I can't, I can't

After the sound change, there will be a delay, the night is already very deep.

Kang Jiangxue intentionally waited for Sheng Lingyu to come back and be alone for a while, but until Haitang, who was frustrated because she couldn't find the copper coins, made a special trip to refill the little emperor's bedside with new candles, Sheng Lingyu and Ping Wuqi still didn't see any movement.

The little emperor waited strangely: "Why have you been here for so long? Did it take half an hour?"

Haitang also felt the same way: "Indeed, do you want your servant to go and see?"

Kang Jiangxue shook her head, somewhat tired from waiting, so she simply washed herself first, and yawned leaning against the bed rail.

Haitang saw that the little emperor was really sleepy, and said with a smile: "If your majesty is sleepy, you might as well go to sleep first, anyway, you can see Mr. Sheng when you wake up, so there is nothing urgent. Could it be that you can't talk for a while?"

How could the little emperor tell the little girl what was on his mind, he smiled and dismissed Haitang and said, "Why are you still so energetic? Go to sleep quickly, don't worry about me for so long."

Haitang was slightly dissatisfied, but she only muttered a few words in her mouth, and she followed the little emperor's words in her actions, and left quickly.

Kang Jiangxue was alone with nothing to do, so she couldn't help closing her eyes and squinting for a while, maybe his consciousness was a little relaxed, and he fell into a light sleep for a while, half dreaming and half awake.

Opening his eyes again, the candle was half lit again, and the bed dedicated to Sheng Lingyu was still empty.

haven't come back yet?

Kang Jiangxue's consciousness was a little distracted, and she was dizzy for two seconds before seeing a black figure poking at the door in the distance, it was none other than Sheng Lingyu.

But for some reason, Sheng Lingyu didn't enter the door, but stood far away, looking at him from afar.

Kang Jiangxue was already in a daze, and she couldn't help but be at a loss when she saw this: "...What are you doing standing there? Why don't you come in?"

Sheng Lingyu's position is a little far away from the lights, half of her body is the same as the black robe, the color is so dark that it is almost impossible to see clearly.

But his sense of presence is very strong, even too prominent, unlike a person who should stand in a dark corner, a sudden glance makes people feel trembling.

I don't know how long he had been back, his posture was stiff, and Sheng Lingyu seemed to have interrupted his thoughts and stepped in slowly after being called by the little emperor.

After entering the door, Sheng Lingyu still didn't come close as usual.Kang Jiangxue didn't notice Sheng Lingyu's abnormality, she only thought that Sheng Lingyu cared that she hadn't cleaned up yet, and asked, "Do you want someone to wash up?"

Sheng Lingyu shook her head, Kang Jiangxue sat up straight, and finally felt a little more clear-headed: "Your bed has been made by Haitang for you, and you can sleep right away, and the quilt is also new."

As he said that, the little emperor couldn't help but think of something. Sheng Lingyu lived and ate with him for a long time.

In addition, disaster relief envoys are different from imperial guards. They should have their own mansion outside the palace if they enter the imperial court or the officialdom. Living in the inner palace like this all the time seems to be against the rules for Sheng Lingyu, a foreign minister.

Kang Jiangxue suppressed the sadness in her heart, and asked: "Speaking of which, it's not a long-term thing for you to be so wronged and sleepy. When you are on an errand, do you want to build a grand mansion outside the palace?"

Sheng Lingyu didn't see any expression of joy or anger at all, and suddenly said: "...Your Majesty wants me to leave the palace?"

Kang Jiangxue hurriedly said, "It's not Li Gong."

If he could, he wished Sheng Lingyu could live in his eyeballs every day, but for Sheng Lingyu's sake, he should say: "I'm afraid that it will be inconvenient for you. It will be a long time in the future, and it won't sound good when people say it."

Sheng Lingyu asked back: "Speaking of it? How do you say it?"

Foreign ministers staying in the little emperor's palace, naturally there will be no good opinions.

In the past, the little emperor didn't pay much attention to the presence of imperial guards. Now think about Sheng Lingyu from another angle: a little emperor with an absurd, incompetent reputation and a peerless beauty who relies on the emperor's grace in his family is really convenient for divergent thinking. Good material.

The little emperor sighed softly: "Aren't you afraid that others will say something bad and hurt your reputation?"

Sheng Lingyu asked: "Will Your Majesty care?"

Just as Kang Jiangxue was about to answer, Sheng Lingyu said to herself: "But I don't care, I don't care what anyone says."

This was the first sentence Sheng Lingyu said while looking into the little emperor's eyes for a long time. After she finished speaking, a figure who hadn't approached all this time suddenly came in front of her in a few steps.

Sheng Lingyu knelt on the ground, resting her head on the little emperor's thigh. At first glance, the man seemed to have thrown herself into the little emperor's arms abruptly.

However, his hands were tightly wrapped around the little emperor's waist, as if he was forcibly hugging the little emperor.

This unexpected hug seemed too abrupt to the monarch and his ministers, and it didn't seem like the distance that should exist between ordinary friends. If you look closely, it is full of aggressive possessiveness.

However, Sheng Lingyu was kneeling, with her head resting on the little emperor's lap, making this posture look extremely low, which was rude and humble.

The little emperor was taken aback, he didn't know where to put his hands, but Sheng Lingyu was as indifferent as an ancient well without waves, and only said: "My servant must stay by Your Majesty's side."

It's not that I want to stay with His Majesty, but I want to stay with His Majesty.

Not a discussion, but a statement.

Kang Jiangxue thought of it temporarily and wanted to ask. Sheng Lingyu didn't have this intention, so he naturally wouldn't force it. He didn't want Sheng Lingyu to react so much, so he couldn't help but patted Sheng Lingyu's head a little awkwardly, and replied, "Yes."

After finishing speaking, he somewhat felt that this action was a little intimate, and deliberately called Sheng Lingyu to get up, Sheng Lingyu held down his wrist with his backhand, and closed his eyes in this position.

Then, everything around fell silent.

A strange feeling emerged in Kang Jiangxue's heart, and she said sensitively: "Did something happen?"

Sheng Lingyu didn't respond positively: "Perhaps it's because I'm tired."

Sheng Lingyu's expression was really calm, even if Kang Jiangxue felt something was wrong, she couldn't think of any major events, but his intuition was not the case.

——Sheng Lingyu is not calm, at least not as calm as it seems.

Before the man left, everything was fine, but after he came back, it was different. The little emperor felt something in his heart, and guessed softly: "Are you missing your family?"

Sheng Lingyu was silent, and the little emperor asked again: "Is it the empress's weakness that worries you?"

Sheng Lingyu still didn't answer.

That silence did not make people feel at ease, but instead made people feel heartbroken. Kang Jiangxue wanted to say something more, but suddenly felt a little warmth on his leg, and it took him a long time to realize that it was tears.

It fell from Sheng Lingyu's tightly closed eyes and dripped on the little emperor's legs.

Sheng Lingyu...

is crying?

Since meeting Sheng Lingyu, Kang Jiangxue only saw Sheng Lingyu shed tears twice.

Once Sheng Lingyu's grandfather passed away and was on the way back in a hurry;

Both times, I was in pain, and I was only released when I reached the extreme.

But now, such a person who never showed his emotions easily and never showed weakness in front of others was crying silently on his lap.

Kang Jiangxue's mind was blank, and the next moment, his nasal cavity was also sore. He stroked Sheng Lingyu's cheek and wiped Sheng Lingyu's eyes, and said tremblingly: "What's wrong with you? Why are you like this?"

"Yulang, why are you crying?...Speak!"

Sheng Lingyu's face looked extremely pale, and there was no emotion on his face, but his breathing was light. When he answered aloud, Kang Jiangxue knew why Sheng Lingyu had been silent.

Because once he opened his mouth, this person's voice would show the trembling that Sheng Lingyu rarely had. Sheng Lingyu replied: "I don't know, and I don't know either."

Kang Jiangxue's heart seemed to have been severely gouged out. He originally wanted to ask Sheng Lingyu some questions, but now he was all confused, leaving only heartache.

He hugged Sheng Lingyu and pulled Sheng Lingyu's hair, but he couldn't relax. Such a tight hug was almost painful, but it still didn't satisfy Sheng Lingyu.

Sheng Lingyu called him: "Your Majesty, get closer to me."

Kang Jiangxue threw herself down from the bed, and leaned over to hug Sheng Lingyu in some embarrassment.Suddenly, Sheng Lingyu looked up at him, and brushed his cheek with her hand.

"Why is Your Majesty crying?"

Kang Jiangxue himself never realized that he was crying, but he understood why he was crying better than Sheng Lingyu: because Sheng Lingyu was crying, because Sheng Lingyu was sad, and Sheng Lingyu was sad, so he was even more sad than Sheng Lingyu.

The little emperor was speechless, but silently hugged Sheng Lingyu.Sheng Lingyu didn't stay silent for too long, and quickly clasped the little emperor's neck with his hands, and kissed him with a seemingly gentle but tough gesture.

This time, the little emperor didn't have any resistance, and obediently let Sheng Lingyu kiss him, not only accepted and obeyed, but also carefully kissed Sheng Lingyu's lips back, seeking to confirm something like the other party.

This tiny detail touched Sheng Lingyu, and Sheng Lingyu let out a sigh of unknown meaning, not sure if he was speaking to the little emperor or himself.

"Sometimes, I feel that His Majesty's heart is very hard, and sometimes, I feel that His Majesty's heart is very soft."

The little emperor failed to reply to his words, the candles in the room were extinguished, Sheng Lingyu got up and hugged him and rolled onto the bed together, when the body touched, Sheng Lingyu held his waist and did not cause the little emperor to bump.

Then in the darkness, the two hugged each other tightly, and all the turbulent emotions were calmed down in this embrace.

Kang Jiangxue didn't intend to go to sleep at first, but in the long, long silence, she finally kept silent and accompanied Sheng Lingyu to sleep slowly.

In the early morning of the next day, Sheng Lingyu's hand-waving motion woke up the little emperor. Kang Jiangxue opened his eyes and grabbed Sheng Lingyu reflexively—he was so afraid that Sheng Lingyu would leave before he could say anything.

Once or twice, I don't want to do it again.

Fortunately, Sheng Lingyu didn't intend to wake up and leave this time. As soon as the little emperor grabbed him, he lay back and asked, "Your Majesty is awake?"

The little emperor nodded slowly, and looked at Sheng Lingyu's expression. This person only had the stunning beauty of a beauty who had just awakened. The tears and fragility of last night were like hallucinations that never existed.

Just as he was thinking, Sheng Lingyu approached and kissed him on the forehead.

The little emperor watched Sheng Lingyu approach and leave, and only after being kissed did he realize how natural and smooth Sheng Lingyu kissed him.

what happened……

He hasn't asked why Sheng Lingyu kissed him the last time, the last time, and the last time, but now he has begun to feel that these kisses are logical for no reason?

Sheng Lingyu seemed to want to kiss him on the mouth again, Kang Jiangxue hurriedly leaned back to avoid it, and asked with concern: "That, that, are you better?"

Sheng Lingyu was not disappointed when the kiss failed, she only heard the words and asked: "What's wrong with my humble minister?"

The little emperor stammered: "You were so sad last night, I, I..."

Sheng Lingyu was silent for a moment, then shook her head, looking at the little emperor's eyes that were almost impenetrable, he said softly: "Sad? I never said it was sad."