A Guide to Depravity

"Are you drunk?" Fei Ning wanted to bite his tongue off after saying this in a daze.

A can of pineapple beer, the person on it is not Gao Wu, but himself?It's a pity that in reality, there is no function of withdrawing within 2 minutes. The words have already been passed to the other party's ears, and they cannot be caught.

"Not drunk. I like you, it's true." Gao Wu looked at Fei Ning's stunned look, straightened up, and said it again.

I like you, I confirmed it, I really like you, I like you so much that I didn't intend to confess to you, but now I like you from my heart to my mouth.

"I..." Fei Ning wanted to say something again, but was stunned for a long time, his mind went blank.

"I know you don't like me, at least not the way I like you." Gao Wu said.

Gao Wu knew that half of this confession was impulsive, impulsive but not regretful, tearing off his soul a little bit, the weight of the whole person became lighter by one gram.This gram, the other party can't go back.

He put the pineapple beer on the ground and sat up straight: "I like you, and I hope you respond, but I'm not kidnapping you. If you are disgusted, I can leave on my own after dawn. I will leave suddenly. I will report to you. Your parents apologize, you can also ask the school to withdraw from the school, you don’t have to worry about the explanation to your roommate.”

I like you, I want to be close to you, if you don't like me, I can leave you too.

"Just, as long as you have a little thought of trying, you can think about it."

Fei Ning still felt a little confused.

No, very confused.

To be honest, the first feeling of being confessed is surprise.

I didn't expect Gao Wu to be gay, and I didn't expect Gao Wu to like himself.No disgust, just surprise, even a little flattered.

The number of times Fei Ning has been confessed in person since he was a child is actually not many times, and it is the first time to be confessed in person by a person of the same sex.In the blink of an eye, he also recalled the previous relationship between Gao Wu and him. Except for the sudden close contact tonight, he didn't notice Gao Wu had any special behavior towards him at all.

shocked.jpg.Gao Wu likes himself, this possibility has never occurred to him.

So now, the confession is unexpected, even the surprise is unexpected.

Guilt is expected.After the surprise, guilt is born immediately, a kind of guilt of not being able to respond to the other party.He also likes Gao Wu, but as Gao Wu said, this kind of liking is different from what Gao Wu said.

Gao Wu is different from his other classmates, friends and relatives. He imagined that he and Gao Wu could become good friends.He thought that they were like peach trees and plum trees, different genera but the same family, which would arouse people's interest in exploring, wondering how different behaviors could be in the similar core.He knew that Gao Wu had someone he liked, but he never thought that this person was him.

After feeling guilty, of course I thought about keeping a distance.

Do you want to keep your distance?

But after hearing Gao Wu's words, Fei Ning felt that this was not the case.The consequence of doing too many good people is that he doesn't want Gao Wu to be too sad.

Fei Ning was stunned for a long time holding his mobile phone, and there was no sound except for the sound of insects and wind.

The starry sky, the mountains, the vegetation, the breeze, and the slight hum of insects are all very gentle, making it impossible to say a harsh word, and Fei Ning does not want to say harsh words.

In the past, most of the people who confessed their love were people who didn't have much contact with each other, but now this situation is a bit difficult to deal with.

He turned off the recording, opened another can of pineapple beer, and sat back beside Gao Wu: "I don't have any disgust, but I can't accept it. I'm not saying that I can't accept homosexuality. It's the 21st century. Gay, heterosexual, bisexual Love asexuality, it's all love, I just think it's a bit too sudden, I'm a little confused now. I... don't have that idea about men." Fei Ning thought about his words.

"When you come out to play, you have to have fun. I don't even want to run away yet, why did you say you want to go first?" Fei Ning began to feel like a scumbag, dragging the other party while not wanting to give him hope.

After Fei Ning sat down, he wanted to put his hand on the opponent's shoulder very naturally, but when he stretched his hand in mid-air, he suddenly realized that this situation is not suitable for this. To Gao Wu.

Gao Wu took the unfinished can and touched the can in Fei Ning's hand, but he didn't take it, and continued to drink the original can.

"Do you not mind?" Gao Wu looked at the brightening sky in front of him, and smiled calmly, but there was not much smile in his smile, and it was not much disappointment, being rejected was expected.

It's one thing to expect it, one thing to be relieved, another thing to be disappointed. Even when hope is slim, people can't help but look forward to a miracle.Failure is inevitable, and we are all longing for that extremely rare event to happen.

"I don't mind." When Fei Ning said this, he was so guilty that he picked the cushion, "Emotions can't be forced." The latter sentence is much more sincere.

"It's like not liking spinach. It's inborn to get used to the taste, and there's no way to change it, right?" Gao Wu said.

"Why does this sentence sound familiar?" Fei Ning froze for a moment.This kind of stupefied is not quite the same as the stunned just now, but now I feel that something flashed in my mind and I didn't grasp it.

"Because you said it." Gao Wu raised his head and drank the last drop of pineapple beer, put the empty can on the ground, took the blanket behind him, and spread it on his lap.

Early morning in the mountains is almost the coldest time of the day.

The long coat that Gao Wu wore before is not suitable for mountain climbing, and now he only wears a fleece sweater from Fei Ning. He may be able to sweat a little while walking in the city during the day in this dress, but it is not enough to resist here coolness.

"Damn, how many years ago did I say this in the video?" Fei Ning widened his eyes after remembering this sentence. Some ancient videos seemed to him to be almost the same as black history, and they came up at this moment The embarrassment of being confessed is much more than that of being confessed.

Gao Wu smiled, but didn't speak.

In fact, Fei Ning has now discovered the deliciousness of spinach. He only asked Fei Ning’s mother to make spinach salted egg soup when he went home last week.But this kind of trivial matter is obviously not suitable to be mentioned at this time.

Then the two of them silently closed their voices, as quiet as two autistic little flowers, blending in with the surrounding environment, quietly watching the sun grow from the mountain.

Fei Ning put the phone on the ground beside him and adjusted a time-lapse photography.

Before the sun even appeared, the rays of the sun began to spread from the east, dyeing the wavy dense cloud strips red.When the sun rose slowly, a tiny golden circle emerged from the distant clouds, but it radiated a clearly visible red light in every direction with great energy, and at the same time, the surrounding colors fainted like ripples When it opened, crabapple red flooded the sky.

This kind of beautiful scenery disappeared very quickly. In just half an hour, the sun broke free from the cover of the mountain and rose into the sky, and the clouds all returned to white.

The temperature climbed slowly, Gao Wu took a sweater hat to block the light, lay there and fell asleep.

The blanket was big, but not thick. Fei Ning also folded the blanket on Gao Wu's body, and sat cross-legged in a daze.After thinking about it for a long time, it seems that my thoughts have circled around the sky, and it seems that I have not thought about anything. Anyway, my mind is still blank now, and I have not got an answer.

I can't figure it out and I don't want to.

After a while, Fei Ning approached the store to ask if there were any toiletries for sale. The owner of the camping store was still awake, watching the news on a 21-inch old-fashioned color TV.

"Boss, is your TV a bit old?" Fei Ning's childhood memories flashed in front of his eyes again, and he hadn't seen this kind of TV in more than ten years. Who doesn't change the LCD screen now?

The boss patted the TV with a grin, and there were a few spots on the screen in an instant: "It's an antique, and this TV is bigger than my son. Don't mention it, this thing is better than the current ones. It has been more than 20 years old. It’s still usable. If you take care of it, my grandson will probably be able to read it.”

"My family used to use this kind of TV before, and my mother wouldn't let it watch when there was thunder and lightning, and usually had to wipe the dust off it." Fei Ning smiled.

"You have to unplug the power after finishing it." The boss said cheerfully, "By the way, how do you plan to go down the mountain later?"

"Do you have any good suggestions?" After hearing this, Fei Ning understood that the boss probably had some recommendations.

"Come here to climb the mountain. Generally, those who come here for camping, mountain walking is a must-have item for health and exercise." The boss brought two sets of disposable toiletries for Fei Ning, "You two are suitable for this , I will find the most handsome guy in our store to take you to climb the mountain."

"How handsome?" Fei Ning didn't care if the other party was a handsome guy, but he laughed at the boss's words, so he followed along.

"There's only one, and you don't have to choose whether you're handsome or not." The boss laughed.

Fei Ning also laughed, "How long does the trip take?"

"It didn't take long, the small ring road took two hours to walk, and the big ring road took a day to climb. How far can young people today go?" The boss showed a little disdain for contemporary young men and women. Yes, people nowadays complain of being tired after walking for a while. My nephew took a family of three to walk the small ring road yesterday, but the boy gave up the first time, and the little girl was only 11 years old and she persisted, tsk tsk tsk.”

"Oh!" Fei Ning pretended to be suddenly enlightened, "How about the price?" "Fei Ning yawned.

"It's free. My nephew will come up later and let him introduce you." The boss stayed up all night and was so sleepy that his eyes were raining. "By the way, you stayed at Mitu last night, right?"

"Huh?" Fei Ning was stunned for a moment before realizing that Mitu is the shop that mainly deals in pet shops, part-time barbecues and homestays, "Yes."

"I don't think you two have any luggage. Are you still putting your things in the store? You came up early in the morning, and you must be tired. The big ring road is steep and far away. Later, you might as well tell my nephew to take the small ring road. Let's go." The small ring road can go directly to the back of that store, and you can have lunch after taking a bath.”

"Good idea." Fei Ning praised the boss, "Boss, does your house sell breakfast? Don't choose, I'm going to starve to death."

"I even sell lunch and dinner here. Do you want to eat a full banquet? If you want to eat some local products, there are plenty of them here." The boss took out a menu from under the table and handed it to Fei Ning, "But only the first side of the menu can be found. You can do it with bacon, but you have to prepare the ingredients for fresh meat and let others bring it up. If you want to eat it, you can do it in two hours."

"It doesn't need to be so troublesome, we can just eat something simple." Fei Ning glanced at it, and a bowl of egg noodles cost 15 yuan, and then returned the menu to the boss, "I will cut it when my friend wakes up. Look."

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The author says:

I suddenly remembered that I said I would eat crabs for Gao Wu, but I didn't eat them.

"Please Close Your Eyes When It's Dark" Chen Lingjiu and Qiu Fengze.