A Guide to Depravity

Fei Ning laughed out loud after seeing the three question marks sent by Gao Wu.

Sitting next to Fei Ning, Fei Ning's mother glanced at him, and Fei Ning restrained her smile a little.In the past, Fei Ning’s mother might still have to say something like “don’t play with your phone while eating”, but now that the child is older and technology is advanced, Fei Ning’s mother has become a first-class surfer on the Internet, so she has nothing to say.

It's really fun to tease your boyfriend, Fei Ning thought so.In front of him is a table of delicious food, and on the other side of the phone is someone he likes, and his mood can't help but become more and more uplifting.

Fei Ning, who still had a smile on the corner of his mouth, replied to Gao Wu: Just got up?

After returning, he put the mobile phone with the screen not turned off on the table, and when he saw "the other party is typing", he stretched out his chopsticks and picked up a shrimp dumpling.

Most of the people on the train are also awake, chatting with melon seeds, making instant noodles, coaxing children, playing games, chatting together sitting on the lower bunk, and staying on the bed after waking up and not wanting to get up... Noisy , but not to the point of being noisy.

Gao Wu felt a little funny when he saw the news sent by Fei Ning. Fei Ning usually woke up earlier than himself for a few days.

He put down the unfinished bread and quickly typed on the phone keyboard to reply: No, are you just getting up?

After seeing this news, Fei Ning scratched his head: I'm almost just getting up, if you're not just getting up, why haven't you replied to me?

- because I think you're not awake

- Hahaha, do I want to thank you for your thoughtfulness?Usually I haven't woken up at this time. What you said is so reasonable that I can't refute it.

Gao Wu's note to Fei Ning has not been changed since the beginning of school, and it is still "roommate Fei" until now, and Fei Ning has never found out.

Taking advantage of Fei Ning's spare time while typing, Gao Wu ate the bread in two or three strokes, folded the packaging bag in half a few times and pressed it under the book.

- But today is an exception, my parents suddenly woke me up to buy a goldfish tank, so now I not only got up, but also went out. [铃Se.jpg] But next time you see my message, just reply directly. I am really fast asleep, and the ringtone of my phone won’t wake me up.

As soon as Gao Wu sent the word "um", he received a photo of Fei Ning again. In the photo was a shrimp dumpling with a bite out of it. The translucent dumpling skin wrapped several pieces of red shrimp.

Gao Wu replied: It looks delicious.

Fei Ning's typing speed is really unbelievable. Not long after the picture was sent out, the text message followed: It's very delicious, I'll take you to eat next time!Did you sleep well last night?Have you eaten breakfast?what did you eat?

Seeing Fei Ning's repeated questions, Gao Wu didn't feel bored. He smiled, and his typing speed was not slow when he replied to the message seriously: I woke up for a while after three o'clock, and saw your wonderful performance in the middle of the night.

Gao Wu can relive Fei Ning's cuteness last night just by pulling it up a little bit. Gao Wu didn't remember all the news, but the thought of Fei Ning's cuteness took root in his heart.

Over there, Fei Ning was embarrassed and started typing again.

Before Fei Ning's message came, Gao Wu continued to reply: I really wanted to give you a show, but I thought that such a good actor should have a good rest, so I didn't applaud you in the middle of the night.

After the news was sent out, the two people who were thousands of miles apart smiled in front of the screen.

Fei Ning recalled his original intention of spying yesterday, but the topic became more and more biased before the topic became hot. Looking back now, he felt that those cousins ​​had no hostility towards homosexuality, which is something to be happy about.But he didn't intend to tell Gao Wu about it, and after deleting the words he typed just now, he simply said: I didn't want to drink at first, but I got drunk after drinking it [laughs].

Then he said: You woke up at three o'clock, and now?

- How is that possible... I woke up at seven in the morning.

After all the refreshments were served, Fei Ning's family put down their phones.Only Fei Ning took two bites of breakfast and picked up his phone to answer a few words, causing Fei Ning's parents and Fei Xingzhi to look at him several times.

-Why don't you catch up on sleep, I'll eat first, and talk to you later?

There is a high probability that this meeting will be many, many meetings. Although Gao Wu wants to chat with Fei Ning for a while, he is not unreasonable, and only agrees with "Yes".

The train passed through the tunnel, the network signal was interrupted, and the word "good" kept turning in circles, and the last exclamation mark was in front of it.

His field of vision was covered by a black hood. Gao Wu looked down at the exclamation mark and the zero signal, and then turned on the screen again before it was about to go out. Message resent.

Fei Ning quickly replied with an emoji, Gao Wu glanced at it, but did not reply, and turned off the screen to look at the scenery outside the window.

If you look closely, there is visible dust on the glass window, which gathers on the outside window of the car like water droplets on a rainy day.

Gao Wu didn't lean against the window, he straightened up and stared at the scenery outside the window.Although the windows are dirty, it doesn't affect the view.The speed of the train is not too fast, and the scenery that catches the eye is easy to see. Most of them are vast fields and low forests. Occasionally, they will pass through a few villages. Some people are farming and some houses are smoking. It makes people look into God.

The life on the train seems to be like this, it is very long, but in fact, it passes by.Gao Wu is a person with strong adaptability. He slept better in the second night on the train than in the first night. He fell asleep after shaking for a long time, and fell asleep in a daze after waking up many times in the middle of the night.

The most uncomfortable thing is not to curl up in the middle bunk, but to not be able to take a bath for two nights, so I can only bear it.

The thing to endure is that Fei Ning will post pictures to Gao Wu of whatever delicious food he eats. You know, Gao Wu only has instant noodles and bread.Whether it's meal time or not, the train carriage smells like instant noodles, mixed with melon seeds, rice and other smells, none of which smells like the picture sent by Fei Ning.

When Fei Ning bought the big goldfish tank, he also asked Gao Wu for his opinion, and the two of them just chatted with each other.Fei Ning got up late and had breakfast late, but he still made up for the three meals. Fei Ning even sent Gao Wu to see the delicious snacks he ate.

During this journey, Gao Wu found that he also had such great requirements and desires for food. As time passed, his desire to eat delicious food reached its peak.

On the third day, before seven in the morning, Gao Wu changed the ticket and checked it again. After confirming that nothing was left behind, he sat by the window and waited. Soon the train arrived at Changping Station. He got off with the unfinished bread. Back home by public transport.

Eight or nine in the morning is the rush hour for commuting, and there are more and more people on the subway. After his parents divorced and separated, Gao Wu moved with his mother to a place far away from the city center.

Sitting and lying down on the train for nearly 40 hours, getting off the train and standing in the subway for more than an hour, Gao Wu didn't get home until ten o'clock.

He found the key in his bag and opened the door.

"Are you back?" The people in the room seemed to be taken aback for a moment before they realized that Gao Wu had arrived home.

Gao Wu was also taken aback for a moment, he thought there was no one at home: "Well, Mom, don't you have to go to work today?"

The "new" of the new house means that Gao Wu and his mother have just moved here. In fact, this is just an old second-hand house with two bedrooms and one living room. The area is not too big, the light is not enough, and the furniture is also very simple.Gao Wu's mother was sitting at the dining table in her pajamas, taking notes in a notebook.

The house is very empty, I don't know if it is Gao Wu's illusion, he feels that the house is even more empty than when he first moved.

"Mom told you something before, I want to tell you something, you rest for a while, I will tell you later." Gao Wu's mother poured a glass of warm water from the kitchen and handed it to Gao Wu, "You are tired, do you want to go to sleep Yes, mom will help you take out the quilt."

"It's okay, I'm not tired, let's talk about it first." Gao Wu put down his schoolbag, took a warm cup, and sat on the sofa. There was a coffee table in front of the sofa, and there were some sundries piled up on the opposite wall, without a TV. .

"I heard you quarreled with your father?" The sofa is a two-piece set, and Gao Wu's mother sat on the sofa on the other side with her teacup.

"It's not noisy." Gao Wu said calmly, but his father always found it difficult to talk to him calmly, "He wanted me to go to his friend's company as an intern, but I refused."

The original words of Gao Wu’s father are: I agree that you want to study history, but you can’t just study hard. You should do more internships during the winter and summer vacations and get in touch with the society. I found a few internships for you and sent them to you. See what you want to try, come back and rest for two days before going to work.

Most of those internships have nothing to do with history, the company is not a big company, and the job may not be of high value. Gao Wu doesn't want to go, nor does he want to accept his father's dictatorial control.

"Why don't you want to go?" Gao Wu's mother will not scold loudly like his father, and will not be angry when she hears that Gao Wu doesn't want to go, "Those are companies that your father's friends work for or run by yourself. Hard work, mainly because I want you to get in touch with other people more."

Gao Wu's parents are actually divorced peacefully, and there is some resentment in each other's hearts, but it's not so old that they don't communicate with each other, and they can still talk about children for a while today.

"I found another job." Gao Wu also said the same thing to his father.

After the National Day of Gaowu, I received a job to write a manuscript. I found some interesting historical facts related to Xilin to write a manuscript.But Gao Wu's father didn't agree when he heard it. In his eyes, he felt that these jobs were not as good as the fixed salary of going to work, and they were all child's play.

"Oh, that's right," Gao Wu's mother was slightly surprised, as if she didn't expect her child to grow up to the point where she could find a job independently, and asked again, "What kind of job is it?"

"It's an online part-time job. I write freely. I write a lot, and I pay more..." Gao Wu and his mother explained a little bit. It is really difficult to compare which jobs are reliable, but Gao Wu wants to do what he wants. do.

Gao Wu's mother nodded from time to time, she didn't agree very much, and she didn't insist that Gao Wu do the internship arranged by his father. Speak well."

"Ah."

"One more thing. At the end of the year, the company my mother used to work for also went bankrupt, and my mother has no job now." Gao Wu's mother sighed softly.

Gao Wu didn't know how to react for a moment.

Gao Wu's mother sat next to Gao Wu, and continued in a soft voice: "A few days ago, your grandma had a stroke, and now she is sick in bed, and there is always no one to take care of her. I put this house up for sale and plan to go back later. Take care of your grandma."

"Sold?" Gao Wu's voice increased slightly, and after realizing that he had lost his composure, he controlled his voice and said, "Why don't you discuss it with me."

Gao Wu's mother always only thought that the child was still young, and she didn't think there was anything wrong with what she did. She put her hand on Gao Wu's knee and said, "Mom has been thinking about this for a long time. The house in Changping is expensive. With this money We can buy a bigger house when we go back to Chengshan, and we can live more comfortably. I signed a contract with someone else last week, and we can live until the end of the month. We will go back to Chengshan tomorrow night, and we will not go back to Changping in the future. Now, you can just go home and visit your dad once in a while, your dad has a new home, and you are getting older, and in a few years, you should get married too."

The more Gao Wu listened, the colder he felt.He is a member of this family, but he has always been just a member of decoration, and he just obeys all the arrangements and decisions of the family.

"Mom, I will never find a woman to marry in my life." Gao Wu smiled angrily, with a slight sarcasm on the corner of his mouth, "I will tell my dad when the time comes."

"What nonsense is this kid talking about?" Gao Wu's mother didn't focus on not marrying the woman, she just felt that Gao Wu was playing petty temper now and didn't take her words to heart at all.

"You can see if I'm serious in a few years." Gao Wu originally thought about coming out of the closet slowly in several steps. If you like a man, you can leave room for your parents to accept it.Now that I think about it, why bother.

"I'm gay." Gao Wu said.

"Don't talk nonsense, it doesn't sound good if it spreads." Gao Wu's mother frowned, "What's wrong with you kid, don't you want to leave Changping? Or do you want to follow your dad, and you won't have a good life with your dad. You Dad is ready to add a younger brother and sister to you, and you will only feel wronged there..."

"Mom, I'm serious. I already have a boyfriend." Gao Wu rarely interrupted his mother, and looked at her sideways.

Gao Wu's mother looked at her for a moment, shocked, disappointed, angry, and uncomfortable, mixed with a lot of emotions, trying to bind Gao Wu in negative emotions.

"Really?" Gao Wu's mother said coldly, she still couldn't believe it, and the hand on Gao Wu's lap was not consciously exerting force.

"Really." Gao Wu even smiled slightly.

Gao Wu's mother was very thin and weak, but at this moment, she suddenly burst out with strength, raised her hand and slapped Gao Wu across the face: "Why are you so, so..." The trembling voice said "so" a few times without continuing .

This is the first time Gao Wu has been slapped on the face, the pain on his face is not as good as his heart: "So? Are you so shameless?"

"I didn't say that." Gao Wu's mother retorted quickly. The good son she taught would never think that he would turn bad, and then she was discouraged, "Please let me calm down."

"Let me calm down." Gao Wu's mother repeated again, her voice weakened, she looked at Gao Wu with eyes similar to those just now, and tears suddenly fell down.

At the beginning, she still cried silently, gradually she cried aloud, and finally buried her head on Gao Wu's shoulder and kept crying.

"Mom, I didn't do anything wrong, I just like men." Gao Wu's eyelids were also a little sore, and his heart was beating up and down. After a long time, he slowly raised his other hand and put it on his mother's back, comforting her clumsily.

"I have listened to you since I was a child. If you don't let me go out at night, I will stay at home obediently; if you let me go to cram school, I will take classes that I don't like; I also got a good grade in the exam," Gao Wu said one sentence at a time, and said in a soft voice, "I hid my thoughts, I always thought that if I was obedient, everything would be fine."

"Just like when I was in the college entrance examination, if something goes wrong in a family, how can the child be completely unaware? It's just that I always thought that everything can be saved and everything will return to normal."

"Mom, divorce, you don't tell me. My dad found me an internship, and asked me to pick one and go to work in a few days. You sold the house without saying a word, and said you would go back to Chengshan with me. These things related to me , You just inform me, but never ask my opinion, I am also a person, I also have my own thoughts."

"Stop talking," Gao Wu's mother cried hoarsely, "you let me calm down."

In the end, Gao Wu's mother returned to Chengshan ahead of schedule, leaving Gao Wu alone to face the family's desolation.

At noon, the two of them had a tasteless meal, the long-lost clear soup lacked water, and the atmosphere was freezing cold.She left at four o'clock in the afternoon. Before she left, she asked Gao Wu not to tell her father about it, and Gao Wu agreed.

After she left, Gao Wu sat alone on the sofa, staring blankly for several hours, with tears streaming down his face and blown dry by the wind.His stomach was so hungry that he didn't even have a refrigerator at home, so he didn't want to move a step.

As the hour hand passed one frame after another, he lay on his back on the sofa, with one hand on the armrest of the sofa, and the other hand hanging by his side, not even wanting to wipe away the tears that flowed out.

After crying, he just stayed there like that, not moving, as if time stood still.

The mobile phone was beside him, and the message notification rang many times, but he never picked it up.

After a long silence, the phone rang again, this time with a continuous ring.

The room was dark, Gao Wu moved a bit, his body was numb, his eyes were also numb, he picked it up and squinted it, it was Fei Ning's video request.

It was not picked up after ringing.

He put his phone on the sofa, went to wash his face, and slapped the cold water on his face as if unconscious.

When he came out, the phone rang again, it was still Fei Ning.

Gao Wu sat back on the sofa, turned on the dark light in the living room, and took a deep breath before connecting it. The moment he connected it, Fei Ning's room was in the background. The phone seemed to be placed on the table, and the light on the side of the bed was bright , but no figure was seen.

Gao Wu didn't make a sound, watching the camera slowly raise a hand, drawing a circle in the air, and then Fei Ning slowly appeared like a Super Mario coming out of a chimney, with a bright smile gradually rising from the table After getting up, Gao Wu heard the slightly cheerful tone of the person over there: "I miss you."

Life is always messy, but fortunately there is another person, even if he is far away, he will still miss you forever.

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The author says:

May we all find someone like that.

Ding, your little cutie suddenly appeared!

I'm very sorry for not updating it for so long. I failed the exam and I have to work hard in the future. I have more words today, and I will try my best to update it.