Don't look for the old attack in the crematorium

The pitch-black night gradually descended with time, revealing the white belly of the sky, and the corner of the sun was exposed for a long time in the cold winter.

The rising sun dyed the clouds in the sky a beautiful orange-pink, like clusters of soft strawberry marshmallows.

Lin Qingran woke up in Gu Wenyu's arms, opened her eyes in a daze and blinked lightly, her long and thick eyelashes fluttered slowly, like an elegant and beautiful butterfly flapping its wings.

Feeling the scorching heat from the man holding him, Lin Qingran rubbed against the man's solid chest.

Last night he slept peacefully as usual, but he had a dream.

The shining golden sun hangs in the sky, and the sun shining with colorful rays shines down on the luxurious house.

In the courtyard of Leng Jun's home, they were sitting on a swing hanging from a tree, and wisps of sunlight shone through the gaps in the dense leaves, reflecting on their faces.

The young man was holding him gently on the swing, pinching his chin with his slender hands and turning his face away, kissing his soft lips.

After being kissed twice, he couldn't stand the shyness and hid in the young man's arms. The young man smiled and whispered in his ear: "How can you be so shy?"

"Not used to it yet? Didn't you agree to practice?"

The young man protected the back of his head and pressed him against the tree trunk, looked at him with sharp black eyes, but was a little softer, leaned into his ear and whispered: "This is just a kiss, I haven't taught you to kiss yet. Woolen cloth."

A pleasant voice rang in his ears, and with warm breath, he was carried by the scorching body temperature of the young man, raising his body temperature by a few degrees.

"...Why, is it a kiss?" He turned his eyes away and buried his head in the boy's arms, asking softly.

I have never dreamed of love before, and I don't know much about these things.

"Want to learn?" The young man's magnetic voice carried a slight smile: "You are too shy now, I will teach you next time."

He held the corner of the boy's clothes lightly, held back his embarrassment and raised his head and was about to agree, when the boy lifted his chin and pressed it down.

The soft kiss came, and his heartbeat gradually accelerated. The young man's kiss was forceful and full of possessiveness, but he controlled the strength so as not to hurt him.

Hearing the boy's slightly panting breath when he restrained and forbearingly kissed him, he was so dazed by the kiss that he leaned softly in the boy's arms and panted/breathed not long after.

The boy hugged him and gently stroked his back, and carried him into the room. During this period, his face was blushing and hot, and he didn't dare to raise his head at all.

Being carried back to the bed, leaning against the comfortable embrace, he felt drowsy, and when he was about to fall asleep, he seemed to feel the young man gently kissing the tip of his nose.

"...Of course I'm sorry, I love you..."

The illusory voice filled with self-blame, guilt and bitterness passed by his ears, like a vague dream, so vague that he would completely forget it when he woke up the next day.

Lin Qingran's long eyelashes drooped slightly, and the sporadic memories pressed deep in his memory made him remember that sentence, that sentence that he was so imaginary that he would forget it the next day.

"...What did you mean 'I'm sorry' when you returned to your room in the courtyard?" Lin Qingran asked softly.

Gu Wenyu woke up early, before Lin Qingran woke up, he was afraid of waking Lin Qingran and wanted to be gentle like this for a little longer, so he hugged him greedily for a while longer.

Hearing Lin Qingran's words, Gu Wenyu was stunned for a moment, gently stroked his face with his hand, and said in a low and hoarse voice full of self-blame, "...but I'm sorry..."

The memory of ten years ago flashed in his mind, he held him tighter with trembling hands as if he was afraid that Lin Qingran would leave him.

He said humbly and bitterly: "...I'm sorry, it means that I lied to you and grandma and I couldn't help you..."

That lie was like arsenic wrapped in sugar. In fact, he knew very well that it was impossible to hide it for a lifetime, but he was afraid of losing and kept holding on to the little hope that remained.

He was there all the time, it would be great if he could hide it for the rest of his life, if he couldn't hide it... He kept thinking about how to explain to Lin Qingran in the future, and what he had to do to forgive him.

The matter of grandma has always been Lin Qingran's biggest worry. When he is overwhelmed with self-care, what he thinks of is still Lin Qingran. Compared with himself, he is more reluctant to let Lin Qingran be sad.

Before going to Lin Qingran's house, he accidentally saw grandma taking a lot of medicine behind their backs, and the dose of the medicine was too much.

He discovered the clue at that time, and later told his uncle Jin Yu about his grandma's situation, but he could only get a "shaking head" reply.

"...You found out that grandma had taken too much medicine a long time ago, right?" Lin Qingran buried her head in his arms, although she tried her best to suppress her emotions, her voice was still choked with sobs.

"Well, of course I'm sorry..."

Gu Wenyu felt sorry for himself and lightly stroked Lin Qingran's back. Hearing his sobbing voice was like thousands of needles piercing into his heart, causing him to suffocate.

"Of course, don't cry." Gu Wenyu stroked Lin Qingran's hair, and said with a hoarse voice, "It's my fault, I couldn't help grandma, but I'm sorry."

Some memories suddenly flashed in his mind, grandma smiled at him, grandma patted his hand gently and told him to take good care of himself, grandma said she was reluctant to leave...

All the memories about grandma flashed in my mind over and over again, and the emotions that were squeezed in my heart couldn't help but vent out again.

"Of course, don't blame yourself, I'm sorry I couldn't help you." Gu Wenyu gently kissed Lin Qingran's slightly red eyes, and wiped away the tears from his eyes with distress.

Lin Qingran lowered her eyes, stretched out her hand to grab Gu Wenyu's clothes, and unbuttoned the man's home clothes, only to undo one button before being held down by the man.

"Ran Ran?"

Lin Qingran slowly raised his red eyes, there was still a layer of mist in his eyes, Gu Wenyu's heart ached and his breathing hurt slightly.

He let go of Lin Qingran's hand, allowing him to unbutton all his buttons.

The man's dark gray satin home clothes were unbuttoned and opened to both sides, revealing Gu Wenyu's sexy and firm figure, as well as large and small scars on his body.

Lin Qingran stretched out his hand and slowly touched Gu Wenyu's body. There were two knife stab wounds left by the stitches under the man's left abdomen.

His fingertips touched the serious scar on the man's left abdomen. This scar should be the scar from the wound that Jin Yu said he was injured abroad.

Although it has been a long time and he has already recovered, the scar can't lie to anyone. Just looking at the scar, you can know how serious the injury was.

His hand moved up with his gaze, and there were many other scars on Gu Wenyu's body. His hand stayed on the side of Gu Wenyu's ribs, touching the muscles next to the man's ribs. He still remembered that Jin Yu said that Gu Wenyu had two broken ribs at that time.

The fingertips touched the scar on the man's abdominal muscle, and moved slowly to the side of Gu Wenyu's heart, where there was a deep scar, if the blade was slightly deflected at that time, it would have pierced the heart.

"... At that time... it hurt..." Lin Qingran's still red eyes were covered with mist again, and he said in a hoarse voice: "Actually, you don't need to do that at all."

"It is necessary!" Gu Wenyu interrupted Lin Qingran, he held Lin Qingran's hand resting on the scar on his chest, met his tearful eyes, and said distressedly and seriously: "Of course I don't want you to be sad, I also love grandma .”

Once abroad, he almost died because Jerez was in deep danger. When he was struggling on the verge of death, all he thought about was Lin Qingran.

He was unwilling and unwilling to die like this, he hadn't personally said "I love you" to Lin Qingran, and he hadn't made up for the wrong things he did, and the most important thing was that he was worried about leaving Lin Qingran to die like this.

"Of course...don't make a clear distinction with me, don't push me away." Gu Wenyu looked at Lin Qingran, some terrible memories emerged, he held Lin Qingran's hand tightly.

Gu Wenyu's hoarse voice was full of pleading: "Please, please?"

"You hate me for making my own decisions. You can beat me and scold me as much as you want, but don't push me away, okay? Please just..."

Lin Qingran watched Gu Wenyu hold his hand, the man held it tightly, he could feel the slight tremor and uneasiness in the man's palm.

"Of course, if you don't like me like this, I will change it. I will listen to everything you say, okay?" Gu Wenyu hugged Lin Qingran into his arms uneasily, his voice full of caution.

Lin Qingran clenched her fingertips tightly, lowered her eyes slowly, and did not withdraw her hand to be held by Gu Wenyu.

Gu Wenyu buried his head on Lin Qingran's shoulder, he was slightly relieved that he was not pushed away, and his body that had been tense just now also slowly relaxed.

He understood how important grandma was to Lin Qingran, even though he tried his best to bring Jerez back to China, he couldn't save grandma after all, and this matter has always been a pain in his heart.

He hated that he was not capable enough at that time, and was sad that he could not change this thing that would make Lin Qingran suffer.

"...Of course, thank you." Willing to let me stay by your side.

"In the future..." Lin Qingran stretched out his hand to touch the scar on Gu Wenyu's body, and said softly, "Don't do this kind of thing again."

Gu Wenyu nodded, holding Lin Qingran's hand tenderly and touching his face with eyes full of tenderness: "It is of course."

Lin Qingran raised her eyes to meet Gu Wenyu's dark eyes, looked at them for a long time, and said softly: "...Gu Wenyu, do you really love me?"

"Love, but you are more important than my life." Gu Wenyu's eyes and words are serious and firm.

Lin Qingran chuckled, knowing those things back then, and knowing that Gu Wenyu had put in all the effort for him in places he didn't know, his feelings now are very complicated.

If Jin Yu hadn't told him, perhaps he would never have known that Gu Wenyu had worked so hard for him and grandma, even at the risk of his own life.

All kinds of things from that year flashed in my mind, intertwined with this incident, and woven into a huge net.

He stood outside the net, looking at the truth that he didn't know in the huge net, looking at the young man covered in injuries, looking at his former self, he slowly lowered his eyelashes.

"...Even if I'm not who I used to be?"

He has changed a long time ago. In the past, he would love someone desperately, but now...he no longer has that energy.

Lin Qingran smiled slightly, and said softly: "I'm no longer what I used to be, and you can't get the love you want from me."

"Of course..." Every time Gu Wenyu saw Lin Qingran like this, his heart ached. He took Lin Qingran's hand and put his hand on his heart.

Lin Qingran's palm was pressed against Gu Wenyu's solid chest on the left side, and he could clearly feel the beating frequency of the man's heart.

"Here, it will always be you."

Gu Wenyu's palm was pressed against the back of Lin Qingran's hand, firm and solemn, as if he was swearing the most important treasure in his life.

"No matter what you, Lin Qingran, have become, whether you love me or not, I will still love you. It has never changed, of course."

The beating of the man's heart was transmitted to Lin Qingran's heart through the palm of his hand. He met Gu Wenyu's dark eyes and looked at the eyes that reflected his own. Hot tears rolled down from his eyes, and he smiled slightly.

The sun in the sky did not know when it had fully risen, and the golden sunlight was shining down, coating the earth with a layer of warm and shining gold.

Today's weather seems to be exceptionally good, and even the wind that occasionally rages past has become obedient and calm.

The earth was shrouded in golden warmth, which was as warm and hot as the scorching body temperature that was being carried by the man in his arms.

A few days later, Lin Qingran and He Yifei went abroad, along with Gu Wenyu and Han Jin.

The appointment with William was two weeks later, and they went there ahead of time and planned to play for a few days.

After leaving the airport, a butler was waiting there very early. When he saw Gu Wenyu and Lin Qingran, he immediately came over to greet him respectfully: "Mr. Gu, Young Master Lin."

The butler skillfully asked them to load all their luggage into the car, and then retreated respectfully.

He Yi watched from the sidelines, a little surprised at first, but later fully understood what was going on.

It turned out that Gu Wenyu had already bought a house here and hired a housekeeper. Everything was fully prepared, and everything was arranged in detail.

He Yi raised his eyebrows, this is good, and saves them the trouble of staying in a hotel.

Hanjin is best at making travel strategies. In the past, he would make plans for every trip, although he didn’t go according to the plan once, and stayed in the hotel most of the time.

This time he also made a travel guide, but this time it was different from before, this time there were four of them.

He Yi looked at the planner, and a group of people went to the destination according to the plan written on it to do on the first day.

It was a very beautiful castle, with all kinds of strange things inside, and many novel things could be tried inside.

After playing for a day, I returned to Gu Wenyu's villa at night.

Gu Wenyu's villa is very big, and the decoration style of the house is Lin Qingran's favorite style, and it can be seen from a glance that it has been decorated in advance.

The house is very big, with many rooms, Gu Wenyu and Lin Qingran naturally lived in the master bedroom, and He Yi and Han Jin chose the rest of the rooms by themselves.

"Of course, are you tired today?" Gu Wenyu put the bath water for Lin Qingran and asked him to take a bath.

Although there are housekeepers and servants in the family, Gu Wenyu will not let other people handle Lin Qingran's matter, he is worried and unwilling.

There is a telescope next to the floor-to-ceiling windows in the room, which can see the stars in the sky clearly.

Knowing that Lin Qingran likes stars, Gu Wenyu bought them specially.

After that, for the next few days, I played according to the schedule made by Hanjin, and visited all the interesting places nearby.

……

Soon, the day of the 12th finally arrived. Gu Wenyu had already prepared the things to be prepared for this day, even after checking it many times to confirm that it was correct, he had to check it again before going out.

A few nights ago, Lin Qingran leaned into his arms and asked him softly: "I want to see grandma tomorrow, do you want to go?"

Hearing Lin Qingran's question, Gu Wenyu's heart stopped for half a beat, and then it beat slowly.

This was the first time Lin Qingran invited him, but he still invited him to visit grandma together, and he couldn't help but be filled with endless joy.

"Of course, we can go."

Gu Wenyu put a hat and a scarf on Lin Qingran, and wrapped the scarf up a little to cover half of his face, only revealing a pair of beautiful amber eyes.

Returning to M city from abroad, and went to grandma's cemetery, Lin Qingran put the lily in her hand in front of the tombstone, knelt down and looked at grandma's kind smile in the photo, and reached out to caress grandma.

A layer of enthusiasm welled up in his heart, and it was blinded in his beautiful eyes.

"……grandmother."

The weather on this day is the same as that day, the dazzling sun hangs in the sky, the golden sunlight shines down and reflects on the surface of the lake next to it, the breeze blows gently, creating circles of ripples.

Lin Qingran hugged her grandma, and smiled lightly as she recalled something: "...Grandma, you actually know everything, right?"

The crystal clear tears in the eyes fell and dripped on the lily, decorating the lily with crystal water drops.

"...Of course." Gu Wenyu's eyes were filled with distress, and he hugged Lin Qingran in his arms: "Grandma's greatest hope is that you are happy, don't cry, okay?"

Lin Qingran buried her head in Gu Wenyu's arms, sobbed for a while, and gave a soft "um".

I stayed with grandma there for a long time. Before leaving, Gu Wenyu bowed deeply to grandma: "Grandma, I'm sorry, thank you."

Gu Wenyu took Lin Qingran's hand and walked towards the car. The orange-red sunset hung in the sky, dyed the surrounding white clouds red, and connected to the rippling lake, like a beautiful ink painting.

The breeze blows slowly, and the lilies on the tombstone sway slightly, exuding a refreshing fragrance.

An orange-red halo enveloped the earth and sprinkled on grandma's photo. Grandma seemed to be looking at them kindly with a smile in her eyes.

Back in the foreign villa, Lin Qingran came out of the bathroom after taking a shower. He saw Gu Wenyu in front of the table and seemed to panic for a moment, and even dropped a sheet of things on the table.

"What are you doing?" Lin Qingran looked at Gu Wenyu puzzled while wiping her hair.

"No, there was a gust of wind just now, and I'm afraid the documents on the table will be blown off."

Picking up the paper document that fell on the ground, Gu Wenyu calmly put the paper document back on the table, and folded it together with the stack of documents on the table: "I still blew one out."

Looking at Gu Wenyu's face with the same expression, Lin Qingran nodded and didn't ask any more questions.

After Lin Qingran and Gu Wenyu changed their clothes, they went out to eat at the restaurant together after He Yi had packed up.

In the restaurant, there is a pianist specially invited by the restaurant to play beautiful piano music, which fits the current atmosphere of the restaurant

After a meal, several people took a walk by the lake together.

Walking to a chair with colorful lights, He Yi suddenly stopped and said, "Look at those swans!"

A black swan swam over from the lake, followed by a group of black swans, which seemed to be followers.In the middle of the lake, a group of white swans are playing, and the lake surface is full of ripples.

Not far away, a white swan slowly swam over. The black swan that was followed by a group of black swans stopped, and suddenly swam towards the white swan quickly.

The white swan looks noble, even more beautiful than the group of white swans. The black swan shows its beautiful figure in front of the white swans, as if courting.

The noble white swan glanced at it and swam away from the side, but the black swan relentlessly followed, until the white swan seemed a little bored and stopped.

The black swan felt aggrieved, stood in front of it and lowered its haughty head. The white swan looked at the black swan noblely, and touched it with his head. Soon the black swan regained his spirit, looked straight at the white swan, and then carefully looked at the white swan. Rubbing back.

Under the envy of a group of swans, the two swans looked at each other and then kissed each other intimately.

Gu Wenyu and Lin Qingran also stood watching, but his mind was not on the swan. He straightened Lin Qingran's scarf, held his hand and stuffed it into his coat pocket.

Lin Qingran shifted her gaze to Gu Wenyu, and looked up at the profile of the man softened by the warm light next to him.

Although Gu Wenyu hid it well, he could feel that there was something hidden in the man's heart.