Woke up and turned into an omega

Before going to bed, Sheng Chu quietly went down to take another look at the milk.He is very worried about not eating or drinking milk.Fortunately, there was still less cat food in the food bowl, but Milk was still squatting in its original position, with its tail between its legs, looking a little sluggish.He didn't know how to tell the kitten the news that the uncle had passed away, let alone how to say it. The uncle's children might not tolerate such a cruel fact.The kitty quickly turned into a homeless kitten.he thinks.

He also experienced moments of homelessness, so he was especially empathetic.

Fu Yuannan, who found that he didn't go back to his room to sleep, hurried down from upstairs to look for him, and was relieved to see him squatting at the stairs facing the milk, a man, and a cat.The light projected his shadow in front of Sheng Chu, Sheng Chu raised his head and found Fu Yuannan standing a few steps above, and asked him embarrassedly: "Why are you here... don't you have to go to bed at twelve o'clock? "

Sheng Chu asked knowingly again.Fu Yuannan came down, stood beside Sheng Chu, and gently stroked Sheng Chu's hair: "Come and see you and milk."

What are you looking at? Does he look embarrassed?

Frankly speaking, Sheng Chu still has a little burden, and hopes that he will always release his happiness to the outside world.But the night was too tormenting. As soon as he closed his eyes, he remembered the cat he had raised.I couldn't sleep, so I came down to have a look.

"I don't know how to put it... I had a cat before, also an orange cat, called Pipi, and he was really furry. He liked to bite the balls of wool left by my mother, and then he had to eat a lot of fur Ointment...One day, maybe I didn’t take good care of it, it started not to eat or drink, I took it to the hospital, the doctor said it had advanced gastric cancer, and the heart was not good enough to be operated on, so I was advised to die by euthanasia.”

"I watched it panting with its mouth open in my lap, sticking out its tongue, and its eyes were very wide... The doctor said that cats and dogs are very painful. If it is not very painful, they will definitely not behave. Come out. So I'm very sad, I think I didn't observe its abnormal behavior carefully, if I came to the hospital earlier, maybe I could save it."

"It was too painful and I couldn't bear it, so I finally chose euthanasia for it. It died in my arms when it was only three years old."

Sheng Chu began to think about his past again. Fu Yuannan had read it, but he didn't remember it in particular.At this moment, after listening to Sheng Chu's talk, I recalled some details.

For example, Sheng Chu buried Pippi's ashes next to his mother.

"I said that I don't like keeping small animals, because I can't even take care of myself. But after my mother left, the house was really empty... It's the kind, you know, when you open your eyes and face only Air, you are the only one alive in this family. So I bought a cat, but it only stayed with me for three years."

Speaking of which, he looked up at Fu Yuannan, his eyes were already full of water, he said: "Fu Yuannan, I still seem to be, not very able to accept parting."

No one can accept parting if there is a better choice.

Fu Yuannan gently rubbed his shoulders with his hands, and coaxed him softly: "Then don't accept it...it doesn't seem to matter."

It really doesn't matter, and the dead will not come back to life just because you don't accept it.Most of the time, parting is an established destiny. If you have to take this kind of responsibility on your body, it would be too burdensome.

"I feel like I'm a broom star, I'll kill people wherever I go, every world is the same." Sheng Chu forced a self-deprecating smile and said, "How could this be, the uncle was fine a few days ago, that's all... …gone?"

He still couldn't believe it.

Fu Yuannan said: "Whose parents won't die, the difference is only sooner or later. If you say that, everyone is a bastard."

Although logically, Sheng Chu's words are easy to break through, but in the face of emotions, these words are weak.

Fu Yuannan has never experienced the emotion of parting, but at this moment, he can actually feel worried because of the death of his uncle.

Perhaps after being assimilated in the human world for a long time, various emotions will arise. From the perspective of the previous system, this is not only unreasonable, but also somewhat mentally retarded and unclear.

emotion?Feelings are the most useless thing.Human beings are addicted to emotions, tend to forget reason, and make many wrong decisions.The power of intellect is far higher than sensibility, and wisdom is the most sought after thing for human beings.Abandoning emotions, human civilization may take a big step forward due to the improvement of efficiency.

But now he doesn't think so anymore.

Joy, anger, sorrow, resentment, hatred, delusion, the difference between people and the system is that some decisions that are considered wrong by the system are actually called willingness and equivalent exchange.

It is worthwhile to exchange some material things for some emotional value.

For example, at this moment, Sheng Chu would be willing to take the initiative to hug him, put his chin on his shoulder and say, "That's different. Without me, they might live longer."

"It's really different." Fu Yuannan stroked Sheng Chu's back along the glands and spine on the back of his neck, just like a mother burping a newborn baby, "If you are here, they will be happy because of the time with you Happy, if you are not here, even if they live for more than ten years, they will lose a lot of happy memories."

"Perhaps they...will think such an exchange is worth it?"

Fu Yuannan's comfort was always appropriate, and he restrained Sheng Chu from overflowing with sadness.Sheng Chu's red eyes gradually faded.Fu Yuannan glanced at his watch and said, "It's almost one o'clock in the morning, go back to sleep, Chu, put the milk here first."

Sheng Chu glanced at the persistent milk and said, "That's fine."

He remembered an excerpt from "Border Town" in a certain Chinese textbook, and the last section of the book was selected, and it was written in the book: "He may come back tomorrow, or he may never come back."

Thinking this way is much more optimistic than knowing that he will never come back.

So none of them intend to tell Milk the truth, and Milk will understand one day.

When he reached the second floor, Sheng Chu was reluctant to part with Milk again. He saw Milk's tail flickering because of boredom through the gap of the stair railing upstairs, and his sad mood overflowed again.He seems to be getting more sentimental lately.Fu Yuannan walked in front of him, seeing that he didn't follow, he stopped and waited for him.

Sheng Chu said, "Turn around."

Fu Yuannan didn't ask why, and did as he thought, he thought Sheng Chu didn't want Fu Yuannan to see his fragility, but it wasn't, the next second there was a little soft pressure from his waist and even his entire back.Sheng Chu hugged his waist, and put his chin against Fu Yuannan's shoulder.The voice-activated lights in the corridor were suddenly extinguished because of the long silence, leaving only darkness.

Sheng Chu's warm breath hit his neck, and it seemed that only the sound of each other's breathing could be heard in the silence.

There was no need to say anything at this moment, Fu Yuannan had this thought in his mind, he felt that Sheng Chu just wanted to hug him.

No one needs to rely on, even a person like Sheng Chu who is always cheerful and optimistic, no matter how well he lives in this world, he can't forget that he came from another world, no matter how much he pretends to be, he is still out of place.His overwhelming emotional changes hidden in his heart are closely related to his past life, and it may be difficult to gain understanding if he tells others.

Fu Yuannan is the only link between him and the past, and the only person who can understand his unspeakable sadness.

Sheng Chu's jaw moved, and the cloth on Fu Yuannan's shoulders moved slightly, making his skin feel sticky.He didn't confirm it, but he probably knew that Sheng Chu was crying.

He had never seen Sheng Chu cry, as Sheng Chu said, he was so stronger than him, even if tears were stored in his eyes, he would hold them back.

Tears are shed by those who don't cry often, and those tears are precious.

After a while, Sheng Chu seemed to have adjusted his mood and said, "I didn't cry."

To cover it up, even if you ignore the sticky touch on your shoulders, judging from Sheng Chu's strong nasal voice when he speaks, it doesn't look like he's not crying.Fu Yuannan didn't try to expose him, but just took Sheng Chuhuan's hand around his waist and said, "Okay, okay, I didn't cry, I didn't cry."

Sheng Chu sniffed: "Fu Yuannan..."

Both of them spoke very quietly, and no one disturbed the old and dilapidated voice-activated lights.Darkness makes one bold and vocal.Sheng Chu continued: "I seriously feel that...my relationship with everything is shallow."

"If you hadn't forced it, maybe you and I would be like this too. We were destined to have nothing to do with each other, and then drifted away."

"Fu Yuannan... You can force it a little more, so that you won't... In the end, I will always be left alone."

Fu Yuannan's heart skipped a beat.

He turned around and held Sheng Chu's face precisely in the dark. Through the moonlight shining through the window on the wall, he could barely see Sheng Chu's teardrop face clearly.Sheng Chu even had crumbling crystals hanging from his eyelashes, and his eyes were red, pitiful and cute.

He gently pecked away the tears from Sheng Chu's face, kissed along the tear trail all the way to the corner of his mouth, and said angrily, "Ah Chu...Ah Chu...don't cry...You cry so hard that I feel so bad."

Sheng Chu stopped crying, raised his head, and bit Fu Yuannan's lips.

Just like what Fu Yuannan said, Sheng Chu really didn't know how to kiss, but he just bit Fu Yuannan's lips clumsily, stiff and incoherent, and even made Fu Yuannan feel a little painful.But Fu Yuannan didn't mind, because the next second he took the control back into his hands.He pressed Sheng Chu's head, as if he was teaching kissing, teaching Sheng Chu to open his teeth slowly, so that his tongue could stick in and chase each other with Sheng Chu.

Fu Yuannan thought, so his Sheng Chu would be so fragile, so it happened that he was with him at this moment, helping Sheng Chu to restrain and bond the fragility.It’s just that in the first 20 years of life, is there anyone who is willing to coax his baby like this, telling him, don’t cry, don’t cry... I feel so distressed.

The author says:

Before, a baby asked me if I was abused later, and I said no, I don't think it was abused.

Thinking about it later, it was actually because although there were many turmoil, the relationship between the two of them was gradually warming up, and they were also gradually understanding each other. The relationship line was very sweet, but there were a lot of turmoil.

But I insist that it is really not cruel (?ω?)

After that, I will slowly close the world line. I hope everyone can accompany me to the end, familiar with every id who has been subscribing, thank you for your company, and bow to everyone.

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