I see the snow

Do you know what it is to love someone?

Sometimes he loves what he loves and hates what he hates; sometimes he is perverted and crazy, giving birth to a distorted possessive desire; sometimes... no matter what, in your eyes, he is the best.

At this moment, Xi Huai had been poisoned for three days, and the toxin had already spread so badly that his hands and feet were faintly turning blue, and his face was even paler.

It looked terrifying like a dead body.

However, when Yinzhichuan was by his side, he still couldn't help brushing his fingers over his often frowning eyebrows, straight nose bridge, and thin lips.Think of how he used to be awake.

He thought this person was really good-looking, how could there be such a good-looking person?

It is so agreeable that it seems to have grown out of his favorite hobbies.

For such a good-looking person, his face should be as white as jade and his muscles as melting snow as before.

Can't fall asleep like this.

Yin Zhichuan thought.

"Xi Huai, Xi Huai."

He couldn't help murmuring softly, and hugged Xi Huai a little tighter in his arms.

"Do you know I love you?"

Yin Zhichuan said in a low voice: "I said that I value you more than myself, how many times I have told you, but you never believed it. You just laughed it off. Look... I want to prove it to you this time, right?"

——At this time, it was almost Haishi, and the time agreed with Li Kongqing was coming soon.

But now it is still quiet outside the door, and there is no sign that someone will visit.

That young drug dealer probably couldn't find a way to save Xihuai, right?

But it doesn't matter.

Yin Zhichuan thought that he could come to save people who could not be revived by thousands of years of medicine books.

He kissed Xi Huai's lips again, and when he bent down, the young man could clearly see every fine hair on Xi Huai's face——

He is really still a teenager, even the fluff on his face has not faded, which is the symbol of a child.

Although he always looks so cold and indifferent on weekdays, and his brows are slightly frowned, but he is indeed a young and old man who deliberately pretends to be.

Yin Zhichuan took a deep breath: When you wake up, you will understand.

I love you deeply, and I am willing to exchange my life for you. This is not some sweet talk, but a simple statement of facts.

It is not the first time that Yin Zhichuan has done something at the risk of his life.But for the first time, he was so willing.

Not even wishing for it.

The young man stared at Xi Huai's blackened and festering wound for the last time, and slowly bent down.

……

two hours ago.

Pearl Avenue, Li Mansion.

"Hey, Kongqing, Kongqing, what's the matter with you?"

Mrs. Li, who has been a drug dealer for generations, knocked on the door of my youngest son and asked anxiously.

Li Sinian, who seldom visited at home, stood beside the old man, watching silently.

He is the most proud young talent in the family, and when he usually comes to any branch family, he will make the branch family flourish and be extremely honorable.

However, this time Li Kongqing entered the room with red eyes, did not greet anyone, and went back to the room without saying a word.

Locked out the former unattainable cousin and father together.

After a while, there were also smashing utensils and muffled sobbing in the house.

"This……"

Mr. Li didn't know why, and he was a little embarrassed. He didn't know what to do and looked at Li Sinian.

"fine."

But Li Sinian gestured to him, indicating that it's okay.

"Kong Qing, tell Dad what's the matter."

Master Li said: "There are distinguished guests at home today, you must be ignorant."

However, when he said this, Yao'er, who is usually polite and sensible, didn't respond, only heard the choking sound in the room.

"Go down and rest first."

Li Sinian said, "I'll just wait here."

"Hey……"

Master Li looked at the door hesitantly.

Apart from feeling a little disrespectful to Li Sinian, the old man's eyes were actually deeply worried about Li Kongqing.

Li Sinian did not expect that the words "Gongziyin" would deal such a blow to Li Kongqing.

Before a cup of tea, he told Li Kongqing about Young Master Yin.

Li Sinian originally wanted to talk to Li Kongqing when he recognized "Yanggucao", but because of Yin Zhichuan's presence, it was inconvenient to mention it, so he waited until he left the Zhen Guogong's mansion.

But when Li Kongqing heard that the "Master Mu" he knew was "Gongzi Yin", he suddenly lost control.

He didn't know that the person who gave him the bone-growing grass was Gong Ziyin.

Looking at Li Sinian in disbelief for a moment, he murmured, "How could such a good man be such a good-for-nothing Gongzi Yin?", and stood there in a daze.

Afterwards, it was Li Sinian who told him not only that "Mr. Mu" was "Gongziyin", but also that he had died in Jiangzhou, and Li Kongqing collapsed.

His eyes turned red quickly, and then he walked towards the house without saying a word, closed the door and cried a lot.

Li Sinian didn't know why he was crying:

Is it sad that the friend I love and treat each other with all my heart is actually a notorious evil person in Zhonglu?

Or just sad, that person died.

"Kong Qing, I don't know how you met Gong Ziyin."

Li Kongqing thought about it and said: "But bone-raising grass is an elixir that can destroy the flesh and bones and bring the dead back to life. Whether you want to keep it for the family or sell it at a high price in the future, it is your own freedom. It is not convenient for me to intervene, and I have no position to intervene. I just... want to ask, if you have plans to sell it, can you be the first to tell me?"

Yinzhichuan is the last person in Shengyang who can lead troops.

Li Sinian stared at the closed door, thinking, no matter what, he couldn't be allowed to die because he removed the snake venom for Xi Huai.

However, Li Kongqing's attitude towards Mu Ziling is really hard to guess, and it is not clear why the bone-raising grass in Mu Ziling's hands was in Li Kongqing's hands.

He stared at the gradually sinking sunset - there was not much time left for him.

In the room, Li Kongqing's face was covered by the quilt, and tears poured into the quilt one after another.

"I want to be reborn in an ordinary family in the next life, so that I can be a good person once."

That's what he meant.

Li Kongqing finally understood what Mu Ziling said to him, but he understood it too late.

When he was in the nearby city, he encouraged Mu Ziling to throw coins into an old beggar.

Mu Ziling voted, and then stood there, staring at his fingers for a long time, as if he couldn't believe that these pale and thin hands would one day bring help and kindness to others.

At that time, Li Kongqing looked at Mu Ziling's pale cheeks that moved people, and didn't understand his suddenly relaxed eyebrows and smile, but felt his heart move.

After staying for a long time, today finally understands his state of mind, and then thinks of the dazed face under the setting sun and the icy pupils that suddenly brightened——

Li Kongqing felt more and more mournful.

"Although Gong Ziyin is a sinful person, there must be times when he treats people sincerely."

Li Sinian hesitated, and comforted the people in the room: "You don't have to feel that you have paid for it wrongly. In fact, he gave you bone-raising grass, maybe it is a proof that he regards you as a friend."

Of course he also considers me a friend.

Li Kongqing said in his heart, because he has the character of accepting kindness once and willing to repay ten times.

It's just that people in the world have failed him so much that they all say that Young Master Yin's methods are vicious and he must be repaid.

Li Sinian waited quietly in front of the room, until the moon was about to rise to the middle of the sky, when he couldn't help but say something to convince Li Kongqing——

The closed door was only slightly opened a small gap.

A pair of swollen walnut-like eyes looked at him from behind the crack in the door, Li Kongqing handed out a kit in his arms, and said in a low voice:

"You take it to save the loved one of Major General Yin."

"He has also been poisoned, and I don't want anyone to suffer from the poison like him."

Just like there are thousands of people suffering from Yunyan's blood in the world, but there is only one son Yin who sacrificed his body to the ghost.

It's just that the bone-growing grass was the only thing that Mu Ziling left to Li Kongqing.

The young pharmacist looked at the back of his cousin, whose pupils lit up, took the kit and left solemnly, his eyes swollen from crying became sore again.

He has never been reluctant to give up the priceless bone-building grass, he just wants to keep something - to prove that this young master of the moon who is far away in the clouds, who should never have appeared in his life, and will never have any intersection, is not as rumored The ones in the book are as vicious as they are.

He's just a little lonely, desperate teenager who's been waiting for someone to see him.

If everyone in Zhonglu misunderstood him, then at least one person knew that he was actually not that bad.

……

When Li Sinian arrived at Zhen Guogong's mansion, Yin Zhichuan was already sitting calmly under the eaves making tea.

The Silver Mansion has a spacious structure, and the eaves and ridges are quite grand. Sitting on the veranda, you can also see the moon as bright as a disk in the sky.

Yinzhichuan was boiling a pot of hot tea, and the sleepy Xi Huai was lying in his arms, with his head resting on Yinzhichuan's leg.

His complexion was much better than when Li Sinian saw him in the morning.

"you……"

Li Sinian looked at this scene, then at Yinzhichuan, and sure enough, Yinzhichuan's face had already turned blue.

"Li Dutong, do you want to drink tea?"

Yin Zhichuan acted like a normal person, drinking a cup of tea by himself, and said with a smile: "This small red clay stove is heating well, when Xi Huai wakes up, there will be warm tea to drink."

"Did you suck snake venom for him?"

Li Sinian changed color.

"Yes."

Yinzhichuan replied lazily, as if he didn't care at all, and said slowly: "The method your branch cousin said is good, and it really works. Xihuai is much better now. What do you see?"

Li Sinian didn't want to be with him anymore, so he hurried forward to check Yinzhichuan's pulse and eye pupils, but Yinzhichuan said with a smile:

"Li Sinian, I finally understand what you said about being willing to rob the execution ground for Lin Kun - risking danger for the one you love, this feeling is really sweet."

"It's just that I originally planned to take him to see the three thousand miles of rice fields in Guanshan County and the endless snowy nights in Buyeguan. Now I don't know if I still have the opportunity."

He sighed softly: "Li Sinian, if you are free in the future, at the summer solstice every year, can you buy Xi Huai a few handfuls of eucalyptus that are enough for him to spend the summer?"

"..."

Li Sinian coldly slapped the kit containing the bone-nourishing grass on him, Yin Zhichuan suddenly realized: "Oh, your cousin has found a usable herb?"

"Yes."

Li Sinian said momo: "You won't die for a while."

"It doesn't matter if you die or not."

Yinzhichuan smiled, and said softly: "Anyway, the poison has been transferred to me now, and Xihuai is safe. Your cousin found a medicine method in an ancient book, so it's okay to try a medicine method on me." Not impossible."

He really had a calm and calm attitude, as if he was very calm——

Only his body betrayed his weakness, and the moment after Yin Zhichuan said this, a smear of blood spilled from the corner of his mouth.

Li Sinian hurriedly went to remove the drawer bag of the kit, but Yin Zhichuan laughed with blood in his eyes, and gently stroked Xi Huai's hair, so as not to let his clean face be stained with his own blood.Said softly:

"Li Sinian... to die for the one you love is the most romantic thing in the world."

"What do you say—?"

When Xi Huai woke up, Yin Zhichuan was still asleep.

Li Sinian stood by his bed, and when the "crackling" candle flickered, he raised his eyes and looked at Xi Huai who had regained consciousness.

Xi Huai noticed that he wrote the letter under the lamp, but when he saw that he woke up, he stopped writing and put the letter in his arms.

"Drink water?"

Li Sinian poured a cup of cool water from the pot, handed it to Xi Huai, and asked.

Xi Huai has an impression of him, he remembers that this is Lin Kun's childhood sweetheart, who was in charge of the imperial court in the palace.

"You saved me?"

"It's Yinzhi River."

Li Sinian replied quietly.

He doesn't care much about Xi Huai. In fact, except for Lin Kun, Li Sinian doesn't care much about anything.

He is a concubine who is not favored by the Li family. If it weren't for Lin Kun, he might not know what he is like so far.

Seeing that Xi Huai didn't drink water, he sat back under the lamp and lowered his head to write the unfinished letter.

Xi Huai rested his hand on his forehead, and frowned, probably still remembering what happened before he passed out.

He remembered the time when he went to the deserted temple with Yinzhichuan and was bitten by a snake, but the depth of poisoning after that was beyond his expectation.

"Yinzhi River..."

After a pause, Xi Huai asked, "Where is he?"

The pale boy looked around the room for a week, but he didn't see Yinzhichuan.

Xi Huai felt a little strange, thinking that with Yin Zhichuan's character, he should be able to tell him to see him as soon as he woke up.

"He's not awake yet."

Li Sinian replied softly, "It's in the next room."

Xi Huai frowned slightly, Li Sinian continued: "He saved your life in exchange for his life, and he sucked out your snake venom."

"..."

Xi Huai's pupils tightened slightly, and he immediately lifted the quilt to get out of bed to look.

But Li Sinian held him down, and said softly, "I have two words to bring to you, which he told you before he fell into a coma."

"If he didn't wake up, he said it was his last words."

Xi Huai: "..."

"first sentence."

But Li Sinian was unmoved, and only continued: "'I like you, now you should believe it, right?'"

I don't know what kind of blow this sentence caused to Xi Huai, but the white-robed man trembled violently for a moment, and looked at Li Sinian with eyes as dark as a deep pool:

"What about the second sentence?"

"Second sentence."

Li Sinian said: "'I like you more than I like myself, you should believe it too, right?'"

Xi Huai's lower lip turned white, and said silently, "This idiot!", and staggered towards Yinzhichuan's room.

Most of the love in this world is for reciprocation.

If I give you a heart, I hope you can give him a heart; if I give you a heart, I hope you will never change until death;

But there is a kind of love that really does not ask for anything in return, nor does it ask for a response.

He only wants to love you, "love you" is his goal, as long as you allow him to treat you well and don't push him away, that is his greatest desire.

Because there is no desire or desire, it is particularly precious.

Xi Huai is a person who walks in the dark. He never thought that one day, he would be so lucky to be picked by the cleanest star and decide to illuminate him.

……

"Drink water."

Five days later, there was a special table in front of Yin Zhichuan's bed.

There are green oranges, water cherry, fire lotus seeds and a series of various snacks on it.

Yin Zhichuan was sitting on the bed, smilingly waiting for Xi Huai to peel him and feed him.

Xi Huai had just recovered, and his complexion was not very good. Naturally, Yin Zhichuan would not be willing to ask him to do something for him.

But just kidding.

By the way, when there is any opportunity, I will do something like that occasionally.

It really made Xi Huai want to leave, and then he hugged her waist and dragged him back.

"hiss--"

This time when he was pulling, Yin Zhichuan suddenly frowned and snorted softly when it seemed that he was about to lose his grip.

"what happened?"

Sure enough, Xi Huai stopped and immediately turned around to look at his situation.

"My heart hurts."

Yin Zhichuan held his hand and said dully.

"Why does your heart hurt?"

Xi Huai's face was full of worry and anxiety, and he didn't notice his small movements.

Yin Zhichuan sucked the venom for him, the most noteworthy thing is the damage to the heart and lungs caused by the snake venom. If the heart and lungs recover, most of the snake venom will be eliminated.

Since waking up, except for the first three days, Yin Zhichuan has not felt heart and lung discomfort for two days.

At this time, when he frowned, Xi Huai became very nervous.

However, it wasn't until Yin Zhichuan managed to hold him in his arms again that he smiled and kissed Xi Huai on the forehead, and whispered into the boy's ear:

"I thought you were really going to leave, so I came out in a hurry."

Xi Huai: "..."

"Xi Huai, Xi Huai!"

However, seeing that Xi Huai was about to get angry, and was about to leave when he pulled his hand away, Yin Zhichuan quickly admitted his mistake pitifully:

"I love you so much, that's why I want to secretly kiss you to let you know. If you don't like me, just kiss me and give me that kiss back, but don't leave, okay?"

Xi Huai: "..."

Yinzhichuan was very happy to see him being rendered speechless by himself, he burst out laughing when he saw this, and asked:

"How about it, do you want to give it back to me?"

Xi Huai stared at him quietly with dark pupils, just when Yin Zhichuan thought the young man was so bored and would probably open the page silently as usual, Xi Huai suddenly stood up.

He walked up to Yinzhichuan, leaned over and kissed two cold kisses on the corner of Yinzhichuan's lips.

At that moment, Yinzhichuan seemed to feel two soft and cold petals brushing past his lips.

"Give me back one."

Then he heard Xi Huai's soft voice saying: "Then I will give you one of mine."

"—from now on," the man in white said, "let me like you instead. Yinzhichuan."