邪门 的 爱情 出现 了

The corner of the hospital is adjacent to an elementary school, so the playground area in the middle of the park happens to be full of children after school playing here at this moment.When Xu Lang accompanied Murong Jingya to the hospital for an examination before, he brought Nanyi here by the way, so he was very familiar with it.

Nan Yi was very happy when he heard that he went to the park. He is familiar with himself. Last time he met a first-year friend here. Of course, he is also a beautiful boy with big eyes and fair skin. I hope to see you again, so as soon as I arrive at the amusement park, I can't wait to go to the place where the children gather.

"Daddy, don't follow me."

Although Xiao Nanyi is young, he is born to be a sociable adult, knowing that when such a group of children are around, bringing parents will lose their dignity.

He ran two steps forward, then turned his head and told Xu Jiale: "But don't go too far, as long as I can see you when I turn around!"

His eyes are small, and when he smiles and blinks, he looks like a little fox.

Even at this time, Xu Jiale was still so teased that he couldn't help laughing: "Okay, Grandpa and I will sit by the side and wait for you."

After Nan Yi ran away, he turned his head and sat on the bench next to Xu Lang with Xu Lang, watching the children who were noisily chasing and running in the distance.

Autumn is coming, and there are already many fallen leaves on the ground in the park. The evening wind blows slowly from behind, bringing a sense of coolness.

"Is your body okay? Does your stomach still hurt?"

"It's okay, it's not too uncomfortable."

"Eat something light these days, don't drink alcohol, and don't stay up late."

Xu Lang muttered a sentence habitually, but seeing Xu Jiale's appearance, he also knew that his son's thoughts were not here, so he paused and asked directly: "Lele, you suddenly ran to Vietnam two days ago, did you go to see him?" Where did your little partner from before go?”

"Yes."

Xu Jiale said.

He really felt that he was sick, even if he heard Xu Lang say such a sentence - "Your little object", his stomach was sore and sore.

Then I realized that Xu Lang was followed by a question, and immediately added: "It's because he was bitten by a mosquito in Vietnam and got dengue fever. I was really worried, so I didn't think much about it, and booked a ticket to go there in the middle of the night. Actually... ...it's embarrassing."

Xu Jiale twitched the corner of his mouth bitterly, not knowing if that expression was considered a smile, he lowered his head and said, "I don't have anything to do with him anymore, and it made him feel uncomfortable even if he went, fortunately, he is not seriously ill. "

Xu Lang sighed softly, and after a while, he looked at the bustling playground and said in a low voice, "You still think about him, don't you?"

Xu Jiale turned to look at Xu Lang, opened his lips, but couldn't speak for a while.

Although this alpha is over 50 years old, he is still well-dressed, with gold-framed glasses, a black T-shirt on his upper body, and a camel sweater with thick stitches on the outside, giving him a middle-aged yuppie look.

He has slender eyebrows and narrow eyes, a tall nose, and thin and tight skin. This kind of appearance is not only resistant to aging, but also has a bit of a dignified aristocratic temperament.But because of his gentle expression, that arrogance never showed.

"Lele—"

Xu Lang sat closer, and asked seriously: "Why did you break up suddenly at that time? Is it because of the child?"

"Nan Yi...he didn't know about the divorce between Jin Chu and me, and he had asthma again that day. I was really afraid..."

Xu Jiale didn't finish speaking, but suddenly felt a bitter taste in his mouth.

He had explained the same reason to Wen Ke, and he had explained it to himself countless times. When he explained it to Xu Lang again, he felt tired and absurd, and he couldn't even convince himself.

He finally said in a hoarse voice: "Xu Lang, I really thought I could do without love and just concentrate on fulfilling my responsibilities as a father. But now... I regret it. Not only am I a fucking bad lover, I'm actually a bad one." Father, in the end, I did nothing well."

Xu Lang said, "Lele, you are not a bad father."

Alpha's deep voice carried a strong sense of security.

At that moment, Xu Jiale really felt as if he had returned to his childhood, he could no longer hold on, he could only shake his head dejectedly, like a child who has done something wrong.

"Lele, what do you think of me? Am I a bad father too?"

Xu Jiale raised his head abruptly.

This sentence made him strongly want to refute, but before he could speak, Xu Lang had already continued.

"Before you went to America, you were always mad at me, don't you remember? At that time, we couldn't speak a few words for a week, and you were either at a friend's house or locked yourself in your room. Because I always Didn't you divorce Jingya, did you... also hate me in your heart? Hate me for being cowardly, for my poor life?"

"I……"

Xu Jiale's voice suddenly trembled slightly.

He couldn't say that he really didn't hate at all.

A teenager in the rebellious period, love and hate are as strong as midsummer.

When he came back from Murong Jingya's estrus, he smashed the glass of Xu Lang's bedroom with a stone, turned around and ran away, and then lay alone on the school's red plastic runway until the security guards drove him out before nightfall.

But of course hate is not everything.

When you grow up, you will understand that between you and your father, too pure love is as rare as too pure hate.

His long pause caused a trace of sadness to appear in Xu Lang's eyes, which made Xu Jiale feel the same heartache.

"Xu Lang, of course you're not bad."

He took a deep breath, and finally just laughed at himself: "Actually, you are the greatest and greatest father in my heart."

Of course it would be embarrassing for an alpha to say such things after becoming an adult.

But now that we have reached this point, it seems that there is no need to hide it any more. He said, "Xu Lang, I know that everything you do is for me. In fact, since I was a child, I have always wanted to be as responsible as you." father, really."

His upbringing was so contradictory.

That home was like a paper house in the wind and rain. Xu Lang carefully papered it layer by layer with paper pulp by himself, even though raindrops still leaked in from time to time.

But anyway, he survived.

Because of this, he rebelliously hated Xu Lang's surrender, but he never had an absolute sense of security in his heart, so he always quietly relied on and respected Xu Lang's responsibility and protection.

"Lele..."

Xu Lang and Xu Jiale looked at each other for a long time, and suddenly held Xu Jiale's hand tightly: "My son, I have always loved you. But I don't want to divorce, it's really not just because of a sense of responsibility."

Xu Jiale stared at Xu Lang in a daze, while the older alpha continued with some difficulty: "It's been so many years, I still don't know how to tell you these things. After Jingya cheated, I was also discouraged back then I thought about divorce coldly, but...he was the one who didn't want to, even if I said I wouldn't hold him accountable or get back his equity, he wouldn't. In fact, when I was young, I often didn't know what to do. What should I do, I hate him, but I am not reconciled, so I dragged it down.

At that time, Jingya would come back to Shuncheng to find me when she was in heat. You were always very angry, but in fact we were not together at that time. I hated him, so I wanted to punish him.So when he came back to me, he also took inhibitors. Both of them were in pain. After a year or two, he asked me, if I took out the glands, would I trust him again, because he would no longer be able to Attract other alphas. "

"Then he...?"

Xu Jiale was also taken aback, he never knew that there were so many thrilling entanglements between his two fathers.

"I didn't believe he would do this at first, but I didn't rush there until he was in the hospital for an operation. In the end, I still couldn't bear it."

"and after?"

"Let's forget about it later... Let's get together again. Then you are going to go to the United States, and he often comes back to Shuncheng, and you don't even know it. After this operation, Jingya is going to completely resign. , He said that he didn't want to be busy outside any more, and wanted to spend his old age with me."

Xu Jiale looked at Xu Lang in a daze: "Xu Lang, you...can you really forgive him?"

"I do not know either."

Xu Lang smiled slightly, his expression showed a calmness and indifference that Xu Jiale couldn't immediately understand, and continued: "Even after so many years, I still hate him a little bit, maybe this little bit Hate, I can't let go of it until I die, I just learned to live with this little bit of hate."

"Lele, I haven't told you about the things between me and Jingya these years. Maybe it's because I don't want my son to look down on me and think that I live a worthless life. But Lele, I don't want you to treat me Thinking so pitifully, as if I just want to shoulder the responsibility of being a father, and then make a little effort to support a family. It's not like that-"

"I have always loved your father, and of course I love you too. You are his and my child. Even if you think I am humble, even if the love is not as pure as when I was young, I still love you. If there is no such trace Love lasts, and I can't survive for decades by sacrificing myself and relying on a sense of responsibility. That's simply impossible, do you understand? Even I can't do it."

Xu Jiale was stunned, his fingers trembling involuntarily.

That answer was so unexpected, but it seemed to have been vaguely in his heart for a long time.

It turns out that people... can't really sacrifice themselves, right?

Even Xu Lang, whom he admired the most, couldn't do it.

That is something only God can do.

"Lele, if this is the case, do you still think what a great father I am?"

"..."

Xu Jiale turned to the beginning, and finally said in a low voice: "Xu Lang, it doesn't matter if you are great or not. I just... hope you can be happy."

It was very difficult for him to say this.

He may not be able to forgive Murong Jingya in his whole life, but Xu Lang's choice is Xu Lang's choice after all.

At that moment, his heart seemed to be blown by a sentimental autumn wind.

"In my life, I probably won't be able to have perfect and complete happiness. Sometimes I think about it, and I feel very regretful. But incomplete happiness is still happiness."

Xu Lang plucked a fallen leaf from Xu Jiale's body, and said softly, "Lele, my son, you want me to be happy. The same is true for Nan Yi, and Nan Yi also wants you to be happy."

Xu Jiale silently looked at Nan Yi who was already having fun with other children not far away, and suddenly buried his face in his hands uncontrollably.

That's not a crash.

It's just that at that moment, too strong emotions swept his whole body, and his shoulders trembled slightly involuntarily.

"I used to think that I didn't make it clear to prevent you from being angry and disappointed with me, but in fact I did it wrong. I didn't expect that I realized this truth when I was in my 50s. As a father, if you want to teach your children something, you must do it yourself. how to live."

"Lele, you are also a father. What about you, how do you want Nan Yi to live in the future? Do you want him to only remember to bear heavy responsibilities, or do you want him to be happy?"

"I……"

"I want……"

Xu Jiale choked up, and said word by word: "If you want Nanyi to be happy and brave, you must always... be honest with yourself, and love the person you want to love."

"Then you will live like this from now on." Xu Lang said softly.

The rustling wind blew into his mouth and neckline.

His chest seemed to be open.

When I moved my footsteps, I suddenly heard the slight crisp sound of dead branches and fallen leaves being crushed.

That voice was like a crisp sound coming from his heart.

He also wants to live like this.

Brave, honest, and loving Fu Xiaoyu.

"Daddy!"

The little guy swooped back at some point, he seemed to think that Xu Jiale's appearance was a bit funny, he couldn't help standing in front of Xu Jiale, and grabbed the hair on the top of Alpha's head: "Daddy, what are you doing?"

"Baby, don't..." Xu Jiale covered his face in a bit of embarrassment, feeling his hair being picked up in bunches.

"Grandpa, is daddy not feeling well? He doesn't look well."

"Baby, Dad is just thinking of you." Xu Lang smiled at the side, and said softly to the little guy, then rubbed Xu Jiale's back with his other hand.

"Oh!" Nan Yi suddenly became happy, stood on tiptoe and wrapped his arms around Xu Jiale's head, gave Xu Jiale a hard "boo" on the back of the head, and said, "Daddy, I miss you too. iloveyou!"

Xu Lang, Xu Jiale, Xu Nanyi.

Two pairs of father and son connected by him.

The fate of life, in this autumn, made him feel so warm and complete for the first time.

Xu Jiale refused to raise his face no matter what, embarrassment and happiness rushed together——

He is so stupid.

And life is so good.