邪门 的 爱情 出现 了

Fu Xiaoyu stared blankly at the alpha who was apologizing while having a nosebleed.

When he finally heard the "I'm sorry", he didn't even know how to describe his feelings.

He stood in the night wind, no matter how sad he was, he didn't want to avoid his eyes, so he could only stare at Xu Jiale stubbornly without saying a word.

"sorry."

Xu Jiale repeated again in a hoarse voice: "Xiao Yu, I've been wanting to say this since we broke up... But, no matter what I think in my heart, I'm not qualified to say I'm sorry. Because I really I don’t know, I said I’m sorry—and then what? Then what should I do.”

"It's not even just a qualification to be sorry." This alpha sniffed a little painfully: "You went to Vietnam, I browsed the DingTalk group dozens of times a day, and when I found out that something was wrong with you, I knew I was a fool by jumping up and down like this, But I just couldn’t control myself. I didn’t expect that when I arrived in Vietnam early in the morning, I had to queue up to apply for a visa. Everything seemed to be messing with me. In this way, I finally saw you in the hospital..."

When he said this, he had to pause for a moment because he thought of that day, as if to cover up, he touched the nosebleed with the back of his hand indiscriminately.

When Xu Jiale raised his head again, his nose and eyes were rubbed red: "You had just finished the injection, and you were lying there with your back to me. I know, you didn't want to see me at all. Later you told me: If I care about you like this again, you will be sad. Fu Xiaoyu, I only had one thought in my mind at that time: I am finished. You just lay there, sick and thin, but I can no longer hug you .I am done."

He said, but I can no longer hug you.

Fu Xiaoyu even had to look away for a short while, in order to barely restrain her loss of control and weakness at that moment.

He actually knew it, he knew that Alpha was hesitant to speak when he was guarding in the ward, he knew that Alpha was devastated when he left Vietnam alone.

"Xiao Yu, you are actually asking the right question, and I really want to ask myself, don't I know the meaning of breaking up?"

Xu Jiale looked bitterly at the blood stains on the back of his hand and said, "I know. I was just so stupid at that day, at that moment, that I was forced to believe that you are such an excellent omega, without me, After one year or two years, I will definitely find an alpha who loves you very much; and without you, I will live my whole life as a good father, and I can live on. Who knows, after the breakup These days, I don't know what I'm doing. It's not a power outage at all. The whole circuit board is shorted. I can't survive. I actually only found out the night I came back from Vietnam. Mom can't live like this."

"Xiao Yu, I secretly contacted Xiao Shan this time to find a suitable time to apologize solemnly to you. Moreover, what I want to say is not only an apology, but also—"

Xu Jiale paused for a long time when he said this, and finally took a deep breath.

At that moment, he almost had to clench his fist secretly in embarrassment before he could look directly at Fu Xiaoyu and say word for word: "Xiaoyu, I really... still want to be with you."

At the same time as I said that sentence, I felt that my heart actually stopped for half a beat.

During these two days, Xu Jiale imagined countless times what he wanted to say in front of Fu Xiaoyu. He had to be thoughtful, careful, and convincing.

But after breaking up, accident after accident always didn't give him any time to prepare, he was hasty.

Because when he really faced Fu Xiaoyu who suddenly rushed in front of him, he only had longing.

The strong desire has become the only taste in the mouth——

I really, really still want to be with you.

Fu Xiaoyu sat on the steps listening intently, but didn't say a word.

In fact, on the way here, he didn't even know what he wanted, nor what his purpose was.

He was just like an angry little beast, who decided to give up thinking this night, let his instincts vent, wantonly vented the emotions of the past ten days.

And what happened after venting, he didn't actually think about it.

But anger is only temporary after all.

From the second they embraced angrily but throbbed almost at the same time, he already knew that tonight was destined to be different.

But he didn't know where to go.

Some emotions, sour, grinding emotions, like waves in the silent night, came quietly in waves, invading his anger and will.

They didn't know when, unknowingly, they got a little closer.

The night wind blew in gusts, and the thinly dressed alpha trembled slightly, but at this moment, he didn't care about anything else and just looked at him blankly.

As time passed by, Xu Jiale's expression became more and more tense, and Fu Xiaoyu finally spoke.

"What about the child?"

Fu Xiaoyu asked: "What should I do?"

Xu Jiale seemed to be facing the examiner, and quickly replied: "I am dealing with it step by step. First, I need to clarify the custody issue with Jin Chu, and I am already contacting my lawyer. I plan to have an interview with Jin Chu , and then explain the divorce to Nan Yi with Jin Chu, and see how to alleviate Nan Yi's pain to the greatest extent."

"Then what if Nan Yi is still unwilling?"

Fu Xiaoyu's eyes were sharp, and she continued to ask.

"...Xiaoyu."

Xu Jiale lowered his head and gently put the metal cigarette case into his pocket, then raised his head.

Of course he knew there would be this problem, and every time he thought about it, he still felt heavy.

But no matter how heavy it is, once he has the answer, he will no longer be afraid.

"At the beginning, I broke up with you because I wanted to hide the divorce from Nan Yi. At that time, I thought, I will only be a father in my life, even if I am not happy, so be it. I am I really thought that I chose the most difficult path, sacrificing myself, and being a good father. Actually—"

When Xu Jiale said this, the expression on his face was almost a naked mockery of himself.

"I'm too self-righteous. In fact, I didn't. I didn't choose the most difficult path. I just stabbed myself with a knife, thinking that I was great. But the fact is the opposite. Giving up on yourself is the easiest way, even giving up on yourself , as if all the misfortunes in the future are not my responsibility, in fact, isn’t that the most weak and selfish way.”

Xu Jiale said softly: "It's a simple truth, but it took me so long to figure it out—Fu Xiaoyu, you've actually thought about it a long time ago, right?"

Fu Xiaoyu didn't speak, but his eyes clearly explained the answer.

"It seems that courage is sometimes wisdom."

Xu Jiale smiled wryly, and said softly: "I was indeed a few beats behind, but luckily I figured it out. Yes, it will be very difficult for a long time to come. I may have to face Nan Yi's sadness many times. There are many ways to let him understand that Dad still loves him. But no matter how difficult it is, I have already decided, and I will never go back to the easy but weak path. Xiaoyu, I will go on step by step, like like a true alpha."

Fu Xiaoyu became quiet again, it's not that he didn't believe Xu Jiale's words.

But the real problem has been dissected, and the rest...

It can no longer be avoided.

"Xu Jiale, but I haven't forgiven you yet."

When he said these words, Fu Xiaoyu even had to forcibly pull himself together.

His expression was so serious that he said word by word: "I won't be with you now either, this is my decision."

His words are obviously so firm, every word is resolute.

But when it came to the end, a trace of bewilderment flashed in those round cat eyes.

In this autumn night when everything was chaotic in time and space, he woke up completely from his anger for the first time, and trembled somewhat helplessly——

He has made a decision.

But for the next second, there is a sense of depression and depression that I don't know what to do.

"Xiaoyu..."

Xu Jiale looked at Fu Xiaoyu, and couldn't help getting closer.

He was rejected without mercy.

But that wasn't a sad thing, or even an accident.

His sadness came from the sudden confusion in Fu Xiaoyu's eyes.

He understands this omega, he really understands it.

"I know—don't forgive me, don't forgive me, at least not now."

Xu Jiale had no way to hug this omega who was showing loneliness in front of him, and his voice became deeper and hoarse because of anxiety: "I understand that when you are still sad and hate me, you can't be with me Together, otherwise you will be unwilling for the rest of your life."

This unwillingness to reconcile finally made Fu Xiaoyu look at Xu Jiale.

He has always been a result-oriented person, but only this time, he doesn't want to care about the result.

He doesn't want to think about the result, he only cares about this moment——

Yes, at this moment, he was just not reconciled, he just didn't want to forgive.

Xu Jiale didn't back down. Although this alpha had experienced an extremely embarrassing night, but at this moment, he gently approached the body of omega, and said every word.

"Xiao Yu, what I said today is because I have seen you, and I can't bear it anymore. I have to tell you my thoughts: I want to be with you, I want to be with you forever. I will be with you from now on Everything I do in the future is to work hard for this goal. This is what I have to do. But you are different, you don’t need to forgive me, and you don’t need to make any decisions, even if you want to close the door tightly first, It doesn't matter how long you let me hang around outside the door."

"But I won't give up again."

What Xu Jiale said next was very slow.

Every word is the courage he inherited from the distant sweet memory, from the omega in front of him.

"Xiao Yu, this time, let me chase you. As you said, chasing means that the ending is unknown. So, there is no responsibility, no burden, just—let me chase you, okay? "