After death, the white moonlight became the mortal enemy

.But when they held hands as lovers for the first time, Song Yu's heart still missed a beat. Turning around to look at Xia Chen, he found that Xia Chen's ears were slightly red.

He squeezed Xia Chen's fingers, Xia Chen looked up at him, he continued to squeeze a few times, and then couldn't help laughing.Xia Chen shook his head helplessly.

After graduating, Xia Chen worked in an Internet celebrity incubation company. He was both the boss and the employee. He was busy with several jobs every day.He also founded an artist company, and at the same time he was practicing in the Song family's business, so he didn't have much free time.

He had considered whether to live together with Xia Chen, so that he would have time to meet, but he felt that it would be more appropriate for Xia Chen to take the initiative to bring up this topic.

It's just that Xia Chen never mentioned it to him, and he was very depressed. He remembered that when he was in love with Lu Zhao before, Lu Zhao always hinted that he could spend the night outside.

He refused every time on the grounds of inconvenience. Over time, Lu Zhao asked him, is he a woman?Why is it inconvenient every month.

"..."

At that time, he was not hypocritical, but he still couldn't accept love with the same sex.Perhaps in the eyes of others, he is a dissolute second-generation ancestor, a playboy, playing around in the world, but in fact he has some barriers in his heart in this regard.

After being pushed into a hurry by Lu Zhao, he told Lu Zhao that he was actually pursuing a platonic love.Then Lu Zhao looked at him for a while with eyes like looking crazy, finally sighed, and asked him if he was okay.

If he can't do it, Lu Zhao doesn't mind being the top one.

He was angry and ashamed at the time, and performed a masculine heroism in front of Lu Zhao.Now it was Lu Zhao who was angry and ashamed, and had a cold war with him, feeling that he had always disliked him, so he "remained silent".

"..."

After he fell in love with Xia Chen, he found that it was actually not that difficult to accept. In high school, he often joked with Xia Chen, touching Xia Chen on purpose, and pretending to be secretly photographed when Xia Chen changed clothes to scare him.

Every time it made Xia Chen blush, it was very interesting.

He felt that such things as psychological barriers depended on the target. If it was Xia Chen, then he would have no barriers, but he still had a desire to explore.

Xia Chen's body is thin, his bones are long and well-proportioned, his skin is white and tender, and the most important thing is that he doesn't have thick hair like other boys, and his body is as smooth and clean as a girl's.

When he was thinking about how to eat Xia Chen, it happened to coincide with the company's annual meeting. At the annual meeting, he met Yu Sheng, the artist recommended by Lu Zhao. Only then did he realize that Yu Sheng was [-] to [-]% similar to Lu Zhao.

When he saw Yu Sheng, he remembered Lu Zhao's questioning in his mind, and his heart was full of guilt. He heard Yu Sheng's manager say that Yu Sheng was often bullied on the set because he was a newcomer, and he hoped he could support Yu Sheng. Save face.

He agreed, and went to visit the set the next day, pretending to be familiar with Yu Sheng, giving Yu Sheng enough face.Later, the picture of him visiting Ban Yusheng was captured by the media and put on the headlines, which aroused considerable public opinion.

He checked the source of the information, and it was Yu Sheng's agent who released it, saying that he wanted to create some heat for Yu Sheng. Although he was unhappy, he endured it.

Not long after, Xia Chen raided the company. He was outside with his assistant that day, and only heard the news when he returned to the company at night.He adjusted the surveillance video and found that Xia Chen went to the company's dance practice room to watch Yu Sheng dance!

He was scared and excited at the time, afraid that Xia Chen would lose his temper, but he was excited because Xia Chen came to "check the post"?Is Xia Chen jealous?

He called Xia Chen, and it was Zhuo Xiaopang who connected, saying that Xia Chen was drunk in the bar and asked him to pick him up.When he passed by, Xia Chen put his arms around Zhuo Xiaopang's shoulders, muttering to Zhuo Xiaopang.

Seeing the intimate gesture of the two, his face darkened, he helped Xia Chen up, and thanked Zhuo Xiaopang angrily.

Zhuo Xiaopang smirked at him, "Hey, I don't dare to ask Mr. Song for a thank you! Mr. Song can look at me, and I, chubby, will be grateful to Dade. I want to buy a headline for people all over the country to read. look."

Song Yu knew that Zhuo Xiaopang's weird words were alluding to Yu Sheng's affairs, so he pursed his lips, "I will explain this to Xia Chen clearly."

"What is there to explain? Yu Sheng's similar face is already the best explanation."

Song Yu took a deep breath and suppressed his emotions. He and Zhuo Xiaopang have always been at odds, and it is meaningless to continue to argue.He helped Xia Chen, and reminded him forcefully, "The media writes nonsense, so you should stop talking nonsense in front of Xia Chen in the future."

After getting in the car, he took out a tissue and wiped the wine stains on the corners of Xia Chen's mouth. Xia Chen opened his eyes in a daze, and leaned close to him to sniff randomly.

He couldn't laugh or cry, he felt like a puppy.

"You smell."

"What is the taste?"

"The smell of scum."

"..." Song Yu.

He put down the tissue in his hand, stared at Xia Chen quietly, the taxi bumped as it passed by the barrier, Xia Chen suddenly jumped up and fell into his arms.

He grabbed Xia Chen's hand and met Xia Chen's confused eyes.The dim light in the carriage deepened the beauty of this moment, Xia Chen suddenly leaned forward and kissed him, but as soon as he touched his lips, Xia Chen suddenly vomited.

A strong odor poured into Song Yu's mouth.

"..."

Song Yu's eyes widened for a moment, hurriedly pushed Xia Chen away, and quickly patted the driver on the shoulder, signaling the driver to stop by the side of the road.Before the car was stable, Song Yu ran out in a hurry, retched into the trash can, and vomited until the sky was dark.

In the carriage, Xia Chen closed his eyes, thinking sadly that Song Yu despised him so much.

He asked him for a kiss, he was so disgusted that he jumped out of the car and ran away...

Song Yu went to the supermarket to buy water, rinsed his mouth before walking back into the car, as if he was still in an abnormal state after being attacked by a biological weapon.

Xia Chen was much more stable and didn't pester Song Yu anymore, but after returning to the rental house, Song Yu put him on the bed, and he suddenly opened his eyes and looked at him fixedly.

The black eyes seemed to hide two vortexes, surging with scattered starlight, which made Song Yu blush inexplicably.

Song Yu couldn't help reaching out to caress Xia Chen's face, but as soon as his fingers touched Xia Chen, Xia Chen suddenly became "beastly and generous", turned over and pressed him under him, and gnawed at his face like a hungry beast. Taste the food greedily.

"..." Song Yu.

"Xia Chen..."

He sensed that something was wrong with Xia Chen, and wanted to wake him up, but he was still in a daze, his body clinging tightly to him.

In the silent night, some kind of latent restlessness was aroused again and again.

Song Yu hugged Xia Chen's fingers secretly, trying to regain some sense, "I'll pour you a glass of water first..."

"No." Xia Chen refused without thinking.

"..."

After being silent for a while, Song Yu coaxed him like a child, "Xia Chen, calm down first, we'll..."

It's just that before he finished speaking, his body froze suddenly, and he watched Xia Chen's movements in disbelief.

Xia Chen's hand... what is it for?

Take his back?

"Xia Chen..." After Song Yu sensed Xia Chen's intentions, he froze like a thunder, and his internal organs were all smoking.

He didn't seriously discuss the issue of body position with Xia Chen, but he always took it for granted that he was on top.

Does Xia Chen also feel that he is above?

"Song Yu, I want to..."

Xia Chen muttered in a daze, making a gesture to separate Song Yu's legs, which made Song Yu sober again, and hurriedly held Xia Chen's dishonest hand, sweating profusely on his temples, tremblingly said, " Xia...Xia Chen, do you know what you are doing?"

"I know."

Although Xia Chen was drunk, his strength was not small, and his warm fingertips lingered on Song Yu's body. Song Yu's expression was ferocious, and his eyeballs were about to explode, "No... Xia Chen... let's change positions... ..."

"Hey, Xia Chen...do you have to be on top?"

"Well... I feel more comfortable this way..."

Xia Chen was delirious, he felt very comfortable on Song Yu's chest, and he didn't worry about falling down.

Song Yu patted his head in pain and fell into a breakdown. How could this be?

It turned out that what Xia Chen had been thinking all along was...fucking him!

He suddenly felt that the world had collapsed, and he needed to smooth out the relationship between the two of them.

"Xia Chen, I've never considered that I'm the one below..."

"Which one?" Xia Chen unknowingly untied his belt, and he suddenly felt that there were two wars, and before a certain part was touched, there was already a tearing pain.

As if he was bitten by something, he violently pushed Xia Chen away.

"No! I, Mr. Song... I swear I won't accept it!"

"Song Yu..."

"Xia Chen, it's really not possible!"

Xia Chen looked at Song Yu who was grabbing his collar in confusion, and stretched out his hand. Before he could touch Song Yu, Song Yu backed away in fright, step by step to the corner.

"Don't come here...don't come here... Xia Chen! I'm really not ready yet!"

"Song..."

Xia Chen seemed to want to say something, but the alcohol was on his head, his tongue seemed to be knotted, and his lips moved for a long time, but he still couldn't say a complete sentence.

Song Yu had planned to swear to the death to defend his chastity, but Xia Chen suddenly closed his eyes and fell asleep.

"..." Song Yu waited for a long time before climbing off the bed and tentatively touching Xia Chen's head.

This man really fell asleep and settled down.

But he couldn't keep his peace!

At this moment, his mind is full of what Xia Chen just said, as if a big fire started a prairie fire in his heart, burning his face red, his breath countercurrent.

He never thought that the problem of body position would be the biggest problem he faced in cohabiting with Xia Chen.

How could this be? !

Sighing, he paced back and forth in the room, frowning helplessly, as if the Song family was about to go bankrupt.

What should I do?

Judging from Xia Chen's meaning, it seems that his attitude is firm and he is unwilling to be the one below.

And he... is unwilling, but he doesn't want to make things difficult for Xia Chen...

He sighed, looked up at Xia Chen who was sleeping soundly, and couldn't help but smiled wryly.If it was someone else, he wouldn't care about that person's feelings, but the person in front of him is Xia Chen!

Xia Chen wants to be the one above... hey.

Song Yu went out, sat outside, smoked a cigarette, didn't fall asleep all night, when Xia Chen woke up the next day, he looked at Xia Chen with dodge eyes, as if he was afraid that the overlord Xia Chen would force his bow .

He asked Xia Chen why he was drinking yesterday, but Xia Chen ignored him and turned to go to the bathroom.Seeing Xia Chen's posture of undoing his belt, his scalp instantly went numb, and he couldn't help remembering what happened yesterday, and he didn't know how much Xia Chen still remembered.

He hastily informed, not daring to say more, so he hurriedly left with his hips between his legs.

He was very depressed during that period, but he couldn't talk to others, so he had to drink alone in the bar. Who would have thought that he would be depressed because of such a problem?I don't have the energy to go to work.

When he was drinking, he "coincidentally" met Yu Sheng. Seeing his frowning face, Yu Sheng turned into Xie Yuhua and asked considerately, wanting to help him share his sorrow.

He frowned and looked at Yu Sheng, remembering that the previous artist's back tune, he found out that Yu Sheng was a victim.

In this regard, Yu Sheng should be clearer.

He met Yu Sheng's gentle gaze, and asked sincerely, "What preparations do you need if you do shou?"

The smile on Yu Sheng's face froze obviously, and it took a full minute before he recovered his expression, and smiled sarcastically, "Is Mr. Song joking?"

"Hahaha..." The corners of Song Yu's mouth twitched awkwardly, neither admitting nor denying it.

Yu Sheng realized that Song Yu was serious!

"This... this probably requires some preparations..." Yu Sheng secretly wiped the sweat that didn't exist on his forehead. He never expected that he finally found out about Boss's itinerary, and ran over to hook up with Boss, but Boss Discuss the matter with him.

He who has always been able to manage his expressions well, almost lost control just now.

"What preparations are needed?" Song Yu squeezed the wine glass in his hand, humbly asked Yu Sheng for advice, but there was a hint of pain in his brows.

"This..." Yu Sheng wiped off his sweat again, and roared inwardly. Of course this kind of thing happened naturally?Do you need someone else to teach you?

It was the first time he knew how to do shou, and he needed others to teach him!

Although he thought so in his heart, Yu Sheng still pretended to be gentle on his face, leaning on Song Yu's shoulder, "Mr. Song, do you want to be my sister?"

"Cough, cough, cough..." Song Yu almost coughed up blood, his face turned green and white, and he was extremely embarrassed.

Yu Sheng continued, "Mr. Song, there is actually a lot of knowledge here, because men are not like women, they are born to be direct..."

Yu Sheng clapped his hands, making suggestive gestures.

Song Yu blushed again.

"So, cleaning is the first step. Then, it is to expand... This is the most important thing, many newbies will accidentally damage themselves. I have several sisters, and now I can't help it .”

"Cough, cough, cough..." Song Yu coughed uncomfortably again, as if to cover up his discomfort, he drank a few gulps of wine.

"Actually, these are the lowest-level things. The real high-end things are on the prelude."

"Above the prelude?"

"Yes, it's the sense of atmosphere. Men, especially older men, are actually not very good in physical strength. At this time, it is mainly to give him a sense of satisfaction in the atmosphere."

"Then what if it's... young and physically strong?"

"I'm afraid you'll have to suffer a lot, after all..." Yu Sheng moved closer to Song Yu, "It's not a serious passage for us men, and it must be uncomfortable at the beginning. It won't be comfortable for a long time."

Song Yu drank a few more sips of wine, he didn't know whether it was alcohol or shyness, his whole face was flushed, listening to Yu Sheng's words, in the end he became more and more confused, and passed out lying on the bar counter.

Before he fell into a coma, he was still thinking that he still couldn't accept it.

He wants to talk about noble platonic love with Xia Chen.

After he fell asleep, Yu Sheng moved him into his arms, took an ambiguous photo of his forehead, and posted it on social software.After all, the purpose of his visit this time is to create scandals with Song Yu, not to preach the word and get rid of doubts.

When Song Yu woke up, the news about him and Yu Sheng had already fermented. He was so angry that he called Xia Chen, but Xia Chen didn't answer.

He had no choice but to ask Shen Qin to prepare an apology gift while having someone withdraw the manuscript.

He went directly to Xia Chen's company, and only then did he meet Xia Chen. Although Xia Chen's face was not very good, he didn't feel cold when he saw him, and he took the initiative to ask him about things on the Internet.

He then explained clearly to Xia Chen that probably because they had known each other for so many years, each other's words were still very important, Xia Chen's face quickly calmed down, and he went back with him.

When we were in the car, Xia Chen didn't know what happened, he changed his usual routine, and suddenly leaned forward to kiss him, putting a hand on his waist.

He instinctively remembered that he was almost raped by Xia Chen that night, so frightened, he hurriedly pushed Xia Chen away, opened the car door and fled.

"No... Xia... Xia Chen, I'm not ready yet."

He didn't turn around, and didn't see Xia Chen's silent eyes in the carriage.

He didn't know what to do later, so he kept giving Xia Chen gifts, as if he wanted to use this method to tell Xia Chen that he really valued him.

But he heard Shen Qin say that Xia Chen threw away all the gifts he gave him.His heart skipped a beat, thinking that Xia Chen was still angry, but at this moment he received a call from Yu Sheng, Yu Sheng cried and said on the phone that Xia Chen splashed boiling water on his face, and he was going to be disfigured.

He hurried to the hospital, saw Yu Sheng who was wrapped into rice dumplings, and heard Yu Sheng say that Xia Chen seemed to have misunderstood their relationship, and the two had a quarrel, Xia Chen said he hated his face , Just take the boiling water from the kettle and pour it on his face.

He didn't believe Yu Sheng's one-sided words, so he ran to Xia Chen to find out what was going on.

Xia Chen retorted, if he had known earlier, he would have thrown that kind of person with sulfuric acid.

He frowned deeply when he heard the sound, thinking that Xia Chen hated Yu Sheng because Yu Sheng looked like Lu Zhao.

Not long after, another good thing happened, which completely broke down the relationship between the two.

"Xia Chen, how could you be such a person?"

"Did you just now know who I am?"

He originally wanted to hear Xia Chen's rebuttal and Xia Chen's justification, but Xia Chen didn't say anything, acquiescing that he was acting as a hindrance and destroying his relationship with Lu Zhao.

In fact, he had already discovered that since they fell in love, Xia Chen seemed to have this attitude.Like loving him, but like it doesn't matter.It seems to be very close to him, but it seems to be separated by thousands of ravines.

He even got angry for a moment, suspecting that Xia Chen had never loved him.

Facing Xia Chen's fair and indifferent face, he said the most vicious and regrettable words ever.

"Xia Chen, I'm really blind to try with you."

"Lu Zhao is injured, I'm going to America to look for him."

"Okay, you go to him, and we will break up."

He has never been hurt like this before, obviously Xia Chen was not like this in the past, and could always tolerate all his badness, but now Xia Chen is throwing him away like he wants to shake brown sugar.

He was really so angry that he got angry with Xia Chen and chose to fly to the United States.

He didn't intend to go to Lu Zhao at all, so he regretted it the moment he got off the plane.

Many years later, he discovered that the regret at that time was not as good as one ten-thousandth of the regret in his long life.

If he knew that Xia Chen would have a car accident in the near future, even if he jumped off the plane halfway, he would turn back to find Xia Chen.

One step wrong, step by step wrong.

No matter how close the relationship between the two was in the first half of his life, in the second half of his life, he could only see Xia Chen walking towards another person.

Sometimes he would feel that everything was just a dream, and when he woke up, he would find that he hadn't gone to America, Xia Chen was still by his side, and they were still in love.

But after Song Xinnan revealed what Song Zhao had done, he knew that this dream was completely shattered.

He has nothing left.

Xia Chen won't love him anymore, maybe he can't even be friends with him.

He had also been stubborn and paranoid, and wanted to seize the last bit of hope, but after seeing Xia Chen finishing the reconstruction in the yard and running towards Qin Ming with a smile, he completely gave up on this desperate gamble that was destined to be fruitless.

He pretended to be calm, recruited Shen Qin, and asked him how he could quickly forget about sad people and sad things in a short time, and he could also improve his personal cultivation and ideological realm by the way.

Then, Shen Qin reported him to the western entrepreneurs' voluntary teaching activities.

He remained silent, and then reported to Shen Qin the project to support Africa.

He finally decided to go to a remote area to support education, and before leaving, Lu Zhao came to see him off.

Lu Zhao said, "Actually, do you know? The culprit for your breakup with Xia Chen is not Yu Sheng, but me. The reason why I entrust Yu Sheng to you is to use Yu Sheng to destroy your relationship with Xia Chen. "

"Also, before Xia Chen had a car accident, I did call Xia Chen and said a lot of vicious words. But you know what? I didn't do this because I wanted to take you away, I did this because I hate you , hating you has made me uncomfortable for so many years, hating you always only loves Xia Chen, so I want to take revenge on you and break up the relationship between the two of you."

"I want to give you a fatal blow when you are at your best and happiest. Song Yu, you didn't expect me to be like this, did you?"

He really didn't expect to fall into silence after hearing what Lu Zhao said.

It wasn't until he heard the announcer's voice that he raised his head and stretched out his hand to Lu Zhao. Lu Zhao subconsciously backed away, thinking that he was going to hit him.

He smiled and stepped forward to hug Lu Zhao.

"sorry."

"Don't you hate me?"

"sorry."

Song Yu said sorry again, and left with the suitcase.

Lu Zhao asked loudly behind him, "Song Yu, have you really given up?

Sitting on the plane, at an altitude of 8000 meters, he looked at the clouds and mist, and suddenly smiled.

He gave up, really gave up.

But he didn't let go.

How could it be possible to let it go?

I just don't want Xia Chen to be in trouble again.

Many years later, seeing the picture of Xia Chen getting along with Qin Ming, it is impossible for him not to feel sad, but at the same time, he also admires Qin Ming for being able to bend and stretch, and to do 0 for love.

He regretted it countless times, if he had made up his mind and made zero for love first, he would be the one standing by Xia Chen's side now.

So he concluded, man, when you should do 0, you should do 0.

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