We who can't be heroes [Comprehensive]

Sakuya didn't expect that when she said this sentence, her tone was unexpectedly calm, just like when she told Awashima about her sister yesterday, she thought she couldn't say it, but she didn't expect to say it. Simpler things than imagined.

Seeing Fushimi looking at him inexplicably, Sakuya lowered his head: "I'm sorry, Fushimi-senpai, I asked questions that I shouldn't have asked, and even said something inexplicable."

Alas, originally I just wanted to test whether the relationship with Fushimi-senpai had become a little closer, but it turned out to be on the verge of angering him repeatedly, Nanase Sakuya, you are really courageous.

Fushimi said bluntly: "Should I ask, anyway, you have finished asking, and I have answered you, but you, don't say something that tantalizes your appetite. The director told you yesterday, too. One party also has the opportunity to ask for forgiveness, with an inscrutable expression, does the room chief know?"

"Ah, no, I don't know," Sakuya was also a little confused, "So far I have only told the deputy chief about my sister, and I haven't told anyone else about anything else." She said sullenly, "I just Reporting to the head of the department is enough, and I am a little scared to face him in private, let alone tell him about my private affairs."

"Then why..."

"But President Fukuzawa knows," Sakuya answered Fushimi's doubts, "so, the director should have heard about it from President Fukuzawa."

Taking out the terminal to check the time, Fushimi said to Sakuya: "There are still ten minutes, can you finish?"

"Eh?" Sakuya was a little confused, "What do you mean?"

"I told you not to say anything that would make you want to eat." Fushimi pushed his glasses, "Hurry up and finish talking, and then go back to the garrison."

Seeing the familiar impatient expression on Fushimi's face, Sakuya smiled for some reason, then nodded under Fushimi's puzzled and unhappy gaze: "Yes, I will try to finish it in concise words .”

Finding an alley that no one passed by, Sakuya leaned against the wall, put his hand on the handle of the saber, and said to Fushimi in a very flat tone: "I am just the opposite of Fushimi-senpai. I have a To my parents who love me very much.”

With his knees bent and stepping back on the wall, Fushimi squinted at Sakuya: "Don't attack me personally when you talk about yourself, tsk."

"I do not have it!"

"I said there will be," Fushimi urged impatiently, "Okay, keep talking, don't talk about irrelevant nonsense."

"Yes," Sakuya nodded, and continued after organizing the language, "I am a family of four, and I have an older sister, who is one year older than me, and her name is...Sakura."

Fushimi frowned: "Your name is Sakuya, and your sister's name is Sakura?" Fushimi intuited that the stalemate between Sakuya and her parents should be related to her sister, otherwise when she was asked about her sister by Hidaka last time, There will be no such uncomfortable reactions.

"Well. My sister and I also look alike. The age difference of one year can't be seen after four or five years old. So when we were young, we wore the same clothes when we went out, and it was not the case that others regarded them as twins It didn't happen." Sakuya clenched the handle of the knife tightly, "But our personalities are not alike at all. My sister has been a gentle and kind person since she was a child, and she is very good to everyone, no matter who does something excessive to her , she will not be angry. But she is very timid, and she will cry in fright when she sees small bugs, let alone kill them. I am different. When I was young, I was very naughty and had a bad temper. I had a fight with my current best friend, that is, when I was young, when we met for the first time. Except for my parents and sister who tolerated me unconditionally, no one else could do anything about my bad temper. The worst thing a servant fears is to take me."

Fushimi raised his eyebrows in surprise: "I can't tell." Isn't this a completely different personality from now?How did she become what she is now?

"Right?" Sakuya couldn't help smiling, and continued, "But the biggest difference between me and my sister is not in character. The biggest difference between the two of us is that I am a person with personality, and I sister, who has neither personality nor

No supernatural powers, just a completely ordinary person.Having a personality means that you can take the hero license test and become a professional hero in the future.So when I was young, I would think, I was born to protect my sister. My sister has no personality and is very weak, so I want to be a hero and protect my sister.This is partly the reason why I had a bad temper when I was a child. If everyone knew that I was very fierce, they would not dare to bully my sister, because I would definitely bully her back. "

Fushimi didn't speak, but just stared at Sakuya intently, waiting for her to continue talking.

But at this time, Sakuya asked Fushimi: "Senior Fushimi, the famous Fushimi family, is it your family?" Seeing Fushimi nodded reluctantly, Sakuya asked again, "Then you When you were young, were you ever kidnapped because of this identity?"

"No," Fumi replied indifferently, "only thieves have entered the house. Have you ever been kidnapped?"

"Well." Sakuya nodded, "Because my father is rich, my sister and I were kidnapped. At that time, my sister and I were still in elementary school, and my sister was about to graduate. In three months, she can I became a junior high school student. But when school was over that day, our car was hijacked, and my sister and I were taken away by the kidnappers.”

Probably uncovering the painful scars, Sakuya's voice trembled slightly: "Those kidnappers didn't want to ask my father for money by kidnapping me and my sister, but wanted to kill us To avenge him. My sister has always been very timid, but that day she held me in her arms and kept comforting me, telling me not to be afraid. Actually, I was not afraid. At that time, I naively thought that I was going to be a hero , I can protect my sister. I promised her to be her hero."

Fushimi didn't realize that he was acting as a qualified listener.He could already guess the direction of the next thing, but he didn't interrupt Sakuya's words.

"My father called the police when he knew we were kidnapped. When the kidnappers were about to attack us, the police arrived. The kidnappers investigated our family's situation very clearly. He knew that I have personality and my sister has no personality, so he I feel that I am a little more valuable than my sister." With a tight chest, Sakuya took a deep breath and continued after calming down, "The kidnapper pointed a gun at me. When I was about to shoot, my sister suddenly shot at me. He rushed over, but the bullet missed and hit the ceiling. The police had already arrived at that time. After hearing the gunshots, they thought we were killed, so they rushed in. But some of the kidnappers have the kind of personality that can move in space , they were able to flee the scene in an instant, and when they left... they took my sister away. I was saved, I was saved by my sister, but my sister's whereabouts have been unknown since then. My father used all his connections, but nothing Find her." The expression became sad, and Sakuya said helplessly, "Later, my parents also gave up, and everyone agreed that my sister was no longer in this world."

Fushimi had an idea of ​​wanting to comfort her, but he didn't know how to say it.He knew that Sakuya hadn't finished speaking, so he simply remained silent, waiting for her to continue.

"The relationship between my parents and I became delicate from that time on. After I knew the reason why the kidnappers kidnapped us, I thought it was all my father's fault. It was he who caused me and my sister to be kidnapped. Then I thought, My father is not wrong, the world of capitalists is cruel. I began to resent myself, because I was not strong enough, so I failed to protect my sister and let her be taken away by those people. At that time, I realized clearly, no You can be a hero if you have a personality. I'm the one who can't be a hero."

Is that why she's not going to be a professional hero?

The story hasn't been finished yet, so Sakuya continued: "After being rescued home, I asked my parents every day, did I find my sister, when will my sister come back? It's already March, and it will be April soon My sister's birthday is in April. I also prepared gifts for her and wanted to help her celebrate her entrance into school. I asked every day, pretending not to understand the sadness and pain on the faces of my parents, until one day, my mother He hugged me and said, 'Sister won't come back, mom only has you'."

"I locked myself in the house and it took me a long time to accept that my sister was not coming back. After that, everyone became wary of me and they didn't mention it.

Sister, even things related to the pronunciation of my sister's name are avoided as much as possible.Mom and Dad locked the room where my sister lived, and no one was allowed to enter, and changed my room from the one next to my sister to the third floor.Everything they did was as if there had never been a sister in the world. "

"Like I said, I have a pair of parents who love me very much. Losing a daughter is a heavy blow to them. They gave me all their love, but the pervasive care made me breathless .My mother was afraid that something would happen to me. She forbade me to have the idea of ​​being a hero. She didn’t even give me a chance to tell her that I had given up. I might as well drop out of school, anyway, I can hire a tutor at home."

Fushimi, who has never felt love from his parents, couldn't understand what Sakuya said: "Aren't you driven crazy?"

"Come on, I was really about to collapse at that time. I was only 11 years old at that time, and I couldn't bear that much pressure." Sakuya said with a wry smile, "So I became very silent and completely accepted the arrangements of my parents. , I thought, this is fine, as long as I am obedient, our family can maintain a superficial peace. But I asked myself, is this really good? Even if I can’t be a hero, at least there is something I can do thing?"

"The pressure from my parents and the torture I had on myself almost made me schizophrenic. It was at that time that my personality changed drastically. Later, my grandpa came. He accused my parents and took me away. He Said, 'You don't have to be a hero, you just have to do what you want to do, and then think about what you can do.'" Burying his face in the palms of his hands, Sakuya said helplessly after being silent for a while, " But I don't have anything to do, I can only try to do everything well, I think, as long as I am good enough, I will always find a place that needs me. I bury my sister's matter in my heart, in the Under the guidance of my grandfather, I started to study and live again. But I didn’t know how to face my parents. At that time, I was young, and I felt that escaping was the best solution. Whether it was my sister or my parents, as long as I didn’t face it, things would be fine. It was as if nothing had happened. It happened that I was about to enter junior high school, so I chose a boarding school far away from home, and I stayed at the school on weekends or holidays. When I had to go home, I went to my grandpa. home." She looked up at Fushimi, "I have never seen my parents since I entered junior high school. They know that I don't want to see them, so they won't come to me. The initiative has always been in my hands , but I have never used it. That's why, the director will say, I am the one who gave up."

When hearing what Sakuya said here, Fushimi felt that he seemed to understand something about her.I accept the work arrangement completely, and I can do it perfectly even though I don't have much energy.And on the day she joined the job, she heard from Munakata what President Fukuzawa said about her, "The only trouble is that I can't find my position."

"Since you have given up on the idea of ​​becoming a hero, why do you still want to take the test for Xiongying?" Fushimi asked, "Isn't that school difficult? Why don't you go to an ordinary high school?"

"I was very entangled at the time," Sakuya replied after thinking seriously, "because after I went to junior high school, I used my personality to repair many things, especially, once, the maid at home accidentally broke Grandpa's favorite I helped her fix the vase, and she kept thanking me, which made me think that my personality might still be useful. If I went to Xiongying, maybe someone would tell me what I should do. But I didn’t think about it at the time. Whether I want to go or not is decided by the envoy for me." Seeing Fushimi squinting her eyes, she explained, "I was young, and he made me worry about others. He said, don't do things that you will regret, that's the way to go." Let me make up my mind to apply for Xiongying."

"Since then embarked on a patchy road of no return?"

"Well... that's right."

"If you want to fix something, you can fix it anywhere," Fushimi folded his hands on his chest, "Why do you feel that you can't find your place?" Seeing Sakuya looking at herself in surprise, Fushimi said, " Don't look at me, the director said that President Fukuzawa told him."

"How should I put it?" Sakuya scratched his head, "I don't know, because I'm still very confused about my life. I can't do anything well, I can only do my best

it is good. "

"You've done a great job."

"Is Fushimi-senpai trying to comfort me?"

"It's up to you to understand it." Looking at the time, Fushimi clicked his tongue, "Tsk, I told you to hurry up and go back to the village, and it's already past lunch time."

Sakuya looked at Fushimi with wide eyes, and asked in surprise: "Did I say so much?!" No wonder my mouth felt dry!

"Don't you realize it yourself?" Fushimi sighed, put his hands in his pants pockets and walked out of the alley, "I really don't know how you have the face to say that I talk too much today."

"Didn't Senior Fushimi say that I talk a lot more than when I first joined Scepter4?" Sakuya pursed her lips, but still caught up with Fushimi.Not long after walking, seeing Fushimi suddenly stop, she was a little puzzled, "What's wrong, Fushimi-senpai?"

Fushimi didn't say anything, just walked to the vending machine on the side of the road, put coins in it and bought two bottles of water.He threw one of the bottles to Sakuya, opened the other bottle and drank it himself.

Holding the bottle of water in both hands, Sakuya pursed his lips, and said sincerely to Fushimi: "Thank you, Fushimi-senpai, it's good to listen to me a lot, and it's good to buy water for me. grateful."

"Let's go, go back."

"Ah."

From the corner of his eyes, he caught a glimpse of Sakuya after drinking the water and screwing the bottle cap, Fushimi asked: "You said today that you suddenly figured out something when you were on vacation yesterday, is that what you mean?"

"Hey, did Fushimi-senpai listen to me?"

"Tsk, answer my question."

"Oh yes, um, that's right," Sakuya tilted his head, "I just want to understand that I have been avoiding this all the time, and I feel that I can't continue like this. Although I don't know what to do, but... Maybe I should Let's go home first. Where is Senior Fushimi?" Sakuya approached Fushimi, looking at him with probing eyes.

"Tsk, I'm different from you. I'm the one who was abandoned." Fushimi said impatiently, "So I don't need to escape, let alone face anything. If you go back to the cafeteria, you won't even have leftovers. , are you going to make me hungry?"

Sakuya curled her lips: "But isn't Senior Fushimi very picky eater? Anyway, I only eat a little, and it's no different from being hungry, right? Don't refute me, we all say in private every day that Senior Fushimi is picky eater again today. .”

"Is this the way you talk to seniors?"

"I think we have a good relationship, so you can say that!"

Zhou Fang's words floated in his ears, and Sakuya wanted to ask Fushimi, did it get better after leaving Barbara and joining Scepter4, but if it was Fushimi, Sakuya could even imagine his answer: it was just from a bad place Moved to a less bad place, both were bad if anything.

Will get such an answer?

"Ah, this statement is really infuriating." Fushimi glared at Sakuya, and walked forward with his head sullen angrily, but Sakuya suddenly ran and didn't stop after chasing Fushimi.

"As long as I run fast enough, Senior Fushimi won't be able to eat any leftovers!"

"...Are you the devil? Stop it! Hey, do you hear me? Stop it!"

Although the two of them didn't catch up with the lunch time in the cafeteria, everyone in the secret service team knew that although Fushimi was a little more casual, he would not tell them whether he came back to eat or ate outside, but Sakuya did not.Since she didn't tell them that she was going to eat out, she should be back. As for when she will come back, it's unknown.

In order to prevent them from having nothing to eat when they came back to eat, the secret service team asked the aunt in the cafeteria to leave a copy for each of them.Seeing two people coming in, the cafeteria aunt greeted them with a smile: "Oh, you two are finally back."

"Is there any food left, Auntie?" Sakuya clutched his stomach, "I'm so hungry."

"Yes," said the aunt cordially, "I'm going to heat it up for you now."

, your colleague said that the two of you might come later and asked me to leave a meal for you.Wait a little longer. "

"Okay, sorry for the inconvenience, Auntie—"

The two of them were leaning against the window and waiting for their meal. Fushimi was idly swiping the terminal when he suddenly heard his aunt nagging, "I said, you two, did you really have a good meal?" Taking a look at Fushimi, the auntie He said reproachfully, "I know, it's you, you've always been a picky eater, and you never eat vegetables."

Fushimi was a little confused.Why did the aunt in the cafeteria remember his picky eating?He glanced at Sakuya, and saw that she was shrugging her shoulders and suppressing a smile. She was glared at by Fushimi, and she hurriedly waved her hand to explain: "I didn't say that, I swear!"

"You too." The aunt did not let Sakuya go, "The little girl eats a lot at home, how come she never grows meat?" She said worriedly, "Oh, you said you can eat three bowls at noon every day Rice, why are you still thinner than when you first came here? I know that little girls love beauty, but you can't ignore your health just to lose weight."

Auntie, I’m not, I don’t have——

Fushimi looked at Sakuya with a half-smile: "Three bowls of rice."

Sakuya turned his face away with an expression of not wanting to face it: "I'm really not a pig, rice is just needed. Auntie, I didn't lose weight, I just consumed more."

"Is your head mistreating you?"

"No, there really isn't one."

"Oh." The auntie sighed, and then put a big chicken drumstick on each of the two people's dinner plates as if by magic, "Let's make a small stove for the two of you, don't let others know."

Fushimi's expression suddenly became a little complicated.Such a big chicken leg... I can't finish it.

Sakuya said with a smile: "Thank you, auntie, you are so beautiful today! Did you use a new lipstick? This color suits you so well!" The roasted chicken legs had an attractive fragrance, just by smelling it , Sakuya's stomach began to growl.

The aunt was praised by Sakuya, and she said with a smile on her face: "You are the only one with a sweet mouth. Well, let's go eat." When Sakuya and Fushimi left with the plate, they heard the aunt say again, "Oh, the child now , I have to come out to earn money to support my family at such a young age, it's really hard, I can't eat well, poor thing."

The two looked at each other, and neither of them spoke. The two slipped to the corner with their plates, sat down and began to eat.Seeing Fushimi skillfully picking out the vegetables from the dish, Sakuya shook his head: "Oh, Fushimi-senpai is also picky today."

Glancing at Sakuya quickly, Fushimi said bluntly, "I want you to take care of it."

"Tsk."

"Don't imitate me." Pointing at Sakuya's bowl of rice, Fushimi said sarcastically, "Your bowl can match three bowls of others, right?"

"Senior Fushimi is attacking me personally!"

"Tsk, three bowls of rice."

"It's too much—"