song for the city

Birthday is one of the favorite moments for children, and growing up means that the expectations for birthdays gradually disappear until they become tired.Xiang Pei "graduated" from his birthday earlier than the other children, because he understood earlier that his birthday was the day of his mother's death, a scar that could not be erased in her life, just like Xiang Pei's to her, it was just a burden that was not easy to get rid of .

He is not a child who should be born in the world. After the mother became pregnant, she wanted to kill him. The doctor said that it was not easy for her to conceive. If she had an abortion, she might not be able to conceive again for the rest of her life.For the first time in his life, Xiang Guoping plucked up the courage to let his mother keep him. He never thought how stupid his decision was, and Xiang Pei felt guilty for it.

Every year on Xiang Pei's birthday, my mother would only turn into a cartilaginous animal in a smoky room, with smoke in her bright red lips, looking at him as if she wanted to eat Xiang Pei raw, all her hatred and sorrow were exerted on him, She seemed to have turned into a monster with teeth and claws, and her long nails were about to approach his throat. Xiang Pei was afraid that his mother would really kill him one day.There was no cake or gift for his birthday, not even a happy birthday.

When she is not lacking in warmth, when she is drunk, she will hug Xiang Pei and say sorry. She has a faint rose fragrance, not strong, and Xiang Pei will have fantasies in her arms-what if the mother loves him?It's just that the way of expressing love is very special, so you have to experience it with your heart.

It wasn't until his mother emptied all the things about her in the house, leaving no shadow behind, that Xiang Pei realized that love can't be hidden, and the eyes will tell the other party even if the mouth doesn't say it. The mother always looks at him without any waves, like A puddle of sewage.

Therefore, Xiang Pei never had a birthday. It was a fluke that he was born, and there was no point in celebrating it.But because of this, he feels like he escaped from death, and he will cherish what he got more. Without his family, he still has friends and a band. These are all the meanings of his life now.

"When I was born, there was a heavy rain. Day City hasn't had such a heavy rain for many years. It seems to indicate that my birth was unlucky." Xiang Pei looked up at the sky, and put his fingers together to cover the sun, "Listen to my dad Said that at that time it rained continuously for several days, the ground was full of water, the wind blew the leaves fluttering, and some trees in front of our house were blown down."

The rain made the whole city into a noisy state, the dry heat turned into humid heat, and the raindrops seemed to penetrate into the human body. The mother began to hate rainy days. After giving birth to Xiang Pei, she could only lie on the bed, pressing the sore bones , quarreling with Xiangguo endlessly.

"You idiot, the rain may be because God has never seen such a beautiful baby, and I was moved to tears." Liang Zhang clenched his hands into fists and slapped Pei on the shoulder, "Don't say such unlucky things."

Xiang Pei suppressed a smile and glanced at Liang Zhang: "I don't know if there was still thunder that night, which made me very afraid of thunder now."

Liang Zhang fastened his helmet, and the heavy helmet covered his smiling eyes: "Are you afraid of anything else?"

Ask Pei Dafei: "I'm not a monster, it's normal to have something to be afraid of."

As he spoke, he got on the motorcycle, bent his back, and held the handlebars with both hands.

Liang Zhang hugged his waist naturally, thanking the motorcycle for allowing him to hug Xiang Pei every day.

You are an invincible existence in my heart, Liang Zhang said silently in his heart, but said: "Afraid of thunder? Like a little girl."

Xiang Pei was about to start the car, but when he heard this, he turned his head, and his helmet collided with Liang Zhang's, and their eyes happened to meet.Liang Zhang was unguarded, his heart shook a few times, and the exclamation almost didn't come out of his mouth.At this moment, Xiang Pei's mouth was also facing Liang Zhang's, and Liang Zhang had the illusion of kissing through the helmet.

"Why... ah?"

Xiang Pei's eyes are narrowed, he should be smiling, but the corners of his eyes are raised when he smiles.

"You say I look like a little girl?"

He couldn't let Xiang Pei see that Liang Zhang was not calm, so he pretended to choke back: "How is it, little sister?"

Xiang Pei's laughter slipped out of the helmet and entered Liang Zhang's ears. He felt a little numbness in his body, which was a familiar feeling in his dream.

"Hold me tight." Xiang Pei turned his head, and the motorcycle made a loud noise.

Soon Liang Zhang knew what it meant for Xiang Pei to "hold him tight".

As if to punish Liang Zhang for calling him his little sister, he drove fiercely and fast to Pei, without giving Liang Zhang a chance to breathe. Liang Zhang's ears were filled with the sound of his clothes being bulged by the wind, as if the world was in front of his eyes. Little bang.The bones on Xiang Pei's back showed traces in the white clothes, which were crumpled from washing.

Liang Zhang tightened his hands around Xiang Pei's waist, and there were cars in front of him.

"Are you afraid!" Facing the wind, he shouted at Pei.

"Whoever is afraid of the grandson!" Liang Zhang replied unwillingly, as if to prove that he was not afraid, he let go of his hand.

"Silly boy, tell you to hold me! Do you want to kill me?!"

Who is this?

The speed of the car continued to increase, and the trees and houses on the street seemed to be thrown out, just like throwing garbage.

Xiang Pei may be crazy, except for the last time he raced like this, he has never been so wild.The last time I was racing on an empty road, now the road is full of cars coming and going, the probability of accidents is greatly increased, Liang Zhang heard the siren from behind intermittently in the howling wind.

"Damn! Xiang Pei! A traffic policeman is coming!"

"No problem."

Xiang Pei's driving skills are top-notch, and he left the traffic police behind in two or three strokes. He found a deserted alley and stopped the car against the wall.

Liang Zhang arched his back, put his hands on his knees, panted heavily, and calmed down for a long time before asking, "Are you crazy?"

Xiang Pei smiled and refused to comment on this evaluation: "Come and listen, Brother Sheng?"

"No mistake, right? I'm older than you, and it's pretty good that I didn't ask you to call me brother."

"It's only a few months older, and I'm going to be seventeen soon."

"childish."

"Don't tell me to drive like that later."

Liang Zhang shrugged, expressing his disdain: "I'll walk there by myself, it's not too far from the bar anyway."

"I just took a detour."

Liang Zhang looked at Xiang Pei with his head tilted, and unexpectedly noticed Xiang Pei's childishness.

Three words flashed through his mind, Liang Zhang pursed his lips and smiled, opened his lips and called, "Uncle Xiang."

Xiang Pei frowned: "Screaming again?"

"Don't they all call you that?"

"You can't call."

Liang Zhang was a little unhappy, Xin Yu called Uncle Xiang Pei every day, and he never said anything, it felt like he was acquiescing.

He pouted, showing his displeasure on his face: "Why can't I call?"

Xiang Pei didn't speak, feeling a little strange.

You Jing and the others called him Uncle Xiang, which was more of a joke, to show that the age in his heart did not match his actual age in a nonchalant way, and he passed it every time he heard it, without paying attention at all.

But when Liang Zhang called him Uncle Xiang, he felt very strange, the taste was completely different from You Jing and the others, but he couldn't describe it.

Xiang Pei suddenly felt a little hot in his ear, he raised his hand to touch it, and it was really hot.

It was still early in the bar, so Xiang Pei and the others went to the basement below to practice singing.

There is a basement under the bar, which is very wide and filled with a lot of sundries, but there is still a large vacant space, which is just right for Xiang Pei and the others to practice. Chen Zhaonan can practice drums without worrying about disturbing others .Before Liang Zhang wondered why Xiang Pei sometimes went out with his guitar on his back early in the morning, but it turned out that he came here to practice singing.

There was no one in the bar yet, Xiang Pei and the others were practicing singing, Liang Zhang had nothing to do after cleaning up the toilet, and wandered outside.

Walking to Nana's shop, I happened to see her pulling the shutter door down with a big box beside her.Nana didn't look like she was in business today, she was dressed conservatively and had no makeup on her face.

"Sister Na!" Liang Zhang called out.

Nana turned her head and saw that it was Liang Zhang with a very happy expression.

"Boss, here are two bowls of beef noodles, one more spicy and one less spicy." Liang Zhang pulled out his chair and sat down, shouting to the kitchen.

The master in the kitchen agreed loudly, and the white mist surrounded the kitchen. Looking from Liang Zhang's direction, the master's gesture of tossing the noodles was very skillful, and the noodles cooked in the pot were fragrant.

"Your Brother Acheng and I are getting married." Nana poured a glass of water for Liang Zhang.

Liang Zhangzheng was so engrossed that he wanted to shake his face, but Nana's words almost made his eyes pop out: "Really?! But..."

He stopped in time and scratched the back of his head in embarrassment: "How long are you going to get married?"

Nana saw what Liang Zhang wanted to say, and said: "I will close the store soon, and I will definitely not be able to continue this business after I get married. Ah Cheng didn't say anything, but I know he is very painful to see me like this. We Now I have saved some money, which is enough to maintain Ah Cheng’s medicine for several years, and his condition is slowly improving recently.”

AIDS is a disease that cannot be cured. It can only be suppressed by drugs. The cost is bottomless. The disease may deteriorate at any time, and death will follow.But Nana was not pessimistic, she always felt that Ah Cheng might die later than her.

Liang Zhang nodded, feeling relieved, no matter how Nana wants to survive in the future, it is always good not to do this business, she can finally get out of the pain.

He showed eight white teeth, and his mood brightened: "Sister Na, congratulations! You want to invite us to a wedding wine."

Liang Zhang is really happy for Nana. She has suffered so much pain, but fortunately, she met A Cheng, who added light to her gloomy life.

The city is too big and grotesque. Everyone shares the same sky, but they don't have the same lucky life.Nana only needs to have Ah Cheng's company in her life to be happy, and the rest are extravagant expectations for her, but she is enough.Xiang Pei may be able to play music all his life, Chen Zhaonan will definitely have beautiful companions all his life, Xin Yu hopes that her mother's illness will recover, and Chu Ranfei will be admitted to a good university.

Everyone's dreams are actually very insignificant, and they can't change the world in the slightest, but it is extremely difficult to realize them. No one knows when life will give you a fatal blow.

Liang Zhang stared at Nana's happy face, and the father who took his daughter to dinner next door. His gray work clothes were covered with mud spots, the daughter's bowl was covered with beef, and the father's bowl had only green leaves.

What is Liang Zhang's greatest wish?

He couldn't find a definite answer, at least he didn't have the strongest desire yet.

"By the way, Sister Na, the day after tomorrow is Xiang Pei's birthday. Is there anything he really wants? But it'd be better if it was cheaper..."

Nana chewed the noodles in her mouth, frowned and thought about it: "But Xiao Pei's birthday isn't it."

Liang Zhang touched the back of his neck: "There must be a way to change his attitude towards birthdays, right?"

"None of us gave him a birthday and knew he didn't like it."

"Then I'll be the first one to celebrate his birthday."

The author says:

Everyone must abide by the traffic rules haha, don't learn to be handsome like uncle