I see the snow

After Qin Yi abolished Mu Ziling's qinggong, he never came again.

Mu Ziling lay on the cold and narrow bed, staring indifferently at the void in front of him.

It was cold in the house and there was no charcoal fire.Mu Ziling's fingers were freezing cold, but her legs were fine——

After all, he was unconscious.

Before Qin Yi left, he bandaged his wrists and knees, but at that moment Mu Ziling was covered in cold sweat, his consciousness was fuzzy, and he was panting like half-dead, so he had no memory at all.

It's just at the mercy of Qin Yi.

At night when no one came, he murmured and sang "When Will You Come Again".

Over and over again, the voice is low and tactful, like a raving in a dream.

But when he sang this little song in the past, although it was cold and indifferent, it was always full of friendship, like a proud young man waiting for the return of his sweetheart, walking forward proudly, while turning back step by step.

Now he sang again, but there was only dead silence in his voice.

It sounded in the dark night, like an elegy beside a pool of stagnant water.

"...Qingqing knows what I mean, ride the wind and walk slowly."

Mu Ziling seemed to have had an empty dream. He had been immersed in it for so long, and pursued and ran in vain. Until today, he finally woke up.

And how strange, when he thought of the first meeting with Qin Yi in the past, the handsome and heroic face of the young man in black always appeared in his mind.

Thinking about it now, I only remember the warmth of the bonfire in front of me, the aroma of fresh lotus seeds in my hands, and the smiling face looking at him gradually became blurred.

He is obsessed and persistent, is it because he never felt the care and warmth that night, or is it Qin Yi himself?

Mu Ziling thought quietly.

"A spring feast, a cup of green wine and singing again. Let Chen make three wishes again: first, I wish my husband a thousand years; second, I wish my concubine a long life;

The song that lingered in my ears when I was a child, and the back view that I always look forward to the arrival of something in the courtyard, Mu Ziling closed his eyes and laughed lowly, thinking:

How stupid, mother, there is no place for us in this world.

A shadow in the dark trying to chase the light is the most ridiculous thing in the world.

Mu Ziling was hungry for another two days.

He was drowsy and was about to die when a servant finally came to feed him.

"Mu... Mr. Mu."

The young man entered the door and stood by the door panel, looking at him timidly——

If rice could be fed to Mu Ziling in the air, he would definitely not want to get close.

The rumor that the neck of a drug delivery boy was suddenly crushed without warning has spread among the servants. Judging from the look on his face, the boy is obviously terrified of Mu Ziling.

Mu Ziling didn't have the energy to scare him, and he was very tired when he opened his eyes after a long time without water and rice.

The boy leaned his back against the door panel, dawdled for a long time, and glanced outside the door from the corner of his eye, as if something was urging him outside the door, finally mustered up the courage and moved towards Mu Ziling.

The former white-robed young man was already extremely weak, the servant lifted his neck, put a few soft pillows behind him, and then clumsily brought water to Mu Ziling's lips.

However, Mu Ziling had the will to die long ago, and he couldn't even feed him with water.

With just one mouthful, he choked and coughed, and his pale face was flushed red.

The boy was taken aback, put down the porcelain bowl in a hurry, and wiped the water stains on Mu Ziling's body with a cloth lapel.

But in a hurry, my elbow touched the food on the table again, and it fell to the ground with a "crash".

"Master Mu...Master Mu!"

The little servant panicked and hurriedly patted the rice grains that had spilled on his quilt.

However, Mu Ziling did not move, as if he was on the verge of death, unable to respond to any external stimuli.

The little servant was flustered, but luckily he brought several servings - just in case Mu Ziling lost his temper and dropped the food.

"Master Mu, take a bite."

The servant brought the spoon to Mu Ziling's lips again, almost praying: "If you don't eat, the king will punish me."

Mu Ziling sounded funny, and couldn't help but sarcastically thought that this boy probably didn't know his character.

In the past, he would kill someone when he was unhappy, how could he force himself to eat now because "the king will punish him"?

Mu Ziling didn't even look at him, and after being annoyed for a long time, he frowned extremely weakly, and uttered the word "scroll" in annoyance.

The boy had a bitter expression on his face, he didn't know what to do, he was at a loss when the door was pushed open, and a person who had been waiting outside came in.

"……Kings."

The little servant immediately had a face full of surprise, and knelt down to him: "I have seen the king."

Qin Yi didn't even look at the boy, and said in a calm voice, "Back off."

The servant immediately withdrew with relief, leaving behind Qin Yi and Mu Ziling.

Qin Yi stood where he was, looked at Mu Ziling expressionlessly for a while, and then slowly walked to his bedside.

He stroked Mu Ziling's eyebrows, eyes and bridge of nose with his eyes, and finally stopped on his bloodless lips.

Abolishing the light work will bring great harm to the body, not only the pain at that moment, but also the invisible muscle damage.

Like Mu Ziling who hasn't eaten all the time, he can't say when he will fall asleep and never wake up again.

Qin Yi picked up the bowl, casually put a spoonful of food to Mu Ziling's lips, and said flatly:

"Have a meal."

Mu Ziling closed his eyes and didn't even look at him. His pale cheeks avoided the spoon and leaned deeper into the quilt.

Qin Yi raised his elbow and smiled indifferently when he saw this.

He threw the spoon back into the bowl, and said casually, "Mu Ziling, you should know that you are just a substitute here."

"When Gu is happy, I will give you a bite to eat. If you are not happy, Gu Gu will not frown even if you starve to death."

"For the sake of having been with Gu for so long, Gu will reward you with a roll of summer mat, wrap it up and throw it into the mass grave. Dogs gnaw and birds peck, no matter whether you are the most handsome young master Yin, the handsome Yun No matter Prince Yan, it’s nothing more than that.”

Qin Yi said with a smile: "Do you think you will be sad when you die? I don't even bother to look at you."

"..."

Qin Yi stared at Mu Ziling's cheek, and spoke bluntly and happily, but when he saw Mu Ziling's unruffled face, he felt bored and irritable for no reason.

After a while, he slammed the bowl on the table and said in a hateful voice, "Speak!"

Mu Ziling didn't even lift his eyelids, just closed his eyes like that, and said in a hoarse voice: "From here to Shen Xingtai, it will take ten hours at a fast pace."

"Hurry up and send me there, I don't have time to die."

"..."

Qin Yi was choked so hard that he clenched his fists and said, "It's not that cheap for you. I'll pay for your life when Gui Xie Xing appears."

"Don't be so demanding."

But Mu Ziling said: "Mu Huai'an and I have the same mother, and the chance of success in changing houses is more than [-]%. It doesn't matter if there is a photo with the evil star or not."

"If you want to live, you have to live, and if you want to die, you can die!"

Qin Yi gritted his teeth and said, "I told you earlier that the emperor's kindness is mighty, life and death are inevitable, why can't you remember!?"

Mu Ziling was indifferent, but thought with a low smile in his heart, sometimes it may be difficult for a person to live alone; but seeking death is always the easiest thing in the world.

No one can stop it.

"Don't you want to see Mu Huai'an soon?"

Mu Ziling finally opened his eyes, and looked at him flatly: "You have been begging for so long in exchange for him to come back, and finally this day has come, why don't you be in a hurry?"

This was just a sentence that Mu Ziling said casually, and it fell into Qin Yi's ears, but it seemed to hit his weakness.

That's right, from the moment he heard about Mu Huai'an's death, Qin Yi wanted to kill Mu Ziling before he could, and even thought about paying any price to get him back.

But today, seeing Mu Huai'an close at hand, he actually lingers.

He thought he must wait until the last day of the deadline, and let Mu Ziling live until the last day of the deadline.

But why?

It's not that Qin Yi hasn't thought about this question, but there seems to be a certain taboo in his heart. Every time he thinks about it, he can't help feeling flustered, as if he is about to face a fact that he can't bear at all.

"Gu will strangle you with his own hands when the time comes."

Qin Yi said, "But now, if Gu lets you eat, you have to feed Gu...!"

"The one who comes and goes when called is a dog."

Mu Ziling said softly.

His face was thin and white, his closed eyes and his weakly curled hands made Mu Ziling look extremely weak——

He is no longer the frivolous and willful son Yin he used to be.If it was a slightly rough road, I'm afraid it would be very difficult for him to even stand up now.

But for some reason, this kind of Mu Ziling showed an unprecedented ease and freedom, more like an uncatchable wind than before.

His appearance fell into Qin Yi's eyes, and a voice kept whispering in his ear: "...you are about to lose him, you are about to lose him!"

Qin Yi's eyes were red, and his fingers trembled involuntarily in his sleeves.

He stretched out his hand unconsciously, grabbed Mu Ziling's collar, and began to rip Mu Ziling's clothes indiscriminately.

"Lonely people don't care."

Qin Yi said in a low voice, as if speaking to himself: "I just use him as a stand-in!!"

Mu Ziling's hands were injured, and his legs didn't feel. He was rubbed round and flattened in Qin Yi's hands like a little beast with no power to fight back.

Qin Yi easily pulled off his clothes, dragged him over and kissed Mu Ziling's mole and collarbone.

"Hui'an... Huai'an."

While kissing, Qin Yi called Mu Huai'an's name.This is their usual routine when they first started their relationship.

But this time Mu Ziling didn't say a word, just closed his eyes tightly, without any previous fierce resistance.

Under the caress of Qin Yi's palm, his breathing was involuntarily disordered, and his throat choked slightly.

Qin Yi kissed Mu Ziling's collarbone all the way down, fanning the flames and not being able to resist.

Mu Ziling had no choice but to raise his head, with some tears in his eyes, he gasped urgently——

…………

Mu Ziling closed his eyes wearily.

He deliberately ignored all the tactile sensations on his body, as if separating his soul from his body, and only indifferently recalled how he got to this point.

The childhood of living under the fence, the youth of being coldly treated.

He desperately wanted to get out and escape, chasing that beam of light, but fled from one darkness into another.

He remembered the days when he was in Liang Palace, Qin Yi treated him badly, but he lived peacefully every day.

——Because he believes that one day, Qin Yi will see him.

He amazed everyone at the banquet hosted by Sheng Yanglai, and killed one person in one step on the battlefield where the two armies competed——

But what he got in the end was nothing more than Qin Yi's arrow piercing his wrist.

Back then, the sickly young man in white robe and white boots, with the scarlet snake king around his neck, who smiled and was world-famous, how did he fall into the current situation where he is involuntarily imprisoned on the bed...?

Looking at Mu Ziling's dull eyes, Qin Yi felt an indescribable restlessness in his heart.

Mu Ziling's hands were hanging limply on the edge of the bed, and he didn't make a sound. He used to think that Mu Ziling's body was too cold, like a corpse, but now he was really a "traitorous corpse".

"...Mu Ziling, look at Gu!!"

Qin Yi couldn't bear it anymore, Mu Ziling's behavior made him panic.

After a while of silence, he even softened and kissed the corner of Mu Ziling's lips like a dragonfly on water.

Mu Ziling's lips were cold and soft. He used to like Qin Yi to kiss him the most. Every time he kissed, whether he wanted it or not, there would be a secret change that Qin Yi couldn't describe, but he could see that he was very happy.

This time, he was indifferent.

Qin Yi casually grabbed a robe at hand, angrily threw it on Mu Ziling's face, covering his face——

Mu Ziling's expression at this time, every time he looked at it, it was as if his heart had been cut by a knife.

…………

It wasn't until the black blood seeped into the white robe, and a small dot appeared on the snow-white material, that Qin Yi suddenly realized that something was wrong.

As soon as he lifted the clothes, Mu Ziling's face was as pale as death, his eyes were tightly closed, from the corners of his lips to the roots of his ears, and even his neck was covered in blood.

"you……!"

At that moment, Qin Yi was really mad with anger, he raised his hand and wanted to hit Mu Ziling in the face, thinking that he was deliberately against him.

However, Mu Ziling didn't move at all, which was completely different from Qin Yi's desperate resistance when he went crazy in the past.

It seemed that even if the slap fell on his face, he would not have the slightest reaction.

Qin Yi's hand barely stopped in the air.

...that's not right.

This is not Mu Ziling, nor Mu Huai'an!

Qin Yi looked blankly at Mu Ziling who seemed to be dead, and suddenly felt that everything was meaningless.

He turned over and got off Mu Ziling's bed, wrapped his robe hastily, kicked open the door and walked out.

Inside the door, Mu Ziling was covered in filth, the blanket under his body was wrinkled, and his legs were still curled up weakly, not gathered.

Bare-exposed skin is cold.

It was pouring rain outside, but Qin Yi walked into the rain alone.

He looked at the layer of white mist stirred up by the rain on the ground, not knowing where he was going or where he should go.

"Hui'an... Huai'an."

He murmured absentmindedly, holding a piece of cold white jade pendant in his hand, and called Mu Huai'an's name in a low voice.

"why……"

Qin Yi whispered in pain, looked up at the gray sky as if he was extremely confused, and said repeatedly: "Gu loves you. But why..."

His throat choked up and he couldn't speak.

The rain was falling in darkness, as if the end of the world was coming.

The rain "cracked" on Qin Yi's upturned face. Qin Yi held the white jade pendant that never left his body, trembling and wanted to kiss it.

But in an instant, what came to his mind was the bright moon pouch that Mu Ziling had handed him with a smile at noon a few days ago.

"what--!!!!"

Qin Yi slowly knelt down in the rain, with his hands on the ground.

Looking at his blurred reflection in the rain, he was completely drenched and let out a cry of pain like a trapped animal.