I'm not a cannon fodder

??Gu Jiao was stopped by the question.

??why?

?? Because there are a lot of sex scenes, a lot of kissing.

??Because you are afraid that if you let go, you will leave with others.

?? And because... I like you.

??There were many reasons, but Gu Jiao suddenly didn't know what to say.

??It seems to be able to say anything, but also seems to be unable to say anything.

??Actually, in retrospect, Gu Jiao never seemed to be able to influence Chu Han's decision.

?? The most impressive thing was Chu Han's college entrance examination in his sophomore year of high school.

?? He asked Chu Han what school he was going to take the exam to, and Chu Han said B University.

??B University is very difficult to take the exam, very very very difficult.

??For a little dandy like Gu Jiao who is just waiting to die, even if you lend Gu Jiao his brains and ask him to repeat high school for three years, he still cannot pass the exam.

??Gu Jiao knew that he couldn't ask Chu Han to give up a better opportunity for him, but he still didn't hold back. With cautious expectation, he asked Chu Han half-jokingly if he could change to a school with a better test center. Also with Chu Han University.

?? At that time, Chu Han looked at him with this kind of eyes, puzzled, puzzled, as if asking, why must we be together in university?

?? Later the college entrance examination ended and the grades were awarded. Chu Han did well in the exam as expected.

??A few days before filling out the application for the college entrance examination, Gu Jiao ran to Chu Han's house to play. What to write on the volunteer form.

??He was playing the game console, poked his head, and saw Chu Han writing the name of B University on the volunteer without hesitation.

?? Gu Jiao secretly looked behind for a long time, but Chu Han sat at the desk and didn't look back at him. Presumably, he didn't even take the question that day to heart.

?? At that time, Gu Jiao was the same as now. He was inevitably a little disappointed and sad, but in fact, he didn't have the right to be disappointed and sad.

?? Why do universities have to be together?There is no important person, and there is no irreplaceable relationship.

?? Why do you have to act with him?

?? Gu Jiao recalled that before they left Director Wang Cheng's house, Wang Cheng said to him confidently, "I believe you will be able to convince him."

?? How can he believe it?

??Gu Jiao himself didn't believe it.

??Many people think that they are in love together, and this is due to Gu Jiao's efforts to create this illusion outside.

?? But in fact, only he himself knows that they have been on the shore all the time, or that Chu Han has been on the shore all the time.

??Looking at the collar of Chu Han's tightly buttoned shirt, Gu Jiao saw half a hickey on the edge that couldn't be concealed.

?? You see, even if Chu Han can hold hands with him at night like a pair of real lovers, indulge himself into him and kiss him, but when he wakes up from the dream, he can still say such words.

??He still doesn't think there is anything wrong with this remark!

?? Well, in fact, Gu Jiao himself didn't think there was anything wrong with what he said, but in an instant, Gu Jiao suddenly understood something.

?? So useless tears burst out.

??Gu Jiao couldn't control his trembling, and looked at Chu Han in disbelief, you are such a person.

?? After Chu Han finished speaking, he felt that his tone was too harsh, but he didn't know how to redeem it.

??When his gaze touched the bottom of Gu Jiao's eyes, Chu Han still panicked.

??Gu Jiao's eyes contained despair, unwillingness, and humiliation. These complex emotions were finally wetted by tears into extreme grievance and grief.

??Chu Han was about to explain something when he heard Gu Jiao crying and shouting: "You don't love me at all! You're just greedy for my body!

??When you need me at night, just 'Jiaojiao Qingjiaojiao', and when you don't need me, ask me why I have to be with you! ! "

??Chu Han: "..."

??Gu Jiao roared like a tiger: "Ask me why, why! What for why!!

??I just want to act with you! !I just want to be with you!you are mine!I can sleep with you, why can't I act with you? ! ?”

??Chu Han: "..."

?? Gu Jiao felt that he was only deceived in the past, but now he is deceiving both his heart and body!

?? Sure enough, men do not have a good thing!

?? He cried until he was crying, and then when he thought that he could cry so ugly, and that Chu Han saw his ugly appearance, he cried even more sadly.

?? Gu Jiao continued to growl while wiping away tears: "Chu Han! You have no heart!!!"

??Chu Han: "..."

??Chu Han didn't even know how to explain it.

??He really isn't... Really isn't eating up and refusing to admit it...

??The so-called don't want to act with Gu Jiao, just don't want Gu Jiao to act. It should be said that no one wants Gu Jiao to act.

??Actually, a long time ago, Gu Jiao almost came into contact with this industry.

?? At that time, the Gu Group had just established the Sunshine Company. Well, it was a company, but the original intention was to set up a studio dedicated to taking pictures of Gu Jiao.

??The Gu family likes to study photography in their spare time. When they have a venue, they like to take pictures of Gu Jiao, such as daily photos, artistic photos, and various festival commemorative photos.

??Parents love their son, so naturally they feel good everywhere, not only feel good for themselves, but also hope that others will feel good too.

??So the Gu family couple made the young Gu Jiao the image spokesperson of the Gu Group as if to show off, so that Gu Jiao's childish smiling face rolled on the light screens of several buildings 24 hours a day.

??Gu Jiao accepted interviews, photographed magazine covers, and almost acted.

??At that time, to outsiders, Gu Jiao was still a soft and sweet little boy who laughed before saying anything.

?? He always looks good when he smiles, with curved eyebrows and eyes, innocent and brilliant, like a little prince who doesn't know the world.

?? But the little prince does not live in a fairy tale. In the world he lives in, evil and darkness spread where the sun does not shine.

??On an ordinary evening, Uncle Liu didn't pick up Gu Jiao after school.

?? He was kidnapped.

??All the young masters in the circle have been threatened in real or false ways, but the only one who was really kidnapped was Gu Jiao.

??Because his photos are very clear and easy to recognize.

??Because he is very simple and easy to deceive.

??Because the Gu family valued him very much, he could exchange a lot of money.

??…

??The love of the Gu family and the kindness of Gu Jiao have become reasons to hurt him.

??In a sense, the innocence and wanton and fearless kindness brought out by pampering are the irony of the existence of sloppy and dirty.

?? And human nature has the malice of trampling on innocence.

?? After receiving the news, when Chu Han rushed to the hospital, he only saw the Gu family couple crying until they almost passed out, the doctors and nurses rushing with various instruments, and a bloody bed sheet that had been replaced.

?? Gu Jiao's pain is seven times that of ordinary people.

?? What is the concept?

?? He grew up with matching size knee pads and wrists.

?? When he walks on the road, he must always pay attention to the stones and treetops. His skin is very thin, and it will break if it is knocked, and it will bleed when it is scraped.

?? He always cries, when he is sad, especially when he is in pain, because the doctor suggested to shed tears to give him a sense of pain relief.

??…

??Chu Han thought a lot outside the operating room.

??Then the doctor came out and told them that Gu Jiao's eyes might go blind if exposed to strong light for a long time.

??Even if he saved his eyes, there is no doubt that he will not be able to bear even slightly stronger sunlight in the future.

??What happened to Gu Jiao, Chu Han didn't know, and didn't want to know.

??The whole matter was suppressed, and Gu Jiao lay pale on the hospital bed for five months.

??From late autumn to early spring, when the dead leaves withered and the new branches turned green, Gu Jiao was silent, and then slowly recovered, showing a smiling face again.

??He is very young and can selectively forget the terrible memories.

??But Chu Han couldn't.

??Chu Han will always remember the knife marks on Gu Jiao's body, and the finger-wide white cloth that covered Gu Jiao's eyes for several months.

?? He will always remember how he felt when he saw the scarlet blood stains on the bed... It is not an exaggeration to say that his heart hurts like a knife.