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PTSD,? Also called post-traumatic stress disorder.It refers to a type of stress-related disorder that appears delayed after the individual experiences or witnesses the actual death or serious injury of himself or others.

Ji Meng once acted as a PTSD patient, so she made a special effort to learn more about it. The clinical manifestations of PTSD are repeated traumatic re-experiences, avoidance of related events, excessive anxiety, and sleep disturbances.

Jing Xuan said: "At that time, I was too young. My mother's death had a great impact on me. In the month after her death, I had nightmares almost every night. In my dreams, my mother looked like she was dying. In that month, I almost lost my ability to speak, and I began to be afraid of contacting others. My dad was afraid that something might happen to me, so he stayed by my side every step of the way. Afterwards, I was treated in the hospital for a year before my condition improved."

After Jing Xuan recovered from his illness, Jing Yi was worried that he would be in love with the scene, so he sold his house in City A and took him back to his hometown in the south to live.Jing Yi's hometown is in a small county town along the coast, where life is peaceful, the neighbors are harmonious, without the hustle and bustle of big cities, leisurely,? Gradually,? Jing Xuan's condition is completely healed by the warm spring breeze in the south.

It took Jing Xuan two years to finally calmly accept the fact that his mother died in front of him,? But he still didn't dare to think of Tong Yao.After entering high school, Jing Yi confessed his life experience to him, and told him that if he wanted to go back to his biological father, he could go back.It turned out that Xu Xinting knew that Jing Xuan was his child early on. Since Tong Yao's death, he had contacted Jing Yi many times, saying that he wanted to bring his son back to him to raise him himself.But Jingxuan attributed her mother's depression to Xu Xinting. He felt that he killed her mother. Not only did she refuse to go back, but she was full of resentment towards him, saying that she would never see him in this life, let alone recognize him.

Jing Yi originally thought that after this incident, Jing Xuan would try his best to avoid the showbiz, but on the eve of the college entrance examination, he told him that he wanted to take the art examination and that he wanted to inherit his mother's behest.

Perhaps there is no one in this world who loves acting more than Tong Yao. Although she died in acting in the end, Jing Xuan knows that her mother has never regretted choosing this path.

He is Tong Yao's child, Tong Yao's blood flows in his body, and his deep love for art is engraved in his bones.

Thus, after eight years of disappearance, the smash hit child star Jingxuan was admitted to the Film Academy with the first grade in his major, and returned to the audience's sight.Not long after that, Ming Yi signed a contract as a student at school, officially entering the entertainment industry.In the first half semester of his freshman year, he starred in his first idol drama, which became popular all over the country as soon as it aired, and became the ratings champion of the year.

After that, Jingxuan's career developed like a bamboo shoot, and he starred in many TV dramas, all of which received good word-of-mouth ratings.In the early days of development, Jing Xuan was not as low-key as he is now. The company also took over many variety shows for him, and even participated in one or two reality shows. But from a certain day, he suddenly disappeared. Except for promoting new plays, No longer participate in any activities.

At that time, because it was too abnormal at this time, a kind of media reported it extensively and speculated about the reasons.But the truth has never been revealed.

"Do you know that I participated in a reality show before?" Jing Xuan asked Ji Meng, "A show about wild adventures."

Ji Meng nodded: "I know. Later, after I met you, I searched it out and watched it. You only participated in three rounds and quit halfway. I didn't watch it after you left."

"That's right, I only participated in three episodes, but in fact I signed for the whole season," Jing Xuan took out a photo album again, and turned to the first page. There was only one photo in it, which was Jing Xuan and a strange boy It seems that the group photo was taken during the interval of playing basketball. Jing Xuan is holding a basketball in his arms. Both of them are sweating profusely, but they are smiling happily.It looks like he should be in his early twenties, still at the age of college.

Ji Meng's first reaction when he saw this photo was that he was a little unhappy, because he had never seen Jing Xuan behave so intimately with anyone. They hooked shoulders and backs, and the sportswear was still the same style and different colors.But now he didn't dare to be jealous in this situation, so he suppressed all his dissatisfaction and quietly listened to Jing Xuan's continuation.

"This boy is Mo Yaoyang, a good friend of mine in college. He is from the photography department. In his junior year, he found a job as an intern photographer in a program group. That program was the reality show I participated in. .”

Ji Meng raised her head in surprise, with a vague premonition in her heart.Jing Xuan said that this person is his best friend, but he has been with him for so long but he has never seen this person, and he has never even heard him mention it.Thinking of this, he vaguely had a not-so-good guess in his heart.

Sure enough, what Jing Xuan said afterwards confirmed his conjecture.

"The recording location of the third episode was in a deserted mountain in the southwest. Yaoyang was my follow-up filmer and followed me all the time. Everything was going well that day, but it rained heavily just when the filming was about to end. The guide said that the torrential rain in the mountain would last for a few days at once, and it would get bigger and bigger, so we should hurry down the mountain. So the director urgently organized an evacuation. At that time, Yaoyang and I were far away from the accompanying director, so we fell at the end. On the way to the meeting point, Yaoyang stumbled and fell into the river in order to pick up the camera. The river was actually not deep, but no one expected that there would be a mountain torrent."

The mountain torrent is like the flood that has released the sluice. It slopes down from the top of the mountain, and the river doubles in height in the blink of an eye.The rapid flood roared like a ferocious beast, and the sound was creepy.A wave hit, and Mo Yaoyang was sucked into the bottom just as his head emerged.

"Yaoyang!" Jing Xuan hissed.

The accompanying director was so frightened that he covered his mouth and screamed.Before Jing Xuan had time to think about it, he took out the rope from his backpack, tied one end to the tree trunk and the other to his waist, and carefully approached Mo Yaoyang in the middle of the water.

The flowing water was fast and fierce, like a sharp knife, as if it was going to cut Jing Xuan in half.The splashing water blurred his eyes, and the dirty water mixed with mud made him unable to open his eyes, but he clenched his teeth and dared not let go.

"Hurry up!" Jing Xuan tightly grasped Mo Yaoyang with one hand and the rope on his body with the other, trying in vain to pull his exhausted friend back.

At this time, the accompanying director who was overly frightened finally woke up and turned on the calling machine in a panic to ask for help.Jing Xuan faintly heard the noisy personnel coming from the pager, and he couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief, comforting his friend: "Hold on, someone will come to rescue us soon."

Mo Yaoyang nodded feebly, a glimmer of hope finally appeared in his desperate heart, but the next second his face changed again, and he looked in panic at a piece of wood floating from upstream.The cut wood is huge, if it is hit, it will definitely be injured.Mo Yaoyang watched the cut log getting closer and came straight towards them, but Jing Xuan didn't notice it because his eyes were closed, so he was anxious and let go of Jing Xuan suddenly, but he didn't know where it came from. With a strong push, Jing Xuan was pushed back to the bank, but he was hit hard by the cut log, fainted, and was instantly swept to the bottom of the river by the current.

"Yaoyang! Yaoyang!" Seeing his friend disappearing in front of his eyes, Jing Xuan's eyes were about to burst, and he wanted to go into the water to search again, but was stopped by the rushing staff.

After that, Jing Xuan passed out due to exhaustion, and when he woke up, he was already in the hospital in the urban area.

"What about your friend?" Ji Meng asked very carefully.

Jing Xuan's eyes dimmed a bit, and he shook his head: "At the end of that river is a ten-meter-high waterfall."

Mo Yaoyang died, but because the show had just started broadcasting, the producer could only keep the matter low-key for the sake of ratings. They gave Mo Yaoyang's parents a large sum of pension and sealed it up, and ordered the group not to allow any further events. Mention, so this matter has not been exposed so far.And Jing Xuan quit the show after Mo Yaoyang's death, and refused to participate in any program activities after that.

Ji Meng sighed regretfully, and silently hugged Jing Xuan's shoulder.

Jing Xuan adjusted his sitting posture, leaned against Ji Meng's arms, put all his strength on him, took his hand and continued: "Yaoyang's death triggered my PTSD again, this time the condition is worse than It was worse last time, I started to lose appetite, suffered from insomnia all night, and even wanted to commit suicide." He rolled up his sleeves, revealing the scar again, "This scar was made at that time."

Ji Meng stretched out her hand to hold his wrist: "The first time I met you in University A, you..."

"It was not long after I attempted to cut my wrist, and the gauze was not even removed when I played the piano."

"Then you still play the piano!" Ji Meng glared at him unhappily, "Why doesn't your manager look at you?"

Jing Xuan smiled slightly: "It's actually not serious, the cut is not deep, it's just a little skin trauma."

Ji Meng was obviously dissatisfied with this answer, she pursed her lips and snorted perfunctorily, and asked again: "What about now? Are you cured?"

"It's gone, through medication and psychological intervention, it's gone now," Jing Xuan explained, "but around the death day of my mother and Yaoyang, my mood will still become uncontrollably depressed, and the insomnia is also caused by the age. It has become a habit, and I can only rely on sleeping pills or alcohol to fall asleep. But that was before I met you."

Ji Meng twitched the corners of her mouth, showing a smile uglier than crying, and lowered her head to kiss his face.

Jing Xuan raised his head and took the initiative to kiss him on the lips, stroked his cheek, and asked with a smile: "Do you still remember that you played a PTSD patient?"

Ji Meng nodded, and then she was very surprised: "You know?" It was the first time he acted seriously, although it was only a small supporting role with less than 5 minutes of appearance and only one line, but his first film in the true sense In order to play that role well, he read all the books related to PTSD.

Jing Xuan nodded: "The second PTSD treatment process was much longer than the first one, and it took me three full years to completely cure it. During these three years, my thoughts of suicide appeared more than once, but I actually I don't want to die at all, I just can't control my emotions. Until that day, I saw you on TV, the character you played."

In that movie, Ji Meng plays a person whose birth is unknown. He is like a child cursed by fate. Anyone related to him will die in the end. At first, his parents died in an air crash, and then he died accidentally. His childhood playmate in gang fights, until his first love girlfriend died in a car accident, so he suffers from severe PTSD.The images of these people before they died always turned into scenes of horrible nightmares to torment him in the dead of night. They stretched out pairs of sinful hands, bewitching him to death, and accompanying them to sink.But he didn't want to die at all, so one day he held the doctor's hand tightly, looked at him helplessly, and kept repeating: "Help me, I don't want to die. I want to live."

At that moment, Ji Meng's words were like a ray of light shining into Jingxuan's dark world, driving away all the nightmares and letting him find the courage to live.

"It was you who saved me," Jing Xuan said. "At that time, my knife was already on my wrist, and I was about to cut it off for the second time. But because of you, I suddenly didn't want to die."

"Fortunately, fortunately." Ji Mengguang was terrified after hearing his description, and couldn't help hugging him tightly, "Fortunately, you are fine."

Jing Xuan hugged him back: "Well, luckily you showed up in time."

"Did you recognize me then?"

"I didn't recognize you at first. You are very good at acting, and you look very haggard. I didn't recognize you. Later, I saw your name when I saw the cast list."

"You've been following me since then?"

"Well, I thought you were just joking when you said you wanted to be an actor, so I was a little surprised to see you appearing on TV, and your acting skills were pretty good, so I paid attention."

Ji Meng continued with a smile: "Then gradually, you were attracted by my superb acting skills and handsome appearance, and finally fell in love with me irresistibly?"

Jing Xuan patted him on the cheek: "If you want to attract, you are also attracted by your shameless temperament."

"It doesn't matter," Ji Meng said indifferently, "as long as it makes you fall in love with me, I don't care what kind of temperament he is."

Jing Xuan pursed his lips and smiled, raised his head, and exchanged a long kiss with him.After a long time, his lips parted, and he looked at Ji Meng: "Now, you already know all my secrets, is there anything else you want to ask?"

Ji Meng shook her head, bit his nose, and said vaguely: "I don't want to talk, I want to do it."

"What are you thinking?" Jing Xuan suspected for a moment that he was hallucinating.

But Ji Meng carried him directly to the upstairs bedroom, and said a tongue twister solemnly: "We, Jingxuan, must be very unhappy now, so let's do something happy to make you happy."

Jing Xuan hammered his back, helplessly said: "Stop making trouble, Dad will come back anytime."

"It's okay, Dad is someone who has been there, he will understand us." After finishing speaking, Ji Meng raised her foot to hook the door, and then kicked it lightly, and the door closed.Walking to the side of the bed, he gently threw the person in his arms onto the bed, and then he rushed over like a hungry wolf.

"Well..." Just as Jing Xuan raised his upper body and was pressed back on the bed, the next second, Ji Meng's kiss came like a storm.

When he was unconscious, he heard Ji Meng whispering softly in his ear.

"Jingxuan, let me give you happiness from now on. From then on, there will be no pain or sorrow, only endless happiness and joy."

"I will love you well, love you with all my strength, my baby Yuanyuan."