imaginary rival

It was a bit sudden that Ran Hang was going to be discharged from the hospital.

Before that, Aunt Wang's attitude towards Ran Hang had always been "he is not well and cannot be discharged from the hospital". According to Yan An, Ran Hang asked to be discharged from the hospital countless times, but his family members refused to sign. He's locked inside.

But now he told Yan An in such a hurry that Ran Hang was going to be discharged from the hospital, and asked if he wanted to pick him up together?

Ran Hang "recovered"?How can it be?

"I've already agreed," Yan An frowned slightly, "No matter what, I'm going to take a look."

"Look at what?" Jiang Shiyu asked.

"Let's see if Ran Hang is all right." Yan An gasped, pulled Jiang Shiyu into the shadows, and whispered, "I, I don't think this matter is that simple."

Jiang Shiyu stared at him for a while, then said softly, "It is impossible for Ran Hang to be 'already', or in other words, it is impossible to achieve the 'already' ideal of Aunt Wang, do you understand?"

In Aunt Wang's eyes, Ran Hang's disease is homosexuality, his sexuality, which is not a disease at all, how to correct and treat it, what to talk about?

What's more... Even if Ran Hang's sexuality really changes, it may not be a good thing for him.

How can a person's sexual orientation be corrected to completely change and reach the "good" in the eyes of parents?

Aunt Wang even ignored Ran Hang's real mental problems.

Jiang Shiyu didn't dare to think about how many things were hidden in the two words "Okay", and Yan An didn't dare to think about it.

"I understand," Yan An recovered, his eyes became much firmer, "So I'm going to see what happened."

"I'll accompany you." Jiang Shiyu answered immediately.

Yan An stared at him for two seconds, then nodded: "Okay."

Jiang Shiyu squeezed his arm.

"Is there anything else you want to ask?" Yan An smiled, "This expression."

Jiang Shiyu took out his phone, turned on the front camera and looked at it, his expression was not much different from usual: "What's wrong with this expression?"

"It's just an expression of wanting to ask but hesitating." Yan An stood on tiptoe and jumped up and down, "Ask."

Is there?

Jiang Shiyu looked carefully, but didn't see anything, so he could only put the phone back in his pocket: "I'm just curious."

Yan An looked at him.

"Why do you listen to Aunt Wang so much?" Jiang Shiyu frowned, "This time, you can say that you want to see Ran Hang's situation, and want to know what happened. Before that?"

Why did Yan An go to Ran Hang when he was so afraid and so resistant to meeting Ran Hang before?

Aunt Wang knew Yan An was afraid, so she still asked Yan An to see his son every once in a while.

Why?

Jiang Shiyu was a little upset.

"What kind of expression do you have?" Yan Anle said, "I'm not even angry myself."

"You have a very good temper." Jiang Shiyu said.

"Is there?" Yan An smiled, looked aside, and then continued after a while, "Ran Hang... Before Ran Hang jumped off the building, during that time, I was the only one who could have a normal conversation with him."

Jiang Shiyu didn't expect that the topic would be dragged so long ago that he couldn't answer the conversation, so he nodded and waited for Yan An to continue.

"Maybe it's because I'm young, he thinks it's okay to talk to me," Yan An paused for a long time when he said this, the wind was blowing behind him, and the sun was pushing the shadow into the corner little by little, "But in fact, he jumped off the building before , I noticed something."

"Ah." Jiang Shiyu responded.

"You may not believe it if you say it, but it's the kind...that people you meet every day suddenly become different, the kind that you can vaguely feel even in the smallest details," Yan An said with difficulty, and glanced at Jiang Shiyu ,"do you understand?"

Jiang Shiyu nodded.

"I sensed that he was wrong, but... I didn't tell Aunt Wang. I was really too young at that time, and I could forget what was wrong in the blink of an eye," Yan An said slowly, "Maybe I told Aunt Wang It can't change anything, Ran Hang really didn't want to live at the time, but..."

"But this matter has become a hurdle in your heart, hasn't it?" Jiang Shiyu asked.

"...Yes." Yan An said.

The day after Yan An noticed something was wrong with Ran Hang, Ran Hang jumped off the building.

When everything is connected, Yan An has always been a bystander.

From the beginning to the temporary ending, Yan An was pressed in the auditorium and was forced to watch the whole process with his eyes wide open. play.

"And just like Aunt Wang said, Ran Hang really only becomes a little more rational when he sees me," Yan An said, "Even if he is hospitalized later, he is only willing to see me."

Yan An paused for a while, and saw Jiang Shiyu's brows getting tighter and tighter, as if he was the one who had gone through all this, Yan An thought for a while, then raised his hand and pressed gently between Jiang Shiyu's brows.

Jiang Shiyu came back to his senses and stared at him with wide eyes.

"I also thought about rejecting Aunt Wang and not caring about them anymore," Yan An smiled and continued, "But...for myself, I also want to know about Ran Hang's recent situation, and I think he can get better , I'll feel better."

"Do you feel guilty about this?" Jiang Shiyu looked at Yan An, his brows furrowed again.

Yan An raised his hand and continued to press the center of his brow: "Do you think this is guilt?"

"I think this is the guilt imposed on you by Aunt Wang and the others." Jiang Shiyu raised his hand to hold Yan An's wrist, and squeezed it lightly, "Keep telling you that Ran Hang is only you, and only you can be with him." Talk to him, you can't give up on him, they have been instilling this in you since you were very young, so you can't let go of Ran Hang."

Yan An's eyes widened slightly, and he stared blankly at Jiang Shiyu.

"Although this is just what I think, but... is this the last time?" Jiang Shiyu looked directly into Yan An's eyes, "Go and pick him up from the hospital, and find out what happened. If you want to take care of the future , then continue to take care of it, but you should stop answering Aunt Wang's calls."

Yan An was unable to speak.

"His mother forced him to jump off the building, and his mental problems were also caused by his mother. You shouldn't be allowed to be a palliative in the middle, not to mention that you are so afraid of seeing Ran Hang, understand?" Jiang Shiyu He spoke quickly, "You shouldn't be softly forced to be responsible for these things."

"...Are you angry?" Yan An finally heard something wrong.

"I'm not angry, Yan An," Jiang Shiyu sighed, and looked at him helplessly, "Don't you feel aggrieved?"

"What?" Yan An didn't understand.

"It's fine if you don't think so," Jiang Shiyu patted him on the shoulder, "I'll accompany you on weekends."

"Ah." Yan An agreed in a daze.

Aggrieved?

well enough.

Maybe it's because he's used to it, but Yan An didn't feel aggrieved.

It is true that Ran Hang will get better when he sees himself. It is true that he can only have a normal conversation with himself, and he is indeed forced to face fear, facing Ran Hang all the time... Are you aggrieved?

It seems a little bit.

When Yan An came back to his senses, Xie Lanlan had already walked out of the store and paid the bill. He rubbed his belly and followed him: "I haven't eaten yet?"

"You two have chatted outside for so long, your noodles are lumpy." Xie Lanlan glanced at him, "Let's eat at another restaurant."

Yan An nodded, turned to look at Jiang Shiyu, but didn't see anything special.

I have to go to see Ran Hang on the weekend, to see what Aunt Wang means by "already" and to see Ran Hang's current state.

and then?

Then... let's take one step at a time.

I can't think of that much for now.

It was the hottest time, and the temperature on the weekend reached the point where it would melt away when going out. Jiang Shiyu arrived quite early, and Yan An opened the door for him, wearing big pants and a vest, wearing a He yawned and said, "Wait a minute, I'll change my clothes and go over after eating breakfast."

Jiang Shiyu nodded and entered the room.

Yan An's parents were not at home, and Little Binghai was playing with toys on the sofa. Jiang Shiyu went over to pick him up, squeezed his paws for a while, and Yan An quickly walked out of the room.

You could tell he was still a little nervous.

This tension lasted until after breakfast, and when he took a taxi to the gate of the Fifth Hospital, Yan An's mood eased a little, and he let out a long sigh of relief standing at the gate of the hospital.

"Do I need to give you strength?" Jiang Shiyu looked at him.

"Give it," Yan An said, opening his arms towards him, "Come."

Jiang Shiyu hugged him before he finished speaking, patted his back hard, wanted to say something, but didn't say anything.

After all, the fact that Ran Hang was discharged from the hospital seemed too weird to him.

"When will Aunt Wang and the others arrive?" Yan An let go of Jiang Shiyu, raised his hands and rubbed his face.

"You ask me?" Jiang Shiyu looked at him.

"Ah, no," Yan An said happily, "I... I'll ask myself."

"Don't be too nervous," Jiang Shiyu said, "Relax, it's okay, I'm here."

Yan An glanced at him and nodded, as if the nervousness in his heart had really been released following Jiang Shiyu's words.

There is always a way.

Whether it is him or Ran Hang, there will always be more ways for them to move forward.

Won't stay in place.

Yan An took a deep breath.

Aunt Wang and the others arrived not long after, and the whole family came. Yan An introduced Jiang Shiyu to them, saying that he played with them when they were young. Ran Hang also remembered him, but Aunt Wang did not remember, smiling Say hello and go into the hospital.

The examination has already been completed, and they are waiting for the signature. Yan An saw Ran Hang standing in the ward, leaning against the window, his gaze never evading, as if he had really let go of everything, and his demeanor became very gentle .

For no reason, Yan An remembered what he said before, I'm leaving here.

Has he been planning all this since then?

Yan An walked into the ward, greeted him, glanced down unconsciously from the corner of his eye, and caught a glimpse of a black figure.

He turned his head and took a closer look.

The window of Ran Hang's ward was facing the small garden downstairs. Although there were protective nets and iron railings outside, Yan An recognized the man waiting in the small garden at a glance.

It's Lian Zhou.

The author says:

Let's be together after this thing is over~