The joy in my heart is related to you [entertainment circle]

Si Wei got up and went to the living room, but Zhou Wei was not there, so he wondered if he hadn't woken up yet.

He went to knock on the door of Zhou Wei's bedroom, and found that the door was ajar and not closed firmly, and he pushed it open with one finger.

Zhou Wei was not in the bedroom, the bed was tidy, and the pillows and quilt were not there, as if they had been put into the closet.

Si Wei was startled, and found that many things in the room were put away, only a large luggage bag was placed on the chair, it was bulging, and it was obviously full of luggage.

Si Wei sat on the sofa in the living room with her cheeks in her hands in a daze, her whole body was in a sad and depressed mood.

After seeing the bag of luggage, the already sober mind was dizzy like a mess stuffed in the closed dark space. Only one thing was always clear——Zhou Wei packed his things, and he was leaving!

Last night, Zhou Weihuan's tone was gentle, and he took care of him meticulously and patiently until the middle of the night, and he was not unhappy.

Why pack up in the bedroom now?

Thinking of Zhou Wei pushing him away after a kiss last night, he should understand!It still made Zhou Wei unhappy.

Zhou Wei didn't say anything, just to save face for him, and he was concerned about his illness.

When Zhou Wei came back, he was still in a daze.

He stared blankly at Zhou Wei putting the breakfast he bought into small white porcelain bowls and plates, saying "too many people", "queuing up", "hot hands", etc., but he didn't listen to a few words .

Zhou Wei saw that he was not in shape, worried that he was still having a fever, and walked over to touch his forehead: "How are you?"

Zhou Wei's hands were extremely hot because he had taken the breakfast.

Si Wei raised her right hand to cover the back of his hand, and pressed her forehead to his palm relyingly.

"Stop burning!" Zhou Wei asked with concern, "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

It's really uncomfortable, it's heartbreaking!

He said, "Just a little dizzy."

Zhou Wei withdrew his hand calmly, and said, "I'm still a little weak, eat some breakfast, sleep later, it should be fine when I get up at noon."

"Yes." Si Wei obediently responded.

Si Wei had a bad appetite, two mouthfuls of steamed buns and porridge would fill him up, if Zhou Wei hadn't been urging him, he would have dropped his chopsticks.

He didn't eat very well, and Zhou Wei ate reluctantly—since last night, he was struggling with how to tell Si Wei, whether to be more tactful or more straightforward?

It is good to be tactful, but it is also prone to misunderstandings, and the more explanations, the more chaotic.

For Si Wei's sensitive personality, perhaps it would be a better way to speak frankly.

After breakfast, Zhou Wei took the initiative to clean up the table, washed the dishes and poured Si Wei a glass of warm water.

Si Wei held the cup and sipped, silently waiting for Zhou Wei to sit down and tell him to leave.

He is just right now, and he can still pretend to be stupid by taking advantage of his illness.

After tidying up, Zhou Wei came over and asked him, "Would you like to go to bed and lie down for a while?"

Si Wei shook his head, patted the sofa beside him, and signaled him to sit down.

Zhou Wei sat down next to him, with a distance of one person.

The two were silent for 2 minutes, the air was unusually quiet, and finally Zhou Wei spoke first.

"Si Wei, I have something to tell you." Zhou Wei said, "The first thing is, my uncle was hospitalized for a week before. He was just discharged from the hospital and is still recovering, and he needs someone to take care of him. He kept nagging me to move back, and I I pretended not to understand and fooled around, but this time I really can't bear to fool him. So I'm going back for a few days, and come out when he gets better."

Holding the water glass in his hands, Si Wei watched the curling white smoke spread out from the mouth of the glass, scattered in the air, and slowly returned to nothingness, and gave a low "hmm".

Zhou Wei bit her slightly dry lips, hesitated for a moment, and then said: "The second thing, about you last night... I'm sorry! I haven't figured it out yet..."

Si Wei lowered his head even lower, when he heard Zhou Wei say "sorry", tears welled up in his eyes, scalding his eyes, he didn't want Zhou Wei to see it.

"It's not that you're bad!" Seeing him, Zhou Wei felt uncomfortable, leaned towards him, and said in an urgent tone, "It's me! It's my problem! My 20 years of knowledge, my vision for the future family , is different from the reality in front of you..."

Si Wei nodded, trying her best to calm down.

Zhou Wei said apologetically, "I haven't thought deeply about it. The person I love is a boy like me..."

Si Wei said softly with a hoarse voice, "Zhou Wei, answer me a question frankly."

"Okay! Tell me." Zhou Wei looked at him sincerely.

Si Wei raised her head, looked into his eyes, and asked seriously, "Tell me, have you ever liked me a little bit beyond brotherhood?"

"..."

"Even for a moment, there is such a slight heartbeat, have you ever had it?"

Faced with Si Wei's questioning, Zhou Wei sighed silently, thinking: I'm just struggling with this matter, how should I answer you?

"I couldn't sleep last night, thinking a lot..."

Si Wei didn't want to hear him go around in circles, stared into his eyes, and asked stubbornly again: "I only ask you! Did you ever like me at all, not like a friend or brother like fraternity!"

"..." Zhou Wei breathed out, "Although I haven't talked to boys, I have met many girls. I think the feelings of liking someone are the same. Falling in love at first sight is because a certain point of the other party touches my heart. , and the long-term love is because we have been together for a long time, and we are willing to develop a deeper relationship."

Si Wei pursed her lips and listened patiently.

Zhou Wei went on to say: "Obviously we are not the former, as for the latter... we both live under the same roof, help each other, take care of each other, have more contacts than other friends, and are emotionally close. Maybe let us With a wrong understanding, this kind of intimacy is regarded as a lover's liking. Maybe after a certain distance and time, you will find that this kind of liking is not as high as a lover. So, I tell you this frankly, I hope we Being able to distance yourself and reflect on yourself makes it easier to tell the truth from the fake. Do you... understand?"

Before Zhou finished speaking, he anxiously waited for Si Wei's reaction.

A layer of water mist formed in Si Wei's eyes when he looked at him, and it took a long time to form a shallow smile. Before the layer of water mist gathered into teardrops, he lowered his head and smiled lightly.

"You want to say that you were just teaching me the routine when you said the rustic love talk, and you didn't mean to be jealous because of my ambiguity with Luo Hui? There are other people among your friends who are gay, and you can get along with them naturally. Do you only treat me politely to avoid suspicion? Everything is my misunderstanding?"

Si Wei's calm questioning was like a blunt knife cutting through flesh, which really made him feel uncomfortable.

He really wanted to tell Si Wei that his heart was already in a mess, but he couldn't!

He can no longer make false leads until he sorts out his feelings.

Zhou Wei knelt down in front of him, held Si Wei's hand resting on her knee, and looked up at him.

Si Wei forced a smile, his hand didn't twitch, so he had to hold it.

Zhou Wei said in a sincere tone: "I'm sorry! I know this is not what you want to hear, but I still have to say it. Si Wei, you have never really been in love. Maybe in your heart, as long as you can talk, you are willing to talk about it." If you are nice to you, you can develop into a lover, but true love is more than that!"

Si Wei was a little confused: "Doesn't love start with a heartbeat?"

"Love begins with a heartbeat. To me - is your heart a little bit more, or is it because I treat you well?"

Si Wei became even more confused: "Is there... a difference?"

"It's a big difference! Because you like me, you are moved, or because you like my kindness to you, and you feel that you are moved. The former is easy to understand, and the latter means that if someone else treats you like this, you will like it too. But it's not love, it's just being moved by kindness."

Si Wei looked into his eyes, feeling extremely disappointed, and stated softly: "You think I am the latter, and I am only moved by your kindness, not really moved by you."

Zhou Wei smiled at him: "I didn't say this to perfuse you, but to let you think it through rationally! Of course, I also need time to sort it out before I can decide how to answer your question."

Si Wei thought silently: When I was in school, I had a crush on a male classmate. At that time, I just thought that he was very nice and wanted to get closer to him. I didn't think about anything too far away.

Later, I sent ambiguous messages with Luo Hui. I was not sure that I would really like the same sex for a long time, and I was also struggling to avoid it.

It wasn't until I found out that you might like me too, that I had the courage to imagine what it would be like to be with another man in the future and be white forever!

Si Wei looked at him for a long time with fascinated eyes, Zhou Wei sighed heavily in his heart, and softly called his name: "Si Wei..."

Si Wei's eyes flickered, and he looked away: "I'm sorry, I was distracted."

Zhou Wei said "hmm" and didn't say anything.

Si Wei looked into his eyes again, and smiled slightly: "I understand. I respect you, I will give you time to sort it out, and I will think about this issue myself. However, I don't want to wait aimlessly, we... Three months is the limit!"

For three months, either you think clearly about getting along with me as a lover, or you will cut off contact, and I will quit you!

He can understand that Zhou Wei needs time to think.

It was only when he found out that he liked Zhou Wei recently that he made up his mind.

Zhou Wei has more than 20 years of cognition and love view as straight men, and now he has to accept same-sex confession, which cannot be reversed in a short time.

Zhou Wei didn't speak, but nodded slightly.

Si Wei picked up the glass on the coffee table and found that the warm water in it was already cold: "I'll go change a glass of hot water. When you leave, I won't see you off."

He glanced at Zhou Wei hurriedly, got up and walked into the kitchen, closed the door, his eyes immediately became moist.

Looking at the kitchen door in the living room, Zhou Wei seemed to be able to see Si Wei's red eyes catching tears through the door, and felt uncomfortable.

Get up and go to the room to get the bag, before going out, said through the kitchen door: "Si Wei, my other items are put in the closet first, if you need me to vacate the room, send me a message?"

After a while, Si Wei replied "Yes".

Si Wei listened patiently to the sounds outside, Zhou Wei went to the door to change his shoes, opened the anti-theft door, and after a long pause, he heard the sound of him closing the door.

Si Wei counted the steps silently in her heart, imagining how he would go downstairs.

When he counted to the last flight of stairs, he walked to the depths of the kitchen, looked out through the wiped transparent window, and soon saw Zhou Wei's back.

Today is a sunny day with good sunshine.Zhou Wei was wearing a navy blue thin long windbreaker with black casual slim-leg trousers underneath. He was well-proportioned and slender.

Carrying a large bag in one hand, he walked to the parking position, opened the door and threw the bag in, and then sat in the driver's seat in front.

Zhou Wei sat in the car for a while before starting the car, drove out slowly, and disappeared between the buildings along the extension of the road.