song for the city

The building has only four floors, and there are two buildings in total. The yard is very crowded, and a truck and a tricycle that are about to fall apart at any time are parked like this.The gate is ajar, and the old man who guards the gate in the courtyard is sitting outside smoking. He also smokes dry tobacco. The movement is still smooth.

It was still early, and the lights in the windows were basically still on, but the lights were a little dim.

Xiang Pei parked his motorcycle not far from the yard, where there was a row of bicycles and several motorcycles.

He pursed his lips and motioned Liang Zhang to look up, so Liang Zhang followed his gaze and finally stopped on two buildings, he asked, "What?"

"Where I lived as a child."

Liang Zhang took a few more glances and counted up from the first floor one by one: "Which floor is your home?"

Xiang Pei took Liang Zhang's hand, took out his index finger and made an arrow, pointing at one of the households: "There," he paused, "it's not my house, it's where I live."

Immediately, he let go of Liang Zhang's hand, put his hands in his pockets, and walked forward on his own.

"You don't want to go in there?"

"What's the difference in such a small place, and I'm afraid of meeting Xiang Guo and his family."

It turned out that Xiang Guo still lived here.Liang Zhang quickly followed Xiang Pei's pace, and now he understood that this was not his home - someone else's home could not be his own.

"Hey, Liang Zhang, look."

They walked along the path, squatted down suddenly towards Pei, faced a wall and waved to Liang Zhang.

Liang Zhang also squatted down, thinking that Xiang Pei had discovered something interesting, and asked repeatedly: "What's the matter?"

Before he could speak to Pei, Liang Zhang saw clearly what was on the wall.

There are white walls along the street, all of which are red slogans, such as "stay away from drugs, cherish life" and so on. It is not appropriate to say that they are white walls. The walls must have been pure white in the past. There are black footprints and other messy things, as well as colorful graffiti.

There are graffiti on the wall in front of him, drawing musical notes, and three villains, like children drawn with crayons, with childish strokes.It must have been painted for a long time, and the colors are not quite visible.

"I drew it when I was young, but I didn't expect it to disappear." After Xiang Pei finished speaking, he squatted quietly on the ground and looked at the painting on the wall.

"Did you draw it?" Liang Zhang touched the three villains with his hand. The wall was a bit dirty, and he rubbed a little dust off with his fingertips. "You will be fined for scribbling on the wall, to the children."

He pretended to stretch out his hand, as if he wanted to ask Pei for money, and slapped Pei on the palm, saying: "When I was young, the kindergarten taught us to draw our house with crayons. I didn't dare to draw at home, so I sneaked outside to look for it." We built a wall. In the past, the wall was white, it was a pure natural canvas.”

Liang Zhang: "Why don't you dare to paint at home?"

"I painted it, but my mother tore it up. She said we are not a family at all."

Xiang Pei couldn't remember a lot of memories when he was a child, but the various appearances of his mother left a deep impression on his mind, probably because hatred lasted longer than everything else.Xiang Pei still remembers the look of her tearing up the painting. She tore up the painting dismissively and threw it into the trash can, but Xiang Pei couldn't remember whether he cried or not.

Probably not, he had no tears since he was a child.

Liang Zhang felt stuffy and uncomfortable, feeling that there was a pile of air in his chest that couldn't get out, and racked his brains to say something to change the atmosphere.

"Maybe it's because your drawing is so ugly. You can see that your head is drawn like a watermelon. Let me tell you, I was very good at drawing when I was a child. I will show you what a drawing genius is, if not I want to make movies in the future, and maybe I can become a painter in the future, the kind that sells several million a painting."

Xiang Pei couldn't hold back his laughter, and patted Liang Zhang on the head: "Look at how stupid you are."

"Don't believe me."

Xiang Pei stood up and shook his legs: "Let's go."

They kept walking, and Xiang Pei also told a lot about his childhood. He grew up here and left many memories. The more Liang Zhang listened, the more energetic he became, and he felt that he understood Xiang Pei better.

For example, he and Youjing Chen Zhaonan often went to the park to explore in the woods in the middle of the night, jumped down the stairs, and fell black and blue.Xiang Pei is the youngest, and he is often bullied by Chen Zhaonan. The two used to fight a lot. At first, Chen Zhaonan was able to suppress Xiang Pei by virtue of his size. Later, Xiang Pei surpassed Chen Zhaonan in stature, so he basically beat Chen Zhaonan. A two-sided role is to follow the wind.

Liang Zhang laughed loudly: "You used to be pretty skinny."

The Xiang Pei he knew was calm and restrained, so mature that he didn't match his actual age, so that Liang Zhang subconsciously felt that Xiang Pei should be like this when he was a child, well-behaved and sensible, and would not do anything bad.Now it seems that he is also an ordinary child, with the mischievous willfulness of a boy in his bones.

Liang Zhang was a little regretful that he hadn't seen Xiang Pei when he was a child.

Said to Pei: "It's not skinny, Chen Zhaonan is the skinniest, and he is the leader of all bad things."

With Chen Zhaonan's nonchalant look now, Liang Zhang could also guess, and asked, "Did he like to date beautiful younger sisters when he was young?"

Xiang Pei shook his head: "No, he started like this in high school, after Brother Jing fell in love."

He didn't explain much to Pei, and he could see that there must be some reason behind it, but Liang Zhang's heart jumped, his eyelids lifted, and he glanced at Pei, his mouth was a little awkward: "What kind of things does Brother Jing like?" ... girl?"

Xiang Pei looked at Liang Zhang strangely, not knowing why he asked this, especially when his eyes started to wander after asking, Xiang Pei felt that something was wrong.

"Why are you asking this?"

"I just want to ask, I'm curious to see how Brother Jing doesn't get close to women every day."

Leaning at Liang Zhang to Pei, he was silent for a moment, and said, "It should be gentle, Xiaojiabiyu's kind, his first love is like this."

"Oh." Liang Zhang carefully peeked at Xiang Pei's reaction when he said this, it didn't look like he was lying, he guessed that he really didn't know that You Jing liked...men.

Feeling Liang Zhang's gaze, Xiang Pei looked back: "What are you thinking about?"

"I think... I'm hungry." Liang Zhang touched his stomach.

"Come on, I'll take you to the store I used to go to when I was a child." Xiang Pei took Liang Zhang's shoulders and led him forward.

The most natural movement made Liang Zhang tremble, and he was covered by Xiang Pei's breath again. He didn't know whether his feet were walking or he was simply being led by Xiang Pei. In short, half of his soul was almost gone.

On the way back, he talked about Day City again to Pei.

He said that Day City in the movie is so beautiful that it is unreal, full of feasting and feasting, with the most fashionable people walking on the streets, it is the capital of art and the carrier of desire.But the real Day City in Xiang Pei's eyes is just the city where he grew up, dilapidated buildings, narrow ceilings, the wind that can be felt by the seaside in summer, the smell from the beef noodle shop he often goes to on the street, and There are countless bands, those who got mixed up, those who couldn't get mixed up, this is the imperfect day city in his heart, and it has a unique taste of life.

"The most important thing is the people of Day City. Brother Jing and Chen Zhaonan are all here, and Brother Cheng and Sister Na will always be here."

Liang Zhang pressed against Xiang Pei's back, his clothes were soaked with Xiang Pei's sweat, and they were a little wet.

He was blowing the wind in the back, his head twitched, and he asked, "What about me, Xiang Pei."

Xiang Pei didn't say a word, and rode forward in silence.

Liang Zhang continued: "If one day I am no longer in Day City, will you still remember me?"

After asking, he regretted it. What kind of answer was he expecting to hear from Xiang Pei?Whether it's Ah Cheng or Nana, they have known Xiang Pei for many years, even if they leave, they can occupy a very important position in his heart, but what about Liang Zhang?He was just a reckless passer-by who broke into Xiang Pei's life.

One day, Xiang Pei will never remember him again.

The sound of the motorcycle was regular and gentle, and it was very abrupt in the night. Liang Zhang became more and more sad and didn't want to talk anymore.

"I will keep you in Day City, in my memory."

Xiang Pei whispered, the mint smell from his hair rushed straight into Liang Zhang's nose.

If the smell can last forever, Liang Zhang wants to remember this smell forever.

Liang Zhang couldn't sleep.

In the morning, seeing off Ah Cheng and saying goodbye to Nana, he felt so bitter that he couldn't fall asleep no matter what.The image of Ah Cheng lying in the bathroom flashed repeatedly in his mind, which was shocking and lingering in front of his eyes.

These days, he had countless nightmares in succession. The dreams were full of Ah Cheng's bloody face, and occasionally Nana crying bitterly. I don't know if I fell asleep in the middle of the night.

He didn't mention this to Pei, and tried his best to put on an appearance of being in good spirits.

After turning over the tenth time on the bed, Liang Zhang finally gave up resistance and sat up from the bed.

At this time, Xiang Pei came over from outside and turned on the light in Liang Zhang's room.

He was wearing a vest and shorts, leaning carelessly on the door frame, with disheveled long hair, a very low neckline of the vest, just where his tattoo was located, broad shoulders but a thin upper body.

Damn, it's so beautiful.Liang Zhang rolled his Adam's apple a few times and looked away.

He stared straight at Liang Zhang: "Can't sleep?"

Liang Zhang nodded feebly: "There are too many dreams."

"Thinking about Brother Cheng, afraid?" Xiang Pei saw through him mercilessly.

Liang Zhang didn't say a word, he didn't want to admit it, it seemed that he was too cowardly.

Came over to Pei and sat on the edge of his bed: "I've been hearing movement from your side for the past few days. I guess you can't sleep because of Brother Cheng."

Seeing that his mind was guessed, Liang Zhang no longer concealed it: "I can't forget the scene that day, it always feels stuck in my mind."

"Then shall I sleep with you?"

Liang Zhang turned pale in shock, and blocked it with his hand: "Ah? No need!"

Xiang Pei frowned and said, "As for such a big reaction? Actually, I can't sleep much."

He didn't say he was afraid, but it didn't mean he could forget it easily.

Liang Zhang thought about it again and again, thinking that Xiang Pei might not be so afraid and could sleep because he was next to him. Besides, if he just lay on the same bed, he had bad thoughts, but Xiang Pei definitely didn't. What could happen? No matter how much he resisted, it would be weird.

"That's fine." Liang Zhang agreed hesitantly.

But the bed was a bit small, and they were both tall, so it was inevitable that they would be squeezed when lying on the same bed, and their arms and legs would inevitably be close together.Lying on the bed, Liang Zhang was distracted, and immediately began to regret, cursing in his heart that he had been blinded by beauty countless times, and he thought that he would not be able to sleep anymore.

Xiang Pei didn't seem to respond, and put his arms under his head: "Go to sleep."

"Ah."

As a result, Xiang Pei fell asleep faster than Liang Zhang. When Liang Zhang opened his eyes, the person next to him was already breathing steadily, and he was really asleep by visual inspection.

Nothing could be heard outside except the annoying cicadas, the windows were wide open, but there was no wind, the wind from the fan was very weak, but it made Liang Zhang's feet itch, and even his heart.

He called Pei several times but did not get a response, Liang Zhang believed that he had fallen asleep completely.

The cicadas' cicadas raised their voices one by one, making Xia Ye less secretive. Perhaps the chaotic voice gave Liang Zhang courage. He cautiously approached Xiang Pei's face, feeling his breath lightly sweeping across his cheeks.

At this moment, Liang Zhang has turned into a balloon, which is too full of air and is in danger of exploding at any time.

His mind was bewildered, and his heart was beating rapidly.

After counting silently three times, Liang Zhang lightly rubbed the tip of Xiang Pei's nose with the tip of his nose, which was as light as a feather but heavy.

In Xia Ye's deserted corner, Liang Zhang obtained one of his secrets.

"Good night, Xiang Pei."

The author says:

Xiao Liang, you are really courageous: