[Comprehensive] bohemian
Chapter 11
People have a kind of inferior quality rooted in the bone marrow-that is, they cannot look at themselves objectively and correctly.Either always overestimate yourself, or look down on yourself with low self-esteem.
Although I can't say that I still belong to the category of 'human', I obviously also have such inferiority.
Before this happened, I thought I could bear it.
It was like meeting General Yang and his party in that valley.I don't know why I'm there, so I assume it's a guide from heaven.But now, I have retrieved some of my memories, and I know that these are my arrangements, but I am confused about why I have such arrangements.I don't understand why I have to lock up my memory, I don't understand why I have to hide my ability, I don't understand how I should do the task that I define as, just as I don't understand why I am Between opening and closing eyes, it disappeared and appeared in another place so strange to me.
Before encountering this incident, I was following my heart, I thought, maybe this is my purpose, I have no scruples to be unrestrained and unrestrained.I don't need to care so much, I can escape the shackles of memory and ability, I am me, an independent individual.I can escape from the rules and regulations of the world, I can abandon my principles and beliefs, I can be self-willed without asking the reason, because I am "new born", I am a new life now, and have nothing to do with this world, so I can do to indifferent.
From the first second I opened my eyes again, I followed my instinct and did things that I found new and interesting.And the 'task' appeared in a new and confusing way.Makes my interest in this 'game' only increase.
But as the memory is unlocked, those things that I don't want to pursue are becoming more and more complicated.
Just because I am still alive, and because I live longer and longer every day, I think more.
Even with the amnesia, I had a strong emotion, a strong feeling of wanting to be someone else.Maybe, indeed, I was wrong.I thought highly of myself, I thought I could change and become as free and easy as I hoped.If you want to prostitute, you can eat as you please.But it turns out that I can't do it.
I don't know who the "baby" in my memory is, just as I only know that my name is Taoyan Rusu. I want to know my life, relationship, friends, and family in detail, but I don't have these memories.
I met and left these strange places by myself, except for a kind of hunger in my stomach that urged me to look for food, I found that I didn't have a clear goal at all.
I feel like a traveler with no purpose and an empty mind.
Being touched by these men, my heart was unexpectedly calm, and I didn't have the excitement, excitement or any pleasure I imagined.I thought I would get a sense of entitlement and satisfaction while playing with these guys, but no.I'm just filling the gaps in my locked memory with my own ignorance.
Although the heart can remain calm, the body is reflecting it honestly. I am such a contradictory person.
In the first second of being touched, I endured a sticky feeling, a feeling of nausea all over my body.The clothes were torn into strips and thrown aside. The men's hands wandered wantonly on me, as well as their mouths.At the moment when my legs were separated, looking at this strong, rude, lustful and lustful man, I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart, but I still didn't resist.I don't know what I'm waiting for, I may still want to prove that I can get rid of the shadow of the past and be a wanton and unrestrained person who disregards worldly ethics. The inaction at this moment is that I feel that after being treated like this, I can really jump out of that The shackles of bondage.
Resisting the urge to kill them all, I waited for the last moment.
One white and slender leg was folded and pulled away, and the other was placed on the shoulder of the man in front of me. His hands played with the scenery below without hesitation, while the hands of other men did not stay idle, they all urged Let the man move quickly.
There is no foreplay, no flirtation, no love, in this wasteland, these men are ready to start their gluttonous feast.
When the man took off his pants and was about to go up with the gun, the time was fixed at this moment - a blood-red flower bloomed on his chest.
The man's expression was also distorted at this moment, the original joy froze on his face, his body twitched unconsciously, his eyes widened and he fell back.
This signal stimulated those who were still moving. The blood in the man's chest was smeared on the ground, and the prison uniform was flowing with conspicuous red and was still smearing. The eyes of the remaining men were full of panic, a kind of Strong fear, the original obscene and promiscuous atmosphere suddenly dissipated, these men who were still alive were short of breath but did not dare to inhale too hard, they were afraid, they stayed where they were, motionless, as if someone had grabbed them broke their hearts.
Jalan Green's movements were very quick, and they were in love again before, so it was normal for them not to see clearly his murderous movements.
But people are afraid because of the unknown, and cowardly because of the fear of the unknown.Once he has the cognition of losing, then he has already missed winning and losing.
So these people were all killed by Jalan Green in the few seconds they were stunned.
Jalan Green stood on top of the corpses with a contemptuous expression, then he took out a handkerchief from his coat pocket and wiped the blood off his hands.
At this time, most of this restless night had passed, and the figure of dawn could be seen slightly, and white light began to glow at the end of the sky.
Misakuling, Ximen, and others who had never stopped threatening, cursing, and shouting had fallen into despair at this time.They watched the god of death approach Tao Yan to become a vegetarian step by step, and heard the words that sent them into the cold kiln: "Do you like it? My girl, from the first time I saw you, I knew you were suitable for this color. The sinful black and the warm red are really beautiful, then, our banquet can begin, beautiful lady. I hope you can have a good time.”
------------
I lay on the ground without moving, and let Jalan Grin approach. When the creepy declaration sounded in my ears, I just glanced at him indifferently, because of this man, I recognized some things clearly, because of these things, I saw myself clearly and fell into a state of self-loathing.
Jalan Green seemed to see that I was not in a good state at this time, and acted very gentlemanly. He picked me up from the ground gently.His expression was gentle and comforting, as if he had seen through all my thoughts.But the thing is the same, he knows that I am not discouraged because I was almost raped, but I can't accept such a self-a contradictory self who wants to break through but can't.
Bypassing the tree that helped the hostages, I saw the worried and struggling eyes of Misakurei and Ximen, and saw the marks left on their bodies by their desperate struggle with the rope. Similarly, I saw it on Keigo Atobe. Regret and worry, there is also an indescribable complexity. From being hijacked to prison to being taken hostage by prisoners, this young master has always shown a calm and calm expression, but now he has such an expression that he has to let I was a little surprised, even the two little boys who hadn't spoken looked at me sadly.Daoming Si, who was captured and lying on the ground, has not yet woken up. It can be seen that the injury is very serious, but they seem to be more worried about me.I kind of enjoy the look.
People are creatures of the visual system. Between the strong Jalan Green and the weak me, they are obviously inclined to me. Jalan Green showed ruthlessness in front of them and killed people again, so they will He hates and fears him, and thinks he is a very sinful person, but I, from the very beginning, stood in a relatively harmless position, a weak and unpretentious girl who did not shrink back and stood up at their dangerous moment The girl who rescued them was raped and violated by a group of beasts because of them, and now her life may be in danger.
Thinking of this, I laughed a little.
Seeing me looking at the hostages in silence, Jalan Green knew that I was in a bottleneck, so he obviously didn't want to miss such a good opportunity.
"Hey... Do you want to understand what love is? Do you want to know what you are looking for? Do you want to know what it feels like to be without shackles?" After walking for a while to a small lake, Jalan Green put me down. He took off my broken clothes, washed me with a handkerchief, and said, "Suppressing yourself won't get you what you want. Isn't it tiring to maintain a short-term peace by yourself?"
"I didn't suppress myself," I replied, watching him.
Jalan Green's hands lingered on my body, wiping the obvious marks, looking at my naked body, and making movements with his hands, but his expression was as calm as ever, and his eyes were unwavering, as if he was wiping my body. A precious porcelain, serious and careful.
"You obeyed your heart and instinct, but how do you judge this so-called heart and instinct? If a person only pursues his heart and instinct, then he can only be said to be A creature, a creature without rationality and mind, the beast follows the nature endowed by God, captures and hunts for food, seeks a mate and gives birth to children, and then captures and hunts for food and feeds children. The beast is a part of nature that is subservient to human beings. Slavery was tortured and killed. Living without a purpose is a waste of the value of living, and living without reason will definitely be inferior.”
……
"Are you willing? Don't you want to change?" Jalan Green changed his tone and continued, "Take a path that you've always wanted but didn't dare to think about...I know you still lack a motivation now."
"Want it?...I can give it to you..." The bewitching whisper became a spell in my memory, until it was all over, I could still think of this sentence in my ears all the time.
The white sky, the woods accompanied by birds chirping, the rippling lake water, everything seems so beautiful.
There were faint whispers and murmurs, like spring breeze blowing through branches, or like stones splashing lake water.
On this piece of grass, two snow-white figures intertwined and stacked together, completing this grand ceremony in the radiant kiss of the morning sun.
Although I can't say that I still belong to the category of 'human', I obviously also have such inferiority.
Before this happened, I thought I could bear it.
It was like meeting General Yang and his party in that valley.I don't know why I'm there, so I assume it's a guide from heaven.But now, I have retrieved some of my memories, and I know that these are my arrangements, but I am confused about why I have such arrangements.I don't understand why I have to lock up my memory, I don't understand why I have to hide my ability, I don't understand how I should do the task that I define as, just as I don't understand why I am Between opening and closing eyes, it disappeared and appeared in another place so strange to me.
Before encountering this incident, I was following my heart, I thought, maybe this is my purpose, I have no scruples to be unrestrained and unrestrained.I don't need to care so much, I can escape the shackles of memory and ability, I am me, an independent individual.I can escape from the rules and regulations of the world, I can abandon my principles and beliefs, I can be self-willed without asking the reason, because I am "new born", I am a new life now, and have nothing to do with this world, so I can do to indifferent.
From the first second I opened my eyes again, I followed my instinct and did things that I found new and interesting.And the 'task' appeared in a new and confusing way.Makes my interest in this 'game' only increase.
But as the memory is unlocked, those things that I don't want to pursue are becoming more and more complicated.
Just because I am still alive, and because I live longer and longer every day, I think more.
Even with the amnesia, I had a strong emotion, a strong feeling of wanting to be someone else.Maybe, indeed, I was wrong.I thought highly of myself, I thought I could change and become as free and easy as I hoped.If you want to prostitute, you can eat as you please.But it turns out that I can't do it.
I don't know who the "baby" in my memory is, just as I only know that my name is Taoyan Rusu. I want to know my life, relationship, friends, and family in detail, but I don't have these memories.
I met and left these strange places by myself, except for a kind of hunger in my stomach that urged me to look for food, I found that I didn't have a clear goal at all.
I feel like a traveler with no purpose and an empty mind.
Being touched by these men, my heart was unexpectedly calm, and I didn't have the excitement, excitement or any pleasure I imagined.I thought I would get a sense of entitlement and satisfaction while playing with these guys, but no.I'm just filling the gaps in my locked memory with my own ignorance.
Although the heart can remain calm, the body is reflecting it honestly. I am such a contradictory person.
In the first second of being touched, I endured a sticky feeling, a feeling of nausea all over my body.The clothes were torn into strips and thrown aside. The men's hands wandered wantonly on me, as well as their mouths.At the moment when my legs were separated, looking at this strong, rude, lustful and lustful man, I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart, but I still didn't resist.I don't know what I'm waiting for, I may still want to prove that I can get rid of the shadow of the past and be a wanton and unrestrained person who disregards worldly ethics. The inaction at this moment is that I feel that after being treated like this, I can really jump out of that The shackles of bondage.
Resisting the urge to kill them all, I waited for the last moment.
One white and slender leg was folded and pulled away, and the other was placed on the shoulder of the man in front of me. His hands played with the scenery below without hesitation, while the hands of other men did not stay idle, they all urged Let the man move quickly.
There is no foreplay, no flirtation, no love, in this wasteland, these men are ready to start their gluttonous feast.
When the man took off his pants and was about to go up with the gun, the time was fixed at this moment - a blood-red flower bloomed on his chest.
The man's expression was also distorted at this moment, the original joy froze on his face, his body twitched unconsciously, his eyes widened and he fell back.
This signal stimulated those who were still moving. The blood in the man's chest was smeared on the ground, and the prison uniform was flowing with conspicuous red and was still smearing. The eyes of the remaining men were full of panic, a kind of Strong fear, the original obscene and promiscuous atmosphere suddenly dissipated, these men who were still alive were short of breath but did not dare to inhale too hard, they were afraid, they stayed where they were, motionless, as if someone had grabbed them broke their hearts.
Jalan Green's movements were very quick, and they were in love again before, so it was normal for them not to see clearly his murderous movements.
But people are afraid because of the unknown, and cowardly because of the fear of the unknown.Once he has the cognition of losing, then he has already missed winning and losing.
So these people were all killed by Jalan Green in the few seconds they were stunned.
Jalan Green stood on top of the corpses with a contemptuous expression, then he took out a handkerchief from his coat pocket and wiped the blood off his hands.
At this time, most of this restless night had passed, and the figure of dawn could be seen slightly, and white light began to glow at the end of the sky.
Misakuling, Ximen, and others who had never stopped threatening, cursing, and shouting had fallen into despair at this time.They watched the god of death approach Tao Yan to become a vegetarian step by step, and heard the words that sent them into the cold kiln: "Do you like it? My girl, from the first time I saw you, I knew you were suitable for this color. The sinful black and the warm red are really beautiful, then, our banquet can begin, beautiful lady. I hope you can have a good time.”
------------
I lay on the ground without moving, and let Jalan Grin approach. When the creepy declaration sounded in my ears, I just glanced at him indifferently, because of this man, I recognized some things clearly, because of these things, I saw myself clearly and fell into a state of self-loathing.
Jalan Green seemed to see that I was not in a good state at this time, and acted very gentlemanly. He picked me up from the ground gently.His expression was gentle and comforting, as if he had seen through all my thoughts.But the thing is the same, he knows that I am not discouraged because I was almost raped, but I can't accept such a self-a contradictory self who wants to break through but can't.
Bypassing the tree that helped the hostages, I saw the worried and struggling eyes of Misakurei and Ximen, and saw the marks left on their bodies by their desperate struggle with the rope. Similarly, I saw it on Keigo Atobe. Regret and worry, there is also an indescribable complexity. From being hijacked to prison to being taken hostage by prisoners, this young master has always shown a calm and calm expression, but now he has such an expression that he has to let I was a little surprised, even the two little boys who hadn't spoken looked at me sadly.Daoming Si, who was captured and lying on the ground, has not yet woken up. It can be seen that the injury is very serious, but they seem to be more worried about me.I kind of enjoy the look.
People are creatures of the visual system. Between the strong Jalan Green and the weak me, they are obviously inclined to me. Jalan Green showed ruthlessness in front of them and killed people again, so they will He hates and fears him, and thinks he is a very sinful person, but I, from the very beginning, stood in a relatively harmless position, a weak and unpretentious girl who did not shrink back and stood up at their dangerous moment The girl who rescued them was raped and violated by a group of beasts because of them, and now her life may be in danger.
Thinking of this, I laughed a little.
Seeing me looking at the hostages in silence, Jalan Green knew that I was in a bottleneck, so he obviously didn't want to miss such a good opportunity.
"Hey... Do you want to understand what love is? Do you want to know what you are looking for? Do you want to know what it feels like to be without shackles?" After walking for a while to a small lake, Jalan Green put me down. He took off my broken clothes, washed me with a handkerchief, and said, "Suppressing yourself won't get you what you want. Isn't it tiring to maintain a short-term peace by yourself?"
"I didn't suppress myself," I replied, watching him.
Jalan Green's hands lingered on my body, wiping the obvious marks, looking at my naked body, and making movements with his hands, but his expression was as calm as ever, and his eyes were unwavering, as if he was wiping my body. A precious porcelain, serious and careful.
"You obeyed your heart and instinct, but how do you judge this so-called heart and instinct? If a person only pursues his heart and instinct, then he can only be said to be A creature, a creature without rationality and mind, the beast follows the nature endowed by God, captures and hunts for food, seeks a mate and gives birth to children, and then captures and hunts for food and feeds children. The beast is a part of nature that is subservient to human beings. Slavery was tortured and killed. Living without a purpose is a waste of the value of living, and living without reason will definitely be inferior.”
……
"Are you willing? Don't you want to change?" Jalan Green changed his tone and continued, "Take a path that you've always wanted but didn't dare to think about...I know you still lack a motivation now."
"Want it?...I can give it to you..." The bewitching whisper became a spell in my memory, until it was all over, I could still think of this sentence in my ears all the time.
The white sky, the woods accompanied by birds chirping, the rippling lake water, everything seems so beautiful.
There were faint whispers and murmurs, like spring breeze blowing through branches, or like stones splashing lake water.
On this piece of grass, two snow-white figures intertwined and stacked together, completing this grand ceremony in the radiant kiss of the morning sun.
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