[Hunter] Secret Lover

I'm not a brain-dead who will be abused obediently if I mess with a high-risk weapon like Kuroro. On the contrary, if I can, I will try my best to kill Kuroro first, so as to get rid of him quickly.

But that day, I hesitated, I stopped, I... failed to kill Kuroro.

Obviously Maggie was so angry when she helped me restore my memory, I even made up my mind to kill Kuroro even if he died with him.

Maggie gave me a punch to wake me up, saying that even if you are angry and hate Kuroro, you must maintain basic awareness and sobriety. What is the difference between you going like this and sending yourself to death.

I'm also very strange. At the beginning, I clearly learned that I hated Kuroro when he was used as cannon fodder on Meteor Street, but under the balance of interests, I knew that hating Kuroro was meaningless What's the use of hating because I can't take revenge?

Therefore, this hatred was well suppressed by me.

In the same situation, after two years of absence, my strength is even higher than Kuroro's.But this time, I couldn't calm down, let alone suppress this hatred, every cell in my body clamored to kill that scum with black hair, black eyes and black heart!

I lost my proud sanity.

——Why?

Because I had a special feeling for Kuroro during the amnesia period.

Because I can't stand that the person who betrayed me is Kuroro.Anyone else can, but only Kuroro, this man, he can't betray me.

because……

"Yeah, because I fucking fell in love with Kuroro stupidly! So I can't stand it! I hate him so much that I want to kill him! Why is it him! Why did you betray me, as long as it was someone else , The other spiders I know are good! I can calm down, I can do it, really!! It’s better to change someone else, Kurolo didn’t sell me to those old people, it’s all because of my spirit I had a hallucination in a trance... No, that wasn't a hallucination, it was Kurollo who did it, who else could it be? Sure enough, I should delete the memory of when I was a teacher! Yes! I was crazy at that time Only then will it become abnormal, the town is too peaceful and people are abnormal, I did not fall in love with Kuroro! Hurry up... hurry up...delete that memory...that's it..."

I covered my face and cried out inconsistent words, my brain could no longer think normally, and my newly bandaged palms smashed the bed board due to intense emotions, and bright red blood oozes out.

What love is obviously the most boring thing, I am obviously very disdainful, and I also think that those men and women who love to die for love are stupid.Even if I have feelings for Kuroro, it shouldn't be so sad, he should be just a faint shadow in my heart, even if I say goodbye, I can still say goodbye with a smile - this is what I am in Wano When the town vaguely guessed Kuroro's identity, he had already told himself.

But when I really faced it, I was proved by tears that I was too self-righteous.

When I hate and confide, I can always hold the idea of ​​'Kurolo is not that important to me' in my heart, but gradually, first my voice choked up, and then my eyes were very sore, and I wanted to blink a few times to relieve the sore feeling , in the end... In the end, he could only continue to breathe while crying so ugly and panting.

This ugliness was clearly slapping me in the face, and then denying my cognition.

They say: How long have you tried to deceive yourself?

All you think is to make yourself feel better.

You really care about Kuroro, you really care.

You can't forget Kuroro, you can't say goodbye to him.

You like Kuroro, you love him, and you can't let him go.

... Who said, I only cried because my palm was cracked again.

But obviously it was the heart that convulsed.Of course, it is not as painful as being poked by a thousand needles as described in the novel.It... It's just a throbbing pain, the same frequency as my choked breathing, definitely not to the limit I can bear.

But it is—it is!

I just can't stand it.

Why is it so painful and still unwilling to give up.

Why is it so painful? I still can't let go of that bastard.

Why do you have to pay such a painful price even if you fall in love with someone?

This world is destroyed.

The author has something to say: Is there any reason for the last sentence that the heroine is sick~

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