeed too busy. Xiuwen is right. You have a heavy workload. Now is a special period. Take good care of yourself."

I glanced at the picture of myself, touched my face in disbelief and asked, "Do I look that haggard?"

"It's like working for a hundred hours straight," said the boss.

Lao Huang also said: "It seems that I only slept half the night every day."

Lao Huang is worthy of being my brother with a different surname, for the truth, he hits the nail on the head.I made up my mind not to be lazy, put on my makeup from next week, and said, "Thank you. Take care, too, okay? I can't fight BCG alone."

After it was over, I took another painkiller. There were three bottles of water left on the table, so I drank half of it.I got busy at night and forgot about this. I forcefully poured the rest into my stomach while looking at the data. At least today’s task of "caring for myself" was successfully completed before midnight.

I am very satisfied.I'm really good at everything.

——I thought so until I lay down on the toilet and spit out all the water I drank.

In the second half of the night, I simply didn't go back to bed.I felt like throwing up as soon as I lay down, and there was nothing in my stomach, so I could only curl up on the single-seat sofa in the living room and barely drink some milk.My usual recipes are pretty monotonous, let alone these days, and food poisoning is unlikely.

I picked up the T-shirt and wiped my mouth, leaning against the washstand, I had no energy left to go back to the sofa.The big bones in my body felt like they were fighting with muscles, and they hurt everywhere, as if my spirit and flesh had been torn apart, and now I was showing the deepest pain that I couldn't bear back then.

I take such good care of myself, what's wrong?