I heard that Dr. Cheng is not easy to follow.

Zhu Le clenched the key in his hand, and walked to the door deep in his memory but had never been there before. The action of inserting the key was very sharp, and the keyhole became jerky because it had not been used for too long. Zhu Le left go in.

into the mouth of the monster.

The purpose of entry is some very ordinary furniture, nothing special, but Zhu Le seems to be able to see the man's past and the traces of his life here.

In the empty room, the figure of the man suddenly appeared in Zhu Le's eyes. The sunset outside the window came to an end, and he was cooking and eating in the kitchen alone. Sitting on the sofa in the living room, holding the remote control in his hand, his eyes are empty, and only in the evening, he may think of those things, the youth he once had, the youthful ignorance he had, and his The discarded child.

At that time, he had already seen that child, his eyes and lips were all like his mother, and there was almost no resemblance to himself, but when he saw the child for the first time, he was sure that this was the child from back then. In addition, it was just because the child looked at him very much like the self-willed self back then. He was sorry, but there was nothing he could do.

The child couldn't read the emotion in his eyes, and his expression was always indifferent, which surprised him. He didn't know what the child had gone through these years. After he tried to find him but failed, he once thought that the child had passed away. , he is not qualified to ask this child to forgive him for anything, he can only do his best to compensate him, but it seems that he is not interested in anything, money, rights, and a rich life, all of which he is not interested in, and there is no source of compensation , he didn't know what to do.

He could only turn his goal to the orphanage where he was raised. At that time, every time he went there, the child would stand at the door, leaning on the door frame and looking at him, his expression still indifferent, making it hard to see. Out of emotion.

He knew that in the few days when his death was approaching, he was considering whether to tell his mother about the child. The computer was turned on countless times, but then put down again. He had the woman's contact information, but he didn't have the courage to tell her. He was afraid that he was not qualified to ask about Xiao Jing's affairs, let alone interfere with these matters. The day he finally made a decision was the last day he went to the orphanage. He wanted to see the child for the last time, but he dared not Guaranteed that after he was hospitalized, that child would come to see him in the hospital. He didn't understand that child, just as he couldn't understand himself in the past now.

But he didn’t see the child. Granny Li said that he went to work. He is a responsible child. She suddenly felt that she had no face to see him again, and she no longer had the face to make decisions for him, and she was not qualified to tell his mother this. From the beginning to the end, it was the two of them who did the wrong thing.

The name Qi Kejing was the name they thought of for their child when they were passionately in love, and it had no special meaning, because his lover was named Zheng Jing, and they thought this child was the proof of their love in their passionate love, so the child's name was both of them. The combination of names, but they seem to have forgotten that this child is not only their child, but also an individual in this world.

independent individual.

Therefore, when he went to see that child, he never called that child's name, only at the moment when he was about to close his eyes, he had nothing to say, and when he had no choice but to call out those two words, "Xiaojing"

But he is not eligible.

So I didn't grab his hand.

At the last moment of his life, what he thought about was not his life, and he didn't have a dream of going back and changing his decision, he was just thinking, congratulations...congratulations...then I wish you happiness.

The ECG monitor whined, and his sad life came to an abrupt end.

Zhu Le saw the letter, or suicide note, on the coffee table in the living room. It looked very ordinary, so ordinary that Zhu Le was in a trance. He felt that the man was still alive, and what was in front of him was just a simple letter. Letter, the man's letter of apology.

It says on the envelope.

Congratulations, dear.

He didn't write the name Qi Kejing, maybe it was the last respect he left for Zhu Le, he finally understood how ridiculous the name Qi Kejing was.

Zhu Le sat on the sofa, put the clothes bag next to her, and opened the letter as cautiously as a newcomer.

"Zhu Le, the first time I heard your name, it was from my assistant's mouth. I was surprised and ashamed. I want to communicate with you in this way. We should be the closest people in this world. But I want to say the most words since we met after the separation between heaven and man, I have no culture, in your eyes and in the eyes of others, I am just a nouveau riche, a nouveau riche who only cares about money, a money-making machine No matter what they say, I don’t look down on myself. When I was young, I also had visions for the future. She, we met and fell in love like all couples. Even with you, we rashly thought that it was God’s approval of our love. We decided to give birth to you during the passionate love period. That was my happiest year. I thought I would go on like this forever, be happy forever, and be successful forever.”

Zhu Le caressed the wet marks on the word "Shun Sui", the tears dripping from his eyes overlapped with the wet marks that had already dried up.

"It wasn't until you were born that we realized that the arrival of a child meant more than love, but more responsibility. We panicked and made a decision that was enough to make us regret for the rest of our lives. I have nothing to do with it. I justify it, and I don’t want to explain anything for her. We didn’t deserve to be forgiven for what we did. After we separated, I never had a girlfriend again. It’s not to prove to you how sincere I am, it’s just that I’m getting older and older. Da, besides feeling that no one is the same person when I was young, I feel more guilty towards you. I dare not make another vow to someone, and I can no longer bear my due responsibilities, any promises It will remind me of you, of the heavy rain that night, of your cry, my nightmares have never been tricky, your cry shuttles through every dream of mine, so when I see you, I can’t put you and The voices in my memory overlap."

"Forgive me for never saying I'm sorry to you, and I don't intend to write it in this suicide note. If you can't say it face to face, it will be even more shallow when written on paper and floating on the tip of the pen."

"Wish you happy"

"my child"