I heard that Dr. Cheng is not easy to follow.

Zhai Yuze looked at Xu Qi with red eyes, "Why...why didn't you contact..."

Facing Zhai Yuze like this, Xu Qi still didn't do much. He just sighed, "I like you, I like the same sex, my mother is dead, I...not clean..."

Regarding Xu Qi's uprightness, Zhai Yuze couldn't say anything, he just stretched out his hand to grab Xu Qi's clothes corner, just like the child nervously pulling his clothes corner to talk to Zhai Yuze when we first met, holding it tightly the corner of his clothes.

Xu Qi stood up, grabbed Zhai Yuze's hand with that bony hand, pulled it off bit by bit, stood still, then opened the door behind him, stepped in with one foot, and seemed to want to say Something, paused, and finally closed the door.

And Zhai Yuze, who was still sitting outside the door, clenched his fists. Up to now, he hasn't said a so-called "it doesn't matter."

In the end, Zhai Yuze was forcibly picked up by his parents. He had a fever for several days, and when he woke up again, his world changed.

On the day I woke up, it was raining outside constantly. It was the worst day among so many sunny days. Zhai Yuze sat up from the bed unconsciously and rubbed his temples, as if he had forgotten something. Zhai Yuze frowned. He frowned, trying to recall, when he saw the photo on the window, he suddenly thought of Xu Qi, who stopped the car in his pajamas and went to the unfinished building.

After it rained, the smell in the alley of the unfinished building was even more overwhelming. Even taxis were unwilling to enter it again. Zhai Yuze could only step on his slippers and approach Xu Qi's house step by step.

Without the previous hesitation, when he walked to the door of Xu Qi's house, Zhai Yuze knocked on the door neatly, "Xu Qi, Xu Qi, come out, let's talk..."

"Xu Qi, come out quickly, I understand..."

"Coward, come out quickly, I've thought about it, it doesn't matter..."

"Xu Qi, coward..."

No matter how Zhai Yuze yelled standing in the rain, the people in the room remained indifferent. Finally, Zhai Yuze brushed his hair, took a breath, and kicked open the dilapidated door.

The goal is blood red.

The string in Zhai Yuze's head broke.

Xu Qi was sitting on the ground with a fruit knife next to him. There was a very obvious line of blood on his right wrist. The blood flowed like a river. The moment Zhai Yuze kicked the door open, the rain from outside poured in, fused with Xu Qi's blood, and the color changed. It became more and more blood red, and people couldn't take their eyes off it.

Xu Qi was leaning against the bed, his face pale. The moment Zhai Yuze stepped in, he knew that Xu Qi had left without a sound, died in a sunny day, and regained his freedom in such a rainy day.

The blood stained Xu Qi's white skirt red, and the plain white skirt was stained with red plums.

"Do you like girls?"

"Of course, otherwise, who do you like? You?"

Xu Qi's right hand was clutching an envelope, which was also soaked in blood.

Zhai Yuze finally knelt down and picked up the envelope from Xu Qi, which was marked, "To Zhai Yuze"

The font is strong and powerful, completely opposite to Xu Qi's character.

Di Yuze knelt in a pool of blood, put the envelope on his heart and cried out, the rain was still falling outside, and there was nothing else around except the sound of the rain and Di Yuze's own crying.

"I like you, I like the same sex, my mother is dead, I...not clean..."

Zhai Yuze personally sent Xu Qi away, and after several days of spinning, he finally opened the letter marked "To Zhai Yuze" with trembling hands, the last thing Xu Qi left in this world.

"I'm sorry for letting you see such a miserable side of me. I don't know if you will read this letter. You should. If you have already seen it, it means that I am already on the way to the Milky Way. I will It will be the brightest star in your eyes, don't cry for me, Zhai Yuze, I have never called your name, but in the corner where you can't see, I wrote your name countless times, your name , I want to engrave it in my bones, I hope you don't think my bones are dirty, you always ask me why I have the courage to talk to you in the first place, I have never been afraid of you, I am just at a loss for you, because I have seen your kind side. The weather was fine that day. You squatted in the corner and fed that little white dog. It seemed that that day was the day when I really saw the light. So many people die every day in the world, so many people Here, there is me every day, Zhai Yuze, I am too tired to live, my spine is bent, "

Di Yuze gradually couldn't read the words on the letter clearly.

"My short life is really boring. After 17 years of trembling, I am very content. I haven't done anything bold in these 17 years. They say that liking the same sex is disgusting, and there is a disease in my heart. But I don't think there is anything abnormal about me, I just fell in love with you, and we happen to be the same gender, we have bound ourselves in a frame, and we can never break free, I want to try, break it with my cheap life The frame jumps out from the center of the world, but at the same time it’s a dream, why can’t I be a girl, you like girls, but I want to break the rules of the world, in the end I choose to compromise, plead guilty to the world, compromise with you, maybe I am really like what they said, at the end of my life, I put on that skirt, that white skirt could not take away the haze in my bones, but I hope it will lead me to the center of the world, and I hope that in the next life I will be Wearing this dress, I meet you."

"My name is Xu Qi, but in my short life, apart from you, I have no expectations at all."

"Don't cry for me, I will be the scenery in every photo of you, the wind in the mountains, the fog in the rain, the stars in the night sky."

"If one day, this world no longer has this so-called framework, I hope you at that time can take a good look at this world for me."

In the dream, Zhai Yuze fell completely in a pool of blood, and the rain outside spilled into the house, blending with the blood. It was obviously the most ordinary, but it made people's eyes shine.

The blood stained Zhai Yuze's pajamas, pajama pants and even slippers, but he didn't care, he didn't dare to touch Xu Qi's white skirt, as if such behavior would tear people who should go to heaven to hell.

Life cannot be detached.

After Xu Qi left, Zhai Yuze never had a restful sleep. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw this scene, the blood, the white skirt, and the letter in front of him.

On the day he read the letter, Zhai Yuze suddenly fell into the boundless darkness. His eyes were no longer the way for him to see the world. His family forced him to go for an examination. The doctor only said that it was a stress reaction when he was suddenly strongly stimulated.

Compared with his family's anxiety, Zhai Yuze on the side didn't care.