imaginary rival

What do you think about homosexuality?

Yan An asked Jiang Shiyu this question a long time ago, although he failed to say the three most important words in the middle, and Jiang Shiyu didn't understand what he was saying at all, but...it doesn't matter.

He could already see Jiang Shiyu's attitude towards homosexuality.

No attitude is the best attitude.

Not repulsed, not surprised, not deliberately creating excitement... Just like treating heterosexuals, this is Jiang Shiyu's attitude when he mentioned homosexuality.

This attitude is actually quite normal.

But in the eyes of many people, the behavior of homosexuality is abnormal in itself, and their view of abnormal behavior is repulsive and strange, which is another kind of normal in their eyes.

"Let's eat something before going," Xie Lanlan dressed casually today, with her hair tied up simply, "Would you like to eat the camellia glutinous rice balls at the door?"

"Okay." Yan An nodded, and took an umbrella before going out.

It was raining again today, he and Xie Lanlan walked forward holding an umbrella, there were just two bowls of oil tea glutinous rice balls left, eating one bowl made her whole body warm, Xie Lanlan even had a little sweat on the tip of her nose, this day Even if it rains, it's still hot and stuffy. It's no longer the time when it rained and it was bitingly cold not long ago.

After eating, I took a taxi to the Fifth Hospital. When I got out of the car, the rain stopped. Yan An took an umbrella, registered at the door and found a nurse, explaining his purpose.

"Oh, Ran Hang," the nurse quickly remembered, "you can visit him. He's in good condition recently and won't attack people."

Like describing a dog.

Yan An pursed his lips, put away the umbrella, took Xie Lanlan and followed the nurse towards the ward.

Walking along the way, I met many people walking around, wearing hospital gowns, some wearing a thin coat, they smiled and talked, chatted with people kindly, and even laughed when they were happy, the rain stopped Afterwards, the sun fell quietly, and was cut into fine pieces by the leaves, so it was not allowed to peep.

"This is the room," said the nurse. "Are you his brother?"

"En." Yan An responded.

"I'm my younger sister." Xie Lanlan pointed to herself and said.

"Kid," the nurse said cheerfully, "go in, don't talk too exciting about him, I'm nearby, ring the bell if you have something to do."

Yan An and Xie Lanlan opened the door and walked in.

Ran Hang sat on the hospital bed, with the hospital gown covering his thin body, Yan An saw the part of his wrist exposed under the hospital gown, the wrist bone protruded as if it was about to break through the skin, the cheeks were sunken, and the eye sockets were also sunken. Aunt Wang said that he was not in good condition, probably referring to his physical condition.

"...Brother." Yan An called out.

"Xiao An," Ran Hang looked at Yan An, then shifted his gaze to Xie Lanlan's face, and smiled, "Lan Lan."

"Hello, brother." Xie Lanlan walked over, opened the stool and sat down, "Why have you lost so much weight? Is the food here not good?"

Ran Hang didn't answer, but looked straight at Yan An: "Sit."

Yan An nodded, walked over and sat next to Xie Lanlan.

"The food here is good, I'm fine, the doctor is fine," Ran Hang said softly, but his fingers gripped the sheet tightly, and his nails scratched a few white marks on the sheet, "The nurse is fine, the medicine is fine, and everything is fine." good."

Yan An looked at Ran Hang, clenched his fingers into fists, and wanted to answer, but he didn't know what to answer.

Xie Lanlan is different, she is naturally suitable for conversation, except that she can't hold back a word for half an hour when facing Sun Ke, at other times she can read a short composition of [-] characters to anyone, but Yan An saw her finger He pinched the corner of the stool uneasily, and the hair rope on his wrist showed flesh-red marks.

The topic has already progressed to the biscuits that Xie Lanlan has learned. Ran Hang likes to listen to Xie Lanlan very much. It used to be like this. At that time, when Ran Hang was just in the first year of high school, Xie Lanlan and Yan An were still in elementary school. When talking to him, Xie Lanlan is the best at talking, and it doesn't make people feel noisy, so everyone likes to listen to Xie Lanlan, saying that she is an elf.

"Can you have snacks?" Xie Lanlan asked.

"Yes," Ran Hang nodded, "but the doctor said to eat less."

"Then I'll bake a little bit for you next time," Xie Lanlan gestured with her hand, "This little bit, eat it quietly."

Ran Hang smiled and agreed.

The weather outside was fine, it had just rained and the air was fresh, Xie Lanlan suggested to go for a walk, Ran Hang agreed, so Yan Hang saw him lift the quilt, revealing his thinner legs.

Ran Hang limped when he walked, his body was crooked, as if he would fall down at any time, it was the disease caused by jumping off the building, but he walked into the yard by himself without Xie Lanlan and Yan An's help.

There are still many patients here, who came out under the guidance of escorts and found a clean place to bask in the sun and breathe air. This small square of land in the hospital is their world, and the enclosed sky is their sky.

"The weather is fine," Ran Hang smiled, staring at the sky, then lowered his head after a while, looking at the sweet-scented osmanthus tree in the yard, "the tree is also fine."

"...Yes." Yan An nodded.

"Everything is fine." Ran Hang said.

Xie Lanlan gasped, as if she sensed something was wrong, she had already started to look back.

Yan An clenched his lips, and after a while, squeezed out a word from his lips: "Yes."

"When can I go out?" Ran Hang looked sideways at Yan An.

"...I don't know," Yan An held his breath the moment he looked over, "I... don't know."

"It's good here, the medicine is good, the doctor is good, the nurse is good, my illness is good, I'm already cured," Ran Hang's eyes widened, his pupils constricted suddenly, "When can I go out?"

"Go and call the nurse!" Yan An turned his head and growled at Xie Lanlan.

Xie Lanlan took two steps back, turned her head and shouted at the nearest nurse while running.

"No, don't shout, I'm fine, Xiao An, as you can see, I'm fine," Ran Hang smiled, "When can I go out?"

The nurse arrived quickly and separated Yan An from Ran Hang. While comforting Ran Hang's emotions, he asked Yan An to leave. Ran Hang stared at Yan An, and finally asked in a low voice: "Tell me Mom, I don't like men anymore, I'm not sick, I've been cured."

Xie Lanlan grabbed Yan An's wrist and dragged him out. Yan An saw that the hair tie on her wrist fell off at some point, and the flesh-red marks seemed to be pinched into the bones.

Ran Hang was held back by the nurse, stood there like a pine tree, and asked Yan An: "When can I go out?"

"What do you want to buy?" Ruan Yu asked while standing at the counter.

Jiang Shiyu took a look at him, exited the supermarket, made sure that this was not the small grocery store outside his neighborhood, and walked into the supermarket again, staring at Ruan Yu.

"Part-time job." Ruan Yu explained with a smile.

"... just buy some snacks." Jiang Shiyu said.

"Oh," Ruan Yu said, "the snacks are on the second-to-last row inside."

"Are there any raisins?" Jiang Shiyu asked.

"Yes," Ruan Yu said, "Do you like this?"

"No." Jiang Shiyu said.

"Huh?" Ruan Yu thought he was going to explain why he didn't eat, but Jiang Shiyu just said no, then turned his head and went to the shelf.

Pretty cool.

Ruan Yu stared at him.

I always feel that when he is with Yan An and the others, Jiang Shiyu needs to get along better and talk more.

Jiang Shiyu, who acts alone, will give people a sense of distance, difficult to meet, difficult to talk to, and Ruan Yu has seen him pick N with his own eyes, and always feels that this person looks delicate, maybe he has a Mickey Mouse tattoo on his chest .

Left green dragon right white tiger or something.

very cool.

Jiang Shiyu randomly picked out a bag of raisins, which he called a catty of peanuts.

The glutinous rice paste outside the school is off the shelf. If you want to eat it, you have to make it yourself, but you don’t know the ingredients, so let’s use lotus root starch instead.

So I took lotus root noodles again.

It's just that the supermarket outside the neighborhood was out of raisins, so Jiang Shiyu made a detour to this street to buy them, but he didn't expect to meet Ruan Yu.

Take it home and wash it, it tastes really good, maybe that paste is lotus root powder, but because of the dialect relationship, Jiang Shiyu has never figured out what the ingredients are, and the menu name on the food stall is also called in a dialect .

Jiang Shiyu took a bite.

The taste is still a bit different, it's not lotus root powder...don't know what that is.

Jiang Shiyu put away the leftover raisins and lotus root powder, and planned to make them again when he had a chance...or give them to Yan An and the others.

Speaking of Yan An.

Jiang Shiyu took out his mobile phone and glanced at their small group. The small group was a little abnormally quiet today.

Usually on weekends, the chats in the group start from ten o'clock in the morning to ten o'clock in the evening. I don't know how there are so many things to talk about. Yan An and Xie Lanlan can argue for two hours just about whether Xiaohail's cat food is good or not. , and finally Jiang Shiyu was pulled out to comment.

Yi Jiang Shiyu said that I don't think humans can, at least they shouldn't, you guys have nothing to do to eat other people... What are you doing eating other cats' cat food?for finishing touches.

Today is so quiet that there is not even an emoji package.

When Jiang Shiyu came back from washing the dishes, the group was still quiet. He thought about it and sent an emoji.

-I don't like to play with little idiots, but if it's you guys, cerebral palsy is fine.jpg

After waiting for a while, no one in the group responded to the message. Jiang Shiyu looked at his phone four or five times while writing a question, but the question was not written and no one responded to the message.

Why did you go?

Take a nap?Take a nap together?

Sun Ke was on his way with a knife.

Jiang Shiyu twirled the pen in his hand twice, touched the phone and clicked on Yan An's dialog box, but he didn't know what to say, after a while he didn't even know what to post in the emoji.

Forget it.

Maybe it's just something wrong.

On the big weekend, my two childhood sweethearts went out to play together, and it was quite...normal without checking my phone.

Jiang Shiyu stared at the question, and when he came back to his senses, he had already blacked out all the boxes next to the word "mouth" on the question. He threw the pen aside, put his arm on his eyelids and let out a long sigh .

"Thank you for the less sugar." Xie Lanlan said to the waiter.

After a while, two cups of less-sugar peach oolong came over, and Xie Lanlan handed a cup to Yan An, hesitated to speak, and finally said nothing.

"How about eating hot pot in the afternoon?" Xie Lanlan inserted the straw, "Ask Jiang Shiyu to come over and eat mandarin duck pot."

"Huh?" Yan An came back to his senses and plugged in the straw, "He can't eat spicy food."

"Yes," Xie Lanlan said, "that's why we eat mandarin duck pot."

Yan An pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled dryly: "Okay."

Xie Lanlan also smiled, and when the two of them were about to reach the gate of the community, she still couldn't hold back and reached out to pat Yan An's back lightly.

"It's okay," Xie Lanlan said softly, "Brother Ran Hang's matter... is an exception, not all homosexuals will... like that."

Yan An seemed to have been pressed the pause button, as if someone had suddenly pulled the wind-up. He looked at her with no eyes, just staring straight at her.

"I...not," Yan An said with a little difficulty, with a force in his hand, the fruit tea burst out from the straw and the edge of the hole, "Why are you telling me this?"

"I know you're not," Xie Lanlan lowered her head and took a sip of fruit tea, "I'm afraid you will think of something else, just to comfort you casually, do you know what is the taboo of comforting others? It is to explain what you just comforted others words."

Yan An said "Oh", and stretched out his hand to Xie Lanlan. Xie Lanlan fumbled a pack of tissues for him from his pocket.

After wiping his hands and cup, Yan An took a deep breath and walked forward with Xie Lanlan.

The shade of the trees here covers most of the light. Mr. Tony, who promised to come to the forest for a haircut, has not come yet. After a while, the place should be covered and airtight. Even after it rains, it will be covered under the leaves. The humidity can't be dispersed at all, and there are so many mosquitoes that the community management will probably be complained.

Then, during the hottest period, remove all shade foliage.

How wicked.

Yan An sighed, threw away the finished fruit tea, looked forward, and saw a familiar figure walking ahead.

"Jiang Shiyu?" Yan An called out in doubt.

Jiang Shiyu was obviously stunned for a while, then slowly turned around and looked at the two of them, with some emotion in his eyes that Yan An couldn't understand.

"What are you doing here?" Yan An and Xie Lanlan walked over, "Come to find me?"

"...Ah." Jiang Shiyu looked at the two of them, "I'll take a stroll."

"What are you shopping for?" Yan An frowned, "You won't get lost again, will you?"

"It's all here," Xie Lanlan took over the topic. Those who dare to talk nonsense and those who dare to believe it can easily talk to death. "Let's go back after eating hot pot. We will have mandarin duck pot in the afternoon."

"Oh." Jiang Shiyu nodded and glanced at Yan An, "Okay."