song for the city

01 Nana

The shops in the alleys of South Street are very cheap, probably because the location is not very good, and the traffic is not too big. Nana only saves enough money to rent a humble shop in South Street and sell clothes.

Nana didn't know until Ah Cheng died that he hadn't taken medicine for a long time and saved a lot of money for Nana.

Was he already ready to die?

Nana made the initial purchases by herself, and sometimes she was too busy to eat. Fortunately, the rented house is not far from the shop, otherwise the time for sleeping would be greatly shortened.

The interior decoration is very good-looking, with a white and simple style, which is particularly conspicuous among the tacky shops on South Street.

The new shop displays clothes, no longer old and dirty sofas, vaguely suggestive door curtains, and nightmarish cots. Nana can completely wrap her legs and upper body, and talk to Xiangxiang girls.

The girls turned their heads sideways, showing bright and big eyes, and said, boss, how much is this dress?Instead of asking Nana how much.

Gradually, she has a few familiar regular customers, she can talk a lot, and she is not too lonely.Nana thinks she should be happy, struggling out of the quagmire, but there is no Ah Cheng.

Nana and Ah Cheng said that she would open a clothes shop in the future, and Ah Cheng could sing at her door, they would have a small banquet and have a baby, either a boy or a girl.

In the end, Ah Cheng only left behind the bloody ring and his lacquered guitar. Nana has been stringing the two rings together and hanging them around her neck.

Regarding Acheng's death, Nana felt guilty besides grief. They all said that Acheng committed suicide in fear of crime, and she thought that this shadow would accompany her for the rest of her life.

The first time I saw Yao Li, Nana had just returned from stocking, and the shop floor was full of clothes, and she was sitting among the colorful clothes.There were no customers at noon, so I happened to tidy up Nana's clothes.

Yao Li pushed the door open at this moment and entered. Nana raised her head and saw a tall, thin, dark-skinned man with a rather ordinary appearance, but extremely bright eyes.He didn't look at the clothes, but fixed his eyes on Nana who was in the middle of the pile of clothes.

Few men entered Nana's shop. She was tense all over, and the hand holding the pen trembled. Seeing men coming in brought back bad memories—clothes were piled up into a small bed, and the man's eyes were mechanical. In the next second, he would coldly strip her of her clothes.

"Hello, I want to see the clothes."

Nana was stunned, her eyes rolled up: "I only have women's clothing here."

"I know, I want to buy clothes for my girlfriend."

Yao Li is a small employee of a company in the tall building opposite, with a stable income and a harmonious family.

He often came to Nana's store to choose clothes, but Nana had never seen the girlfriend he was talking about, as if that girl was just a fantasy shadow in Yao Li's mouth.

Later, Yao Li would buy food and come to Nana's shop to eat, and bought a copy for Nana by the way.Nana understood at that time that Yao Li wanted to date her.

Yao Li admitted his lie that "girlfriend" never existed from the beginning to the end.Feeling cheated, Nana frowned and said that if she brought the clothes back, she would refund the money to him, but Yao Li only returned the clothes without taking any money.

He said, "I'm really not lying, I do want to buy clothes for my girlfriend. Nana, I want you to be my girlfriend."

Yao Li noticed Nana when the store was being renovated. Across the street, he bought soy milk at the breakfast shop downstairs of the company. He couldn't forget how Nana looked in the sun. After that, he bought breakfast downstairs every day. .

Seeing Nana moving clothes by herself, sweating profusely, eating bread and drinking mineral water, Yao Li worked night shift occasionally, and Nana would be seen checking inventory in the store.

Nana walks home to save money, and the road at night is not safe. Yao Li sometimes secretly sends Nana home across the street. He also says sorry for doing something perverted. I don't even look at you anymore.

Nana shook her head vigorously, and then cried hard. After crying, she told Yao Li what she had done before.

Yao Li didn't show up for a week, and Nana understood that no one would accept her past.

A week later, Yao Li came to the store again, and he said it was okay, I can accept your past, and I can also give you a new future.

When proposing, Yao Li didn't let Nana take off the ring around her neck. He gave Nana a brand new ring with a diamond ring. He said that Nana didn't need to forget Acheng, it was her memory.

Nana looked at the diamond ring under the sun and felt real happiness for the first time. She thought that if Ah Cheng knew that she was happy now, he would be happy too.

The banquet was relatively large, and it was basically Yao Li's relatives.While toasting at the table, Nana received a text message from Xiang Pei. She greeted Yao Li and said that she was going to the toilet.

Xiang Pei stood at the door of the hotel, with disheveled hair and a very undisciplined look. He was smoking the cigarettes that were scattered during the welcome at the door. As always, he was out of shape and looked relatively poor.

He saw Nana come out wearing a red dress, put out the cigarette in the ashtray, straightened her back, and curled her lips unbearably.

"Sister Na, it cost me a lot of money to come back by plane. I don't have any money to give you any money. When I graduate and earn a lot of money, I will give your child a big red envelope."

Nana scolded him for saying some polite words, and then pinched his face: "Did you not eat well abroad and lost weight, can you tell me if you are short of money? I have earned money now."

Her voice was choked up, and her eye sockets were instantly sour. The mascara and liquid foundation made her dare not cry easily.Xiang Pei's smell gave her a sense of belonging.

"It's not that bad. I don't get fat easily."

Xiang Pei leaned over and hugged Nana, her petite and soft body was only a small ball in Xiang Pei's arms, Nana also had factors that made Xiang Pei feel at ease: "Happy wedding, sister."

Nana is Xiang Pei's unrelated sister, and one of the sources of warmth in Xiang Pei's life. She has obtained happiness, and Xiang Pei will be happy together with Acheng's share.

"Xiao Pei, come in with me, I've reserved a place for you."

He glanced inside Pei Chao: "Is Liang Zhang there?"

"He's sitting next to your seat." Nana took Xiang Pei's arm and wanted him to enter the banquet hall.

Xiang Pei didn't go inside, he stood at the door of the banquet hall.

Liang Zhang sat next to the wedding table, very in front, peeking at Xiang Pei between the cracks in the fireworks, watching Liang Zhang's cheeks twitch.

I haven't seen Liang Zhang for two years. His hair has grown long and he no longer wears sportswear.Both Xiang Pei and Liang Zhang grew up well.

Nana stood with Pei for a while, but still didn't give up letting him in.Xiang Pei seemed to be seriously considering this proposal, and for a moment Nana thought he was about to take a step.

In the end, he still shook his head: "Forget it," he turned his face, "I miss him so much, when I see him, I feel that I can't leave him, and if I talk to him, I can't leave him even more."

Nana went back to the banquet hall to toast, and when she remembered to glance at the door, Xiang Pei was no longer there.

I don't know how long Xiang Pei stood there.Nana thought again, it would probably be a long time, until the day Liang Zhang turned back, Xiang Pei would always stand there.

Liang Zhang drank a lot of wine with Nana, his alcohol capacity was not as good as that of Nana and Yao Li, when the show ended, his cheeks were flushed, and he squinted his eyes lying on the table.

After all, she was still a college student, so Nana worried that Liang Zhang was really drunk.

"Xiao Zhang, are you feeling bad? Shall I send you back to the hotel to rest?"

Liang Zhang opened his eyes and shook his head in a daze: "Sister Na, I'm not drunk, but a little sad."

"Sad for what?"

Liang Zhang pointed to the empty seat next to him: "Xiang Pei didn't come."

After thinking about it, Nana said, "Unfortunately, Xiao Pei is not free."

"I would be very happy if we could meet each other," Liang Zhang almost knocked over the wine glass in front of him, his voice sounded unsteady.

"Because I miss him so much, I want to see him."

"Think about him so much."

Liang Zhang's face was marked with red marks by the table, he buried his head and rested his forehead on his arm.

Just now, right after Nana entered the venue in her wedding dress, Liang Zhang fancied walking towards Pei.He thought irrationally that he would agree to whatever request he made to Pei. Forgiveness was fine, reconciliation was fine, as long as he could see Xiang Pei.

02 my son

After retirement, Yin Jing developed a habit.

When I go out to exercise in the morning, when I go shopping after exercise, and when I take a walk after dinner, I will chat with the wives in the community. The topic of chat is always inseparable from my children.

In a high-end community, the conditions of the people living in it are not bad, and the children have their own highlights. After all, if the children can't show their hands, they will naturally not participate in this kind of chat.

The wives in the community all know Liang Zhang, a famous director whose works are shown to people of different skin types all over the world. He has won many awards and is also good-looking. He is the son of a celebrity in the eyes of the wives.

Yin Jing finally realized that it was the right decision to agree to Liang Zhang's dream. At the same time, she believed that Liang Zhang's success was inseparable from her supervision.

A wife's son wanted to be an actor, so he sent a valuable gift to Liang's family, hoping that Liang Zhang could arrange a role in his movie.Yin Jing doesn't care for expensive gifts, but she feels satisfied with other people's requests. She politely agrees, saying that her son will arrange it immediately.

"My son" has become Yin Jing's catchphrase, her capital to show off.

So more wives wanted to sell their daughters to Liang Zhang.

An outstanding girl, the daughter-in-law of Yin Jing's dream, she was dazzled by choices, and Liang Zhang didn't even look at them.

A wife in the neighborhood suddenly looked away and looked behind Yin Jing: "Your son is here to see you again!"

A little joy rose in Yin Jing's heart, and she simulated what to say to the wives by pulling Liang Zhang.

The wife said again: "That good-looking child is also here, is he a friend of Xiaoliang?" The ladies are always gossiping, and they deliberately don't see Yin Jing's darkening face.

Since a few years ago, Yin Jing's son rarely went home alone, and often brought another man with him.The transformation of social concepts is rapid. Others' sons bring their girlfriends home, and Yin Jing's sons bring men. The guesswork grows accurately and violently.

I don't know when, no one introduced her daughter to Yin Jing anymore, and Yin Jing's catchphrase is no longer "my son".

The wife said jokingly, "I haven't heard much about your son recently."

Yin Jing didn't speak, she stood up slowly, watching Liang Zhang and Xiang Pei who were getting closer to her.

The three waited for the elevator in silence, and Yin Jing stood behind them.

Xiang Pei suddenly put his hands on Liang Zhang's face, rubbed it lightly, said something in a low voice, and clapped his hands together.

It turned out that a small flying insect landed on Liang Zhang's face, and Xiang Pei wiped it off for him very naturally.

Then Liang Zhang wanted to hold Xiang Pei's hand, Xiang Pei probably didn't want to make too intimate movements in front of Yin Jing to stimulate her, so he shook his head slightly, and rubbed his fingers against Liang Zhang's palm.

Yin Jing saw this series of actions clearly, and she was not blind.Turning her head away, she coughed uncomfortably.

"Oops." She heard her son whisper.

I don't know what's bad about it, is it because she saw the two secretly holding hands, or because she couldn't hold hands openly.

Liang Ansheng stopped being angry, and Xiang Pei offered to play chess with Liang Ansheng after the meal. The two rarely talked, and Liang Ansheng seemed to admit Xiang Pei's existence.

Although acknowledgment is not completely equivalent to approval, Liang Zhang is already satisfied enough.

Liang Zhang helped Yin Jing wash the dishes, Yin Jing made foam, and Liang Zhang washed it with clean water.

If Liang Ansheng's disapproval came from the shackles of old ideas, and he could not accept two men together according to traditional morals, then Yin Jing was mostly out of face.

Yin Jing can accept the words "my son likes men", but there is no way to tell others.

The sound of water continued to emerge from the faucet, and the dishes collided together, blocking the breathing of the mother and child.

"Mom, am I still your son?"

Yin Jing turned off the tap and opened her eyes wide: "Why do you say that?"

"You see me as shameful as Xiang Pei always is," Liang Zhang continued to wash the bowl in his hand without changing his face, "Actually, I really want to make you proud, and there may be no other way."

Yin Jing's eyes were a little sour. Liang Zhang never said such a thing to her, which would make a mother's heartache.

She buried her head on Liang Zhang's shoulder: "You will always be my son, Liang Zhang."

When Yin Jing was lying on the bed at night, Liang Ansheng was very sleepy and drowsy.

Yin Jing turned over countless times, and finally got a little impatient when he was disturbed: "What are you doing?"

In the darkness, Yin Jing seemed to be able to hear the beating of her heart, which was terrifyingly calm.

"I was thinking, whether Liang Zhang likes men or women, he is our son, isn't he?"

She shut her mouth immediately after saying this, as if something that had been deposited for a long time finally compromised.

Liang Ansheng didn't answer immediately, Yin Jing faced the window, and the sky outside was pitch black.After a long time, she heard Liang Ansheng's weak voice of affirmation.

03RED

The magazine that Xiang Pei took when he had red hair is always kept at home, even if Xiang Pei is only on the inside page of the magazine.

The magazine was shot several years ago, and Liang Zhang and Xiang Pei haven't reconciled yet.

Liang Zhang always remembered that he rushed home from the hotel that night, Xiang Pei stood on the balcony smoking a cigarette, the wind blew his newly dyed red hair, he said he couldn't sleep, Liang Zhang gave Xiang Pei sleeping pills.

They have been together for so many years, Xiang Pei no longer suffers from insomnia, as long as Liang Zhang is by his side, he can sleep well.

So Liang Zhang didn't like to attend events and stayed in a hotel outside.The staff of the crew said that Director Liang pursued uniqueness and didn't want to use a good-looking face, so he was destined to stay behind the scenes.

Liang Zhang always curled his lips, saying that his lover couldn't sleep well without him.

Director Liang said the word "lover" sweetly, and everyone guessed that Director Liang's lover is very clingy.

Actually Director Liang is much clingier than his lover, but no one knows.

Director Liang's clinginess manifests itself in many ways.

The two changed to a new house, which was much bigger than the original one.There are separate rooms for Liang Zhang's DVDs and Xiang Pei's CDs. In his spare time, Xiang Pei practices songs in the room, and Liang Zhang will accompany him with books.

Books often don't perform their correct functions. Liang Zhang turns his head to look at Pei before reading a few words. He looks at Pei playing the guitar or piano, and he reads it as long as he practices.

As long as he is free, Liang Zhang will go to different cities to perform with Xiang Pei. He has an exclusive position, standing where Xiang Pei can see at a glance.

Some cities are dry, some are humid, some are more indifferent, and some are overly enthusiastic.

The dryness of the capital caused Liang Zhang to have a nosebleed, and the redness on the toilet paper spread faster than he could pull the paper to Pei. Liang Zhang watched the paper soften and collapse, blood flowed back into his mouth, and his mouth was full of rust.

Xiang Pei hugged Liang Zhang and slapped cold water on the back of his neck. Liang Zhang lay on Xiang Pei's shoulder with paper stuffed in his nose, and wrapped his arms around Xiang Pei's waist. The water was cold and he felt very comfortable.

Xiang Pei asked Liang Zhang if he felt uncomfortable, Liang Zhang shook his head, but he kept lying on Xiang Pei's body without moving, like a puddle of mud.

As soon as he came out of the shower, he saw blood on Liang Zhang's clothes, turned around in a hurry with his head up, Xiang Pei was so frightened that there was a murder case, and he didn't have time to put on his clothes.

So what Liang Zhang was holding was Xiang Pei, who was shirtless, fresh out of the oven, and his hair was still dripping.Liang Zhang bit the flesh on Xiang Pei's neck lightly with his teeth, looked at Xiang Pei and smiled: "Just hug me like this."

"How long?"

"Forever, okay?"

"Okay."

Xiang Pei's hand passed through Liang Zhang's armpit and slowly rubbed against his back.Liang Zhang was held in his arms.