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With his back against his chest, Sheng Boyong bent slightly and hugged him tightly in his arms.However, this posture seems to bring the two hearts into such close contact for the first time. In the quiet room, the sound of heart pacing can be faintly heard.

Shen He stood in front of the door, standing silently, the healthy heart in his left chest was beating one after another, telling him and the man behind him that the uneasiness just now and the pretended alienation in the past had vanished.

I don't know how long I've been hugging, Shen He slightly raised his hand, wanting to touch the hand of the man hugging his waist, but before he touched it, Sheng Boyong suddenly let go of his hand, and his deep voice followed his breathing. behind his neck.

"Sorry……"

This sound seemed to instantly ignite Shen He's anger.He turned around suddenly, looked at the man lowered his eyes, with a look of doing something wrong, and suddenly smiled wryly in his heart, and the flame that rose up at that moment suddenly fell short.

He raised his head and kissed the man's slightly cool lips.

The man's body felt as if he had been electrocuted, his extremities, which had been icy cold from entering the water, instantly became hot.However, maybe Shen He was a little unhappy because of the stupefied just now, but in the next second, it was this young man who had always been calm and self-controlled, who took the initiative to kiss again.

Only this time, the man no longer hesitated in his response.

The man's kiss was violent and disorderly, as if he had never had such an experience before, and he was as reckless as a half-child.Shen He couldn't help but want to laugh, but his heart felt sour.However, the man's reckless posture made him quickly throw away the little hesitation left, raised his arms, and simply hugged the other's head, changing the angle, feeling the existence of each other's lips and tongues.

The constant entanglement of lips and tongue brought a dry intimacy, wet sucking. The sound of sucking rang in the room, ambiguous and blurred.

Sheng Boyong's body was still wet, Shen He only wore a cardigan over his shirt, and a large area of ​​his chest was already wet at the moment, Sheng Boyong's hand went to touch his waist and abdomen, and under his palm was Slender waist.

However, it was probably because his palm was too cold, the moment the palm touched the skin, Shen He's body suddenly trembled.

"I'm too cold?" Shen He raised his head slightly, feeling that Sheng Boyong honestly withdrew his hand from the hem of his shirt, supported the back of his neck again, and lowered his head to kiss his lips from time to time, not annoyingly. shook his head.

Probably seeing his shaking his head, the man put his arms around him tightly, and called his name softly and softly.

"Shen He, Shen He..."

"I am here……"

Every time Shen He responded, he could clearly feel the trembling of Sheng Boyong's body.He trembled, and dropped a kiss on his lips from time to time, as if he couldn't kiss enough.However, the man's lips were not soft at first, more like a person who has been unable to find water in the desert for a long time, suddenly found a luscious spring in front of him, and couldn't wait to drink it.

After finally being able to take a deep breath, Shen He came to the stage and looked into the man's dark and deep eyes. The emotion in those eyes was ready to be expressed, only the corners of Shen He's eyes were slightly hot.

He raised his hand to cover Sheng Boyong's eyes: "Close your eyes."

This man, who usually seemed a little unapproachable in the eyes of others because of his experience before his debut, closed his eyes obediently.

He looked at the man in front of him quietly, and after he put down his hands, he could find that the faces of the two were very close, so close that he could see the long and thick eyelashes of the other, and he seemed to be able to see the deep and affectionate eyes behind the eyelids.

Shen He didn't know what kind of existence Sheng Boyong was to him.He was like a person looking for a life-saving straw, but before meeting this man, he didn't even want to have too much emotional entanglement with him.Because he knew too well what kind of pure emotion Sheng Boyong wanted.

He wants it too.But already tired.

That's why there was an overt and covert rejection, this man was pulled into the blacklist, and the messages he sent were ignored regardless.

However, he was thirsty.In his heart, he wants someone to be by his side. When he is tired, upset, or cold, when he turns around, that person will be there, not far or near. As long as he takes a few steps, he will open his arms and wait. his hug...

This is what he gave to Yan Ning in the past, and now, he hopes that there will be someone like him who can become the existence of each other.

Before today, Shen He was even thinking that this person could be anyone in this world, or he could only exist in fantasy from now on, but it definitely couldn't be Sheng Boyong.Because this man is different, this man's feelings for Song Lin are different... But now, he is Shen He, not Song Lin.

Shen He is not qualified to forcefully occupy the man who loves Song Lin.

No.

But when he saw this man jumping into the pond to save others regardless of the danger, he was covered in water when he came up, and his hands were even injured.He suddenly thought, how many accidents can he encounter in this world?

Why is it that one person's feelings are afraid to face another person's hurt?

And what's wrong with this man?

He just guessed a secret he wanted to hide.

Perhaps because of Shen He's trance, Sheng Boyong opened his eyes and lowered his head, biting his chin.Shen He raised his head, gasping for breath, couldn't help but reach out to his chest, but his arms forcefully hugged him tightly.

Shen He leaned against the door to pant, his heart was beating fast, he couldn't help but grasp Sheng Boyong's arm, and stood with difficulty, his whole body was limp.

The doorbell next to him was suddenly rang, and the doorknob tightly leaning on Shen He's waist was twisted twice from the outside.

"Shen He, are you going to have supper?"

It was the voice of Liu Yanming who lived next door, and he could vaguely hear other people talking beside him.Shen He's breathing stagnated for a moment, and he slightly raised his head to look into Sheng Boyong's eyes. After a long time, he finally gave a response to the people outside the door.

"I'm not going."

"what?"

"Brother Liu, I have something to do, you go and eat."

The footsteps outside the door soon gradually faded away.Shen He kept his head up against the door, his gaze stayed on Sheng Boyong's eyes, nose, and mouth, until the man grabbed his hand and kissed his fingertips, he finally trembled his Adam's apple, and asked: "Who is the person you like?"

The man's breath was blowing on his fingertips: "His name is Shen He." He smelled Shen He's palm, and the tip of his tongue brushed the lines on his palm, "But I prefer his past name—Song Lin."

Shen He's heart trembled.

"I like you. I have only liked you since a long time ago."

When these words finally came out of Sheng Boyong's mouth, Shen He leaned against the door tremblingly and was about to slide down, his waist was tightly bound by the man in his arms.

"I never liked anyone. When I first found out my sexual orientation, I thought I was a monster because I couldn't understand it, so I went straight to join the army. They were all men, with the same organs from head to toe. I had no desire. I I almost thought I was fine. Until I met you."

Shen He opened his eyes slightly, looking at Sheng Boyong's deep eyes in puzzlement.He is not a man who can tell stories, and when he narrates the incident in his memory, his tone is flat, as if he is reading a dry letter that has not been embellished.

"You came to the army to experience life for filming. Because of you, I had a dream for a long time. The squad leader and they all made fun of me, thinking that I was thinking about women. They didn't know that the person I was thinking about was you, and you were Live in the next class. The bed... is only separated from me by a wall."

"Sheng..."

"I greedily chased you in the playground, cafeteria, and laundry room. After you left, I could only see you on the billboards in the shopping mall during the occasional break. The squad leader participated in flood relief for the last time before retiring from the army. On the way out, he jokingly asked me, if I leave the army one day, what would I do if I change my career? I told the class monitor that I was going to act. At that time, everyone was laughing. They didn’t know that I really planned to act. Because That way, I can find you."

Fragmented pictures floated in Shen He's mind. Those memories of going to the army to experience life were a long time ago for him.He didn't remember much, and he didn't even know that there was such a person who had set his sights on him more than ten years ago.

"In that flood relief, many comrades in arms were injured by the rocks brought down by the mudslide. The squad leader...was washed away by the flood in order to save people, and even the body was not found. I was also injured at that time. The doctor said, even if After the injury is healed, I can’t do too much training in the future. The meaning of the regiment is to let me be honorably discharged.”

Shen He has been hugged by Sheng Boyong. Although the man's voice is calm, he can still paint such a thrilling and terrifying picture in his mind.Shen He couldn't help raising his hand, and grabbed the man's back tightly.

"I had been in the army for six years. When I left, I told them that I would see you again and see me on TV. They all thought I was joking, but that year, I was really chasing you. Entered the entertainment industry in the same footsteps. The first film, like you, became the best actor abroad."

"I was holding the statuette at that time, and I couldn't wait to ask my family to help introduce and meet people, but on the day I returned to China, at the airport, I saw you and Yan Ning together. You looked at me with my expectant eyes. That man."

He wanted to deny the fact that he was Song Lin.But Sheng Boyong's words have reached this point, how can he bear to deny it. "sorry……"

"Do you know how annoyed I was when I passed by you on the stage to receive the award at the award ceremony last year? Ge Hui said that you are also nominated this time, and the chances of winning are very high. I went for you , I want to see you, even if I just sit a little closer and can only see your side face, I am satisfied. But I didn't expect that I will be the winner in the end..."

When Sheng Boyong mentioned the awards ceremony, Shen He's memory finally became clear.What happened that day did make him sad, but it was also expected.Without hope, there would be no disappointment, but it was probably because he was used to disappointment, so the biggest nightmare that day was not that Sheng Boyong took away the actor, but the disheartening derailment in the parking lot.

Sheng Boyong still has a lot to say, but Shen He is no longer willing to continue listening.The more he listened, the more he felt that he couldn't afford this feeling.

But the man held up his face and kept dropping kisses on his face, nose to nose, staring at him: "I know you are him, I know..." He put down a hand and pressed it on Shen He's heart , through the flesh and blood, the beat there is like a drum, the palm is hot, I don't know whose body temperature it is, "I know the heart here, its name is Song Lin. I know you are him...don't reject me, give me I have a chance, I will treat you well, treat you very well."

Shen He's throat was choked.He opened his mouth, not knowing what to say.After a long time, he took a deep breath and kissed the man's lips.

He may not be loving enough right now, but he is loving.How could he let go of this man's hand again.