Congratulations to the king of the net for capturing a genius

更新时间2014-12-1811：57：22字数：2982

"Guanyue?" Buer was dazed for a moment, then came back to his senses, called him softly and softly, and tentatively stretched out his hand to touch the top of Guanyue's head.

Guanyue's body is very cold, the kind of cold that is completely soaked by the cold night wind.His arms were tightly wrapped around Fuji's waist, and his head was buried in Fuji's clothes.Bu Er felt the slightest coldness coming from Guan Yue's head, arms, and the fingers clasping his waist bit by bit.Not just the cold, but also an indescribable, indescribable sadness.

This posture is very strange, a teenager, approaching him in such a posture that is too intimate for a boy.

Just like, on such a very cold night, this boy sat in front of his house all night, just as strange.

Bu Er felt that he was speechless, even if he was hailed as a genius, he couldn't say anything in the face of watching the moon like this.There was a long period of silence, when Bu Er was completely unable to think, the person buried in front of his belly spoke, because his clothes and stomach were stuck to him, his voice was muffled, with a strange texture: "I just, I want to confirm one thing."

"..." What's the matter?Buer wanted to ask, but an intuition prevented him from asking.It was as if, if he opened his mouth, if he heard that answer, something would change completely, and he would never return to the original point he hoped for.

But Guanyue didn't wait for him to ask, and spoke on her own, her voice was lower and hoarse than usual, but even so, even through the clothes, she was still as beautiful as singing an aria: "Fuer Zhouzhu, I recently , I have always wanted to confirm such a thing. Now, probably, I can be sure."

At the end of the voice, there was a faint, self-deprecating smile.But that smile was too light and floating, revealing the coldness of the night, making people feel a sense of desolation.

Fuji opened his mouth, trying to stop him.Intuition told him he should stop.But my throat is very dry.He couldn't speak.So he could only listen to Guanyue's slow, self-deprecating voice and continue: "I have always hated you, you have such a good talent, and in such a strong team, you can easily defeat your opponent, but you have to humiliate me." Fan... I have always thought that you are a particularly hateful person. You have the title of genius, and you have many things that I have worked so hard to get or can't get, but you don't care so much, as if I worked hard to get it. It's just something you don't want, it's just a joke."

"I poached talented players from so many schools and wrote the most exciting script, but in the end, Yuta reconciled with you, and I was humiliated by you using a game that you won easily without much effort... "

Guanyue spoke slowly in a voice that was rare and flat, without a signature laughter and an uplifting tone. The voice was very calm, but this calmness made Fuji's whole heart slowly tighten.

He didn't know, he didn't know that everything he did had inadvertently hurt this boy so much.Although unintentionally, watching the moon is so sensitive and proud.

"I've always, always wanted to defeat you, to be ashamed. But, hehe, it's a delusion, your strength has already reached the point where I can't even see through it, let alone catch up..."

"The opponent of fate is just my own delusion. You don't care at all, ha ha ha ha."

"No." Bu Er said with difficulty, "No, Guan Yue is a friend I recognize." Apart from this sentence, he didn't know what to say.Although Guan Yue is sometimes compared with Xiao Jing, he is completely different from Xiao Jing.Xiaojing is really arrogant and confident, but Guanyue, under the pride of Guanyue, has an extremely sensitive and unconfident side.His narcissism and inferiority complex are mixed together, and what is usually displayed on the outside is a narcissistic appearance, but only one person knows his sensitive and unconfident heart.After a long time, it will silently ferment into injury.As long as there is a breakthrough, those pains will surge out, drowning his whole body...

"Friend, are you?" Guanyue laughed lightly, breathing on Buer's stomach through his clothes, rubbing it with an itchy feeling. "If you say that, I believe it. Although I don't know why, but you regard me as a friend, so you suddenly became better to me recently, and saved me when I was most desperate."

"Fuji Zhousuke, why can't you be like you used to be? You don't remember my name, and you will never see me. How nice that is. I still regard you as the person I want to surpass the most, the person I hate the most, and give me the biggest blow people..."

"In that case, I won't like you..."

The black-haired boy buried himself in Buer's clothes, and whispered in a trance-like voice, that way, I wouldn't like you.

In the cold evening wind in Tokyo, Fuji felt his whole body froze.There was no way he could react.

And the boy hugging him was still talking to himself:

"I don't want to, I don't want to be like this. Why is it you. It's bad enough to like a boy, but in the end that person is still you."

"Sometimes I ignore me, and sometimes I am very nice, like pranks, a guy who can't see the truth clearly. And I also kidnapped your brother, taught him the tricks that will hurt the body, and then you killed me Do not stay."

"A few days ago, I felt that I must be abnormal. Why am I so unhappy? I found out that I don't understand your strength at all, and I didn't collect your information correctly. Angry, very angry, but—why am I still sad Woolen cloth?"

"Fuji Zhousuke, I'm surprised and disgusted. This kind of person likes you. But, I don't want to either!"

"It's enough to be an old enemy all the time. I hope so."

I hope I don't like you, and don't think about you these days.Obviously I thought I could wake up, but even if I left your range, my heart could not escape your shackles.I can only admit helplessly that I like you.I can't help but think of you, everyone can always see you at a glance, care about your strength, care about all your information, want to get close, want to be taken seriously and watched.Want, you know how I feel.

Even if it will be disgusted.Even if you say all this and you will be expelled from your life.

I am such a timid and inferior person, but I want to say it desperately.Bravery only this time.

No matter what the result is.This time, I don't want to have any regrets.

Even if it's disgusting eyes and gazes, it's better to be rejected outright and neatly than to endure in darkness day by day.

Guanyue hugged Bu Er tremblingly, greedily feeling the warmth of this person.Very likely, very likely.This is a once-in-a-lifetime hug, and since then, there has never been a chance to be so close to this person.

No, he felt that he had become a stone statue.The first thought after gradually regaining consciousness was not how to answer, but a question to myself: Is my rebirth wrong?

I tried to change my own life, to change the trajectory of my life, which violated the laws of fate, so it will change the lives of others.In the previous life, Guanyue and himself rarely met, and the relationship between the two was not harmonious. They only met a few times sporadically in high school and college, and they were indifferent to each other.I remember hearing Yuta say that Guanyue had a very beautiful girlfriend when I was in college.

Guanyue in that life had no personal relationship with him.

Bu Er never thought that on such a night, this beautiful and proud young man would use such an inferior tone, with a strong sense of sadness, hug himself and say such sad and painful words.

Said he liked him.

Said he didn't want to, but still liked him.

If, if it weren't for the reckless behavior of his rebirth, wouldn't everything have happened, this young man wouldn't have to go through such struggles and pains?

Fuji himself was also shocked for a long time after discovering that he liked Tezuka Kei in his previous life, struggling endlessly.After all, I like the same sex, and it is still not accepted by many people in an open society.Tangled, melancholy, and struggling, it took a full year before he finally confirmed his mind.Then, I endured it for another two years before finally choosing to speak out.

I don't know what kind of process it is.

After finding out that I like the same sex, I doubted myself, I felt unbelievably painful, it was such a difficult time.The haggardness and pain of Guanyue is probably because of this.What kind of struggle did he have to run to sit in front of his house all night, and what kind of courage did he have to tell all this?

Bu Er was at a loss, he didn't know how to answer Guan Yue.With such a fragile Guanyue, he couldn't simply say that I don't like you, and he couldn't comfort him by saying that you are a very, very good person—that would be so perfunctory and careless.This slender boy who can be completely crushed with only one straw is like a fine porcelain that can be broken at any time.Buer held it in his hands, feeling distressed in a dilemma.

He really, really cares.Care about the boy in front of you.

But, not the one he expected.

So doomed to be hurt, doomed, I can only endure the pain in my heart, and break this beautiful porcelain with my own hands.Buer knows better than anyone how painful it will be.But he also knows better than anyone else that it is better to break it cleanly than to be afraid of getting hurt.

If it must hurt, just be more straightforward.

The pain was severe, and then healed completely.

Instead of a blunt knife, every time there is room left, another wound will be cut.There is no way to heal the wound that has been deepened bit by bit.