I woke up with eight tails

On Mount Lorgar, mist filled the air.

There is a palace on the top of the mountain, with white jade steps and glazed tiles, gold and stone as pillars and ivory decorations.The waterfall outside the palace gurgled and flowed into the ocean pool, and the clear light fell on the lotus petals, reflecting the colorful luster with the morning dew.

In the purple bamboo forest, a boy in white clothes is sitting in meditation, but his brows are slightly furrowed.

"Not clean." Qingyue's voice came from all directions.

The little boy opened his eyes and called softly, "Master."

Avalokitesvara said, "Why bother?"

The little boy hesitated for a while, and then said bluntly: "Master, I don't want to go down to the earth to endure calamities."

"You were born in the body of Shura, and your demon nature has not been eliminated."

"I have followed Master to practice for a hundred years, and my mind and body are pure. I only wish to become a Buddha and enter Mount Sumeru, and I don't want to be contaminated by mortal karma again."

"Unclean, what do you understand about mortals?"

"The body is not pure, the mind is impermanent, and suffering is suffering. All living beings are blunt, blinded by joy and ignorance."

Avalokitesvara seemed to be smiling slightly, showing her figure, pointing to the clusters of lotus flowers by the stream, "Look, these flowers are clean, but the roots are still in the mud, and they can't live out of the mud."

The little boy blushed slightly: "Master, I don't want to either, but this is fate. Lianhua can't choose where to be born, and I can't choose my own origin."

"No, I am not referring to your birth, nor is it a metaphor for your Qinglian identity." Guanshiyin said slowly, "When you are enlightened, the flowers bloom to see the Buddha nature, but you only see yourself, not the Buddha."

The little boy lowered his head and saw the lotus ocean was clear, the round leaves were infinitely green, and the fish were swimming freely, but he didn't see what the mud at the bottom of the ocean looked like.

So the Bodhisattva gently stroked the top of his hair.

"People's hearts are joyful and sorrowful, life and death are the great cause; destiny comes and goes, willingly."

"This is not the calamity after making a mistake. It is not clean. Let's go to the world for a while. The Buddha is not an achievement, but a perfection."

The end of life is nothing but death, and the meaning of death is nothing but rebirth or eternal sleep. Death is not losing life, but going out of time.

"Grandpa, I already know the meaning of 'death', so what is 'out of time'?"

The little Lou Lian pointed to the book and copied the handwriting, full of doubts.

Lou Yuanshan, who was in his early 60s, hugged his little grandson, and explained softly: "It's the bad thing of time, and I can't do anything to that person anymore."

"But he's dead, what's the difference between what to do and what to do? We'll never see that person again."

"If we can't see it, it doesn't mean we are gone, it just means that we are still imprisoned in this non-stop time, you will grow up, I will grow old, and the dead are free and eternal. They will have a new beginning .”

Lou Yuanshan smiled, his eyes were like falling stars, glittering under the light, "For us, they are the breeze, the spring rain, and all kinds of things you can think of. So again and again, if you want to see your mother and grandma No need to visit the grave, they are not there, they are everywhere you can think of."

Xiaolou nodded with a half understanding.

"...When you die, you are born again, when the sun sets, the sun rises..."

The TV series next to it has reached the end of an episode, and the female voice of the ending song is affectionate and sad.

Qin Fangfei looked at the scene in front of him, and couldn't help but glance at a corner.

The black-framed photo is covered with black flowers, and there are odd-numbered melons and fruits in front of it. The incense on the stove burns forever, and two red candles weep.

— This is the mourning hall.

Qin Fangfei stepped forward to identify it carefully. The photo showed the young Junlan, and the grandparent and grandson were guarding the spirit.

He twirled three sticks of incense in emptiness, knelt down in front of the coffin, put his forehead through the futon, and knocked down heavily.

Xiao Loulian suddenly trembled, and looked there as if aware of it: "Grandpa, I seem to hear a voice."

Lou Yuanshan followed, but only saw three newly lit incense sticks, he couldn't help but patted his head: "Have you added incense just now? I'm too old, I can't even remember this."

……

Qin Fangfei in the corner sighed softly, looking at his hands.

It is full of scars, criss-crossing - the traces left by Tianlei.

Regarding the tribulation thunder that was fused with the scourge of heaven, even he was not at all sure that he would be able to retreat completely, and even the dharma body that was finally transformed was already a desperate gamble: it was born from the same root, and it was all the way of heaven The product, don't have to kill one to end it.

The result of this bet is that he died, but he also lived.

——To put it simply, the womb was crushed to ashes, but the primordial spirit was wandering in the gap of time and space.

He doesn't know where the next landing point is, whether he can go back, or what impact it will have on the "future".

The only good news is that each landing point follows the order of time.He saw Loulan who was pregnant with Liujia, Huangyue who was poor, a newborn baby, and Loulian who was growing up.

After thinking about several situations, Qin Fangfei alone did not expect that the life "Lou Lian" came from this way.

Not human, not god, not demon.

But so what, he thought, it was a life, and that life lived only because of the life itself.

This is the first time Qin Fangfei seems to have touched the mysterious word "life" since he was born.

No one knows why a lotus flower suddenly possesses intelligence, but it just appeared and transformed—even the lotus itself doesn't know the meaning of its existence.

Its world is blank, with no way back, no way back, not even life and death.

So the lotus flower who often accompanied the Buddha thought, maybe when I become a Buddha, I will be able to understand the meaning of my existence.

Avalokitesvara said: Buddha is not achievement, but perfection.

Who will be perfected?

Yaozu?Bright moon?Or... Loulian?

It enters the world half-understood.

Turning the time to the present, Qin Fangfei looked at the altar where the candles were always burning, Lou Yuanshan who was getting old, and Xiao Loulian who was growing up, the corners of his eyes were unconsciously moist.

Not infected by sadness, but moved by life.

People's hearts are happy and sad, life and death are great causes; fate comes and goes, willingly.

No one is willing to die, but for the kinship, love, happiness or pain in the world, they are all willing to die, and they will never turn back.

It turns out that the world is like this.

Like silt, but it can conceive and bloom.

After not finding Junlan's soul, and seeing that there was no sign of the next "time leap" for a while, Qin Fangfei walked out of Lou's house, intending to go back to Qin's house to have a look.

I am six years older than Lou Lian, so the "Qin Fangfei" in this world is about fifteen or sixteen years old.

He walked thousands of miles, passing somewhere, and suddenly stopped.

It was late at night, and beside the familiar path, the old man was crying so hard.

Outside the old low fence, there are verdant green leaves and pale pink flowers blooming, connected in pieces, with a peerless appearance.

It's evening primrose.

Qin Fangfei landed on the ground, looking at the old man who was much younger than he remembered.Ten years later, he will pass by here with that little cihuamao.

It was evening at that time, and the moonlight flowers had not yet bloomed, and the old man would leave the two of them to watch the flowers at night because of a whim.

"I didn't expect...I didn't expect this to be a farewell..." The old man cried, "My wife, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have thrown the ring away, it's all my fault! We have gone through so much, you This is my life..."

So he threw that ring himself, Qin Fangfei thought.

The old man held onto the fence and wanted to climb in to find the ring, but the fence was still unrusted and extremely strong, so he couldn't get in no matter what.

He lost his center of gravity and almost fell.

A ball of white light rushed over, as if trying to knock him back, but it just passed through the old man, leaving nothing behind.

Qin Fangfei let out a soft "Huh".

When the light group heard the sound, it froze there as if shocked, and after a while, it rushed straight in front of Qin Fangfei, stretched out a small "touch hand", and touched Qin Fangfei's shoulder tentatively.

Qin Fangfei grabbed the tentacle.

The white light group kept trembling.

Qin Fangfei suddenly understood something: "You are his 'wife'?"

The white light ball floated up and down crazily.

Qin Fangfei waved his hand, and the next moment, the white ball of light turned into a tall and handsome young man.

It's just that although he has a figure, he doesn't have clear facial features, as if covered with a layer of fog.

Qin Fangfei recalled his first meeting with the old man in normal time and space. At that time, the little raccoon cat jumped into the flowers without looking back, finally took out a ring and wagged its tail at himself.

As if guided by something.

Combined with the group in front of him, he suddenly understood.

It's just that the soul in front of me...is not as strong as Jun Lan's soul ten years later. If she doesn't enter the hell realm, it will probably dissipate in a short time.

"Is there no ghost messenger to seduce you?" Qin Fangfei asked.

The ghost made gestures.

"You don't want to go? Want to stay here?"

Ghost nods.

Qin Fangfei sighed, and asked what love is in the world, and taught that life and death are inseparable.

A certain figure appeared in his mind, and he felt a pain in his heart, and suddenly felt that the sky and the earth were huge, and he was alone in the reflection.I don't know if the other party is okay?Did the little kitten make trouble?

The ghost suddenly clutched his chest and bent his body.

Seeing this, Qin Fangfei pondered for a moment, put one hand on his heart, and when he put it down again, there was already a dark blue bead in his hand.

He motioned for the ghost to open his hands.

"This is the Bodhisattva of the Lotus Flower," Qin Fangfei said, "Keep it in your heart, it will keep your soul alive, and you will never fall into a ghost. If you are smarter, you may even become a ghost cultivator."

Knowing that he had received great kindness, the ghost knelt down and worshiped three times, and accepted the Bodhi.

Then just as Qin Fangfei was about to leave, he gestured again.

"'What should we do with the bodhi seeds if one day we decide to return to reincarnation?'" Qin Fangfei recognized the message from the soul, and smiled faintly, "My lotus seeds cannot enter the hell realm. When the time comes, I will give them to the next destined person Bar."

The ghost bowed solemnly again, expressing that he understood.

——At this time, no one knew that this bodhi lotus seed would last this white soul for more than ten years, and on a certain night more than ten years later, Bai Nian'an would personally hand it over to Lou Lian, and in the dark By accident, he merged with Lou Lian, and a life was conceived in the latter's body.

Fate is so wonderful, repeating miracles.

Like a seed, it inherits the gift of life.

Qin Fangfei continued on his way.

Just as he was about to enter the old house, a sense of spatial distortion spread throughout his body.

He closed his eyes, feeling that his soul was constantly being squeezed, and the suffocation came, and soon, it faded away like a tide.

……

In the same place, the young man walked out of the Qin family's old house, his handsome eyebrows made people feel like old friends at first sight.

But the fundus of the eyes is full of red blood, and the color of the lips is also sickly pale.

Qin Fangfei followed quickly.

The young man walked into a noisy bar, poured himself into the booth in the corner, and sipped the light purple liquor.Not long after, a man wearing a black mask slowly sat beside the former, his face very close.

The youth did not refuse.

Qin Fangfei's eyelids twitched, and he swished over, wishing he could punch this strange man away.

When it was close, he stopped.

The strange man seemed to act frivolously, but his words were clear and unspeakably upright: "Qin Fangfei has nothing to do with these things."

"Tell me."

"Before this man became an adult, Qin Xiang kept him locked up at home. He was closely monitored even going to and from school. He didn't understand Qin Xiang's perverted fatherly love. When he became an adult, he fled directly to the south to participate in the show debut, and soon became popular. Qin Xiang has to consider public opinion if he wants to go back to prison, he is quite smart."

The young man frowned: "Isn't this illegal?"

"No abuse or abandonment. Surveillance is about caring for children. This is at most a housework. How can it be illegal?"

"Ok."

"Why are you so courageous this time, just ask to meet here?"

"Can't the empty-nester gay come out to find nightlife?"

"Okay. As long as I can pass Qin Xiang's test, I have no problem."

Hearing this, the young man rubbed his eyebrows wearily.

"There is something urgent to call you this time... In the worst case, Qin Xiang began to doubt me."

"If you start action early, you don't have to consider my safety, and you won't be able to save me. Remember to make an appointment to give my grandfather the best treatment conditions."

After leaving a few words, ignoring the man's astonished gaze, the young man lowered his brows and turned to leave.

The back looks shaky.

Qin Fangfei followed again.

Occasionally, he glanced at the date displayed on the passerby's mobile phone... There are less than five days left before that day.

The doomed history cannot be changed, at least, he can stay with the other party, even if the other party can't see it.

Just thinking about it, the space was distorted again, and an inexplicable suction called him away.

After the dizziness passed, Qin Fangfei rubbed his temples and looked around.

"..." Looks familiar.

"Meow!

The little orange cat screamed, seeing the sudden appearance of a strange human-shaped golden light ball, the fur all over its body exploded.

Qin Fangfei raised his eyebrows: "Orange flowers."

Orange Flower: "...how do you know my name??!!"

Very familiar tone, exactly the same voice.

Qin Fangfei felt strange again, since he had met him now, why would the orange flower in the future be so surprised when he called out the other person's name.

But those are not important first.

Qin Fangfei thought of something more important.

He said, "Master Maoxian, I want to make a wish."

"Meow?" Ju Hua stroked her chest a little, and made a wish, then it's all right, I didn't expect my reputation to be so big, even this unknown creature full of immortality knows.

It was a little complacent, "Talk about it first."

Qin Fangfei; "Save a person. He will most likely fall from the building in four days."

Orange Blossom was a little entangled: "Ah... life and death is a matter of fate, even if I'm a cat fairy, I can't intervene, snatching people from the ghost guards violates the regulations of the heavenly court."

Qin Fangfei told a little lie: "There will be no ghost messenger to seduce the soul, I have already crossed this person's name from the book of life and death."

Seeing that Juhua's eyes were still a little confused, he changed his words again, "For the realm of hell, this person never existed, so naturally no one cares whether he is dead or alive. You just need to save him."

Orange Blossom understood: "It is possible, but there is a problem."

"what?"

"cost."

Orange Flower explained: "Even if the ghosts don't care about it, if this person's lifespan is exhausted, he will soon get sick and die if he is saved. Unless someone who has a deep relationship with him is willing to exchange his lifespan, But the price is very high."

"How big?"

"At least ten to one, that is, ten years of life can only be exchanged for one year."

"can."

"... Let me just say it first, you can't do it, you are not a human being, and you don't have a usable lifespan."

"Someone."

Orange Blossom raised her eyes in surprise: "Who?"

Qin Fangfei suddenly felt a wonderful sense of fate, fate is really a wonderful thing: "Qin Fangfei."

He thought of the orange cat that suddenly appeared in his dream back then, the excitement of a drowning man touching driftwood, and the ecstasy of seeing hope after despair.

It turns out that one drink and one peck is predetermined.

It turned out that this is fate.

But he opened his mouth and said to Orange Flower: "If you tell him the truth, he will agree."

Orange Blossom nodded suspiciously.

"One more request," Qin Fangfei said slowly, "If that person is going to sleep for a while, please put away his painful memories and create a beautiful dream for him that is no different from reality."

Four days later.

After receiving the invitation to the Hongmen Banquet from the old boss Qin Xiang, Lou Lian collapsed on his sofa with his eyes empty.

So fast, the speed of this old thing.

"Forget it, no matter how fast it is, it can't be as fast as the speed of the growth of a stupid tumor."

Quickly dealt with the rest of the matter, he took good medicine, put on his clothes and burned all the medical certificates. Before going out, he took one last look at the guard hanging at the door and smiled: "Dear future movie star, I want to use my peripheral vision The residual heat went to save the world."

After saying this, Lou Lian, who just felt so handsome and was about to turn around and throw his head and blood, rolled his eyeballs, and then rolled them again—then stopped moving.

"..."

Lou Lian rubbed his eyes, staring at a void in front of him in a daze, "Am I dreaming?"

Qin Fangfei who just passed through: "..."

He was also stunned: "Can you see me?"

Lou Lianfa was stunned, and unconsciously touched his hand: "Yes, are you Qin Fangfei? I haven't seen you for more than two years. Why do you look old... have you aged so much?"

"??"

He looked down at his hand, which was a hollow outline of the human body, like a model, and the person he was thinking about day and night was taking two steps back in embarrassment at this moment, avoiding that hand.

"..."

Lou Lian's eyes were full of tears in an instant, and his voice trembled: "Are you dead? You are dead!? Why did you die!?" He punched the wall hard, "Is it Qin Xiang? Stinky idiot? How about a tiger who doesn’t even know how to kill you... don’t reincarnate, wait for me, I’ll avenge you first!”

Talking about getting blood on his head, he wiped the corner of his eyes, turned around and ran away.

Qin Fangfei stretched out his hand: "...wait a minute!"

However, he, who has no body, didn't grab anything.

Not only that, a sense of distortion spread all over his body again, Qin Fangfei used the last time to run wildly, and no matter what, he couldn't catch up with Lou Lian, who had been blinded by cerebral hemorrhage in this era.

Qin Fangfei's hands and feet felt cold.

Qin Xiang couldn't be killed by Lou Lian at this time. On the one hand, Lou Lian shouldn't be responsible for this murder, Qin Xiang is not worthy, and on the other hand, history must not be rewritten.

...Otherwise, he is very likely to disappear in place in the changed time and space.

In the end, though, that person didn't do that.

He is a very smart and transparent cat.

"Everything about me is in your hands, including my only relative... If you don't believe me again, I have no choice but to prove my innocence by death."

Abandoned industrial areas, high-rise roofs, the sound is light, and the falling body is also light.

Qin Fangfei suddenly saw this scene, his eyes were about to burst, and his mind was shaken.

"what……"

"gentlemen?"

"gentlemen."

Someone called softly.

Qin Fangfei raised his eyes looking for the sound, and saw a cat with nine tails in the void, one of which was as golden and red as fire, shining brightly like the sun.

...the sun is not as bright as it.

The cat with nine tails comes from the lotus on all fours, like a god from the nine heavens.

At that moment, he almost shed tears.

With a muffled sound, the body in that box fell to the ground, and a little orange cat that had been waiting for a long time was startled.

After a long silence, Qin Fangfei heard his own voice asking: "...Why did you choose the original path in the end?" It was not because of resentment and impulsiveness that he died with Qin Xiang.

The nine-tailed cat replied: "Because it is said in novels that if you die, you will definitely die, but jumping off a building often has miracles. I have to save a clean tomorrow to meet you again."

With tears in his eyes, Qin Fangfei laughed out loud.It turns out that he is the one who has been perfected and made complete.

—He is born to die.

——Every rising sun is a touring tomorrow, passing through the origin of reincarnation.

——Love doesn't know where it started, and it goes deeper and deeper.The living can die, and the dead can live.

——If you cherish life, everything will come true.

He now knows who wrote these words himself, and then put them on his desk in the past.

When he was in the most pain, it turned out that there was also a cat from the future to accompany him, and he personally wrote the prophecy to encourage himself who wanted to die several times at that time.

live.

Try to survive.

Then meet again and embrace each other in the future.

Qin Fangfei stretched out his hand, wanting to stroke the cat, and then, like Lou Lian before, his hand passed through the cat's forehead.

"..."

"..."

The nine-tailed cat said first: "This is just a phantom of one of my tails, not myself, I'm not dead yet!"

"it is good."

The nine-tailed cat's whiskers curled up, as if grinning: "I finally found you."

Qin Fangfei said softly, "I may... still have some things to do."

"I know."

The golden tail gradually dimmed, the same as Qin Fangfei's situation, this is a precursor to crossing again.

"This spring, I planted a lotus seed." The nine-tailed cat waved its paws, its blue eyes sparkling like beautiful gems.

Under the warm light of the sky, the wind stopped and the sound was dead, just like a movie was frozen, only the figure of the nine-tailed cat gradually faded away.

"I will wait for you in the future."

It came on the lotus, and went with longing, traveling through a long time and space, waiting for the lotus planted by itself to bloom.

Qin Fangfei also felt that he was being rejected - he would travel through again, and the landing point was the well-known future and the unknown past.

He has received a letter from the future, and now he needs to write a reply letter to the past.

In the long river of time and space, quietly waiting for the day to be taken apart.

Even if the memory is dusty and the truth is obscured, there is no need to be afraid of time.

Because hard work will eventually be rewarded, fate is always extraordinarily gentle with lovers.

When he looked up, he saw a round of white sun, which existed from ancient times.

But the world has changed several times.

The only thing that remains unchanged is the great cause of life and death, gathering and separation, separation and reunion, deep love and blindness, and mutual fulfillment.

They have a common name, called Hongchen.

"Love doesn't know where it came from, and it goes deeper and deeper. The living can die, and the dead can live. Those who are born but cannot be with death, and those who are dead but cannot be resurrected are not the essence of love."

Naturally, there are love infatuation in the world, and the most love is together, but that's all.

And these, only you and I know.

And when I think of you waiting for me in the future, our trajectories will overlap and our souls will intertwine, I am so happy.

--I love you.

The author has something to say: This is the end of the main text, and the extra episode will complete Loulian's perspective, including the real cause and effect between him and Huangyue.

There is also a special episode about Tiantian's daily life, the future of the Yaozu, the release of the movie, and the two coming out of the closet.

Dear friends who have chased here all the way, thank you very much, this article really feels different to me, thank you, tweet one by one!Those who leave comments before the end of the full text will have a red envelope.

Let me tell you something, old readers may know that not long after this article was written, my grandfather was diagnosed with a disease similar to Lou Yuanshan's, or even worse, to the extent that everyone's face turned pale after hearing about it.

I used to always say that I want to end it, I just want to end it before he is discharged from the hospital, and even write a side story about Lou Yuanshan's longevity, but I always miss appointments and stop changing all the way, it's really a mess.

My grandfather's personality is completely different from Lou Yuanshan's. He is afraid of death No.1, petty, sensitive and delicate, so we didn't tell him about his illness until the end.He passed away two months ago, suddenly, but without pain.

I was also brought up by my grandfather. I have been writing the last few chapters for a long time. I have tried my best not to write any hospital and sensational parts. I still have emotional breakdowns several times, and I don’t even want to read it.It is true that young people do not know the feeling of sorrow, and want to write a new article to express their sorrow. Now that they know the feeling of sorrow, they cry first, and it is estimated that this "unforgettable" article will not be forgotten for a long time in the future.

Fortunately, I am personally satisfied with this ending, and I am also grateful to those who read my thoughts. It is not good to be miserable, but I always feel that something should be left.

Finally, I wish the babies good health, family happiness, peace and happiness~

I also hope that we will meet again in the new pit in the future one day!It is you who support me without pitfalls, I love you!