[Korean Entertainment] Close to Love

[Dear Sister Zhener:

Recently, I have been busy setting up my own office, so I can't even reply to your email.I feel a little heavy recently, although I have been disappointed with her—my sister many years ago, but seeing her paralyzed on the hospital bed with no interest in her eyes, I can even feel that she begging to die.For her, death is a relief.Looking at her struggling life for so many years, she seems to regard herself as a walking dead, especially after the death of her parents, she seems to have lost the determination to live.I finally understand what you said, sister, all the incomprehension and all the resentment will gradually subside as time goes by.

You said, if people live to a certain age and fulfill their dreams, if they live too long, they will feel that life is too boring, which is a kind of torture.At least we still have the continuation of life, but she has been married and divorced for so many years, divorced and remarried, she seems to not take herself seriously. A long time ago, I heard from my mother who passed away that she squandered her health too much when she was young. With youth, I have lost the right to be a mother.

I plan to put aside my work recently and spend the last days with her, only then did I realize that in this world, I am the only relative for her.I suddenly realized that we were all old, so old that I had gradually forgotten the things she had done to me.Okay, let's not talk about it, I hope my sister will be happier every day, although I have never seen my sister in so many years, but it is not important anymore, in my heart, my sister has been looking at me.

I love you Yuguo]

Jin Jiner looked at this email and shed tears unknowingly.Perhaps in this world, Yuguo is the one who lives the most free and unashamed life. She owes nothing to everyone. She is always kind and positive. She used to be a ray of sunshine in the morning, symbolizing hope and hope. Peace, now she is a ray of sunset at dusk, symbolizing inner peace and fearlessness.Each of them has their own selfish desires, and they don't hesitate to hurt the people around them. She is, Quan Zhilong is, and Mizuhara Kiko is even more so.Only Yuguo.She laughed, if there is a hell and heaven, then Yuguo must be in heaven after death.

There are so many stories between them... even if I recall them for a lifetime, I can't recall them all.

17 is old.

"Don't come to me on Saturday. My parents hope that I can get a better ranking in this national ballet competition. They have hired a good teacher for me. I don't have time." Jin Zhener wore a chiffon dress The light green skirt made her skin fairer. She braided her long hair in a random braid on her chest, looking fresh and playful. She is very good. She is so good that when she is standing on the street, people passing by will always turn back subconsciously. look at her.She has always known her strengths, and her mother said that it is okay for a good girl to be proud.She stuffed the movie ticket in her hand to the boy, "You can find someone else to watch it, I really don't have the time or the mood."

Quan Zhilong is wearing a woolen cap, a simple white T-shirt, dark jeans, and classic canvas shoes. He is very ordinary and ordinary. Anyone who looks for him on the street is similar to him, except that the black-rimmed glasses he wears are a little more For a few minutes, he held a sun umbrella for her, looking lonely, but soon laughed again, "It's okay, it's okay, let's go after your competition."

"By the way, my family is going to have a party on my birthday. Do you want to come?" Jin Zhener asked casually with curly hair. She has a very good fruit fragrance. In the hot summer, Quan Zhilong Just smelling the breath on her body, I feel extremely cool.He was very pleasantly surprised when he heard this, and repeatedly confirmed, "Really? Can I go?" Jin Zhener looked at him suspiciously, and said as a matter of course, "You are my boyfriend, of course you can go."

Kim Jin Ah would not know how long Quan Zhilong was happy because of her words.In fact, his request is really not much, as long as he is with her, as long as she smiles at him, that is enough.

On the day of the birthday party, because a boy in the class who admired her provocatively said that Quan Zhilong didn't even match Jin Jiner's fingernails, Quan Zhilong's face changed at that time, and he kept holding back. Everyone looked at him silently, without any intention of exiting the siege, he walked out a little lonely and sad.

After Jin Zhener waited for him to leave, she gave the boy a displeased look.For some reason, she wasn't as happy as she was just now. She leaned on the pillar outside and looked at the starry sky, bored.The child from the next door tugged at the corner of her clothes and said, "Just now... that brother was so shy... He actually cried." She froze for a while, touched the child's head with a smile, and then went back to the room with a The cake went out, leaving a group of students looking at each other in blank dismay.

She stood not far from his house, under the street lamp, she dialed his phone, "Are you home?" Quan Zhilong was lying on the floor not knowing what to think, when he saw Jin Zhener's call , a little happy, but thinking of what happened today, the joy faded away in an instant, and he muffled, "Just arrived." Jin Zhener kicked the stones by his feet, hesitated for a while, and said, "Can you come out for a while?" ? I'm under the streetlight in front of your house."

In a panic, Quan Zhilong stepped on his slippers and rushed out without even having time to hang up the phone. He pushed open the door and walked out of the yard. From afar, he saw the girl under the street lamp counting the squares on the ground.At that moment, Quan Zhilong didn't know how to describe his inner feelings, but he seemed to be hit by someone, his nose was sore, and his heart was sore.He trotted, panting heavily, looked at her stupidly and said, "Why are you here?"

Jin Zhener handed him the box containing the cake, tilted her head and smiled, "It's my birthday today, and you didn't even eat the cake."

Under the street lamp, he smiled foolishly, and Jin Zhener couldn't help laughing.

After a long, long time, when Quan Zhilong became famous, many fans hated the heroine Miss J in his song very much. They didn't know what there was to miss about such a woman who had hurt him so much.Because, none of them knew that Kim Jin Ah and Quan Zhilong also had a past that no one can erase.Every time Quan Zhilong closes his eyes, those pasts will be played back in his mind.He can't forget it, and he can't bear to forget it.

18 is old.

"Zhen'er? Zhen'er!" Quan Zhilong knocked on the door of her house in embarrassment. In the dark night, he wiped his tears in embarrassment, begging over and over again, "Open the door and let me see you. My fault is all my fault, don't leave me, don't ignore me!" It's a pity that the family in the house has already moved away, leaving only a lonely room.

"Please, don't leave me..." Quan Zhilong curled up at the door of her house, his shoulders twitching non-stop.He doesn't know what self-esteem is. In front of Jin Zhener, he doesn't need self-esteem, he doesn't need face, he doesn't need anything, as long as she is.No matter how humble, no matter how small, it doesn't matter, as long as she is enough.

People passing by saw this scene with their children in their arms, and couldn't help leaving quickly.The child Tong Yan Wuji asked doubtfully, "Is that brother a fool? Why is he crying all the time?" The woman smiled and patted her son on the shoulder, explaining, "Maybe he was broken in love, that's why he cried, he must love you very much." That girl."

"What is broken love?" The child continued to ask curiously.

The woman thought for a while, and said, "Even if the girl he likes leaves, she will never smile at him again, and he won't be able to hold that girl's hand anymore."

Quan Zhilong always thought that her not loving him was the saddest thing in the world, until after she left, every time he thought of her, his heart would always throb so painfully that he wished he could die in the next second.He was fascinated by the contradictory emotions of loving her and hating her. He never forgot her a day, and Jin Zhener's smile and anger filled his heart every minute and every second.Only then did he realize that it turned out that his loving her was the saddest thing in the world. If he didn't love her, it would be fine.

22 is old.

"Really, why are you crying?" The friend next to her pushed her.Jin Zhener looked up at the posters in the store and shed tears silently.In the poster, the man is thinner than before, and his eyes are less youthful, and more unruly and domineering. She wiped her tears with the back of her hand, turned her head and smiled, "It's nothing, just looking at this group , a little moved."

The friend is a foreigner and doesn't know about Bigbang, so he looked at it with some doubts and shook his head to express his puzzlement.

"Quan Zhilong, I miss you." She murmured, speaking in Korean, her friend was a little puzzled, but didn't ask any further.Jin Zhener begged the shopkeeper to sell the poster to him. The shopkeeper pointed to a girl who was clearing the table and said that the poster belonged to her and he couldn't make the decision.Jin Jiner pleaded with the foreign student waiter, that girl has very cute dimples, she grabbed Jin Jiner's hand and smiled, "I hope that one day people all over the world will know my brothers, and you, are you also a VIP?" Jin Zhener The girl shook her head. The girl was a little disappointed, but she still tore the poster off the wall and handed it to her.

At night, Kim Jin Ah knelt on the floor holding this poster, crying like a child.

I'm not a fan, I'm just your real son.

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Quan Zhilong's health was getting worse day by day, he was lying on the hospital bed, his face became paler and paler, Jin Zhener came to the hospital as usual with the soup made by himself, her legs and feet were not very convenient, but she still came to the hospital every day.The doctor said that Quan Zhilong's days are numbered.Quan Zhilong is very satisfied, at least he has been with Jin Zhener for decades.But there is also some extravagant hope, that in the next life, he will still know her and fall in love with her without hesitation.Even if she doesn't love herself, it doesn't matter, as long as he still loves her.

"Look at how stinky you are now, what I said back then, less dyed hair and less smoking, you just didn't listen, now you know it hurts." Jin Zhener fed him soup and wiped the soup overflowing from the corner of his mouth with a handkerchief Juicy, the tone is complaining but also a little distressed.Quan Zhilong coughed a few times, and felt that his lungs were hurting from the cough.He gasped, "No regrets—at least I was handsome back then."

Jin Zhener didn't speak, but just stared at him.Quan Zhilong stretched out his hand to smooth his chest, and asked calmly, "How many days do I have?" Jin Zhener was stunned for a moment, and replied calmly, "Less than a month." Quan Zhilong smiled, He has lived enough—

With trembling hands, he took out a bottle from his hospital gown and handed it to Jin Zhener, "Here you are."

Jin Zhener took it and took a look, it was An Ding.He nodded calmly and put it in his pocket.

"Do you want to meet Shengli and them?" Jin Zhener asked.

Quan Zhilong shook his head, "No, they don't have a good life for a few days, and if they see me again, they will be sad and die before me." Jin Zhener smiled and touched his arm as a comfort.

A month later, Quan Zhilong passed away in the early hours of the morning.

Jin Jiner wore the dress he gave him when he was young, and took out two bottles of medicine from the drawer, one of which was the Valium that Quan Zhilong secretly gave him, and the other bottle was bought bit by bit by her during this time.She swallowed the two bottles of medicine, looked at their wedding photos, and smiled contentedly.

At noon on the same day, Jin Zhener swallowed the medicine.

Only left a letter to his son Kwon Se-seok.

[son:

Your father is worried about me living alone in this world.I also don't want to live in this world without him.You must bury me and your father together. We have made an appointment, whether we live or die, we will never be separated again.Mom and Dad are very selfish. In the future, you, Xiao Ran and your children will live a good life. Your dad has been waiting for me for many years. This time I am afraid that he will be impatient. What if he gets angry and forgets me?So this time, I don't want him to wait too long, he will be alone. ]

The author has something to say: This is the complete ending...

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