Scumbag's contract canary

"Are you really not going with us tonight? You come over after your work at the coffee shop, and it's just right to have another dinner." Harlan walked out of the bathroom after taking a shower, with blond hair Sprinkling water droplets, he said to his roommate who was leaning against the bed and looking at his mobile phone.

The dormitory of the college is a two-person room with an independent bathroom and a small kitchen on the first floor. If you are willing, you can live a very delicate life.

Harlan considers himself the luckiest thing in the past three months to have met this roommate.

A handsome Chinese guy who looks small but has good habits.I take a bath and change clothes very frequently, always keep the dormitory clean and spotless, and occasionally buy vegetables to cook.

Harlan first met the roommate after he had just finished playing basketball one time.The weather was still very hot at the end of summer, and Harlan was sweating and holding a dirty basketball. When he took out the key to open the door, he heard a noise in the dormitory, and he remembered that his new roommate would come over today.

Harlan didn't expect much from his roommates. His first few roommates were all people who liked to go to bars and stay up late, didn't share the dormitory hygiene, played games and made a lot of noise. Harlan and them had always been very different.

But this time it seemed a little different. Harlan pushed the door open and saw his new roommate bent over and mopping the floor under his desk.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, the person with his back turned around, opened his eyes slightly to look at him, then quickly put down the floor in his hand and dragged him over.

Recalling this passage now, Harlan still thinks that he didn't think about why his new roommate deliberately walked so close to him when talking to him, but instead wondered why this roommate is so good-looking, which is understandable.

Because his appearance is really easy to make people feel amazing at first glance.Fair skin, slender eye contours, tall nose bridge and ruddy thin lips, the combination makes people feel seduced but dare not approach easily.During the summer, the boys Harlan saw along the way were sweating with bare arms, but his roommate was neatly dressed, presenting a very clean state.

Harlan froze for a moment.

The roommate handed over his mobile phone, and Harlan was surprised for a moment, and instead of taking it immediately, he leaned forward to look at it.

Hello, I'm Yuan Xi, you can just call me Xi, I'm sorry I can't speak, I can only trouble you to read the text, the following is my contact information.

When Harlan read the sentence "can't speak", he subconsciously looked up at him, and later realized that it was not polite, so he apologized to Yuan Xi, who shook his head and smiled softly at him, pointing out that He pointed to the basketball in his arms.

Embarrassed by his lack of cleanliness, Harlan said sheepishly, "I just played. Do you like basketball?"

Yuan Xi hesitated for a moment, trying to judge whether he liked this situation, took back his mobile phone and typed: I often helped my roommate deliver water in my previous school.

After reading it, Harlan smiled and said, "Then you can also help me deliver water in the future. There are many good-looking girls in our school."

As soon as the words fell, Yuan Xi's face darkened, and he suddenly lowered his head.Harlan probably thought that he might have broken up with his ex-girlfriend because he was studying abroad, and felt that he had said something wrong, so he patted his new roommate on the shoulder remedially, and changed the subject to: "My name is Harlan, the phone can Give me a moment?"

In this way, Harun exchanged contact information with Yuan Xi.

There are many things that need to be done at the beginning of school, including the psychological test.

The prize money given by the art exhibition, Yuan Xi called Tang Du when he landed at the US airport. He didn’t have much money left. He also heard that the price of psychologists in the US was very high. What would happen if the school failed the psychological test? As for the consequences, Yuan Xi also had no idea.

On the last day of submitting the psychological test, Yuan Xiwo honestly completed all the questions under the quilt, but hesitated when clicking submit, and finally sent a message to Harun: Do you have a good psychologist to recommend?

After sending the message, Yuan Xi turned off the phone and closed his eyes for a while, and within a few seconds, he heard Harun saying on the other side: "I have an aunt my mother knows who is a very good psychiatrist. If you want to go, you can pay less .”

Harlan quickly sent the doctor's contact information to Yuan Xi, speaking in a normal tone, only then did Yuan Xi remember to copy an entry in his notebook: Seeing a psychiatrist abroad is a very common thing, there is a high probability Will not attract attention.

He breathed a sigh of relief.

The school is in Rhode Island, and it is a long way from Washington, San Francisco, where Yuan Xi once visited.He has never been a person who is easy to adapt to the environment. Sometimes when he walks in the school, looking at the road and trees, the simple and ordinary scene can remind him of Tang Du.Thinking of the time when they held hands and went to eat together on the streets of the United States, Yuan Xi walked on the road alone to meet Tang Du.

It would get worse at night, Yuan Xi added the sleeping pills given by Zheng Lan without authorization, and it was still not so easy to fall asleep, and he didn't dare to get up, for fear of disturbing Harun.

The art exhibition was held just one month after the start of school. Yuan Xi received the invitation letter and the qualification to invite an additional friend. The bronzing gold font made him easily think of the recommendation letter.

Yuan Xi handed in the letter, and now he is here.

He hesitated for many days, and finally sent a text message to Tang Du, giving him this qualification in an objective and calm tone.

The text message showed that it was sent successfully. Yuan Xi squatted beside the bed. As soon as he found that the screen of the mobile phone went black, he immediately turned it on. The repetition was endless, but after waiting the whole night in the United States and the whole day in China, Yuan Xi Xi did not wait for any response.

The painting unfolded in another state, and Yuan Xi needed to fly there. Before boarding the plane, he took the last medicine he got from Zheng Lan, begging himself not to think of anything.

The organizer arranged a hotel for them. The room was on a very high floor. Yuanxi was walking in the corridor covered with thick carpets with his short-distance travel bag. name.

When Yuan Xi turned around, he saw Andrew.

Andrew walked up happily, saying that he had seen his name in the publicity of the art exhibition a long time ago, and did not expect to meet him in the hotel. Yuan Xi accepted his congratulations without expression, and replied his thanks in a formulaic way.

They stood at the door and talked for a while. At the end, Andrew paused obviously, as if he wanted to ask something, but Yuan Xi immediately pressed the doorknob, casually said goodbye and fled.

He knew that Andrew wanted to ask Tang Du, but Yuan Xi could no longer mention him to others.

Because no one will wait for him in the car, no matter where he goes or when he will come home.

On the day of the art exhibition, the car arranged by the organizer came to the hotel to pick up Yuan Xi. Like Elson that day, he walked through a very long red carpet, got more flashlights than that day, stood on the same big stage and narrated in Chinese I gave some official acceptance speeches, but I didn't feel any happiness and joy as I expected.

There is no one in the audience who has always loved wearing suits.

Yuan Xi drank too much at the reception, and sat in the car when he came, and he was the only one in the back seat.

After staying alone for a long time, this was the first time Yuan Xi cried.

Yuan Xi rejected Harun's invitation and packed up the textbooks on the table.Tonight is Christmas Eve and most people don't want to work anymore, but the cafes will still be open and may even be doing well.Yuan Xi took the initiative to help his colleagues take over the shift, and he was able to get twice the salary than usual.

Harun didn't try to persuade him anymore, because he knew that Yuan Xi needed money very much, so he just let him listen with a loud sigh, and when Yuan Xi opened the door, he didn't think of anything and asked: "Hey, do you want to get married with me?" Is that handsome guy going out to play? That... the one who works in San Francisco. I heard that the person who will come to the school to give a lecture next week is also a certain president there. Businessmen can calculate, Xi, you really have to be careful. I am afraid that you will be eaten every day."

Harlan was still stretching his neck to think about it, Yuan Xi paused for a moment while holding the doorknob, then gave him a light look, and Harlan's laughter could still be heard when the door was closed.

The handsome guy in Harlan's mouth refers to Andrew.Since the last time we met at the art exhibition, Andrew began to send messages to Yuan Xi frequently.Yuan Xi didn't understand how Andrew knew his name and phone number, and completely ignored his enthusiasm.

On Christmas Eve, Andrew did ask him if he had any arrangements, and wanted to take him out for dinner, but Yuan Xi felt that it was too ambiguous, so he clearly refused.

After finishing work at the coffee shop, it was about eleven o’clock in the evening. The coffee shop was opened on a very busy street, with the famous big square behind it. .

Yuan Xi wrapped a scarf around his neck several times, wrapped himself tightly, and was about to open the door to leave, but saw Andrew waiting outside the door.

Yuan Xi walked away and only glanced at him at the beginning.

Andrew quickly caught up, still smiling, grabbed his wrist, and said, "Let's spend New Year's Eve together."

Yuan Xi waved his hand and continued to walk forward. Andrew followed him closely while saying, "Go to the square to watch the countdown. There are many people and it's very lively."

Yuan Xi didn't hear it.

"Did you eat apples today? I heard that in China, you eat apples on Christmas Eve." Andrew even said apples in Chinese.

Yuan Xi still didn't respond.

Walking to the crossroads, there was a red light on the pedestrian crossing. Yuanxi stopped. Andrew grabbed the pole of the traffic light, spread his hands and said, "Yuanxi, this is meaningless. You broke up with Tang, right? What can you do like this?" use?"

Yuan Xi froze, his eyelashes did not flutter, and his eyes stared straight at the road.

"Are you going to remember him forever? I know he is rich and handsome, but what's wrong with him? In fact, I knew at that time that you and Tang would be separated one day, and he didn't care at all... Yuan Xi?" Andrew Before he finished speaking, he was pushed by Yuan Xi and fell back a little.

He never thought that Yuan Xi would be the one who would do this, and before he could react to what he wanted to say, he saw Yuan Xi staring at him with red eyes, shaking his hands, took out his phone from his pocket and buried himself in typing.

Yuan Xi wanted to say that you don't know anything, you have no right to say that about him, wanted to scold him for knowing nothing, wanted to say that Tang Du didn't treat him badly, Tang Du is the best person in this world to Yuan Xi other than his parents people.

But he couldn't play them all.

It was extremely cold in the early morning in the United States at the end of December. Yuan Xi's bare hands became stiff after a few minutes in the cold wind. He had difficulty lifting and falling.

Andrew ran up to hold his hand, and kept apologizing in a hasty tone. His fingers accidentally touched the ring, causing Yuan Xi to withdraw his hand in a big reaction. A tear rolled down and hit his arm, and the green light turned on. .Yuan Xi trotted into the crowd, and Andrew didn't dare to chase after him.

After crossing the road is the subway station. Pedestrians are surrounded by several nearby shops, queuing up to buy snacks to kill time waiting for midnight.

One of them sells desserts.

Yuan Xi didn't want to eat, and he didn't know what he was here to buy, so when he was in line, he just raised his hand casually.

A few minutes later, the clerk handed him a bowl of ice cream.

Yuan Xi froze in front of the counter, was urged several times by the girls behind him, and then struggled to find a few pieces of change from the bag on his back, and only after being rejected by the clerk did he realize that these are all people/people/ Coins can't be spent here.

Yuan Xi didn't know how the ice cream ended up in his hands, he could only hold the box with his gloveless hands.The subway has stopped operating, so he can only take a taxi to go back to school. While standing on the side of the road waiting for the bus to come, Yuan Xi kept staring at the ice cream, and occasionally raised his head when he heard the sound of the car.

When he saw a car with red lights coming, Yuan Xi also saw a man standing beside the road on the other side.

There was no street light there, he could only see a shadow, Yuan Xi grabbed the box and rushed over, bumped into many people on the road, and for the first time completely ignored them without manners.

When he ran over, the man had already moved forward, Yuan Xi held his arm, and when the man turned around, he saw a strange face, frowned and realized that he had made a mistake, he was scolded a few times and said "I terribly sorry.

The box was crushed by Yuan Xi, and he didn't eat a bite of the ice cream inside until he entered school.

Tang Du is a bad guy, Tang Du didn't want him to eat ice cream abroad at all, so he gave him a handful of money that he couldn't use here.

At the entrance of the convenience store, Yuan Xi threw away the ice cream box, went into the store where there was only one cashier left, and bought two bottles of wine. When paying, he looked at the shelf next to him and hesitated, then took another pack of cigarettes.The cigarettes that Tang Du often smoked were not foreign brands, but there was only this kind of cigarettes at the moment, and Yuan Xi really wanted to try it.

Harlan went out with his friends tonight for New Year's Eve and would not come back, so he went back to the dormitory, and Yuan Xi sat alone at the small table drinking wine.It was the first time for him to open the bottle cap, and he was very unskilled. He also cut his finger because he was holding the bottle opener too hard.

A little bit of blood flowed out from the fingertips, Yuan Xi put it in his mouth and licked it off casually.

He imitated many people's drinking postures, but he couldn't imitate their happiness.The smell of the wine is very pungent, the air bubbles rushed up the nasal cavity with the strong aroma of the wine, suddenly turned into a hot mist, and turned into water droplets from the eye sockets.

Yuan Xi really doesn't know how to drink, he was so drunk after a short period of time, he opened a cigarette while he was drunk, tore the package to pieces, shook his elbows and threw out several cigarettes, which fell scattered on the table And on the ground, there was no sound.Yuan Xi went to pick it up, but couldn't hold the one on the table steadily, the smoke rolled down the smooth table, he bent down again, his head drooped because of the weight, his eyes were dazzled, he couldn't see clearly, after groping for a while, his toes couldn't move Carefully kicked the bench leg, the whole person fell down and knelt on the ground.

But he didn't feel any pain at all, Yuan Xi finally picked up a cigarette, sat down on the floor, took out a lighter from the pocket of his down jacket and lit it.

The tobacco leaves are burning, making a slight hissing sound in the silent night, and when the red light appears, a choking tobacco smell rushes in.

It's not that Yuan Xi has never smoked before. At that time, Tang Du pinched the back of his neck with his hand, put a cigar into his mouth, and forced him to smoke with a teasing gesture.He was choking worse than now, his eyes were covered with physical tears, and he kept blaming him in his heart.

Yuan Xi thought of Tang Du's way of holding a cigarette, his index finger and middle finger were slightly bent, loosely holding the cigarette butt, and he took a puff casually.Yuan Xi stood up staggeringly, imitating Tang Du's appearance in front of a mirror in the dormitory, and said sadly in his heart that I can't learn, I can't learn, Uncle Tang Dudu, boyfriend, husband, can you teach me .

please teach me...

He couldn't stand still, fell down and sat on the head of the bed, put a cigarette in his mouth, and took out a sketchbook from under the pillow.

Yuan Xi's bed was close to the window of the dormitory, and he couldn't sleep every night. He would open some curtains to see the moon in the sky, and use this notebook to draw different appearances of the moon.

A tender white crescent moon, a yellowish first quarter moon, a waxing gibbous moon, a bright full moon, and then the moon begins to wane until only an arc remains.

Yuan Xi has been painting for a long time, and left a lot, a notebook full of almost the same content.

More than 90 pages of paper.During the more than 90 days in Rhodes Island, Yuan Xi only hoped to see the same moon as Tang Du.After being here for three months, Yuan Xi still hasn't made any progress in stopping thinking about Tang Du.

He took out a pen and turned to a new page. The soot that he didn't shake off in time fell on the white paper, and a small spark burned a hole the size of a needle's eye.Yuan Xi wiped it with his palm as if he hadn't seen it, picked up a pen to scribble and draw, and randomly thought of Andrew's words.

In fact, he couldn't guarantee that there would be a day when he would forget about Tang Du, because Yuan Xi didn't know if Harun's mother's friend could bring back a person who was already on the edge of the cliff. If Yuan Xi fell one day, he would All memories related to Tang Du will be lost as everyone expected.

But he is not willing at all, this is all the reasons why Yuan Xi has persisted until now.

The next day Yuan Xi was woken up by Harun's exclamation. He opened his eyes and was confused for a long time. He even recalled for a while who the person standing in front of him was.Harlan ruffled Yuan Xi's messy hair, looked in disbelief at the two empty wine bottles on the table, and a cigarette butt that fell on the window sill.

"Xi, what did you do by yourself yesterday? You don't have to feel so sad when no one celebrates New Year's Eve together?"

Yuan Xi followed his gaze to see the messy dormitory, and what he did last night gradually appeared in his memory.

Yuan Xi sat up with Harun's support, covering his face with his hands, feeling very embarrassed.

Harlan laughed for a long time and said, "Xi, you can do these things before. Don't think there is anything wrong with it. We were similar to this yesterday. If I knew it, I would have invited you to join me."

Yuan Xi buried his face and listened to him for a while, and was about to get up and tidy up when his fingers slipped from his face, and he suddenly realized something was wrong.

He opened his palm and found that the ring he had been wearing on his index finger was gone.

Yuan Xi stood up all of a sudden, which startled Harun. Seeing him looking up and down, left and right, Harun frantically flipped through the quilt and pillow, followed him around, and asked, "What are you looking for?"

Yuan Xi opened the drawer with a "wow", and raised his left hand to Harun.

Harlan immediately understood that the ring Yuan Xi wore was very obvious. Harlan once asked Yuan Xi what special meaning he had, but Yuan Xi didn't say anything.

Soon Harun and Yuan Xi searched for the ring together.

They opened all the cabinets, picked up the quilts and shook them, lay down on the floor and looked under the table under the bed with a flashlight, but found nothing.

Yuan Xi was in a hurry, the sound of slippers walking on the floor was loud, and the whole person seemed to lose control and rummaged through things crazily.

Harun felt that he was wrong, so he stopped to enlighten Yuan Xi first, but found that Yuan Xi seemed to be unable to hear his voice.Harlan had no choice but to rush forward to stop him. The gap he was looking at was too small, and it was easy to get hurt if he touched it with his hands.

Yuan Xi didn't respond when Harlan called Yuan Xi's name. He walked up and grabbed Yuan Xi's two forearms before he struggled to turn around.

"I'll find it, don't worry."

Don't lose the ring.

Yuan Xi forced himself to think about every detail of last night, but everything seemed to be covered by a layer of fog, which made Yuan Xi's brain hurt like hell, and he wanted to cry, shout, and scold him.

Yuan Xi is the most useless person in the world.

He had to rely on drinking, smoking, and medicine to resolve his emotions, and when he went crazy, he lost the only thing Tang Du left him.

Harun forcefully pulled his fingers out of the gap, and Yuan Xi leaned against the wall in a daze as if he had lost his mind.

Harun was very surprised by all of Yuan Xi's behaviors. He knew that Yuan Xi might suffer from some mental illness from the frequency of Yuan Xi's visits to a psychiatrist, but he had never seen Yuan Xi have an attack.Because of his lack of experience, he couldn't say anything, and had no choice but to go up and hug Yuan Xi.

"You were in the dormitory yesterday, you must have fallen here, then you must find it."

No, no no, not necessarily.

Yuan Xi thought that there are sinks and toilets in the dormitory, as well as windows and doors, so it is entirely possible to lose the ring.

The ring was lost, Yuan Xi lost the ring Tang Du gave him.

Yuan Xi leaned against Harun, his eyes were dry and his whole body was weak.

Harun wanted to let go of him and take him to sit on the bed, but Yuanxi was about to fall as soon as he let go, so he held him up again.

Suddenly, Harun's fingers slid across the skin of Yuan Xi's neck, bringing out a black rope.

Yuan Xi looked down, and there was a silver ring hanging in the middle of the rope.

Sorry I scared you.As a roommate, I am obliged to tell you about my illness, but I did not, sorry.I am a patient with depression and usually take a lot of medicine. I believe you have seen it. Thank you for respecting my privacy.

Rings are given to me by people who mean a lot to me.

This is a text message Yuan Xi sent to Harun a few days later.

After reading it, Harlan quickly replied with some comforting words. He was sitting in the office at the moment, telling the teacher Yuan Xi that the application for changing dormitories had been invalidated after they discussed it.

When Harun returned to the dormitory, Yuan Xi had just returned from Dr. Diana's side with a new bag of medicine in his hand.

Yuan Xi knew that Harun went to the teacher and thanked him for still being willing to live with him.

Harun said with a smile that you are my brother, and helped Yuan Xi to dispense the medicine, watching him swallow it.

The atmosphere was still somewhat silent, and Harlan knew that he needed to say something else at this time.

He casually picked up a poster from the table, pointed to the words on it, and said, "You should go to Xi for this one."

Yuan Xi looked up, it was a lecture Harlan mentioned before.

He frowned and shook his head slightly.

not going.

Not Tang Du.

Tang Du is not here.

Yuan Xi couldn't see it.

one year later.

Harlan carried a pack of Christmas tree decorations into the small villa, put the bag in the living room, a group of Texas players gathered by the sofa, Yuan Xi sat closest to the French window, and the rest of the field besides him last man game.

Half a minute later, the two turned over the cards, and Yuan Xi won. He happily jumped up from the sofa and high-fived a boy beside him.

Seeing that the game was over, Harlan walked up, patted Yuan Xi on the shoulder, leaned into his ear and said, "The professor asked me to tell you to check your phone."

Yuan Xi nodded, turned on the phone and saw an email from the professor.

It said that Professor Alan and Elson came here these days and wanted to meet with him and talk about using some of Yuan Xi's paintings left in the school studio for exhibition.

Yuan Xi was stunned for a while before he remembered who these two people were.

At this time, the snow was falling heavily outside the window, and a white sheet covered the trees and streets.

During Yuan Xi's second winter in Rhodes Island, he no longer suffered from repeated fevers and colds due to difficulty adapting to the severe cold.